Sunday, December 31, 2006

Xmas 2006 celebrations.

mLsars gathering.


Weekdays gathering.

Test my balancing skill at amanda's house


haha. look at my sis retarded face. i can foresee her hammering me by posting this pic up.

didnt take any pics with class clique and dear during our christmas gathering. =(

anyways, xmas was fun and fruitful (in terms of presents) this year! im a happy girl!

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the last day of year 2006.

having the feelings of mixed emotions now, treasuring every breathe of the moment.

because, once the clock strike 12 tonight, year 2006 will nv return.



so many things happened this year.

good ones, bad ones, happy ones, sad ones.

i believe, everything happens for a reason.



looking at last year's 31st dec entry, its like so emo and sad!

couldnt remember i felt that way already.

anyway,

i didnt set any new year resolutions this year.

haha! but i think i there are still some accomplishments!



i've got my driving license.

i've slimmed down a little.

cant think of any major one already....



and oh ya.

year 2006, its the year i accepted dear into my life!



so new year resolutions for the coming new year?



hmm....



slim down more,

smooth r/s,

earn more $$$$$



think that will be all.



we shouldnt be greedy.



=)



happy new year everybody.



*back to my report. so sad. haha*

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Went xin's house as early as 8.30am to trouble her for helping out with my BD accounts.
it was incredibly messy even though john foo already help me balance my year 1 figures.
Up till 12pm, we were still figuring out why the balance sheet cannot be balance.
I really dont understand how people can stand the job of being a accountant. All they do is to face dead and boring figures.

We dated Pat( our teacher!) for lunch and was waiting for her to reply xin's sms on the venue and time to meet. But Pat said she planned something special for us which leaves me and xin anticipating what is she up to.
While xin is dressing herself up, i took an artistic photo of myself.



Dont you guys think its artistic? Haha. Im in the small little purple-framed mirror.

And while xin is busy checking the accounts, i took out all her rings and tried in on my own fingers. lame right?


Finally received Pat's call and she asked as to take a cab to Regents Hotel from cityhall taxi stand. We were so puzzled by her because we were wondering why must we take a cab specifically from the taxi stand outside Robinsons.
We did as what we were told and tadah~ we reached Regents Hotel.
We were treated like VIPs and i tell you, the feeling was wonderful. (sound so sua-ku)
Then we waited for Pat at the lobby started feeling that we were underdressed for this kind of place.

Then, Pat appeared! omg. she is still as pretty. and she treated us to this English High tea set. It was so much like fine dining. It was our 1st time dining at this kinda place and environment, so Xin and me felt so stressed and tensed up as we dun really know what to do with the cutlery and stuffs, and we were pratically sitting up straight on our back for the 1st 15 minutes!


I tried their Carribean Summer and it has an orangy-fruitty taste. Smells very sweet. and whats more important is that the colour of the tea is PINK in colour. So pretty!

Xin ordered Earl Grey which i think it tasted like my perfume from Body Shop.

The tea pot and the tea cup.


Chatted while we struggled to finish the pastries. We can really talked alot! from guys to life to future to love to religion. Felt so inspiring and comfortable talking to her. Its been a long time when i have this kinda conversation already. I dunno how to describe her, she is just like our idol. there's just so much to learn from her.

We left Regents hotel at 4pm and she drove us back to Eunos. The traffic lights at eunos were all out of order! the traffic was like scary. those people having driving test at around that time must be quite unlucky ba.

But the sad thing is....we forgot to take pictures with Pat. :(

After we reached home, we headed back to our accounts. time seems to pass so fast when we are figuring out the numbers.

Supposed to leave house at 6.30 to head to parkway to meet weekdays for k box session. But by the time we finished the accounts, it was already 8pm! felt so bad as the rest had to wait for us!

Regreted not bring ear plug to Kbox because TOR TECK CHIAT was simply irritating when the microphone is with him. haha! Nevertheless, really enjoy that night even though i was feeling real tired and i had to leave at 11pm. Going to meet them up on Christmas day itself to go KUSU island!

yippee! sounds odd. but who cares?! it will also be my first time there!

ANd to Pat: if you are reading this, i wanna thank you for the treat again!
Learnt so much from you!
Like wad Xin said, we love you.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

my father said:

“可以用钱解决的问题,不是问题。
用钱还解决不了的问题, 才是真正的问题。”

I HATE BD!

Friday, December 08, 2006

yeah! i passed my driving test on 7th Dec 2006! first try!

i was so nervous the night before that i couldnt sleep well,
and on the actual day,
i couldnt sit still, i could feel my heart racing every minute, and irregular breathings makes me dizzy. worst still, my hands were cold through out the day.
i swear, this driving test can be ranked the top 3 in "the scariest test" of my life.

