my story. my life

2009-11-30T00:53:00.003+08:00

strictly for mL only.

Hello Santa

i almost forgot to blog about my wishlist.

i really dont know what i want.

but just nice 2 days ago i came across this at BHG.
Bourjois Minernal Matte 81

its $30.80 after 20% discount.

I will advise u to grab it before the promo period end.

i just bought their pencil liner and im loving it!

so shall give their mineral matte mouse try try. the promoter tested on my hand, and it feels not bad too.

HOHOHO. looking forward to christmas with you girls~~~

2009-10-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

i'm so time tight,
as much as i want to work,
i also want to have adequate time for friends and family.
maybe i should forget about celebrating christmas this year.

24 hours is really not enough for me now.

i really hope all of you can understand my situation.

2009-10-16T00:15:00.003+08:00

its been long since i blog.

been busy working and yadayada, whats new?

actually, i've been working and working and working. everyday. i cant remember when was the last time i ever rested, and even if i rest, its because im sick, and i cant work so i rest. i work everyday, monday tuesdays, wednesdays, thurdays,fridays, saturdays,sundays, public holidays and even on my birthday. sometimes, i just work and let days pass by me without knowing the dates and the days.

eventhough i always complain how tired i am to my colleagues and bf, but then deep down, i know i'm gonna reap what i sow one fine day. deep down i know i'm truly happy with what im doing. deep down i know actually this is the kind of flexibility im looking for. deep down i know i want to touch pple's heart, make a change to their life.

i cant change how people perceive my job as an insurance agent. i cant do anything to change their thinking. i was once a "anti-insurance-agent" kind of person. the reputation behind the job title stinks. so how can i expect people to think good abt my job? "insurance agents are irritating" "insurance agents are only out there to make $$" "insurance agents keep pestering me" "insurance agents keep pushing people to buy insurance"
insurance agent this and insurance agent that. i cant blame them. i used be one of "them" too.
i once chatted with someone and i ask that someone why never consider being a financial consultant when obviously he got a gift of a salesman tongue. and that someone told me that "because im not someone who will push people to buy something."

i dunno how to react at the statement. i can be defensive against the statement but i chose to keep quiet. cos i know the more i try to defend, things will nv end. its already tiring enough to be in this line physically. trying to change someone's perception is mentally challenging. people will usually think lowly of a financial consultant. but what makes them think so highly of themselves? today i can convince someone to see the importance of insurance, can you do the same? if you cant, who gives you the authority to think lowly of my job?

thats why, if possible, i dont wish to talk about my job when im when my close friends. i dont want frens to have a impression that im trying to sell them smth whenever i talk to them. i dont target warm market. unlike many others out there who got their close friends and relatives to support them at the start of their career, i chose not to deal with warm market at all. that is why i had a difficult start for my career. i cant bring myself to talk abt insurance infront of them. im afraid that as im climbing up in my career, the friends i have will decrease. cos no one will dare to talk to me anymore. im afraid they perceive me to be their money making tool. or maybe im egoistic. i dont want to approached warm market cos i scared paiseh. so i rather wait for warm market to approach me. if i thick skin abit, maybe im doing better and can achieve more than what i can do today.

today i talk to one of my friend she told me :" whatever you talk u can link it up to insurance leh"

and i realised, true enough, i've been thinking financially, eating financially, breathing financially, and now talking financially. i forgot how to talk like normal people. i talk to friends like how i talked to my prospects. am i irritating or am i annoying? or maybe i just let my work overtake my life and it influence my daily lifestyle.

i dunno whats the purpose of they post. i dun see any moral of the story at all, my thoughts are all jumbled up, my fingers just continue to type whats coming into my mind. this post is not pin-pointing at anyone who talked to me before, just maybe a place for me to rant on how i really feel. u all got ur rights to think what u all want to think. but sometimes if you think u want to tell me how u feel abt my job title, think twice, cos whatever u say will really affects me. i am defensive upon hearing negative comments abt my job title cos i take pride in my work. im proud of what im doing, and im not gg to let you demoralise my pride.

earning money is tough. u gotta put in alot more extra effort to earn much more than what the average people are earning.

2009-08-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

i regretted allowing my brain to take the lead.

i regretted knowing so many things which i don't want to know and which i don't need to know.

now, i can only wallow in all the "why-s" alone and i'm staring to doubt my decision.

how true was everything you said to me?

forget it, i don't want to know anymore.

2009-08-21T01:15:00.004+08:00

LOL.

Alrights, for the benefit of everyone,

im going to annouce.......

*drum rolls*

my convocation will be on 27th August 2009!

like finally!!!!

just collected my regalia from serangoon broadway today and im totally looking forward to next thursday. :)

2009-07-31T01:29:00.002+08:00

for the benefit of chun hui,

i'm still alive kicking, doing well, and trying hard to close alot of case everyday.

super busy and tired, but fulfilling.

i love meeting different kind of people everyday, and talk cock to them. sometimes really very funny when you make people confused about the real purpose of talking to them. i guess despite the tiredness and stress level, im enjoying my job. =)

2009-07-10T00:34:00.003+08:00

when fairytales aren't as perfect as what I thought to be.......

I finally learnt that there's no such thing as fairytale-in-reality.

2009-07-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

by2 - 我知道

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受

你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我才会
在离开时闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

2009-07-04T00:47:00.002+08:00

my goals are set

all i need now is to focus, focus and focus.

so grateful to my colleagues and manager who is always there to help me realise my potential.

Dream big, and never give up.

i can do it :)

2009-06-30T23:37:00.001+08:00

day one is awful.

even after tiring myself out from work,

still no use.

2009-06-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

once upon a time, a shoe manufacturer sent his sales representative to saudi arabia to do market research on the shoe's market there.

Since no one wear shoes in saudi arabia, the sales representative came back to tell the shoe manufacturer: "i don't think there is a market for shoes there. no one wear shoes.

not wanting to believe the sales representative, the shoe manufacturer send his newly hired sales man down.

the new sales man return, feeling very excited. he told the shoe manufacturer "No one wear shoes in saudi arabia! can sell your shoes like hotcakes there!!!!!"

which salesman person do you think you are?

im training myself to be the new sales man :)

think positive, but in a realistic way.

im still getting use to my 'no-life' life.

im expected to work till 10pm (earliest) 24/7

im sorry to friends whom i have to turn down dates on.
i'll try to better manage my time.

but currently, im feeling really exhausted. i need more rest. and hope i can get use to this kind of lifestyle soon :)

good nights.

2009-06-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

besides telemarketing,

i haven't been talking to anyone since wednesday.

even though i'm in a big class with some familiar faces, i just smile at them to acknowledge their greetings.

even though im eating in a group at the same table, i just keep quiet and eat my food while the rest are chatting while eating.

i ate my dinner alone for the past 3 days.
i do things alone.
i studied alone.
i go home alone.
i shopped alone.

whatever u can think of, i do it alone.

it feels as if i'm facing everything alone.

i never felt so 'alone' before. it felt so pitiful for being alone.

i cleared the 2 most difficult paper, but i failed my last paper which is supposedly to be the easiest.

i'm stupid.

my heart ached for the $105 that i have to fork out for the exam.

FUCK.

just leave me alone.

2009-06-10T01:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

....

i'm another step closer to my license.

2009-06-06T01:24:00.002+08:00

i hate MCQ.

i hate dilemma.

i hate having to think and to think, yet not getting any perfect answers.

i hate pretending.

i hate arguments.

i hate embarrassment.

i hate people taking up too much of my pride.

i hate myself for accepting all these listed above.

2009-06-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

i feel excited about my career, about the different people that im going to meet, about the process of really chionging for your $$.

at the same time, i start doubting myself if i can really adapt to this busy lifestyle. no much time left for friends, family and myself, except for the random pple on streets.

2009-06-03T17:03:00.004+08:00

As displayed at the right hand side of this page,
theres this day-counter, counting how many days im in a relationship.

Since im not as busy as how i used to be, i didn't really realise how fast time flies nowadays.
The last time i saw the counter, it was like day #1196.
But today i look at it again, it become 1211days! shows how much i've not been visiting this page of mine.

anyway, today is finally my last day at global security asia.
called some clients over at Switzerland, UK, Australia and Germany.
and all i can conclude is that they sound so much happier than Singaporeans.
They pitch the call well, you can really feel the sincerity when talking to them. Even though they are busy to assist me, they are still very polite!
I'm really impressed, and felt shameful for singaporeans' phone ettique.

For example, on a monday morning, I called this company, requiring some assistance from the operator.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT THE OPERATOR TOLD ME?

"TSK, i'm busy at the moment." in a very irritated tone.
and i proceed on to apologise for taking up her time, and you know what happen next?

SHE BLOODY HELL HANG UP THE FUCKING DAMN INNOCENT PHONE WHILE I HAVE YET TO FINISH MY SENTENCE.

fuck.

of all days, she chose to do this to me on a MONDAY morning.

i decided this is not the way im gonna let the matter rest. so i decided to write an email to the company.

-----Original Message-----
From: lim.samantha21@yahoo.com.sg
[mailto:lim.samantha21@yahoo.com.sg]
Sent: Monday, June 01, 2009 10:17 AM
To: karcher@pacific.net.sg
Subject: Poor customer service

Hi, I called in at around 10.15am on 1st of june 2009 requiring some assistance from the operator. However, the rude operator told me she is busy, and hang up the phone abruptly when I have not even finished up my sentence.

What kind of attitude or customer service is this?! If she is the operator, she should possess a better attitude towards those who called in. Even of she is not willing to help, she can reject the call in a polite and subtle manner, instead of hanging up abruptly.

I hope whoever receives this mail can attend to this matter, as it left a very bad impression on me. If she is not happy to be the operator, I suggest you get another person to do it as her attitude problem will somehow affect the image of your company.

Perhaps you should send her to attend some phone ettique course to upgrade herself. Just one helpful suggestion from a very angry customer's point of view, which I think you should consider.

Thank you.

The moment i clicked "send" i felt so much better instantly.

A while later, i received a reply:

Dear Ms Lim,

Thank you for your feedback, your email is receiving attention.

Can we have your contact number?

Best Regards,

Angie Ong
Karcher South East Asia Pte Ltd"

Hi,

Really appreciate that this matter has been attended to promptly. However, I feel that there is no need to provide my contact number as my intention is to bring the poor customer service attitude to your attention. You can contact me via my email address which I check regularly.

Thank you.

Regards,
Samantha

I dunno what will happen to the rude operator, but i just dont care anymore.

2009-05-04T14:35:00.003+08:00

败犬女王

婚姻顾问:

<<你知道男人和女人说谎最大的差别在哪里吗?

男人说谎是要让自己觉得好过.

而女人说谎呢,是要让对方好过.
我们选择欺骗是因为不想伤害深爱的人.
我们不是故意的,只是没有伤害对方的勇气所以才隐藏真正的答案>>

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妈妈to女儿：

《你不要为了结婚而结婚。

结婚证书只可以证明你有另外一半

但是它不可能保证你下半辈子会是快乐的》

2009-05-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

pampered myself with classic manicure and pedicure. *cheap cheap*

and another pair of heels. i cant resist buying shoes. but i keep wearing back the same old pair, the giovana white heels=x

moving out of simei next week. looking forward to our new house, my cosy room. Although its alot smaller as compared to changi rise and eastwood, but it really feels cosy in smaller flats.

