thanks to those who express their care and concerns,

thanks to those who urge me to stay strong.

for those who make a trip down to the hospital, thank you so much, frm the bottom of my heart.


im doing fine....

this time round,



im unexpectedly strong.




so strong, that i feel so disgusted by myself.





i still feel like crying,

but theres like not much tears left.



im still leading my life as per normal.



school starting next week.

im looking forward to it.







mummy, haven u slept long enough?

open your eyes and WAKE UP.

continue to sing loudly in the house,

continue nagging at me for not bathing early.

continue to do wad you want to do,


we just need you to wake up.

我一向来都把他当成超人，

因为家里所有的事，

只要有他在，

什么难题我们都不必操心。

家里的电灯坏了，他就会把灯泡换掉。

家里的电器坏了，他就会把它修好。

家里出现可恶的蟑螂，他就会把它除掉。

不想搭巴士去地铁站， 他就好开车载我去。





真的不会想到，

他今天会对我说。。。。



“我现在很无奈，很彷徨”




你叫我怎么不心碎?





原来超人也会感到无奈。







爸爸，你要坚强。
我会尽我的一切，
减轻你的负担。
爸爸，我爱你。

life is so unpredictable.


can you believe it?


no, i cant.








my life is in a mess now.





my heart aches like no body's business.





whats wrong with year 2007?







please....

hang on for us.

*pray pray pray real hard*



pls, let everything be alright,
she is still young to suffer all these shit.



pls pls pls.
everything MUST be fine.
we cant do it without her.

我。。。


不喜欢自己的决定不被尊重，

不喜欢自己的立场不被祝福。


我。。。

希望大家能够多体谅我，支持我，


因为只有这样，

我才能不顾一切的去追求我想要的东西，



就算将来会后悔当初的决定.....



我也只能怪我自己，

而不是你们。

i dunno if i should like the word "cute".
when i think of "cute", i would think of smth which is round, soft, nice to cuddle.
but i dun wan to be ROUND.

maybe because one is not pretty enough, thats y people use the word "cute" as an alternative.
i myself do that sometimes too.
haha.

sometimes when i think too much,
"cute" turns out to be an insult if its used on me.











so depressing.
so disheartening.





my sis and mum commented that my face turned ROUNDER suddenly.
and when i look into the mirror,
i discovereed the horror too.
not only my face became rounder,
everywhere on me is becoming rounder too.






ahhh!!!!!




the weighing scale in my hse is also driving me crazy,
with different measurements everytime i stand on it.





I WANT AN ACCURATE DIGITAL WEIGHING SCALE!

you know,
i feel that lao tian ye is like loving my current shape so much that he doesnt want me to exercise!

yesterday,
im suppose to go for a swim in the morning, but it rained,
so i continue slping in that nice weather.

today, on my way home,
i determined to walk home from the mrt station.

but but but,
when i stepped out of the station,
i started to pour HEAVILY!

i had no choice, but to take a bus back instead.
and when i board the bus,
the rain miraculously STOPPED.

i think lao tian ye really love me for who i am now too.
haha.

but seriously, i really feel so fat,
cos i over ate the past few days.

when my mum was in CGH,
i ate yogurt icecream almost everyday!
and because my grandparents were there, i have to finish up my whole plate of dinner (they say its not good to waste food)
and then relatives and friends who visited my mum at the hospital brought a hamper with lotsa goodies inside,
and i couldnt resist the temptations to snack!
omg.

and i think my house can open a stall to sell essence of chicken.
we have ALOT at home.
drink until nose bleed also can.
haha

u know, Changi Hospital is like a mini SP.
there's like I-SCREAM yogurt (which i really missed)
and this....



the sandwich vending machine.
although the sandwich is expensive,
but i think it tasted good.


had been shopping at bugis street with my dear sisters over the weekend.
bought tops which i think was real cheap!
im happy.



still remember the extendable mirror my dad bought from IKEA for me to use when i make-up?

hahas.

i love my reflections in them.





wenna says im beginning to blog like shunwei!

omg. i feel that too.
maybe its because, its them who thought me how to love myself first before loving others.
theres so many photos of ourselves in our blog,
cos we love ourselves.












he won my heart back.
im falling in love all over again.
theres still sparks in us,
despite the clashing schedules we have and the limted times to meet up.


its all about the moment.
i shall just enjoy my scenery and not think too much.


I really feel happy and contented now.
(except for the fact that i feel so fat currently =x)

i hope you guys will feel happy for me too.

LOVE!

Presenting to you my lovely new blogskin.

