just found another song by janice. i hope you are hearing wad's playing on my blog, cos its really a nice song!
Never Let You Go.
The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark…
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in…’
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go’
The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance
Repeat…’’
baby, i'll never let you go.
i love you.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
im feeling so depressed inside me,
feeling that all the unluckiest thing all happening on me.
i've been hearing sad stories from friends around me everyday.
sometimes when i really understand the pain they are going through,
i dunno if i should feel lucky and happy for myself that what happened to them is not happening to me,
or should i feel sad cos i've also experience part of what happened to them, and imagine my outcome to be like them.
i've been so depressed everyday this week.
when im depressed emotionally, i feel so depressed of work.
when i feel depressed of work, i think spending on food to treat myself will make me feel better.
after indulging, i feel even depressed, cos i cant imagine the amount of fats that those food had contributed to my body,
and tadah~ the depressed cycle continues.
i miss my bf so much.
:(
feeling that all the unluckiest thing all happening on me.
i've been hearing sad stories from friends around me everyday.
sometimes when i really understand the pain they are going through,
i dunno if i should feel lucky and happy for myself that what happened to them is not happening to me,
or should i feel sad cos i've also experience part of what happened to them, and imagine my outcome to be like them.
i've been so depressed everyday this week.
when im depressed emotionally, i feel so depressed of work.
when i feel depressed of work, i think spending on food to treat myself will make me feel better.
after indulging, i feel even depressed, cos i cant imagine the amount of fats that those food had contributed to my body,
and tadah~ the depressed cycle continues.
i miss my bf so much.
:(
Sunday, April 15, 2007
the emptyness.
i dunno why.
feeling a little bit down.
i dunno why.
maybe maybe,
its the process of growing up.
from a carefree student life, to a life whr major decisions have to be made.
its nice to have a heart to heart talk during rainy days.
feels that not only the weather understands me, but also the listening ears.
sometimes, all we need is really so simple,
yet achieving it, involves tears, struggles, luck, money, opportunity, qualifications, etc etc.
y? y do we need so many things to achieve something simple?
so today, i learnt something new.
life can never be simple.
ah. there i go again.
im aging. are you?
i dunno why.
feeling a little bit down.
i dunno why.
maybe maybe,
its the process of growing up.
from a carefree student life, to a life whr major decisions have to be made.
its nice to have a heart to heart talk during rainy days.
feels that not only the weather understands me, but also the listening ears.
sometimes, all we need is really so simple,
yet achieving it, involves tears, struggles, luck, money, opportunity, qualifications, etc etc.
y? y do we need so many things to achieve something simple?
so today, i learnt something new.
life can never be simple.
ah. there i go again.
im aging. are you?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
since im waiting for colleagues to go for lunch togethr,
i shall do some blogging first.
my job is ok,
learning different things everyday.
this is my 1st time taking up an admin job,
and i somehow felt like im so important in the department im in,
because i help them clear alot of backlog for a more efficient and effective work progress.
without me, my training will like have piles and piles of requests form to file!
im so important to the company!
working at raffles is damn interesting in the morning.
who says only guys can march?
if u were to walk through the raffles underpass,
u can hear the women's heels in unison!
its like marching lor...
haha
and thanks to mandy and louis,
im now a chinese tutor of an angmoh at pasir ris.
jus that the angmoh is a black one.
his father is an african and his mum is a malaysian.
so cool.
when i first reach his house, i thought im gonna teach a malay.
haha.
my colleagues not done yet,
but i shall end here,
incase my supervisor comes back from lunch.
miss me pple!
i shall do some blogging first.
my job is ok,
learning different things everyday.
this is my 1st time taking up an admin job,
and i somehow felt like im so important in the department im in,
because i help them clear alot of backlog for a more efficient and effective work progress.
without me, my training will like have piles and piles of requests form to file!
im so important to the company!
working at raffles is damn interesting in the morning.
who says only guys can march?
if u were to walk through the raffles underpass,
u can hear the women's heels in unison!
its like marching lor...
haha
and thanks to mandy and louis,
im now a chinese tutor of an angmoh at pasir ris.
jus that the angmoh is a black one.
his father is an african and his mum is a malaysian.
so cool.
when i first reach his house, i thought im gonna teach a malay.
haha.
my colleagues not done yet,
but i shall end here,
incase my supervisor comes back from lunch.
miss me pple!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
found this nice song in youtube! i think its a sweet song which makes me wanna fall in love again.