The desserts i had at The Line buffet at Shangri-La. kinda like their desserts and they serve nice strawberry icecream!!!! really really craving for belgium chocolate and strawberry icecream and some sweet desserts now.

miss my dear. think we only seen each other twice in the month of april. =(

April is gone with the wind, and May is welcomed by Swine flu.

I've got many things to expect in June.

perhaps, its a new stage of my life.

2009-04-30T11:48:00.002+08:00

可以嗎讓我和你對調
希望換成你愛我愛的快要瘋掉

知道嗎你對我多重要
只是現在的我們並不適合擁抱

愛隨著風飄盪飄過了你嘴角飄到天涯海角
把我困在這城堡哪裡也逃不了

我不要別人溫柔的懷抱聽不見你的心跳
連我熟悉的味道再也聞不到

我只要你喊我一次就好從前親暱的暗號
多想再次親耳聽到

可以嗎讓我和你對調
希望換成你愛我愛的快要瘋掉

知道嗎你對我多重要
只是現在的我們並不適合擁抱

愛隨著風飄盪飄過了你嘴角飄到天涯海角
把我困在這城堡哪裡也逃不了

我不要別人溫柔的懷抱聽不見你的心跳
連我熟悉的味道再也聞不到

我只要你喊我一次就好從前親暱的暗號
多想再次親耳聽到

我不要別人溫柔的懷抱讓我暫時的依靠
那是短暫止痛藥很快會失效

你只要再哄我一次就好讓我可以很驕傲記住我擁有過的好
oh 記住在你懷裡微笑

2009-04-28T00:47:00.004+08:00

"most of the time, 99% of the people will discourage you to join this line."

"that is why i am now actively looking for the remaining 1% of the people to assure me that i can do it."

"stop looking for that 1% of the people, cos the 1% of the people is none other than..... us (refering to all the financial consultants)"

"-_-"' thank you ar....."

im so glad, i found so many of the 1% of the people around me.

thank you guys, for assuring me.

to my boyfriend, and friends who are all taking exams,
just want to let u guys know,

努力是成功的唯一捷径.

jia you for exams~

2009-04-17T13:56:00.002+08:00

and so he said:

"because you are not ambitious. and i mean, totally not ambitious at all, thats why you are afraid of coming out of your comfort zone, trying new things."

and suddenly, i felt that he enlightened me. thats the answer i've been searching for. and he revealed it to me today.

should i or should i not?

trying to swing away the negative perceptions and stereotypings of being an insurance agent.

i wanna try, yet i'm so afraid of it.

i wanna try, but yet i also want to do something related to marketing.

i wanna try, but some part of me just ask me to settle with a 9-6 job and a stable income.

i really dont know what i want.

2009-04-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

cramps really killing me.

at times like this,

i realised how much i need you, the urge hold on tightly onto you, that i dont wanna be alone, that i need your warmth, your sweet-nothings, your touch, your kisses, your hugs, your smell, your love,

to tide through this.

i wish you were by my side. =(

2009-04-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

i know i haven been blogging for the longest time since i started this blog.

nth really interesting anyway.

just came back from genting.
it was a first class ride. I wonder if i can travel to malaysia on a normal bus if its more than 2 hours again.
Felt so pampered and spoilt throughout the journey!
TV (with lotsa movies, games, mp3), big chair (with massage function), bus steward to attend to your every need, and they serve meals on board too!
and its not way too expensive if u compare with the price of normal buses. Worth the investment!

any way, i wanted to say,
i finally caught the leap years on the bus today.

it was a beautiful movie.

i wasn't really referring to the plot,
but the language and literature.

i love all the quotes in the movie.
i love how the soundtracks compliment the movie.
i love the witty conversations between the casts.

i wish i could write and express myself with beautiful English.

i wish, for once, i could win u in an argument.

Maybe i should get myself the book to read.

Some quotes i managed to get from the movie:
-It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.

-In three words, I can sum up everything I've learnt about life: It goes on

-It's better to have loved and lost then never to have loved before.

-A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it.

-If you are not too long, I will wait for you all my life.

-Coincidence is god's way of remaining anonymous.

2008-12-31T18:00:00.002+08:00

2008 is indeed smoother than 2007.
im glad things turn out this way.

passed my exams.
got my degree.
mummy getting better.

just hope i can get a stable job in yr 2009.

girl, take all the time u need to recover from your state of lost, shocked and confusion.
we are a phone call away to share ur emotions.
we love you. <3

2008-12-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

i watched twilight yesterday!

i think some details of how they fall in love was boring and draggy, the sceneries and the dialogues....simply zZZZ.

but i think i still like the story.

so adventurous!

make me feel like having one vampire boyfriend!!!!!

so i told bf :
" i wished u were a vampire, so u can fly me here and there! faster than driving leh. maybe only takes one minute from yishun to simei, and you can fly me back everytime we go out"

bf:
"before i got my driving license, u wished i can drive. now that i got my driving license and i can drive, u wished i could fly. how to satisfy you?"

LOL.

true ar.... my wants have no limit.

2008-12-20T12:47:00.002+08:00

after watching we got married ep 38,

hyung jun wants hwang bo not to pretend to be strong anymore, cos she is not strong at all.

reminds me of someone's story.

during the start of her r/s,
things were sweet. the bf keep asking her not to pretend to be too strong, he will always be there when she needed his shoulder.

after 5 yrs of being together,
the bf starts to get so irritated by her weakness and tears. and decided to leave her for good.

things are always so beautiful at the start.

time washes away pretty things.

2008-12-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

very lazy to upload my HK photos here.

so if u are interested, go Joanne's blog to read about it.

or if not, u go facebook. i'll most prob upload there faster and easier. =)

last weekend was a busy one.

bf's birthday. also all up in facebook.

go see yourselve.

i think i loose interest in my blog already. (i think more of lazy larrr.) LOL

my life is not very interesting anyway.

im currently struggling to find a decent job. =(

2008-12-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

got this from Nat Ho's blog http://natho.net/nblog/page/2/
find it rather meaningful.
tell so much about whats usually happen in a relationship.
all the emotions, buffled together.

2008-12-02T02:29:00.002+08:00

女人真的不可以太聪明
知道这么多东西后

我，

希望我是无知的。

活在自己想看到的世界是最幸福的

2008-11-30T23:28:00.002+08:00

to my ML santa.

i really got not much time to shop for my own stuff. busy shopping for bf and friend's birthday present but not mine.

hmm....

at first i was thinking abt getting back the same pair of heels that ling bought last year! (LOL)

but wenna says im boring. sobs.

then i think i want pink nike sports bra! M size. which is way out of the budget.
so i thought, either u buy for me first, i top up the remaining when we exchange present,
or u buy nike vouchers for me to buy (nike selling above $40 bucks).
capital land also can i dun mind.
but ultimately, what i want is my pink sports bra! queensway shopping centre retailing at $40 (which can be further bargain i think. go seduce the sales assistant *all the ah nehs* to get best price. hahah. kidding)

if u lazy to get the sports bra, just get back the pair of white heels. size 7, from giovanna.
if even lazier, just get vouchers lar.

im done. and its only 11.37pm.

im gonna catch the late blogger and laugh at her for getting ham and breadstick for this xmas. LOL.

2008-11-19T11:33:00.001+08:00

flying off in 4 hours time.

cya guys around again in 7 days time.

买东西吃东西买东西吃东西~~~~~

2008-11-07T23:55:00.007+08:00

its been 3 days since my exams are over.

i ought to have more sleep to clear my sleep debt.

but it seems otherwise.

i still dont slp as much.

having insomnia. =(

and so, i tried to occupy insomnia with youtube.

i got so spoilt for choices, which i dunno which one to start.

gossip girl? we got married? Miss no good? Hot shot? kang xi lai le?

for some papers, i have no hopes for distinction. i've tried to my best to memorise and understand the whole textbook within a short time frame. i tried my best to write out what i remembered. i've tried my best and a decent pass is all i hope for.

i rmber im still with 8 chapters undone when the exam is less than 12 hours away. can u imagine my fear?

but whatever it is, im glad its over. over for good. might be the very last exam im sitting for =)

im now browsing through recruitment website. guess the economic is gonna really affect my chance of getting employed. thus, i shall just settled down at whatever company that wants to accept me and hope for the best and wait for the economy gets better.

anyone knows of anyone who wanna hire markerters? help me keep a look out ok? =)

i attended tracy's daughter wedding at swissotel last sat.
its my first time attending this kinda function, as a friend, alone with some other colleagues, sharing table with strangers. one of the signs of adulthood.

i imagined myself in tracy's shoe.
seeing my daughter walk down the aisle with the man of her life,
the romantic love song being played,
everyone's clapping for my daughter

such a touching scene. cant help but feel very overwhelmed.
will my mum feel that way on my big day in the future?

oks, enough of all my emo thoughts.

hmm, as mentioned aboved,
i've been having insomnia right.
so when i cant sleep,
my mind starts thinking about alot of random things.

for example, i thought of the people whom i thought it was impossible for us to be friends at all. but then now, these thought-to-be-impossible friends are actually close friends of mine! fate is sometimes a very funny thing. play tricks on pple. haha.

so, im going to list down the 4 pple whom i really think that we are impossible to be friends.

1st one on the list: NG XIN HUI

we're from different class during sec 1 and 2.

i saw her b4, and i think she look kind of proud. lol.

but we got into same class during sec 3 and 4. and she is sitting infront of me!

so, me, being really foreign in that class, decided to pick up my courage to talk to the "proud" girl.

from then on, we seems to really hit on well, and we even went tuition tgth, shop tgth, work tgth. she is totally my BFF =)

really, i nv tot that we would be that close, judging on my impression i have for her during sec 1.

second on the list: WU JIAYI

this girl ar. same class with her for 3 straight years during poly.

totally DISLIKE her at first sight.

she is damn loud! and for god sick, dun understand why she keeps singing in class!

but i really dont know why we became so close in year 2.

till now, i couldnt believe myself too!

We can laugh together over crazy stuff, kbox with each other alone, shopping, heart to heart talk and stuff. dont even rmbr i disliked her. haha.

thanks to her, my life wasnt boring in poly. i cannot imagine how plain and uninteresting my life is in year 1 when i haven know her. haha. im glad that we still keep in touch, although not as frequent, but each time we meet up, i still feel comfortable ard her =)

the third on the list: TAN TIAN HUAT

although we are in the same class for one of the lamest module in poly (IDEA), i totally have no recollection of him being in the same class as me. LOL. guess i wasnt paying attention in class most of the time, or he blended into the surrounding so well that i couldnt even notice him.

i think its really fate that brought both of us together in the same class again in year 2. and thats when i start to notice him. being one of the good-looking guys in my class :) lol. shy.

i nv once thought things can happen between the both of us cos of 2 reasons.