I LOVE IT DAMN MUCH!

arent you jealous that i have such great friends around me?

WENNA POON MADE THIS BLOGSKIN FOR ME!

oOO~ im so loving it.

Thanks wenna! muacks!

when was the last time you gave ur mum a kiss?




i did that 2 days ago....







AND SHE CRIED.



At that very moment, i felt guilty for not giving as much love as how she gave us.
i often took her love and care for granted,
thinking that is always so natural for her to act this way,
forgetting that everybody needs love,
and my mum is not an exception.


mum is admitted into CGH due to appendicitis.
and the worst thing is, she had the operation a day before her birthday,
so she spent her birthday in torturous pain and uncomfortable hospital bed.

i couldnt really put into words how i felt the moment we (my sisters and me) kissed her and she cried.
i could sense how much she loved us,
how much she missed us,
and how much the 4 of us meant to her.



and i really hate hospitals.
people often say the airport is the saddest place, cos u see people leaving.

but i feel that, hospital is the saddest and disgusting place of all.
u not only see people suffering, u also see people leaving their kins PERMANENTLY.
argh.
I HATE HOSPITALS!


this week, my life is rather boring.
i dun have much after-work activites cos i have to visit my mum.
the most happening thing this week was catching Fantastic 4 (nice show!) and Jack's place lunch with bf.


and the damnest thing of all that could happen to me is.....

MY DAMN APPETITE IS BACK.

i cannot imagine the amount of food and snacks that i stuffed into my mouth.

i bought sweets and snacks back to office, and i couldnt resist the temptations!

the snacks in my office drawer.


i bought a packet of this. 1 packet has 5 tubes in them.
and guess wad. i can finish 1 whole tube within 15 min!
i just couldnt stop my hands from taking one of it and pop it into my mouth.
and 15 min later, i realised, i ate it all.
tsk tsk *sinful*



and ya, i have a very messy stationery drawer.


look at the amount of fats on my face.
=(
i wish i could have a slimer and smaller face.
=( =(




but nevertheless, i still love myself very much,
appreciating how pretty i am everytime i looked into the mirror,
and self-indulged in my own narcissism.




for the very 1st time i feel i have big eyes and small face.
haha! dun looked like me at all.



With this Pooh Bear, im able to sleep better every night!
its so soft and nice to cuddle!
Thanks bf for giving this to me =)





im still in love with myself, even without any make-up on.







sometimes, all i need is a little respect on my stand and thoughts.
its unbelievable.
one moment i was so angry,
but when the phone rings,
im alright again.

im weak.

hello everybody. i've been leading my life fruitfully, how about u?
everyday, i go to work, leaving at 5.30pm sharp.
and then followed by my after-work activities!
oh. im so loving it.





tues was my youngest sis bday. after the birthday dinner, we went IKea!
daddy bought a full-length mirror for us. u Know, mirror and girls are always best friends.
he bought a extended round mirror so i could sit down on the table to make-up instead of standing by my wardrobe cardboard everyday.

presenting to you, my lovely sisters.
they may be damn irritating at times, but i tell you, they are sweet as well.
its good to have sisters!
(so i can bully them! wahahah)






Wed i met up with my long lost friend. --NG XIN HUI
the most hilarious thing i heard of the week, was her finger and fish bone story.
we went Far east to shop and had Sakae for dinner.
happy!




i think both of us looked alike. dun you think so?








While shopping at Heeren, we saw this damn pretty dress!
we love it so much, and we want it V V V much.




guess how much it cost?
$109!!!

but its on 15% discount!

anybody wanna get this for me?

pls pls!!! *puppy eyes*





Thurs, had dinner and shopped with wen, man and wei!
had our budget dinner at Long Johns.
and i tell you,
the service crew of Marina Square de LJS have a very serious attitude problem.
they are lucky that Lao Niang's mood is good that day,
if not....
(imagine the consequence yourself)

















Without these 3 ladies above, i guess i wont be as happy today.
Love you girls! Muacks.


Sat! finally meet up with princesses in the morning!
i feel so pretty yesterday!





i feel like a princess. haha. I know its very very BHB but i keep asking my parents,
how can they give birth to such a pretty daughter.
wahaha.
*sense danger around me*








we took neoprints!
and so far, this is the prettiest neoprint we've ever took!
so happy.
and because Miss Wu only had this 2 pictures up,
so theres only these 2.
haha.










everybody deserves a chance,
just like how im given an opportunity sometimes.

and hence, im giving it a try.
i dunno how the outcome will be like,
i just dun wan to regret.

possibilities of feeling heartbreak vs regrets,

i choose heartbreak.