Janice - In Love again
Now Playing:
When you smile
my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight
I'll be hypnotized
when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light
let's spend the night
*Take me to far away
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which
I'll repay Someday with a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in love
in love again
When the stars don't shine
And when the birds don't fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red
and when the rose turn blue
Baby I'll still be in love with you
Janice - In Love again
Now Playing:
When you smile
my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight
I'll be hypnotized
when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light
let's spend the night
*Take me to far away
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which
I'll repay Someday with a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in love
in love again
When the stars don't shine
And when the birds don't fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red
and when the rose turn blue
Baby I'll still be in love with you
came across one of my primary school friend's blog,
and theres this which i think is quite true.
go try it out!
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.
(omg. this para is so damn accurately true. im speechless.)
Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.
(i really think the test is scary, as if it can read my mind and heart. eeyer!)
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.
(ya. true)
Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.
You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material. (haha. i only think the last sentence not true as i think im not fit for managerial position and im not decisive.)
and theres this which i think is quite true.
go try it out!
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.
(omg. this para is so damn accurately true. im speechless.)
Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.
(i really think the test is scary, as if it can read my mind and heart. eeyer!)
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.
(ya. true)
Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.
You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material. (haha. i only think the last sentence not true as i think im not fit for managerial position and im not decisive.)
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
and so,
the funeral ended with over 100 friends and relative going to the crematorium with us,
watching him being slowly pushed to the place where he gonna be cremate is like so terrible
with all of us crying and shouting for ah gong,
its the most heart-wrenching scenario ever.
i dunno how much i've cried during that 5 days of funeral.
i just know that when i start crying, it cant seems to stop.
thanks to mummy,
she cry until so jia lat,
that influenced everyone ard her to cry too.
my sisters and i cried our hearts out and when ye ye saw us, he cried too.
the moment when i really cannot take it is when we are supposed to see ah gong the last time before they cover the coffin.
everyone in sight cried.
i want to remember how he looked before he gets cremated, and i will never get the chance again.
i swear that the laws and rules of the funeral is mean.
the rule says that wife cannot accompany husband to the crematorium.
and so, my ah ma have to stay at the funeral,
watching ah gong being drove away,
crying.
i witness this scene,
and my heart like goes aching like hell.
how could the rule do this?
so wu qing.
thursday ritual was tiring and i got burnt by the joss stick, and now, i have a burnt mark on my fingers.
it was sure painful, but i treat it as a gift that ah gong left it on me.
saw ah gong ashes yesterday.
his bones were white and pinkish,
and the master there told us that ah gong is a kind and good man,
that explains the colour of his bones.
im so happy upon hearing that,
cos he is truely a kind one in my heart!
the funeral had taken a toll on all of us, mentally and physically.
i still feel depressed sometimes,
but i chose not to show it.
cos i know ah gong, wont want me to feel that way.
i really missed my ah gong.
the funeral ended with over 100 friends and relative going to the crematorium with us,
watching him being slowly pushed to the place where he gonna be cremate is like so terrible
with all of us crying and shouting for ah gong,
its the most heart-wrenching scenario ever.
i dunno how much i've cried during that 5 days of funeral.
i just know that when i start crying, it cant seems to stop.
thanks to mummy,
she cry until so jia lat,
that influenced everyone ard her to cry too.
my sisters and i cried our hearts out and when ye ye saw us, he cried too.
the moment when i really cannot take it is when we are supposed to see ah gong the last time before they cover the coffin.
everyone in sight cried.
i want to remember how he looked before he gets cremated, and i will never get the chance again.
i swear that the laws and rules of the funeral is mean.