1. he is TALL. i told myself im too short for a TALL guy.
and
2. i though he is a MALAY. sorry, not very interested in inter-racial r/s. LOL.

really shocked when i hear him speak chinese for the first time ok!

we started hanging out in groups, played pool together after lessons and stuff. and thats when i feel that he's really a gentleman (as compared to the guys from my clique. opps!). walking besides him gave me a sense of overpowering sense of security. haha.

alot of things happened in between. It was my low self esteem and low confidence that dragged the whole r/s. and im really glad that i gave both of us a chance. we came a long way. today is our 1002nd day. haha.

i guess we sort of belong to a different world, took lotsa compromises and understanding to make things work. i dont remember me having "honey-moon" period cos all i remembered was we already quarrelled during the 1st week of our r/s. i

to me, its still honey-moon period for us now.
leaving the quarrels aside (but which couple dont quarrel? ok, maybe jingwei and huixian. haha),
i think we're still very sweet.
we still call each other everyday, sms each other everyday (which some couples dun really do after some time)
he is someone who is not stingy with mushy stuff and praises, and i like that. =)

love you, my mr tan. <3

and lastly, CYNTHIA LEONG PIK KUAN

we're from different class throughout our poly life.

and doesnt leave a good impression on me too. haha.

she looks someone who is bitchy to be with.

but ultimately, we got to know each other at SIM.
her laughter are damn contagious. omg. and thanks to her, i got another name she calls --> lin man te!

really nice and sweet girl whom i can crap with. and i think she laughs at almost everything. and when i dun laugh at lecturer's joke (simply because i think its not funny), she will slap my arms! omg. dangerous to be with.

really glad i have her a my friend in SIM, because, SIM is really boring. you only go to school for lectures, thats all. (ok, and exams)

with her ard, she make it so fun! enjoy my train rides with her, enjoy hunting presents with her. enjoy camping at her hse during project peak period =)

and can u believe? we are going to hong kong together, with joanne!!! we 3 are going to have lotsalotsa fun down there!

alrights, somemore of the random photos before i end this post:

my sister without heels in the left picture and in my 3 inch heels in the right picture. damn effing tall. do i look like im 21 at all? (forever 18 =x)

me in slight curls again! miss my curls?

amanda's 21st birthday cake!

so pretty! im jealous.

my sisters ate my birthday cake b4 i even reach home to cut it. LOL

2008-10-22T21:09:00.003+08:00

想快速地往前前进那就自己走

想要走得更远

。

那就一起走

对我自己，真是越来越没有自信

课业，感情，前途

我真的没办法不害怕

2008-10-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

28 Sep, 00:00

i reached home rather late on the 27th night, abt 11.30pm.
and when i reach home, my sister quietly went back to the room, locking to door. i didnt suspect anything is wrong since they always act suspiciously. LOL.

so when the clock strike 12, my mum ask me to go into my bedroom.

and so i went in.....

and this is what i saw at my first sight upon entering the room

"Happy 21st Birthday" written on these balloons.

when came to my mind was "omfg. are these even real?"

these balloons already made me felt so loved by my sisters. and when i thought these balloons were the surprise they made for me, melissa said" JIE, TURN BEHIND YOU!"

and so i turned behind, and i saw this.

a poster? not exactly a poster, but something like a poster. It has got my photos with them, myself, friends and mr tan. A message from them in the centre.

it was totally unexpected. i wasnt expecting surprise this birthday. but they made this my only surprise, sweet and lovely.

i guess my face portrayed my expression of being shocked and surprised, rather than the appreciative and touched one.

i think thats the sweetest thing they've done for me so far. haha!

Thank you sisters! i know im unreasonable (almost everytime), but i know you three are the ones that i can rely on. im not someone who will show my affections easily, but deep down inside, really grateful for helping out my unreasonable requests and commands sometimes. haha.

thinking back, i think one of my birthday wishes last year came true.

and thats giving me back my mum, healthy and cheerful.

i hope mummy will keep on improving her health and be more independent. i look forward to the day where we can travel overseas together as a whole family again. mummy jia you!

my daddy and mummy. (my hair is in a mess =x)

my family <3>

i forced mummy and daddy to take picture in some 60s awkard pose. muahahaha

and mummy forced daddy to do this.

took so long to convince daddy to take this picture! he super shy! both of them so cute.

thanks mummy for the golden key pandent, daddy for the $$$, sisters for the swimming costume (no reason not to go swimming anymore).

thanks for making my 21st a memorable one. =)

2008-10-13T02:29:00.005+08:00

23 Sep 08

my birthday chalet, sponsored by mr. tan. =)
invited the SP people (including my uni clique)

while waiting for the rest to arrive.... CAMWHORE!

mr tan and yours truly.

chua hui mei too engross in DJ max.

still leaving me alone to take picture.

Finally took a proper one with her.

Miss Wu Jia Yi! (your black cardigan is still with me!!!!)

not too old to act cute.

two very nice pple to talk to :)

i'm directing huixian to come to the chalet on the phone.

Full attendance of the princesses

didnt take photo with my uni clique cos when they arrive, jiayi went home already. (she's the only one who has camera that day)

but my uni clique certainly make my night there more interesting!

now i have new khakis to play bridge and mahjong.

thanks everyone who took time off and attended the chalet. though its only a small and humble affair, really appreciate your presence!

thank you jia yi, huimei, huixian,qunjie, cynthia, joanne, ducky, wanwan and of cos, my mr tan.

thanks uni clique for the paul and joe's lip stick and oil blotter+mirror. its pretty and it has mirror! comes in so handy for me. =)

thanks in advance, royal clique for the wallet (have yet to go choose what i like). need to change one cos the current one is exploding!

lastly, thanks mr tan for the super chio pink hard disk drive to store my precious memories. and the chalet, thanks for making it happen despite the series of unfortunate events. really appreciate your effort. love, muacks.

2008-10-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i really update.

handed up our SM report today which is due next monday! its a big achievement for our grp, cos we manage to finish the whole report like within 2days? No body wanna go back to school specifically to hand up the report on monday, so we decided to finish it by today and hand in instead.

=) =) =) no more reports for me!!!! now, its time for me to really sit down and study! i like have 3 whole text book to read and memorise. (and i've yet to buy one =x)

anyway, since august, i've been celebrating friend's 21st birthday almost every weekend! super busy and broke!

August 20 -Chun hui's 21st.
dinner at a catonese restaurant at clark quay. its like wedding dinner kind of meal - 9 course meal! her treat! food taste good!!!!

p/s i have yet to receive pictures for chun hui's bday, girl, if u happen to have, send me!!!!

Aug 25 - Hui Mei's 21st.

jiayi and me went to her hse to give her a surprise at 12am!

that explain my super shagged look.

and her birthday dinner on 3oth august.

the princesses

group photo

28 August - Jin's 21st

went to kbox at cineleisure. Its been a looooonnnngggg time since mL sing together!

me and bday girl

07 Sep - celebration for jia yi's 21st!

dine at Earl Swensens, watch movie and talk cock. hahaha

huimei and jiayi at earl swensens

in the cinema

la kopi at coffee bean!

13 Sep (noon) - Huixian's 21st at York Hotel

me and birthday girl

me and huixian's sister

group photos

too bad huimei cannot make it to the celebration. =(

13 Sep (night) - Jing Wei's 21st at aloha loyang.

19 Sep - Mandy's 21st at SASA hostel and NTU HALL 6

we, the SIM girls trying to fetch a cab to NTU

me and bday girl

outside sasa room

formation of the word "MANDY <3"

getting ready to go for dinner!

on the way to dinner

sakae sushi for dinner! they provide cute stuffs for us!

the hungry people at sakae

completion of mandy's mission! to find the 21 hidden kitty marshmellows in the room.

her bday cake- subway sandwich

its us again

love you, mandy <3

these pictures are only abt 1/20 of the pictures we took. for a detailed entry on how we celebrate her bday, u can refer to mandy's blog or wenna's blog

you think thats all?

i've yet to post up my bday celebration. (some other days, tired already)

tomorrow will be xin's celebration at SMU, followed by sulwyn's and joanne's, jiamin's and amanda's and then clarissa's! (all going to celebrate within the next 1 and a half month!)

im like so broke!!!!!

2008-09-23T01:46:00.002+08:00

Its as if my compass and map went missing.

i dunno which direction to head. i dunno where to go. i dunno what to do. im surrounded by uncertanties and unlimited possibilities.

i feel so lost.

its not the compass and map fault actually.
even if i have them, i dont even know how to read them in the first place.

i hate the unexpected that ruin my lovely plan.

=( is all i can express.

2008-09-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

i saw NG XIN HUI'S msn nick --> "away from home now"

me> whr are you?

NG XIN HUI> north carolina

like wth???

NG XIN HUI why u nv pack me in your luggage and take me with you. i dont mind paying for the penalty for excess luggage weight!

NG XIN HUI if you are reading this now, im super jealous of you!!!!!

Samantha Lim is very very very very very very very JEALOUS of NG XIN HUI now! she is going new york on SATURDAY.

i really wanna travel out of singapore =(

sick of my current lifestyle.

** north carolina is one hour plane ride from new york. anyway, she's there for company's training. But still....... i also want to gooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-16T19:47:00.002+08:00

went home with mandy, jin and cyn today.

something mandy said strucked me.

mandy to me: "dont talk about being 坚持 to me"

im really not in the position, and also not a good example for asking people to stay strong on their stand.

busy as usual. had too much parties and cakes for the past few weeks. my fats are lazing around!

2008-09-03T22:27:00.004+08:00

suddenly, im so overwhelmed by emotions on my journey home.
The fact that the heavy rain doesn't want to stop, means i have a harder time walking home with my heavy bag and laptop.

its been 2 days since i moved here. i missed everything there. =(

every breath i took, felt so different, as if i dont belong here at all. i had problems sleeping at night. i missed my double decker bed.

i wonder how long will it take for me to adapt everything here.

today, i learnt something about myself.
im actually egoistic.

im pampered, pampered till the fact that i want to win in everything, yet i don't have ability to win it all.

today felt like its the longest ride home.

2008-09-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

goodbye eastwood.

no more waiting for bus 14, bus 10 or bus 45.

hello changi rise, i dont know how long we'll be staying here before we move again.

搬家真的是累的咯！

2008-08-13T21:32:00.002+08:00

my first post for August.

been really busy with school.
research, reports, individual assignment and wad else?
soon it would be test and exams.

finally had vegetarian steamboat at cynthia's hse!
mushrooms!

the sweet corn damn sweet! the mock meat ball also v nice!

saw this cute shih tzu at marine parade. He is looking at his shit. (if u realised, its heart shaped)

most people are rather amaze by this particular shoe of mine! a big hole in between!

Its such a "hole-ly" shoe, makes me look tall too

oks, finally no school tomorrow, i must go see fated to love u now. like so damn lagggggggg....

2008-07-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

its really damn frustrating.
its pain and sore.
i cant eat properly,
i cant speak at ease.
i fucking hate the fact that i cant bite and chew those hard solid food.

DAMN THE FUCKING ULCER UNDER MY TONGUE.

i had enough of you. will u just go away?

not only did u not go away, u still intend to build ur nest in my mouth.

you fucking little white evil things are getting on my nerves.

i'll make sure i'll drown you to death with high concentration of salt water.

2008-07-27T00:45:00.005+08:00

This was US, 3 years ago.

This is US, 3 years later.

Love amanda's new wall colour RED~ makes one feel loved and passionate. It used to be pink, and her dad painted the wall red all by himself.

The past tense of amanda's red wall --> Pink wall

red wall~~~~~~

looks as if we took these picture at some studio. haha

amanda, Jiamin and Samantha

this is the result of taking a picture of a moving object and a stationary object.

the sweet couple. chun and teck chiat

us and the 2 guys.

us and all 3 guys. take 1.

take 2.

teck chiat volunteer to be the camera man, trying out some artistic shoot

i think i looked pissed.

still pissed.