Huixian's test was on the same day as mine except that her slot was the morning slot and mine was the afternoon one.
when she called to tell us that she passed,
i got even stress-er.
but i feel so happy for her!


and i skipped my afternoon lesson for my last session of practical lesson b4 test.
and den finally, it was time for me to warm up in my test car.
my instructor wished me good luck and he said that he will wait for my good news.
dunno why, i feel like crying liao.
den b4 warm up, i called dear and my tears jus flow! i was really NERVOUS and SCARED. its like i have to face this battle alone. a lonely and tough battle!

but anyways, the test is now over, and i finally got my driving license after spending like $2000.
now that im a qualified driver, i can drive on the road!
but before that, i still need to learn how to park without the poles that we always use in the driving centre. haha.
if not know how to drive but dunno how to park also no use.

i didnt regret registering as a student of BBDC.
the instructors were patient and the test routes were smooth! unlike the one at Ubi, with congested traffic.

and i think, praying b4 the test and eating vegetarian on ur test day helps.
cos i did that and i passed.

thanks my friends who send me encouragement messages. It help to boost my confidence level up a little.
thanks jingwei and huixian for telling me all the necessary stuffs to look out for.
thanks my parents for encouraging me.
thanks huimei for giving me her luck, which cause her to have bad luck for the rest of the day.
thanks jiayi for working so hard for BSG while i concentrate on my driving.
and lastly, thanks dear for believing in me. =)
your words, your encouragement, your everything.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

.promise.

It never occur to me that promise is just and empty word to me, until yesterday, when i had a tiff with dear for breaking my promise.

Promise- something so important, so saint, so meaningful and so hopeful to him. Yet, over here, i looked upon promise so lightly and easily, that i almost didnt know what is the exact meaning of the word 'promise' anymore.

And with that, I portrayed myself as someone who is irresponsible, not trustworthy and someone who only make empty promises. Its a miracle, how he could tolerate me again and again, continue to love me and not giving me up.

On my way back home yesterday, i recaped what happened between us in the day and then reflected my ations and behaviour, trying to find out what promises really mean to me. why am i someone who take promises so lightly.

The only reason to defend myself is that im being brought up in an environment of empty promises. It doesnt really matter to me that someone break his/her promise to me. It really doesnt matter to me because, from young, i've learnt to look at promises lightly and not give a damn abt those promises which makes people goes 'awww....'
I've learnt how not to feel so hopeful about a promise. I dont feel extremely happy or assured even if someone fulfilled his/her promise. My parents sometimes make empty promises too and i've learnt how to deal with it. My friends makes empty promises and i've learnt how to not let it bother me. In other words, i've excreted the word 'promise' out of my world, my dictionary. It's like a vase, beautifying the whole picture. Just a vase, a plain vase.
And then, i wonder if pushing the word 'promise' out of my dictionary is equivalent to pushing the responsibilities im liable for ???

yup, maybe to others, all the above were just bullshits and lame excuses. Im ok with people thinking this way because i would too, if im a third party. I'll see myself as an irresponsible piece of shit.
my uncle said " you're just like a piece of shit" right into my face when i told him i'll rank friends before family a few years back. and i tell you, it really doesnt feel good at all.
but hell, now, i really feel no difference from being a piece of shit.
I felt so regretful so making empty promises, hurting the one i love, the one who love me.

And today, i finally learnt my lesson.
Never promise anything that you arent sure if the promise can work out. Especially to your love ones. If notm the outcome will turn out so disappointing and so disatourous. It misplaces one's trust. And yes, in every relationship that is significant, trust is the foundation.

Instead of saying "i promise", i would rather say "i'll try my best"

Im currently accepting the word 'promise' into my world again.
Im currently learning the importance and significance of the word.
A simple word, yet contain tons of responsibilities, hopes and trusts.

At the end of the day, my advice is not to promise anything that you arent capable of, or promising without thinking of the feasibility. Sometimes, it is just so difficult because, promising and not promising will also lead to disappointment.

A promise is still an empty promise if not delivered completely, regardless of how much effort or sacrifices is invested, in trying to deliver it.

I must admit im not a good girlfriend, someone who tends to be irresponsible, someone who runs away from problems, someone who makes empty promises, someone who always makes statement without thinking which cause negative consequences.

But im very sure that, be it because of my environment or my incapabilities, i'll do something to achieve my promise even if i know i will fail to complete the whole picture.

i dunno what will be your reaction when u see this post.
all i want to say is.... sorry for making empty promises.
from now on, i'll see promises at the angle that u are seeing.
love!