Friday, December 31, 2004

last post for the yr 2004.

juz came back from singapore press holdings centre.

gosh~~

there were mountians of clothes and things for the tsunami victimes.

we were down there, busying sorting and classifying things,

folding boxes.

sealing them

carrying and moving the sealed boxes to where they should be.

so many aunties, uncles, soldiers and teenagers stepped forward to help out.

strangers help strangers during packing.

and when u see those mountain of clothes and stuffs slowing decrease in amount,

u could feel the sense of wat team work can really do.

really feel so meaningful,

eventhough i ponned school today and got myself bruise here and there, back bone gonna break anytime.....

but im....

*happified*

happy new yr.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

changed my internet connection to starhub de liao
its irritating
cos once u swith on the computer
u get connected automatically.
which means that even i dun wan to come online,
i'll be online.
and those stupid pop-ups will starting popping out
-_-"

year 2004 is gonna end
and it will soon become a history
where everything will be in our memory.
was supposed to be one of the more peaceful yr
but wat happened a few days ago ruined everything.
read those papers and watch those news,
u can c so many corpse lying on the ground, decomposing.
family members were eagerly searching for their loved ones among the thousands of corpse.
many innocent infants, toddler, children lost their parents at such young age.
and this horrifying expereince will always be with them till they die.
those physical injuries can heal....
but they will always be 'injured' mentally and not sure if that could be cured.
haiz.

ytd, didnt join 1wk gang to go watch kung fu hustle
cos the starhub staff coming my house to install the modem or smth like tt.
i miss them so much can?
didnt get to c them during xmas is already so bad.
haiz
sorry gers....
i seems to like absent from all the gatherings.
i myself feel very bad oso.
forgive mi ok?

im ponning my stats lecture again tml.
cos im gonna help out with those packing stuffs for tsunamis victims at SPH.
at least im doing smth meaningful at the last day of yr 2004.

wun be updating for the next few days.
cos i'll be staying over at my grandma hse.
so i shall blog in advance.

actually i dun quite believe in making new yr resolutions.
cos i always fail to fulfil them.
and then i'll feel tt im such a failure for not carrying out those resolutions.
den i will start losing confidence towards accompolishing my goals.
so, y not let nature takes it course?

someone said :

" its very difficult if i have to,
but it will be easier if i want to. "

which i myself feel that this is absolutely true.

but if possible, for the new yr ahead, i hope i'll be able to :

- lose weight
- master cooking (mUahaHaha)
- overcome my fear for insects, fire, hot soups
- stop being too emotional
- try to get along more well with parents and siblings
- be more disciplined with myself
- save more $$
- do well for exams
- control my temper
- stop being anti-social

think tts should be all ba.

actually, yr 2004 to mi is quite a fruitful yr lar.

changed my plan for tomorrow
not going to sch and have lessons
cos its kuz for 3 hrs.
abit sian.

an advance happy new yr to all....
cos i wont be sms-ing to send my greetings to everyone this yr!
(cos samsung hp does not have 'send to many' function)

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

its a rainy day today.
*cold*
lessons ended at 12.15pm today.
and the gd thing is
i managed to wake up at 6.15am to prepare for sch.
*grinz*

saw those news abt the tidal waves thingy.
so ke lian.
one moment u are alive,
another moment u are dead.
haiz.
lost of family members and frens
is wat most pple is encounting there now.
but no matter how much tears they dripped
the dead cant be revived.
as wat chinese said, its 'ming zhong zhu ting'
maybe now, all they need is time
to help them ease the pain of losing their loved ones.
but we can help.
although we cant help them physically,
we can help them financially.
so guys out there, do contribute a little to those fund raisers outside SP.
felt so fortunate to be living in singapore.
although tax is high and most things expensive,
but u get to live peacefully with no war and no nautural disaster.
wat more can we ask for?
*shakes head*
back to the same old thing : life is juz so unpredictable.

went to cold storage to get nissin tomyam seafood cup noodle for lunch.
its yummy~~
especially when the whether now is so cool...
drinking the tomyam soup is....
is....
so blessed and xin fu.

wat is xin fu/ happiness ?

to mi, im very xin fu when.....