=)

being playful

went tcc at airport for dinner with amanda, chun hui and xin hui.

trying to read the menu with my eyes closed.

one of my favourite drink at tcc. rose juliet. (reminds me of qunjie. muahaha.)

here comes our sandwiches. BIG. Chun hui is so irritated by amanda's expression, as if amanda is going to seduce her. she says she feel like giving amanda 2 tight slaps. LOL.

i looked really retarded with my crossed eyes as i was stupidly focusing on the toothpick on my club sandwich while waiting for chun to snap this photo.

Chun's macaroni gratin. yummy

chunhui

oppx, no pictures of xin hui, cos she wasn't here yet. we started dinner without her.

lastly, thanks amanda and chunhui for the presents that they bought us from thailand! so pretty! i love it. thanks thanks!

i want to go thailand shop also! save save save $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

2008-07-22T01:21:00.003+08:00

sheesh. i couldn't stop crying while reading her blog posts.
Together with the background song, its so heart wrenching.

http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

she's so strong, if its me, i might probably lost my will to live life as how it used to be.

after reading, i wanted so much to sms bf how much i love him. but my damn phone doesn't have any signal now cos its in the process of activating my line from m1 to singtel. only emergency calls allowed. =(

im nv good with words. but if you're reading this, want to let you know, i love you.

i wish i could wake up in your arms every morning, with you kissing me lightly on my forehead as we greet each other good morning.

although we had several issues, although we could almost quarrel over anything, deep down inside, you are still the one i need, you are the one i wish to grow old with, you are the one i want to love.

sometimes i wonder, how could i live without you?

2008-07-20T23:01:00.004+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since school start,

i could again forsee how fast my last semester is going end.

although there only four examable modules this sem, but all looks tough!

Strategic Marketing --> must pay fifty lame shit dollars to play business strategy game. reminds me of BD. and our strategy to win is going back to SP for Ben Cho. muahahah.

Global Business --> another boring module to endure with all the globalisation shits.

Business Finace --> time value of money, future value interest factor, par value. tell me whats so interesting abt this.

Sale strategy and communication skills --> have yet to attend the lecture, but the name itself sounds more interesting and lively as compared to the rest. =)

still considering if i should buy all text book. if im going to do that, another $300 gone for maybe just 1 month of usuage.

recently, theres really nothing for me to do online. blogs which i frequently read dont blog as often anymore. so yesterday....

me "eh, i v boreed leh.... any nice game sites to keep me entertained? "

sis " go play neopets lor"

and tadah, been on neopets most of the time today. my last login was like 7 yrs ago! neopets was so hot during our sec 1 and sec 2 days.

my neopets! they are all about 2500 days old. and they are all dying! haha

my jub jub

Kiko

Meerca

i love getting the free omelette from tyrannia plateau! they look so delicious when im hungry.

yummy~

no school from tommorrow till wednesday. more time for neopets. yeah!

and oh ya, ah wei, we are all waiting for u to upload ur birthday celebration de photos!~

hee, happy belated birthday, muacks

2008-07-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

this song kept ringing in my head today

SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AINT ENOUGH

Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

2008-07-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

4pm - deciding if i should go out

4.30pm - change into smth nice

4.45pm - make up, put on my fake lash

5.15pm - expecting a call

5.20 - all ready to go out

5.30pm - sat on my sofa, staring into space

5.40pm - received a call, hang up shortly.

5.45pm - continue to sit on my sofa, thinking if i should still go out.

6.00 pm - sms my friend, ask her if she wants to meet for dinner. changed my mind instead.

6.05pm - continue sitting on my sofa, staring into space.

6.30pm - change out of my clothes into my pyjamas, remove my make up.

i had enough of myself.

2008-07-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

Miss my straight hair?
Its back to straight and copper colour again, just that its about 2 inch shorter.

hairdresser commented that my hair like dry grass, must chop them off and colour them darker. and tadah, back to square one.

as much as i always think that curls are troublesome, but i miss playing with my curls now. =(

say hi to my twin.

why do my night seem extremely dark.

i really don't know what the fuck i want.

2008-07-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

i need romance novels,drama,stories to find stability and peace within me.

2008-07-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

school starts again TOMORROW

and i cant find my pencil case. damn it! *pull my hair*

2008-06-29T23:21:00.002+08:00

after bidding goodbye with all our teary eyes,

life moves on......

felt rather stupid to do my eyemask last night when i knew that i will sure cry today.
waste that eye mask cos my eye is kind of swollen after crying.

why am i so stupid? haiz.

take care auntie. we'll missed you.

2008-06-27T22:05:00.003+08:00

my maid of 13 yrs will be leaving in 2 days time.
i have a love-hate relationship with her.
i hate her for her sucky attitude. we've entered into so many cold wars that i've lost count. yes, she is a MAID and we actually FIGHT and enter into cold war. where got maid like this one? not that i treat her like maid or slave, but she is being paid. i mean, u dont show your sucky and arrogant attitude and enter into fights with ur employee at work right? you get my point?

but to be truthful. i think my household cant do it without her. She knows everything in the house. Knows our preferences, knows the belonging of each and everyone of the household.

"auntie, got see my white tube?"
" its in the top shelve of the cupboard"

"auntie got see my red bag"
5 min later, pass me my red bag

now that the new maid is here, she doesnt know anything. i found so many of my sister's clothes in my cupboard. She cleaned my shelves and change position of my stuff, and i cant locate the necessary stuff when i need.

i know i sound like some spoilt kid. but this you really cant blame me. you cant blame me for something its not my fault to begin with. Its not my fault for having a maid in the house, right?

13 yrs of relationship. thats like 2/3 of my life already. suddenly when she says she wants to go home, i cant help but feel sad. and maybe a bit of insecure.

im also leaving this house which i spent half of my life in. Although i hate waiting for bus 14 and bus 10 and always grumble how inconvenient my residence is to my dad, this house still contained my precious memories since the age of 10. My 12th birthday party. my 13th birthday party. My dog. The swimming pool. The playground. The quietness. The tree infront of my house. The cold storage. The ice cream gallery. The dvd rental shop. Bus 10. Bus 14. Everything. =(

so many changes. and all these change are not minor. suddenly i felt so loss. really. i dont like changi rise. i dont know why must we move there. i dont really like my new maid. i dont like changes.

maybe im too pampered, thats y this road seems to be extremely bumpy for me. as what ah wei said, the only thing that doesn't change is changes. how true is that?

and damn it. i spent HALF of my palmer's pay on medical bills. really lor, like WTF. pls give me a healthy body.

2008-06-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

Can you believed that i almost cried after hanging up a call with earth's most unreasonable PMS fucking bitch customer this afternoon while working at great eastern. I cant believed i even said THANK YOU to that fucking woman before slamming down my phone.

Like wtf, I'm only doing my job, only asking her and offering her a better coverage for herself. what did i do to deserve her shoutings and accusation over the phone.

seriously, during times like this, i know its evil, but i secretly hope that the opposite party will be down with unfortunate illness or accidents, and then they will cry and come begging me on their knees, to ask me to get my boss to help them enhance their medishield so that they can claim 80% of their hospital bills, which by then will be too late, where no amount of begging of crying will help. SERVE THEM RIGHT.

but i know i shouldnt be that bad. maybe i should just hope that she will have saggy breast and smelly armpit for the rest of her life.

although im a female, but i cant help to feel ashamed that females make up 80% of the rude and unreasonable people that telemarketers face. Especially those 20 somethings, they think that they are better educated, holding good jobs and stuff, they got the terms to belittle and look down on telemarketers and insurance agents. seriously, i wonder what is wrong with females' attitude in this society. cant they just reject telemarketers politely, instead of shouting over thedamn innocent phone, polluting the phone with every smelly and disgusting breathe and saliva coming out of their useless mouth. damn it. SMELLY ARMPITS AND SAGGY BREAST TO THEM ALL!!!!!

totally spoil my day. actually wanted to turn down my date with bf. but he still insist that we should meet. felt so much better after all the rantings and grumblings and cursing, and of cos him pampering me with his undivided attention, care and love.

i think the education system should include subjects or modules for sarcastic bitches to reject people politely. telemarketers are only doing their job, just like how this bitches are doing their fucking job. they should try working a day as a telemarketer and see how it feels to be like one.

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!! #$#%#$&$*^%*^$W^&%($#%$#^%$^)*$^$WYHET&^$^T$Y%#&&$!!!

2008-06-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

u know sometimes i wonder, what i did my past life to deserve good people.

my parents, my sisters, my boyfriend, my friends.

perhaps, the nastiest people i've ever met are those rude customers. haha.

i dont know how much i've been grumbling to people around me that i want to eat char siew bao so much!

and during work today, weekdays gang came down for ice cream, and brought along 2 charsiewbaos for me!

they're so sweet lar. i swear that was the one of the nicest char siew bao i ever had!

thank you darlings. u guys satisfy my crazy crave for char siew bao. =)

for the past few weeks, there's something wrong with my SCV digital set up box. the image on the screen is distorted. The service man finally came with a new set up box for replacement.

and guess wad,

we can now view almost all channels that i had difficulty and trouble choosing what i want to watch! haha! i wonder when will this privilege end lor. i even managed to catch the last 20 min of the show that isnt out in the cinema yet --> "It's a boy girl thing"

after watching the last 20 min of the show, i think i wont want to catch it in the cinema cos it looks quite boring to me.

haha.

i wonder if i can slp early tonight with a wide variety of interesting channels. LOL

and oh ya, sasa, safe trip out there! its ur BIG trip, enjoy =)

2008-06-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

school is like starting in another 3 weeks, thats like so fast!
i feels like my exams had just ended lar, and now i must prepare for the new semester.

have been meeting up most of my friends last week, and it feels great! holiday is all abt gatherings!

last thurs, ton over night at amanda house to have our girly night out with weekdays!
no photos, cos the only photos we took were those while we were doing our shiseido nose mask.
im sternly warned not to post them up. HEE

fri, was friday the 13th.
met up with princesses for dinner and movie.

caught "missing" and i think the show was sort of confusing and lame. only one or two parts were scary.
no photos, cos we didnt take any photos.
chua hui mei and wu jiayi, how could we forgot to take photos?
anyway, my dear jiayi, good luck for ur exam~~~~~~

sat, 14june, was my mum birthday.
during the motherhood fair the week before, i bought firming lotion, scar serum and stuffs for mummy as birthday present.
and when i gave it to her, she refused to use it!
i ask her why, and she says "cos its not my birthday yet"
so funny. haha

sunday was father's day, just celebrated over casual dinner over at liang kee.

and today! 13 june! monday!
mandy, shun wei and me finally got CARRIE-D away!
after so much delays, we finally got our ass down to cineleisure to watch sex and the city.
i dont know why mandy was crying while watching.
AND I WANT TO GO MEXICO! ITS SO GOD-DAMN PRETTY!

mandy set the theme as girly theme, and we are supposed to wear dresses, to be particular, those flowly kind of dresses.

i got troubled. I DONT HAVE ANY FLOWLY DRESSES.

but i got 3 sisters! yeah, they came to my rescue. love my sister <3
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while queuing for tickets. we got 2 free tickets, thanks to mandy's bf. =)

we looked like some awkard strangers. haha

before the movie

she's in love with me.

went hk cafe to chill after movie

and because its monday, im supposed to rush over to work at ice cream gallery.
i hate it when i have to leave for work everytime when i hv gatherings.
we were discussing abt some hot topic, and its really $%$#^$& to tell the girls "sry sweeties, i gotta leave for work."

but after i left, while walking towards somerset mrt station, i called nora to inform her i'll be late for work.

and the best thing that happend today:

nora called back and say "hey sam, tracy changed ur monday slot with u, remember? u dont have to come today"

i swear i could feel fireworks playing in ur heart at that v instant! and i flew back to HK cafe to join the girls =) <3,

after that, went to shop ard paragon and far east,
and we met shi jin!

and we ended our day just like that =)

shagged and tired.

my hse getting emptier day by day.

this time round,
the toshiba tv which have been serving us for the past 9 years, broke down.
goodbye toshiba. you've been a great tv. RIP.
forever in my memories.

and look how pathetic my NEW television is now......

can u even spot the new tv? haha

looks so pathetic lar.

meeting weekdays tml.

its town again.