the rule says that wife cannot accompany husband to the crematorium.
and so, my ah ma have to stay at the funeral,
watching ah gong being drove away,
crying.
i witness this scene,
and my heart like goes aching like hell.
how could the rule do this?
so wu qing.
thursday ritual was tiring and i got burnt by the joss stick, and now, i have a burnt mark on my fingers.
it was sure painful, but i treat it as a gift that ah gong left it on me.
saw ah gong ashes yesterday.
his bones were white and pinkish,
and the master there told us that ah gong is a kind and good man,
that explains the colour of his bones.
im so happy upon hearing that,
cos he is truely a kind one in my heart!
the funeral had taken a toll on all of us, mentally and physically.
i still feel depressed sometimes,
but i chose not to show it.
cos i know ah gong, wont want me to feel that way.
i really missed my ah gong.
Monday, March 19, 2007
he ended his sufferings on 19 Mar 2007,
after suffering for 25days in the hospital,
he left, peacefully.
forever in my memories,
he will always be a great cook.
the days when he took me for ferry ride when i was young,
the days when he would punish me to stand outside the house when im naughty,
the days when he will bring me to the playground before dinner,
the days when he always say he bought ice cream and we can only eat it if we finish our dinner fast.
the days when he would travel overseas with us.
the moments when he told us about his story about his life with grandma.
i'll miss the delicious popiah that he always make.
i'll miss the egg that he specially cooked for my sis if we dine at his place.
i'll miss his new year yu sheng that he always prepare all by himself for the past new year.
the last thing that he asked me to help him,
was to help him calculate the number of hours he had worked,
to ensure that his employer gave the correct wages to him.
as i watched him getting weaker day by day, suffering in pain,
couldnt eat, couldnt talk,
my heart ached, and i can only hope that his sufferings can end soon.
and today, his sufferings ended.
forever in my memories,
my beloved ah gong.
rest in peace.
after suffering for 25days in the hospital,
he left, peacefully.
forever in my memories,
he will always be a great cook.
the days when he took me for ferry ride when i was young,
the days when he would punish me to stand outside the house when im naughty,
the days when he will bring me to the playground before dinner,
the days when he always say he bought ice cream and we can only eat it if we finish our dinner fast.
the days when he would travel overseas with us.
the moments when he told us about his story about his life with grandma.
i'll miss the delicious popiah that he always make.
i'll miss the egg that he specially cooked for my sis if we dine at his place.
i'll miss his new year yu sheng that he always prepare all by himself for the past new year.
the last thing that he asked me to help him,
was to help him calculate the number of hours he had worked,
to ensure that his employer gave the correct wages to him.
as i watched him getting weaker day by day, suffering in pain,
couldnt eat, couldnt talk,
my heart ached, and i can only hope that his sufferings can end soon.
and today, his sufferings ended.
forever in my memories,
my beloved ah gong.
rest in peace.
Friday, March 16, 2007
my dear desktop decided to die on me on wednesday night.
that explains my sudden disappearance from the internet world.
this got its pros and cons.
pros: im slping early cos i've got nth to do.
cons: its damn boring at home. eversince exams ended, staying at homes means TV and Internet. Now that my second source of entertainment is gone, and the other source of entertainment shows boring programmes, it drives me to bed.
im like stucked in this telemarketing job.
i've worked for like7days already, and i've not closed any sales.
and that jack-look-a-liked who only came for like 3 days managed to close a sale for his project.
i think im just plain suay lar.
he only follow up my ex-colleague's work, and he got the sale.
while me, slog hard through the usual office hours, call and call, but still kanna rejected.
i want COMMISSION.
but no one wanna come to the conference im sellling!
theres another reason y im suay.
i bought my loreal mosturiser from watson last night.
and when i reached home and conference chat with jy and hm,
jy told me metro having 20% sales.