2008-06-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

sheesh.

cant believed i actually cried while watching sex and the city episodes,
when carrie confessed to aidan that she's been sleeping with Big, just before charlotte's wedding
and aidan says he needs time alone, really alone.

sometimes, like carrie, i wonder if its really ok to be truthful.

the this episode ends off with carrie narrating
"its hard to find people who will love you no matter what, i was lucky enough to find three of them"

and im lucky enough too, to have all of them.

i hate diarrhea.

2008-06-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

looked at what i discovered sometime ago, while taking train back from work.

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saw the ugly black looking piece of thing on the floor?

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so have u guessed correctly what is it?

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TADAH~

ITS SOME BROKEN HEEL LEFT BY RANDOM COMMUTER.

if its me, i think i would have fleed immediately when the train stops at whatever station it stops. so damn paiseh! cant imagine if this happens to me, i hope and i pray not!

i'm now a sales promoter for PALMERS brand at motherhood fair over at expo. working with the other 2 of my lovelies, Mandy and Shun Wei! times passes so fast while working with them. We really know how to bitch our time away.

It's been a very long time eversince im required to stand for long hours. and now my back and spine hurts like some crazy dogs. (i dont know why i use crazy dogs to describe the soreness and pain, but just some random combinations of vocabulary and noun)

It's also the first time in my life i see so many pregnant mothers and kids at one place! so scary can! so many prams and balloons and irritating children! omg. but can really see how man pamper and love their wife at the same time. some funny and heartwarming and @##$#%^#%^# experience with different customers.

2 days ago was youngest sis birthday. went to LiangKee restaurant to have dinner. It's been a long time since we last visited the restaurant. think it was abt 1.5yrs ago. It's the only place where i will insist my rice to go with their black gravy (braised duck gravy). If u know me well, i actually dont like black gravy on my rice cos it simply looks dsgusting. but i love LiangKee's Black gravy.

more pictures with michelle, but she haven upload the pictures. so i gobbed for maggie's blog. =p

Happy birthday to u lar!
Eventhough u are really irritating at times,
but u are kind of nice to bully.
i appreciate how u will help me do errands and chores at home. ?
thank you for that!

and what's up with that "ai ni orh" heart shape action that u always show me?
u looked kinda retard. dunno whether to laugh at u or wad.
but aiyah, its kinda entertaining though.

even though, im not a good sis,

but then still.....

they are my sisters. life would be damn bored and dull without them.

i dont really talk to them, but still,

i love them all.

talk about the joy of having sisters. =)

2008-06-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

这几天，家里变得很乱。
一箱箱的大盒子，装满了不同的东西。
也许你还不知道，我要搬家了。
所以现在开始收拾东西，慢慢的一点一点把东西搬到外婆家。

在收拾东西的当儿，我终于找到了以前一直找不到的东西。
可是，想想，就算现在找到了，我也不需要了。
真可笑。。。为什么有时候当我很需要一样东西，我怎么找都找不到。
一旦我不需要的时候，这些东西便一个个出现在我面前！
你们是否也有相同的经验？

处此以外，有很多东西也必须要丢。
我是一个很念旧的人，叫我丢东西，根本是个不可能的任务。
可是，这几天我花了不少功夫和勇气，把那些对我来说还有纯在价值和有意思的东西，统统都丢了。
必须克服那些不舍的心情，一个接一个地把东西丢经垃圾桶。心很痛。
但我相信，不久后，我会把这些心情和东西给忘了。

其实，这也不是跟做人的道理一样吗？
很多时候，只要克服了不舍，勇敢地放下，不久后一切都会变得正常，不是吗？

这道理不难懂，很简单，但为什么，人就算把自己弄得遍体鳞伤，还是抓着不放？

放不开。
到底为了什么我会放不开？
我不想懂，也不想去懂。
只要现在是幸福的，其他的，我不想去管。

2008-05-25T14:26:00.002+08:00

its been two weeks since exams ended.
but im still feeling so lazy to update.

i dunno what im busying with, but i just feel v busy. haha

Had dinner with StarTutor colleagues at Grand Copthorne WaterFront Hotel. It was my first time dining with them, and I finally saw some of the colleagues. (Usually, can only imagine how they looked like at home, while staring at our admin page. haha).

We had buffet dinner at BRIO and i didnt really eat much. i was just full! haha. wasted.

17 May, Royal Clique dinner! Its been like 3 mths since i last saw them. Full strength this time round. Had dinner at Sushi Tei over at Taka. Its my first time there at Sushi Tei, and the food taste not bad. I like. Quite economical also.

while waiting for our table for 9 people!

the guys deciding their order.

after dinner, we had nth in mind to do, and so, the whole grp of us just walked aimlessly along orchard road in that sucky humid weather. I tot i almost dehydrate from excessive perspiration! finally settled down at TCC over PS to do some catching up. Most of the pictures are still with Hui Mei and i guess it will be like another 2914890548697 million yrs before i receive pictures from her.

the princesses cam-whoring in the toilet.

guess who?

18 May, sunday.
My paternal relatives came over to my hse to have a barbeque and buffet dinner, to celebrate my little cousin 2nd Birthday!

BF helped out with starting the fire.

Thanks for your help that day dear! muacks.

some aeroplane flew past.

I was so hungry that day, and i was like stuffing the food down without knowing how much i've eaten. tsk tsk.

The birthday girl, singing happily to herself.

Met up with Amanda, Xin and Chun at T3 for dinner. Forget to take fotos. haha. We had dinner over a Popeye. yummy! love their biscuit, fries and whipped potatoes! Amanda is flying off to china today. Take care girl! we shall see each other again on the 12 of June for our tonning session!

The next day, its shopping with Mandy and shun wei! Its supposed to be shopping, but i end up not getting anything, except for clearing off my debts. haha. We walked into LV, Gucci, Tiffany and Co that day.

And i Want that LV wallet so much!

and then they started to cam-whore themselves, ignoring my presence. =(

Finally, noticing my presence and drag me back into the picture again. haha

Called wenna at ard 7.30 and she is still OT-ing. So we decided to have dinner with her at Bugis.

Dine at Lai Lai Niu Rou Mian near Icon Building. The food there was not bad, and not v ex.

our side dish, san chen ruo!

Wen's lu ruo fan

man and ah wei de beef udon.

My Pork balls mee sua!

Our desert! yummy.

oh gosh, im feeling so hungry again after looking at these pictures.

and yeah! i found people to watch sex and the city with me!
so happY~!

2008-05-12T23:15:00.003+08:00

Quoted from Reader's Digest (April 08 issue)

Why guys don't write advice columns.

Dear Abie,
The other day I set off for work. I hadn't gone more than two kilometres when my engine conked out and the car shuddered to a halt. I walked back home, only to find my husband making love to our neighbour. He was let go from his job six months ago, and he says he has been feeling increasly depressed and worthless. I love him very much, but I don't know if i can trust him anymore. What should I do?

Frustrated.

Abie's reply:

Dear Frustrated,
A car stalling can be caused by a variety of faults with the engine. Check that there is no debris in the fuel line. If it's clear, check the jubilee clips holding the vacuum pipes onto the inlet manifold. Or it could be that the fuel pump itself is faulty, causing low delivery pressure to the carburettor float chamber.
I hope this helps.

LOL. So funny lar. only answer the technical part of the problems.

went kbox with cynthia today! i think the last time i went k box was also with her, abt half a year ago. followed by movie with wanwan, yg, joanne and cynthia.

What Happens in Vegas!
go watch go watch!
its nice and super worth it to watch at cathay ($6) on a weekday!
highly recommended. i was practically laughing throughout the movie. Its not that kind of superhero-or-meet-the-spartans kind of lame! It's really funny, the plot and everything.

and i so wanna watch this movie too!

i watched the episodes of sex and the city on tudou and sometimes i find it so inspiring. i like Carrie. haha

im so sleep deprived.
i didnt slp the whole sat (tonning at ECP) and when i got home on Sunday, i didnt slp also. I went out straight with boyfriend to continue last min shopping for mother's day gift at TM, followed by mother's day dinner.
finally got to slp at 12am last night, but i woke up at 6.30am to go ECP (again!) with mummy for morning jog.

yawns. i guess i'll have to tell mummy im not going to ECP tomorrow, so i can slp till late.

anyways, i've got the pictures already!

lets start with bf POP on 7 may

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after pop, on his way to meet his clique for dinner

here comes the photo for ling's birthday celebration at ECP on 10may!

the bday girl. LAI LI LING

we are the early birds!

cant live without this woman that day! handled every aspects of the technical stuffs for the camp. thnks babe! without you, i guess we'll be so messed up

self entertianing while waiting for the rest to come

our neighbour

in our 8 men tent! spacious!

our food of the night!

wo men kai dong le!!!!

wenna's creation -- mL in sushi version. (i also dont know which one is me. haha)

escorting ling to her 1st surprise

light sticks in 7 colours which represents us!

surprise #1

with our neighbour's dog (her name is DONUT). so cute! so warm! i miss jacky!

started playing some lame games to occupy time, and these are some forfeits.

i think me very suay, cos i keep drawing the smallest or the largest card during indian poker!

so one of my forfeit is to flag at a coming pedestrian or cyclist as if im flagging a cab. -.-

another forfeit

look at that retarded jin. (this warn us not to eat too much vegetable, if not become like her! haha! im kidding!)

actually wanna make her collect and wear 21 watches on her hand and then randomly ask a stranger what time is it. haha. but after discount and negotiation, we settled with 3 watches.

walau. so lazy to upload any more photos. i think ah wei or wenna will also blog abt it. u all go and read yourself.
haha

chunhui, send me TC photos if u have hor... hee.

yawns. im so god damn tired now. off to bed. nights~

2008-05-11T21:06:00.003+08:00

exams ended officially last thurs.
i really dont want to think abt them anymore,
but the mind and heart cant help to worry for 4th june, where we will know abt the damn horrendous results.

exams is all abt the cyclical process of eating, studying, slping, viwawa-ing.
always chasing against my exam schedule to make sure i can finish the syllabus on time.
my newly bought pilot ball point pen's ink was full b4 the first paper of the exam.
and after my last paper, it looks like its gonna go dry any moment.
thats how much we got to write for our papers. (and damn it, i dont understand why i always finish my paper on the dot, leaving me with no time to check through)

managed to squeeze out some time for dating. watched some perveted thriller show, lunched at carls junior and chilled at tcc. thats the only thing i can remember.
orange-flavoured clorets, meiji yogurt, fruits, hershey chocs, digestive biscuit, coffee is my survival kit for keeping myself awake and focus during revision. =)

boyfriend finally pop-ed, just one day b4 my last paper.
nonetheless, i was still there at home team academy to witness the passing out parade with his mother. its almost six months, but it feels like he just enlisted not long ago.

yesterday, it was teck chiat and ling's 21st bday celebration at ECP.

luckily both were held at ECP, makes it easier for me to attend both.

Anyway, it was mL very first time pitching tent (8 men tent!) at ECP. oOO....i missed camping days. but somehow, plans got screwed out due to heavy rain at 4 plus in the morning. Lucky we have SASA with us, if not we will be like ants on hot pans.

i'll let pictures do the talking when i received them.

meanwhile, let me wish all mothers a happy mothers' day!

Mummy, i love you.
just hope you'll forever be healthy and happy.
muacks.

2008-05-01T19:04:00.003+08:00

明知道自己没有资格难过，

但此刻的心情，真是糟透了。

为什么得到的安慰和肯定，还是让它隐隐作痛？
我。。。。。真的可以吗？

2008-04-23T19:14:00.002+08:00

its only the first paper, and there goes all my motivation.

really need to prepare myself, so i wont get heart attack when i receive my results on 4th june, and also that i have to repeat one more year of BUSINESS FRAMEWORK, cos i FAILED this module miserably.

DAMNED IT.

-nuff said.-

2008-04-17T01:09:00.003+08:00

"why?" you may ask.

thats because you don't know me enough.

stress accumulating. PMS. highly dangerous to irritate and aggitate me now. I BITE. SO STAY AWAY FROM ME.

2008-04-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

For the past 1 month, i've been seeing them more than the number of times i get to see my family and my boyfriend.

We braved through all the projects together.
what i've learnt is..... THEY ARE CRAZY!

nonetheless, projects would be super boring and tough w/o them!

we're working on service quality project.

beware of the latest terrorist on the lose.

trying v hard to irritate sulwyn. look at her disgusted expression. super funny.

going for our long -craved sakae lunch!

boss ducky with her secretary cynthia.

follwing pictures were taken on the actual presentation day for service quality.
we crazily cam-whore while waiting for WAN WAN to finish his script and lunch.

we are crazy.

dont ask me why i pose in that way.

duck look as if joanne is really punching her

She is so strong can!!! she manged to carry the heavy me up! check out my fearful expression trying hard to smile.

the kungfu girls

both trying to act innocent

finally handed up all projects.

been snacking like crazy when tonning over their house.

cant imagine the amount of weight that i'll gain.

the end of projects means its time to chiong exams liao.

till then~

2008-04-02T22:25:00.001+08:00

Quoted from http://www.mycasserole.net/

"A few days ago, daddy caught the boy playing with his willy. Usually, the boy would have been reprimanded. However, this time, daddy just told him nicely that the act isn’t hygienic. He didn’t raise his voice at the boy for fear of being shunned again, like what happened weeks ago, when he chided the boy for being playful with his eyes.

And I thought it is funny that as parents, we actually have to fear losing our child’s love, which is not unlike a child’s anxiety of losing his parents’ approval. And it’s precisely this fear that drives parents to spare the rod and spoil the child or the kid to be less communicative or tell white lies.

Come to think of it, such a fear extends to most of our relationships. The fear of losing the love of the other drives us to accept shortcomings, overlook misbehaviors and ignore glaring misdeeds.

Love is such a double-edged sword!"

yes, its the fear of losing.

2008-03-23T21:42:00.002+08:00

a brand new samantha says HI

remember i mentioned abt the wedding i attended 2 weeks ago?

us and mummy

All of us

stop telling me my sis is pretty.
i'll get jealous!
haha!
im pretty also okay!

the people i see EVERYDAY.
and i mean EVERYDAY. from mon to sun!

jo and duck

cyn and me

stop telling me i got fat face. cos im still pretty!
haha

cynthia is very sweet! she bought this for me and gave it to me in school when im sick~

oOOO.... im still happy to receive it even though she bought another bottle for WANWAN also! (not specially for me) hahaha. but, nvm, i still love cynthia, that crappy friend who always hit me on my arms. pain you know!

went for new zealand icecream at ECP with bf 2 weeks ago.

and we promised to be back for cycling.
and so, on good friday, we last minute decided to go ECP again to cycle.

thanks to the scorching sun. im burnt! and the funny part is, only my arms are burnt! so lucky my face is not burnt lar.

pain~~~

and im sick again.
the irritating running nose and sore throat.
its like forever there de leh!
super sian u know!

2008-03-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

these few days, i've been reflecting so much on myself.
after doing so,
i feel that i failed almost all the roles that i played in my life.

i failed my role as a daughter.
didn't really do much to help my dad.
didn't really do much to help my mum.
have been relying so much on the maid.

i failed my role as a grand daughter.
you know, when i was young, i could still vividly remember how much i used to talk and play with my grandparents,
now that im 21, im like not talking to them!
im not making enough effort to communicate with them.
each time they are here at my house, they will watch tv and i'll just do my things.

i failed my role as a sister.
i don't know why i treat my sisters so coldly.
i dont know why sometimes i'm so harsh and stern to them unnecessarily.
i dont know why i cant bring down my pride to apologise to them.
i dont know why am i so selfish towards them sometimes.
i feel that i've really let them down. they really deserve a sister who is better.

i failed my role as a girlfriend.
the way to a man's heart is through is stomach.
i cant even prepare a simple meal for him.
i cant fulfill my promises
and there's still so much i dont understand and dont know abt him.

i failed my role as a best friend.
need i elaborate more?
what did i really do as a best friend?
i cant remember doing anythings for my best friends.

i feel so sorry for everyone around me. sorry for them to have someone like me.

after today, i want to be a better person.
a better samantha.
a better daughter, grand daughter, sister, girlfriend and best friend.

im trying hard to walk out of my emo circle.
no more emo entries from me.

2008-03-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

the hormones in my body have all gone haywire again.
i waited and waited, its still not here.
im sick of eating pineapple everyday.
and i have to wait for like one month for to get my womb scanned.

should there be anything wrong with my womb, i guess i would be dead by then.

my mood is just like a roller coaster ride.
someone, please turn off the tap in my eye.

2008-03-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

i don't know what i've been busying with.

i feel so busy.

or maybe, i tried to fill my time up,

so that i can live in my own world,
not caring the rest outside my circle.

sorry to friends whom i rejected dates, gathering etc.
yes, im down with project,
but the other reason is,

i just want to live in my own world, alone, for a little while.

2008-03-12T02:47:00.003+08:00

我想。。。

人人常说的“船到桥头自然直”

只是一种逃避问题的借口吧。

2008-03-10T01:09:00.003+08:00

当世界不知不觉的变了

有时候我怀念以前的我

作的梦虽然远远的

想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什黱

而眷恋原来会带来软弱

你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得

是谁惹谁言不由衷

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错

怕抱不紧什黱

我不想舍得不想懂得

谁说割爱才更深刻

彼此依赖是爱不是负荷

能握著手就是感动的

just came back from a relatives' wedding dinner.

unlike the other wedding dinners that i attended previously,

the emerging feeling of wanting to get married didnt arise.

even though the restuarant was filled with blissful atmosphere and romantic songs,

all i could feel was......a tinge of sadness.

i tried v hard to fight back the welling tears.

i tried v hard to brush away all my insecurities.

im dwelling into my redundant emo-ness again.

2008-03-07T20:15:00.003+08:00

不知不觉, 一年就这样过去了.

从中, 我领悟到....

时间真的会让一个人渐渐地被遗忘.

啊公, 我好想你.

2008-03-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

after 28373856million years of not having McDonald's breakfast.....

i managed to persuade daddy to bring me to have hotcakes today!

can you believe i didnt sleep well that night before because i was too excited?
woke up at 6.45am today, and got myself ready for hotcakes!
its that early because mummy got doctor apptm at 8.45am.

my hotcakes plus sausage plus harsh brown plus hot tea!

daddy with michelledaddy and mummy. i think my mummy is cute! haha. so kpo of what my dad is doing

i think it will be another 18375946 years before i get to eat McDonald's breakfast again.

简单真的很幸福

2008-03-01T23:18:00.002+08:00

Second time within a month

Once again.
i lose my voice. cant talk, cant sing, cant scream.

but i can still irritate people with my "sexy" voice.
haha.

2008-02-27T00:38:00.004+08:00

finally, i cleared my sleep debt today

after sleeping for 12 hours straight!

i tell you, its shiok.

haha

no school today,

so i decided to drive to changi rise to work out in the gym.

reached there at abt 12.30, and theres no one there. =)

i can have the whole gym to myself.

before i left, guess what i saw?

A gardenia bread vending machine!
very cool hor!
bread also have vending machine leh.

i think Mcdonald's should have vending machines stationed everywhere also.
so i can satisfy my crave for hotcakes and harshbrown every morning at SIM. =)

i wonder when can i have hotcakes and harsh browns again.

read i weekly, and saw this:

所有选择到头来一定都是错的, 因为当时间过去, 失去的, 全会变成最好的.

maybe...
maybe not.

in economics term, its the opportunity cost.

2008-02-22T22:37:00.003+08:00

ive been busy for the past week.
almost project-ing everyday.

but today, my group members decide that its time for us to take a little break!
so we went back to SP to play badminton.
its been so long since i've exercise, and sweating it out really feels great (even though i can foresee me feeling achy tml morning)

anyways, i have some overdue pictures.

3rd day of CNY

went to my grandma house at changi rise to have the annual gathering with the distant relatives.
im tired to repeating the same answers to the questions post by different relatives.
yes, im 21 years old this year, grow up already.
yes, im studying at SIM
yes, im still the shortest among my sis
yadayada, its quite tired to pretend u're smiling sincerely.

as usual, we gambled all the way close to midnight before they start leaving.
i didnt gamble lar. just stayed in one of the room to watch tv and sleep. boring.

me and baby cousin. she is so cute lar!

met up with the royal clique on 4th day of CNY for lunch at waraku clarke quay.
i think the food was somewhat a dissapoinment to me. cos i prefer the pasta one compared to the japanese cusine one.
pictures are still with WU JIA YI.
wahaha

i started work at the ice cream gallery on the fifth day of CNY. i opened the shop and had to clean the refrigerator. such tedious work and i must work alone. even though it was a monday, business was still as good. i was like busy throughout the afternoon.
and the clumsy me, fell frm the chair while climbing up to take some tubs to replenish.
pain can! i was rewarded with a big patch of blue black on my left leg.

as for valentines day, i do have a date.
i have a date with the delicious and colourful icecream at eastwood centre.
yes, im working, so i dont need to see lovey dovey couples walking down the streets whispering sweet nothings to each other.

business was so good on valentines that i feel so shag.
and when i was washing up, one of the glass bowls slipped off my hands and dropped on the floor.
i cut myself while brushing off the shattered glasses on my toe.

how dumb and stupid and careless can i be?
i injured myself 2 times in a row.
and then i remembered i haven bai tai sui.
so being pantang,
i pestered my dad to bring me to bai tai sui on the following sunday,
and so far, everything have been smooth for me.

some times its better to believe lar hor?

then.....*drum rolls* its wenna 21st birthday on 16 feb!
mL celebrated her bday on 15th feb.

below are only some of the pictures.
for the full set of pictures, ah wei have uploaded it onto her blog.

we went bakerzin at millenia walk for dinner.
and i ordered their steak and mushroom sandwich.

and i forgot which girl decided to take my top layer of the sandwich and play with it. and still say it looks like a slim hanphone.

and so, this is my new flip phone.

look at the aftermath of my poor steak and mushroom sandwich.

the birthday girl with the cake which came complimentary by bakerzin.

as we decided to stay overnight at sasa hse that night,
we planned to cook teochew porridge with some simple dishes!
so we went carrefour to shop for food.

our trolley full of bags instead of food.

us, choosing cabbage

we proceed to esplanade after that.
that place was flooded with people who were watching chingay.

us.

us, with me on the phone with bf. look like some uncivilised china woman.

and then.... we decided to carry out the 21st birthday mission.