THIS IS THE SECOND TIME THAT SUCH INCIDENT OCCURRED TO ME.
shit my luck.
and just as im planning for a reason to quit my work,
i received another negative news that prevent me from quitting.
well...i guessed this is a sign telling me that i should stay on the boring telemarketing job till this project ends, and hopefully i can close some deals while following up on the emails i sent this week.
chatted with jy and hm and told them how scary i've became.
the reason y im hanging on this boring job is because of money.
maybe its because studies is not my primary focus now,
i tend to think of money every moment.
i have to say that, money is really the only motivation for me to stay in this job, as in i dun find any joy while working. but for the sake of feeding my bank account, i shall hang on. i guessed, if it was last time, i would have probably quit my job in less than 3 days.
im getting used to my pretty much routinised life now.
every morning wake up at 7.20am,
leave house at 8am,
reach office at 9am,
pick up phone and start calling,
look forward to highlight of the morning, which is lunch break at 1pm.
go back to office at exactly 2pm,
start to call till 6pm,
and leave the office at exactly 6pm.
thr goes 1 day unknowingly.
im taking up swimming once again.
im thinking if i should buy a new swim suit for myself,
since i've always been wearing my mum's and i dun think it fitted well....
i guessed, i'll only start thinking about this when my pay comes in.
money money money!
i think i wont be able to login so frequently,
because, my sisters will all be fighting over the use of this old laptop,
and everytime i reach home, they will use, turn by turn,
but it will never get to my turn.
the cons of having too many siblings.
weekdays gg HK next week.
gers, enjoy ur trip there and take good care of yourselves alright?!
that explains my sudden disappearance from the internet world.
this got its pros and cons.
pros: im slping early cos i've got nth to do.
cons: its damn boring at home. eversince exams ended, staying at homes means TV and Internet. Now that my second source of entertainment is gone, and the other source of entertainment shows boring programmes, it drives me to bed.
im like stucked in this telemarketing job.
i've worked for like7days already, and i've not closed any sales.
and that jack-look-a-liked who only came for like 3 days managed to close a sale for his project.
i think im just plain suay lar.
he only follow up my ex-colleague's work, and he got the sale.
while me, slog hard through the usual office hours, call and call, but still kanna rejected.
i want COMMISSION.
but no one wanna come to the conference im sellling!
theres another reason y im suay.
i bought my loreal mosturiser from watson last night.
and when i reached home and conference chat with jy and hm,
jy told me metro having 20% sales.
THIS IS THE SECOND TIME THAT SUCH INCIDENT OCCURRED TO ME.
shit my luck.
and just as im planning for a reason to quit my work,
i received another negative news that prevent me from quitting.
well...i guessed this is a sign telling me that i should stay on the boring telemarketing job till this project ends, and hopefully i can close some deals while following up on the emails i sent this week.
chatted with jy and hm and told them how scary i've became.
the reason y im hanging on this boring job is because of money.
maybe its because studies is not my primary focus now,
i tend to think of money every moment.
i have to say that, money is really the only motivation for me to stay in this job, as in i dun find any joy while working. but for the sake of feeding my bank account, i shall hang on. i guessed, if it was last time, i would have probably quit my job in less than 3 days.
im getting used to my pretty much routinised life now.
every morning wake up at 7.20am,
leave house at 8am,
reach office at 9am,
pick up phone and start calling,
look forward to highlight of the morning, which is lunch break at 1pm.
go back to office at exactly 2pm,
start to call till 6pm,
and leave the office at exactly 6pm.
thr goes 1 day unknowingly.
im taking up swimming once again.
im thinking if i should buy a new swim suit for myself,
since i've always been wearing my mum's and i dun think it fitted well....
i guessed, i'll only start thinking about this when my pay comes in.
money money money!
i think i wont be able to login so frequently,
because, my sisters will all be fighting over the use of this old laptop,
and everytime i reach home, they will use, turn by turn,
but it will never get to my turn.
the cons of having too many siblings.
weekdays gg HK next week.
gers, enjoy ur trip there and take good care of yourselves alright?!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
i swear real hard that this is the most dissapointing and sad grad ball ever!
i had freaking thick and ugly make-up on,
with the most disgusting messy hair in the world.
and worst of all, it still cost 59 bucks.
how could they do this to me,
when its supposed to be one of the greatest event in every girl's life.
perhaps jiayi is right,
the make-up artist cum hair stylist hates me!
when i looked at the pictures,
i just feel like smashing the monitor,
and if possible,
destroy the evidence of my presence at the grad ball.
i really looked so freaking disgusting extremely UGLY.
im still considering if i should ask huimei to send me the pictures,
but it will only remind me of how disgusting i looked and how the money was spent on the disgusting make-up and hair.
i dun even dare to show my parents the picture we took that night.
IM SO DEPRESSED, COS I FELT THAT I WAS THE UGLIEST GIRL THAT NIGHT.
went to dblo for my very first club experience with my classmates after gradball. (and yes, still with the disgusting make-up on.)
it was fun lar, dancing and stuffs,
but because of my depressed mood, i didnt really enjoy.
nothing could make me better now.
no matter how much consolations i get frm friends, telling me im not ugly,
no matter how much assurance from my boyfriend that im not ugly,
no matter how much i tell myself that im not ugly,
BUT THE FACT IS, IM SO UGLY THAT NIGHT
THAT SUCK IN EVERY PICTURE I TOOK,
AND SPOIL THE WHOLE PICTURE IF ITS A GROUP PHOTO.
if i ever get a chance to erase something out of my life,
this gradball would definitely be one of them.
oh....i guess i will dwell on this for at least 3 months.
if only i could turn back time.....
i had freaking thick and ugly make-up on,
with the most disgusting messy hair in the world.
and worst of all, it still cost 59 bucks.
how could they do this to me,
when its supposed to be one of the greatest event in every girl's life.
perhaps jiayi is right,
the make-up artist cum hair stylist hates me!
when i looked at the pictures,
i just feel like smashing the monitor,
and if possible,
destroy the evidence of my presence at the grad ball.
i really looked so freaking disgusting extremely UGLY.
im still considering if i should ask huimei to send me the pictures,
but it will only remind me of how disgusting i looked and how the money was spent on the disgusting make-up and hair.
i dun even dare to show my parents the picture we took that night.
IM SO DEPRESSED, COS I FELT THAT I WAS THE UGLIEST GIRL THAT NIGHT.
went to dblo for my very first club experience with my classmates after gradball. (and yes, still with the disgusting make-up on.)
it was fun lar, dancing and stuffs,
but because of my depressed mood, i didnt really enjoy.
nothing could make me better now.
no matter how much consolations i get frm friends, telling me im not ugly,
no matter how much assurance from my boyfriend that im not ugly,
no matter how much i tell myself that im not ugly,
BUT THE FACT IS, IM SO UGLY THAT NIGHT
THAT SUCK IN EVERY PICTURE I TOOK,
AND SPOIL THE WHOLE PICTURE IF ITS A GROUP PHOTO.
if i ever get a chance to erase something out of my life,
this gradball would definitely be one of them.
oh....i guess i will dwell on this for at least 3 months.
if only i could turn back time.....
Sunday, March 04, 2007
23rd Feb
relatives gathered at my house.
its also the day when i decided to go on diet for grad ball.
however, it failed terribly cos my mum cooked my favourite curry!
my mum is evil!!! how to resist her curry?!!!
this is my 8 months old baby cousin.
she can never stop moving her small little body even when u are carry her.
therefore, we could not capture a still image of her.
nevertheless, she's so cute!
u smile, she smile.
u never smile, she'll still smile.
she's not afraid of strangers, who also can carry her!
and the best thing is, she got long lashes.
im so jealous!
24th Feb -- weekdays CNY steamboat gathering at amanda's house
i love amanda's house because her living room's wall is PINK.
totally warm and pretty. i love it.
this time round, teck chiat wasnt there, so no camera man, so we didnt managed to take much photos.
another reason y i love her house.