1st, bday girl have to wear the shirt that we provide!

(PS. i designed and draw the shirt and im super proud of my work can! im a retard when it comes to art!)

the mission

we were all so nervous and excited for wenna when helping her to target guys!

look at her expression!

not sure whether to approach the coming grp of guys or not.

and finally, after 21 guys wished her happy birthday, mission accomplished!

waited for 12am to strike to wish her official 21st birthday!
and present the 21st birthday cake!

can u see the cake being aligned into 21 in chinese characters?

wenna, and the scrap book that we (true loves) did

decided to book a maxi cab home.
the fare is quite worth it since theres so many people sharing.
while waiting for the cab....

presenting you, the dolls.

TRUE LOVEs aka mL wishes wenna a happy 21st birthday!

our breakfast the next morning, prepared by our future teacher, MS ONG

wenna, hope u enjoyed that day. kuai le zhui zhong yao! we love you!!!!

so random photos before i end.

me with mr police bear

despite having to become more matured after all the stuffs i experience, but deep down inside, i know im still childish. i wish i have more sense of responsibility. im so sick on myself for being so childish sometimes.

i feel like im nothing.
nothing.
nothing at all.

2008-02-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

A dedication to my love,
Happy Valentines Day.

That's when I love you - Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

of course, not forgetting my friends,
happy valenties too =)

2008-02-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

this is the boring-est CNY ever.

all i do is stay at home, watch tv, serve the net and play solitaire.

im bored. v bored.

luckily daddy brought us to the movie today.

watch ah long pte ltd at tampines mall.

wore red colour out today to remind myself its CNY.

cam-whore with sisters in the car

i would say the show is rather worth it for me.
im willing to pay up to $10.50 (cathay blockbuster price) for this show for laughing throughout the two hours in this boring and lonely CNY.

brought my maid along to the movie, so that she can help mummy around.
and i tell you, bringing my maid to the movie is a total embarrassment!
she laughed so loud in the movie.

and most of the time im not laughing cos of the plot, but because her laughters are damn catagious and hilarious!

head down to siglap's KFC for dinner before going home.
daddy says my aunties and uncles want to come up to my house to gamble.

$_$v

while waiting for the guests to come,

we, the vain pots decide to touch up abit on our make-up
and tadah, the only source of entertainment for the sisters

cam-whoring session starts!

anyway, i lose about $50 during blackjack initially. (keep losing when im banker. what shit of luck do i have)

but towards the end of the session, got winning feel liao,
then place high bets to recover my lost.

in the end only lost about $20.

daddy won $300 and he gave me $20.
yippee!

gosh. i cant imagine theres another 2 more days for next week to come.

i really dont feel good inside.

2008-02-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

if you ever wondered how long or short a period of two years will be,

then let me tell you....

its equivalent to the time we got together till now.

i dont know if 2 years is counted as long or short,

but all i know is that it wasnt as easy as how it was thought to be.

the arguments,

the compromises,

the intense moments,

the tears,

the happiness,

the intimacy,

the laughters,

the misses.

the longingness

all happen for a reason.

and the reason is no other than....

you.

you are love,

i love you.

happy 2nd anniversary, my love.

muacks.

2008-02-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

i stumbled across http://www.stickgal.blogspot.com/

and saw some cute postings.

maybe you guys can check it out if you got nth much to do.

a source of entertainment!

scenario 1

scenario 2

2008-02-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

6 more minutes to CNY!!

fever went down yesterday,
and today, im out at the ice cream gallery to work.
within 5 hours, we hit thousand over dollars of sales.
imagine how busy it was today.
my hands were basically shaking at the end of the day.
no more strength to scoop ice cream!

went back for reunion.
all my relatives came my house for reunion this year since its inconvenient for mummy to move around.
i love the steam boat this year, taste nicer than all those previous years.

and gambled ban lat!
won some =)
i drew 1 time ban ban, quite a no. of times of ban lat and 1 time triple 7!
lucky lucky!

this CNY gonna be a boring one. No house visiting.
anyway, like no CNY mood also.
clock strike 12 liao!

HAPPY CNY!

2008-02-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

最想哭的时候，就是生病的时候

眼泪怎么都不听使唤地从眼眶留下。。。

好久都没发过高烧。
最讨厌发高烧了，

因为。。。

脑袋自己会胡思乱想

2008-02-03T01:05:00.000+08:00

while waiting for my hair to dry,

i shall post something.

i just came back from reunion dinner with weekdays gang.
dine at 85 market.
because changyi drove,
we insist that he drive us to siglap to have haagen daz fondue.
and here i am, feeling sinful all over again.
this time round, im so dissapointed with the fondue over there,
cos the chocolate is not warm at all!
NOT NICE!
and the service crew say they can do nothing about it,
which is so bull shit,
cos the other time when i treated my sis to haagen daz fondue at tampines mall,
they managed to make it warmer for us.
bull shit bull shit bull shit!

in case you still don't know, i permed my hair two weeks ago.

it will really an impulse, as i used to think that perming will spoil my hair.

the picture below is right after i came out from the salon

and this is 3 days after i perm my hair. not so curly anymore.

i'm loving my curls more and more but somehow i'm really bad at managing and maintaining it.

i haven been combing my hair for the past 2 weeks and its really messy.
sometimes it get so out of hand that i regretted perming it.

my daddy says i looked for matured and feminine with the curls.
but most friends say i looked better with my straight hair.

but i really wanted a change, cos im so bored with my straight hair already.

It was also my very first time driving out the car without my dad's supervision.
I'm not worried about driving, more worried about parking.
so i plucked out my courage, and drive myself to the salon on that faithful monday.
and tadah, i made it! i parked the car myself successfully (with no hornings from pple and stuffs) =)

next up, i guess you guys wont believe what im going to post.

can you all believe i went to queue for Lim Chee Guan bak gua yesterday at 9.30AM?
when i reach people's centre at 9.30am, the queue was already surpassing Majestic.
How crazy was that?
but i still queue for it lar, cos that day when i ask my mum whether she wants to eat bak gua,
she said: " I want to eat lin zhi yuan's one"
LIN ZHI YUAN?
i looked at her with my eyes wide open in amusement.
It's the first time i felt her saying one sentence so confidently. (that explains my amusement)
and so, i am willing to queue for 4 hours, just to get her LIM CHEE GUAN's bak gua.

It was as if im at the subaru's challenge.
Have to stand all the way, under the sun, cannot go toilet and stuffs.
im thankful for my creative zen stone plus for accompanying me throughout the journey,
holding on to its last bit of battery life.

Right after i made my purchase, i took a bus home, cos im too tired to walk all the way back to mrt station, and stand all my way back to home.
and just as i board the bus, it stated pouring heavily!

am i lucky or wad? imagine the rest of the people who were still queueing! poor thing!

i tried the bak gua when i reach home,
nothing fanstatic.
don't really understand why people will want to queue 4 to 6 hours just to get their bak gua.
somemore it's so ex! 1 kg $50 can?!!

Been buying all the necessary food items for new year for my family.
and below is one of my favourites!

Pineapple tart from Prima Deli!!
Very very nice! i like =)

and hazelnut blackcurrant cookies from bengawan solo!
also very nice!

Some random shots.

look at how well i parked my car!

if you haven realised, its totally out of the lot.
OMG. haha

the busy tanah mehra station on a random morning

you know, i went to read my archives recently.

i started reading from the very first post,
the times when i was still a 16 year old kid.

i couldn't help but feel so disgusted for being so childish last time.
haha.
and the way and the things i blogged is totally.....
RETARDED.

my hair is somehow still wet,
but im damn sleepy already. still got to wake up early tommorrow,
to do some grocery shopping at the market with daddy.

good night world.

2008-01-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

today, a father and a daughter walked into the ice cream shop.

Daughter: can i have a scoop of coconut ice cream please?
Dad: I'll have a scoop of durian ice cream.

Me: That will be $6 dollars.

Daughter: daddy, u brought your wallet down right? I don't have cash with me.

Daddy: (looks at me) you know what must a man do?

Me: Pay?

Daddy: No. The most important thing for a man to do is......not to leave house without his wallet.

just want to share this with all of you =)

Men out there, learn something today:
Never leave your house without your wallet.

i've been havig toothache for the past few days,
but im so reluctant to go to the dentist.

my last visit to the dentist was....

about 5 years ago?
i wont be surprise to find a rotting teeth in my mouth.
haha.

2008-01-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy today.
i secured 3 appointments for my boss today within 5 hours!
and last week, i secured 3 appointments too.
woo~
and occassionally, i get super polite customers over the other side of the phone,
wishing me good luck for my next call.

you know, when u are really demoralised with all the typical ah beng singaporeans who love to slam down their phone,

these polite customers can really brighten up my day and touched my heart, giving me hope that luck will really be with me =)

after work, as usual, i took the mrt home.... when i reached the platform, the train arrived! and i when i alighted at tanah mehra, bus 45 came too! and i manged to get home within 20 min.

its as if luck is shining at me these days.
if it is, i wish it could shine at me for as long as possible,
for i've been an unlucky girl for the past few months.

i promised i'll be good,
so, pls stay with me =)

2008-01-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

人人常说：“女人的年龄是秘密”

但在这讲求外表的虚伪世界，

我觉得

女人的体重才是真正的秘密。

2008-01-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

i must be out of my mind,
cos i actually treated my sis to fondue at Haagen Daz.

well, i shall treat it as pampering myself, and bringing them there means i wont over eat.

now what i need is.....

new year clothes.

2008-01-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

im tired.
why is it still that little amount of money when i worked so much.

exasperated.

2008-01-06T01:11:00.000+08:00

as im bathing today,
i started to do some mental calculations on how much cash im left with to spend.

it's always so scary to see the decreasing numbers everytime i withdraw money from the atm.

and i can't think of anything to do justice to the decreasing amount in the bank,
cos logically, when im cash poor, i should be rich in assets.
unfortuanately, my balance sheet doesnt seems to tally.
im cash and assets poor, both at the same time.

it is then i realised, i spend most of my money, not on myself, but on gatherings, friend's birthday present, food, transport and entertainment perhaps?

how long have i not spend money on myself?
the last time i bought new top for myself is really a few months back.
thats really pathetic right?
how could i be so stingy towards myself?
why must i think so much to buy a $20 necklace when i can graciously ford out $30 for my friend's birthday present?
why is it that when i want to buy something expensive for myself, i'll feel the pinch?

it is usually this case, i walked rounds and rounds in a shop,
thinking if i should get the thing i saw,
then pick up that object,
look at how wonderful that object is,
put down that object,
continue to walk around the shop, deciding the pros and cons of getting the object,
then i walked out of the shop, empty handed.
so dissapointing.