The sheet of mirror infront of her dinning table.
i fall in love with myself sometimes. haha. *shy*
after eating and a little of black jack at her house, we decided to go parkway to chat over a cuppa.
we took a bus from woodlands interchange to parkway.
the whole journey took 1 hour.
zZZZ.
upon reaching parkway,
cxin wanted to deposit some cash.
and beside the cash deposit machine,
there is this.....
and so i decided to try my luck.
slit in my 1 dollar coin.
turn the knob,
hoping to get a beautiful coin pouch.
and i got the green one.
i tot mine was ugly at 1st.
but the more i look at it, the more cute i felt it was.
but all of us, agreed that mine wasnt the ugliest.
the mickey mouse was the ugliest!
haha!
me and my cute green 'dou ji yen' coin pounch.
and oh, i love my pink nails.
2nd March 2007
went to ubi driving centre to supposrt chun hui.
and we received good news from amada and jiamin that they did well for their "A" levels.
feel so happy for them.
went to sakae at changi airport for dinner with them, even though i was super tired.
discuss abit about their upcoming HK trip,
and suggested some recommendations for them.
and when i reached home, i was shocked.
my eyes were super red.
i dunno y this always happen to my eye.
poor eye.
next up will my my gradball at 8th mar.
hopefully, i will be able to make it.
relatives gathered at my house.
its also the day when i decided to go on diet for grad ball.
however, it failed terribly cos my mum cooked my favourite curry!
my mum is evil!!! how to resist her curry?!!!
this is my 8 months old baby cousin.
she can never stop moving her small little body even when u are carry her.
therefore, we could not capture a still image of her.
nevertheless, she's so cute!
u smile, she smile.
u never smile, she'll still smile.
she's not afraid of strangers, who also can carry her!
and the best thing is, she got long lashes.
im so jealous!
24th Feb -- weekdays CNY steamboat gathering at amanda's house
i love amanda's house because her living room's wall is PINK.
totally warm and pretty. i love it.
this time round, teck chiat wasnt there, so no camera man, so we didnt managed to take much photos.
another reason y i love her house.
The sheet of mirror infront of her dinning table.
i fall in love with myself sometimes. haha. *shy*
after eating and a little of black jack at her house, we decided to go parkway to chat over a cuppa.
we took a bus from woodlands interchange to parkway.
the whole journey took 1 hour.
zZZZ.
upon reaching parkway,
cxin wanted to deposit some cash.
and beside the cash deposit machine,
there is this.....
and so i decided to try my luck.
slit in my 1 dollar coin.
turn the knob,
hoping to get a beautiful coin pouch.
and i got the green one.
i tot mine was ugly at 1st.
but the more i look at it, the more cute i felt it was.
but all of us, agreed that mine wasnt the ugliest.
the mickey mouse was the ugliest!
haha!
me and my cute green 'dou ji yen' coin pounch.
and oh, i love my pink nails.
2nd March 2007
had our marketing plan competition.
the day finally came.
i think i've sacrificed alot for this competition.
i rejected to job opportunities because of this.
supposed to assemble at 8am in the morning,
but we met at 6.30am in school that day to do some last min preparation.
tats so early lor!
i woke up at 4.30am to change to do my make up and stuffs.
so early!
the worst thing is, the 1st bus was at 6.24am,
so i had to trouble my mum to drive me to the mrt station at 5.40am.
thanks mummy~
although the results was abit dissapponting for us,
but its alright,
cos through this competition,
i've really learnt alot alot from my team mates, my coach and my tutor.
eventhough sometimes this project almost had us all breakdown, drained out of ideas,
i still dreaded the end of this competition,
cos this means that we're really gonna leave SP for real.
This competition marks the end of the project and student life.
my team mates - 21900!
us and Mr Cho, our coach for this competition
The champions~
felt so proud for our class man!
Thank you classmates and lecturers,
for all the wonderful experience and memories in SP.
went to ubi driving centre to supposrt chun hui.
and we received good news from amada and jiamin that they did well for their "A" levels.
feel so happy for them.
went to sakae at changi airport for dinner with them, even though i was super tired.
discuss abit about their upcoming HK trip,
and suggested some recommendations for them.
and when i reached home, i was shocked.
my eyes were super red.
i dunno y this always happen to my eye.
poor eye.
next up will my my gradball at 8th mar.
hopefully, i will be able to make it.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
i tried to appear normal infront of everyone.
its really tiring by trying so hard.
everyday, my throat hurts so much from gulping down my tears, so as the tears wont flow out of my small eyes.
everyday, i tell myself he would get better, but the reality is just so true for me to deceive myself.
everyday, i cry myself to slp, hoping that the day wont come.
everyday, i woke up with sore eyes and headache, without the motivation to do
anything, yet i have an important task on hand.
everyday, i would start thinking of the past, and i would be disgusted by my
actions, for going out with my frens instead of having dinner at his house.
everyday, i have to tell myself to be strong, but whenever i thought of the pain he is suffering, i breakdown.
everyday, when i visit him, i hate myself for not being able to chat much with him and ease the pain he is suffering.
yes, there's an end eventually in one's life.
but he dun deserve to suffer all these pain. really.
im tired.
i dun wanna be strong.
i dun wanna pretend nothing's wrong.
its really so hard to accept the reality,
no matter how prepared i am, i still wont be able to accept the worst.
its really tiring by trying so hard.
everyday, my throat hurts so much from gulping down my tears, so as the tears wont flow out of my small eyes.
everyday, i tell myself he would get better, but the reality is just so true for me to deceive myself.
everyday, i cry myself to slp, hoping that the day wont come.
everyday, i woke up with sore eyes and headache, without the motivation to do
anything, yet i have an important task on hand.
everyday, i would start thinking of the past, and i would be disgusted by my
actions, for going out with my frens instead of having dinner at his house.
everyday, i have to tell myself to be strong, but whenever i thought of the pain he is suffering, i breakdown.
everyday, when i visit him, i hate myself for not being able to chat much with him and ease the pain he is suffering.
yes, there's an end eventually in one's life.
but he dun deserve to suffer all these pain. really.
im tired.
i dun wanna be strong.
i dun wanna pretend nothing's wrong.
its really so hard to accept the reality,
no matter how prepared i am, i still wont be able to accept the worst.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
A very happy CNY to all~
This year, CNY was almost the same as the previous years,
all i did was eat, watch tv and gamble at relatives or friends' hse.
My luck this year wasnt that bad, since i didnt really lose money while gambling.
I hope the luck keeps coming in!
Before New Year, Xin and Me went to Pat's house to learn how to bake cornflake cookies!
The response from friends and relatives were positive, so i might consider selling them the next CNY IF my daddy decides to invest in a bigger and better Oven.
For the previous CNY, when we visit relatives' hse, its really easy to identify who is the eldest and who is the youngest among us, the 4 sisters.
However, this time round, it wasnt a simple task to them anymore,
somehow, my sis all seemed to have grown taller and dressed in a more matured way,
im often being mistook as the 2nd or the 3rd.
And i believed, in a few months time, when my youngest sis continue to grow taller,
I'll be the shortest in this Lim Family.
Damn. Cant they just stop growing vertically?
Had enough of people laughing at the scene of us standing together, with me being the shortest.
I dun mind being the shortest, but my size doesnt fit my height!
#)(&^%%$#@!~!*
On the other hand, life is really unfair,
cos the person, who prays so hard not to grow taller, is growing taller.
*flash my evil look at Hui Mei*
Will i ever grow taller again?
There was once when i was eating lollipop,
and one of my relative mistook me as the youngest one,
her reason was "u eating lollipop, so i tot u the youngest"
but then...so says grown-ups cannot eat lollipop?
Maybe i just dont look my age, and i look younger than my age,
which is a good thing, cos this means tat i dun look Chao Lao.
Haha. Self -consolations.
The only part i enjoyed during this CNY is to doll myself up.
Been learning how to put on eye shadow and i tried on the green one.
I think it looks good with my fake lashes. Somehow, my eye seems to brighten up.
Went to Huimei, Qj, Jw and Tobs house yesterday for clique New Year gatherings.