WHY AM I SO STINGY TOWARDS MYSELF?!!!!

i dont really understand. its not that i cannot afford what.... why is there an imaginery force stopping me to buy things to pamper myself?

ok, i dont care.
another new year resolution:
spend more money on myself before i dont get the chance to spend my own money any more.

friends, please remind me to pamper myself more often.
i am abusing myself with my stingy-ness.
or perhaps, you can refrain me from going to the atm as often,
so that i wont be reminded that the numbers keep decreasing,
and hence, the decision process of getting something for myself will be a fast one.

and bloody hell, why does a freaking boring text book need to cost as much as $100 over dollars?
it will take me at least 20 hours of work to earn a text book.
how pathetic.

2008-01-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

happy new year!
how was your new year celebration?

mine was a cosy and peaceful one,
went to spend a night at amanda's hse with weekdays!
we counted down to 2008 together and played with sparkles at the highest level of the multi-storey carpark.

drank baileys and vodka before heading to shower. sat down together with them to write down our individual's new year resolutions and we put them together into a beautiful box which we will open again next year to see if we fulfill our resolutions.
did charcoal mask on the nose for them, applied all the body lotions, and then headed straight into bed.

how cosy and peaceful is this? love it.

while, back to my xmas celebrations with weekdays and mL.

25dec, orchard (outside paragon) 6.30pm

missed the xmas lunch gathering with the whole gang cos i was celebrating xmas with bf in the afternoon.
so i met up with the available ones at night. amanda, xin and teck chiat.
orchard was like so damn crowded.
there's road closure, so pple can walked along the main road freely.
and tadah, behind us is the xmas tree outside paragon!

because it was damn crowded, we decided to take bus 36 to parkway to shop and eat dinner instead.

26 dec, suntec city (sizzler), 7pm
theme: red and black

the food there was damn yummy! the salad bar, the steak, the chicken, the bake potatoes were fantastically delicious!

after overloading our tummy, the restaurant is preparing to close for the day. so we headed to McDonald's for our gift exchange!

wei, man, ling, and wen

jin, sasa and me.

and our gift exchange time! (sry ar, lazy to rotate the pictures. pls tilt your head while viewing the below pictures)

me, with my long awaite bday presents from them, and giovanna heals frm ling.

wei, bust cream and charm from sasa.

jin, eye serum frm wei

ling, snow tea eye essence from me.

sasa, capital land vouchers from jin

man, milk moisturizer and glossy eye liner from wen.

and because wenna did not blog her wishlist by 1st of Dec, her present was forfeited.
but being her good friends,
we decided to let her go home with something,
something which would be least expected.

wenna is thinking "what would it be?"

.
.
.
.
.
TADAH (look at her expression)

HONEY BAKED HAM AND 2 BREAD STICKS.

wahaha. so that she'll have an unforgetable christmas this year!

look at how happy she is after that. haha

our presents!

we left mac at 11pm cos some still have to work the next day.

there goes another year of christmas with them, another candle to our frienshipversary.
gosh. this is the 8th year. TRUE LOVES! 8TH YEAR! HUAT AR!

2007-12-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

2007 will be over in like 1 day?
gosh, thats so fast lar.
how come when i was younger, i hope time will pass as if every hour is like a day?
and now, at the age of 20, i just hope that time will give me more time, for me to really do things according to my own pace.

anyways, so many things happened this year.
mostly bad ones. cant really think of any good ones. haha.
this is the year, which probably made me face the hard facts of life, the harsh reality, growing up spiritually and mentally. i think i've matured a little, learning to treasure little bits of things which i think were insignificant to me years ago.

things that happened this year:
my last polytechnic exams,
the stressful mmit competition period,
the graduation ball, which the make-up was horrendous that spoil my whole evening,
my first clubbing experience after gradball,
the death of my beloved ah gong,
the heartbreak experience,
my mum down with brain haemorrhage.
and for the 2nd half of the year, i was busy commuting between school, hospital and home.

i reckon this will be the year which i shed the most tears.
but after all these happened,
whenever i encountered unpleasant situations,
i'll tell myself " i've experienced the worst, whats all this compared to that?"
and things will not be as bad as it seems to be. =)

my new year resolutions?
maybe just hope that i'll earn more money, spend less money, feed my bank with more money.
i'll eat less and move more, and hope i can fit into smaller size clothes.
i want to spend more time with pple that are really important to me.
thats it. not very ambicious. heez.

anyway, my xmas was spent fruitfully with all my close frens.
on the 24th dec, met up with the royalties!
poor huimei sprained her ankle again, so that day, she was basically limping around bugis!

the princesses

the servants! (opps =x)

im the fallen angel

hope he will not tio duty to stand outside istana!

the couple

went for a simple lunch at nydc bugis. in my opinion, the food was so-so. the very expensive mudpie was really small and ordinary. unless you are feeling rich, i dun suggest you to dine there.

at night, i attended a wedding dinner at the xin fu yum cha restaurant.
a very shabby looking restaurant and ambience was not that romantic, but the food was good. the bride is pregnant! its the first time i attend a wedding dinner of a pregnant bride.

before going in the resturant

and it got so boring in between, the sisters begin to cam-whore!

i think i stop here for today.
will post pictures of my celebration with weekdays and mL and i get hold of all the photos.

meanwhile, happy new year to everyone!
may 2008 be a happy and wonderful year!

2007-12-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

i don't understand why i used to think LV is ugly.
i really don't understand....

because....

i'm so in love with these now!

omg omg omg.
so pretty.
how can you resist them?

I WANT I WANT!

2007-12-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

got lots to blog today.
finally got my samsung PC studio fixed and now i can upload photos from my phone to my laptop.
yeahs!

lets look at my backlog.

bf's birthday.

decided to bake something for bf's birthday on 9 dec.
so with amanda's and chun's help,
we decided on chocolate cupcake. with mint and durian fillings inside!

top up the cup cakes with the beautiful peach.

and decided to bake cookies for him too. but didnt turn out too well, due to the over estimate of flour, high temperature and colour (he says they look like faeces.)

placed the cookies and cupcakes into my gift box

raining cats and dogs when i left amanda's hse for his house.
squeezy bus, stupid bus driver, unforseen circumstances.
almost spoil my entire mood for that day.
but since it's BF's birthday, i shan't spoil it.

gave him all my hand-made presents with lotsa love.
heez. i think i'm super and creative. haha.
forgot to take photos of the presents i made.
so i cannot hao lian them =(

slacked at his house for a while to wait for the rain to stop before heading to marina square for Pariss buffet!
we ate and ate from 5.30pm to about 8.30pm.
omg! thats like 3 hours of food!

with the birthday boy

and thats the end of the day.

hmm..... kukup trip (15 dec - 16 dec)

gathered at eunos mrt to meet my "tour" mates!
xin hui, xin yi, chun hui, chun yi, chun hui's dad, chun hui's dad's friend, xin hui's cousin and her bf, amanda and lastly, myself!

upon reaching there, we had lunch!
sea food sea food sea food and sea food!
*burp*

took some photos before gg to our "hotel".

4/5 of weekdays

my "tour"mates!

took a boat to our hotel.
the nice scenery.

walked and shopped around at kukup before gg back to our hotel to have some self-entertainment. Mahjong and karaoke! free flow of karaoke disc for you to sing till you drop!

after that, curry chicken and bee hoon was served for tea break. the curry chicken is yummy.

visited their kelong after tea break. lotsa interesting fishes. =)

and then it was dinner time.
the kukup pple barbequed food for us. their chicken wings were perfectly marinated! their sting ray was good. their sotong balls were fantastic. their otah was like omg! (makes me drool). cant really remember what else did we have.
all i can remember was me, almost on the verge of having an exploded stomach.

and then, the finale of the night.
fireworks!
we bought the 49响 fireworks.
it costs us about 138 ringgits, but chun's dad sponsored us S＄50 for the beautiful moment.
it was just like a mini NDP parade.
I could almost touch the fireworks if i reach out my hand.
the sparks even droped down and burnt xin's cousin top!
that shows how close we are to the fireworks.
i videoed it down using my phone, but wasn't properly taken cos half of the time i was screaming away, avoiding the sparks that came falling down like raindrops.

but chun managed to take a beautiful video of it, go visit her blog to view it! nice nice nice!

and then soon, its supper time again.
for supper, their have their fried prawn cracker but looks like pan cake, curry puffs and red bean soup!
nice!

next morning, we woke up at 6.30am to catch the beautiful sky of kukup.

pretty right?

me, amanda and chun ying

breakfast was great!
nice nasi lemak, curry puffs, kuehs, beehoon.

visited their temple (photos still with amanda)
packed our stuffs, and head back to restuarant for lunch.

for lunch, its still seafood seafood and seafood!
crabs, prawns, fish, cockles, vege, blah blah blah.

do some last min shopping at jusco before returning to singapore.

the kukup trip was very enjoyable. we paid only 65 bucks each for this trip, and everything is planned and included already. so value for money especially when it comes to food!
if you guys are interested, i can recommend you the contact person to look for!
he provides good service!

met up with wenna for lunch on tues (18 dec)
soupspoon for lunch.

me and wenna

parted with her and then i went up watsons to meet jiayi for her dinner!

if you notice, this post is all about eating and eating and eating.
so you can imagine the amount of weight i've put on.

omg!

if u see me physically or virtually, please remind me not to eat anymore and get my ass down to some real exercise.

2007-12-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

i'll be going kukop laters!
will be back on sun night.

anyway,
bf will be booking out next wed
and booking in on sun night!

so happy!
so looking forward to wednesday.

i miss him.

2007-12-11T09:14:00.000+08:00

there goes my boy, to serve the nation.

finally this day arrived.
this day, 11 dec,
the start of a change, a different lifestyle, the arriving future.

i decided not to see him off.
cos by just talking to him on the phone a few hours ago to bid him goodbye, and asking him to take care of himself inside,
my tear glands got activated.
so i cant imaging myself being present at police academy.
i'll probably 私奔 with him. haha

i'm not going to whine at how much i miss him now right now.
not much of use to reduce the amount of longingness for him no matter how much i whine.

i love you dear.
hope everything will be fine for you inside.
don't worry about me,
cos i'll take good care of myself.
muacks.

2007-12-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

for my sisters.

i haven shopped for what i want with a $15 budget.
just get me a $15 vouchers from capital land.
i love vouchers!

thank you!

2007-12-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

im feeling really really depressed.

i keep telling myself it must be the hormones at work.

i get agitated over little things,
i break down over simple things,
i get very sensitive over my surroundings
i frown cos of nothing,
i cry, and then i smile, and then i tear, and then i laugh
all coming all together at once,
i dunno how i managed to do that also.

all i know is, i feel insecure, depressed, helpless, clingy, sad, fear, and ya da ya da.

2007-12-04T11:13:00.000+08:00

everytime when i work at great eastern,
i will be so depressed at the end of the day,
cos i haven secure any appointment for my boss.

my boss keeps comparing my results with 3 sixteen yr old students who just finished their o levels.

they managed to secure at least 2 appointment after every session of work. and the fact that they do not have prior experience like i do make a big woo-ha out of it.

i wonder where is wrong? am i not persistent enough?

i think if this continues, i might get fired by the boss.
but i secretly hope that he will fire me asap. haha.

if not for the flexi hours, i would have left.

what's even more depressing is the fact that bf will be enlist in a week time.

im depressed.