Original plan was to have steamboat at marina, but ended up eating KFC at Tob's hse.
Like wad tobs says, this may be the last time we will be gg to his house.
hmm....
Damn Damn Damn!
I've gained 2Kg! can u believe it?
omg omg. I really have to work extra hard to shed off more weights before grad ball!!!
thanks to ba guas, lapis cake and hei bee hiam.
i feel so guilty now!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Been thinking really alot since exams ended.
and i really hate that,
cos i end up losing sleep.
However, i cant ctrl my mind.
the more i asked myself not to think,
the more my mind thinks.
sometimes,
as we understand each other more,
more conflicts arises,
the insecurities and uncertainty in me increases,
the more i felt that we are distancing from each other.
i wonder,
Is there a limit to compromising?
and if there is, where is mine and where is yours?
can we compromise for as long as a life time?
can we accept each other's fault for a life time.
am i really the one that u're looking for?
totally not in the mood for CNY.
think, i'll be creating a new blog which allow me to 'lock' some of my posts for personal reference.
any recommendations?
and i really hate that,
cos i end up losing sleep.
However, i cant ctrl my mind.
the more i asked myself not to think,
the more my mind thinks.
sometimes,
as we understand each other more,
more conflicts arises,
the insecurities and uncertainty in me increases,
the more i felt that we are distancing from each other.
i wonder,
Is there a limit to compromising?
and if there is, where is mine and where is yours?
can we compromise for as long as a life time?
can we accept each other's fault for a life time.
am i really the one that u're looking for?
totally not in the mood for CNY.
think, i'll be creating a new blog which allow me to 'lock' some of my posts for personal reference.
any recommendations?
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Friday, February 09, 2007
somehow when its finally over,
it feels like something is missing,
the once 'oh-so-packed' life says goodbye,
and i begin living each day aimlessly.
the moment i dread is finally here for me to decide.
Which direction should i head next?
as usual, life is full of uncertainty.
theres so many things i wanna try,
but do i qualify for them?
im so used to somebody making the decision for me.
now the ball is in my hands,
i've gotta learn how to pass and throw the ball,
rather than leaving it to fate, and letting it fall.
but then again, its like im loosing control of my life.
like seriously, does everyone feel the same as me?
the weakest cant survive in this society. we gotta fight for our living.
and through past experience, i really felt that im the weakest.
the wall that i depended on since young, seems so filmsy now.
omg. omg. omg.
im loosing slp everynight whenever i think of my future.
my head hurts, my throat hurts, and world seems to be spinning.
it must be the effect of the cough medicine. It must be.
it feels like something is missing,
the once 'oh-so-packed' life says goodbye,
and i begin living each day aimlessly.
the moment i dread is finally here for me to decide.
Which direction should i head next?
as usual, life is full of uncertainty.
theres so many things i wanna try,
but do i qualify for them?
im so used to somebody making the decision for me.
now the ball is in my hands,
i've gotta learn how to pass and throw the ball,
rather than leaving it to fate, and letting it fall.
but then again, its like im loosing control of my life.
like seriously, does everyone feel the same as me?
the weakest cant survive in this society. we gotta fight for our living.
and through past experience, i really felt that im the weakest.
the wall that i depended on since young, seems so filmsy now.
omg. omg. omg.
im loosing slp everynight whenever i think of my future.
my head hurts, my throat hurts, and world seems to be spinning.
it must be the effect of the cough medicine. It must be.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
b2b b2b b2b b2b b2b b2b b2b b2b b2b!!!
i jus cant seem to focus on my b2b chapters.
i just cant get those notes into my damn head.
memorise like nv memorise like that....
but bu but...
im so looking forward to tomorrow...
last paper!
and of course,
1 yr anniversary for me and him.
*gg back to my notes* shoo~
i jus cant seem to focus on my b2b chapters.
i just cant get those notes into my damn head.
memorise like nv memorise like that....
but bu but...
im so looking forward to tomorrow...
last paper!
and of course,
1 yr anniversary for me and him.
*gg back to my notes* shoo~
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