-im able to see beautiful sceneries,
-im able to hear nice musics
-im able to sing with my frens
-im able to eat tomyam cup noodle during a rainy day.
-im able to c my frens smile at my lame jokes.
-my frens concern for mi.
-im watching movies with my loved ones
-i received gift from someone
-i finally get wat i want for a long time
-my mum cook a delicious meal
-my dad comes home frm a hard day's work and still smiling so happily when he reached home
-my sisters listens to mi
-im having lunch with my darlings out there.
- and the lists goes on.

actually its very easy to be xing fu.
juz that some pple de expectations to high le.
i feel that we shouldnt ask for much and muz be contented with wat we have now.
often, pple tend to take the things that they already have for granted.
and hence, they didnt know how to cherish until they lose it.
by then, no matter how regretful u are, the thing u lose juz wont be back.

k lar.
enuff of craps.

today i have Critical Reasoning Skills (CRS)
and the tutorial was interesting.
we were discussing about sex education in secondary school.
well, for mi, i cant remember much about the sex education i had in my sec sch.
but one guy in my class says his teacher uses the sex education period to teach mathetics.
the reason?
haha.
cos they were behind time.
so the teacher uses the period to catch up with the syllabus.
so imagine during sex education period, u are learning maths.

-->y=mx+c

(a maths equation for graphs)

if,
y=child
mx=the female
c=male.

so someone pls elaborate the '+' sign.

the above is wat the tutor said.
hohoho.

apply maths to our sexual knowledge.

maybe next time can apply physics and chem into it too

:)


Monday, December 27, 2004

having ITAB now.
suppose to start at 10am
but the teacher haven come.
sianz
so im surfing the net now.
nth much more to blog.
so i wanna wish everybody out there, happy last monday of 2004.
*muackz*

Sunday, December 26, 2004

eh....
keep having headaches nowadays.
wondering wats wrong with my head.

went for timsum with grandparents today.
den after tt go eastpoint shopping
den go their house sit sit
den i took a 1.5 hr nap.
wake up with a terrible headache and feeling nauseous.
affected my appetite for dinner
-blehz-

during dinner,
my grandfather blamed mi for not coaching my youngest sis again.
i mean
y m i the one who gets the blame?
my mum had 4 daughters
so wat if im the elders?
wat abt the 2nd and 3rd one?
cant he blame them instead of mi?
is not that i dun wan to teach
is i dunno how to teach.
i dun have the patience
i dun understand y my youngest sis cant even understand a simple question despite after repeating and explaining to her over and over again.
i really tried my best.
but did she tried her best?
when she dunno how to do
did she tried to think?
did she try solving them?
and u think the answer is yes,
den u are wrong.
she juz throw u the question
expeceting mi to feed her with answers.
oh hell, might as i go school sit test for her!

and when she gets the result,
all the fingers starts pointing at mi.
i really feel so yuan wang....
argh~~
and my grandfather juz keeps thinking that im so unwilling to teach her.
sometimes, i juz dunno how to reply him.
i juz keep quiet,
taking the blame.
i wanna teach.
but i dunno how to use those model-type solution to teach
i only know the simple way called 'algebra'
which my sis haven even learn
and having not practicing and studying maths for like more than 1 yr,
my maths juz sucks.
and when im younger,
im the one who helps myself thru all those tough questions.
i cant ask my parents cos they dunno.
but look at my sis now....
haiz...y cant they be more independent.
sometimes i wonder, can my family live without mi ard?

those younger sister out there keep saying that their elder sister treat them no gd.
but have u all tried to put urself in ur elder sis shoe?
saded.

end of christmas'04
and soon...it will be end of yr 2004.
tts fast rite?

anyway,
christmas is a season for giving and sharing.
its a season for gatherings
it's also a season to get fatter and FATTER!

yesterday.
christmas eve.
dun really feel the christmas mood around mi except the exchanging of presents with my class, DBA/1A/21
after tt, everything was like so normal....
den in the evening,
went to lavander to meet up with mL, sasa, junkai and chintow to have steamboat.
haha. thx mandy's mama for helping us prepare everything for the steamboat.
its yummy! ~heaven~
was feeling the mood for chinese new yr instead of christmas =X
haha.
den sat down and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat frm like 6.45 to 11pm like tt.
wah~~~
den went downstairs to take fotos
pose stupid actions and made lot of noises.
played silly games like the 'ding-dong' game
and the '1,2,3 mu tou ren'
haha
den alot of passer-by look at us with this expression--> (o_O)"
den soon its 12am
exchaged present with each other.
and i received shun wei de present...
its a cute little pink doggie bone specs box with a cute little wings of angel necklace inside.
so sweet of her
~muackz~
and wenna received mine.
dunno its a good thing or bad thing for her.
cos mine is a multi-things holder with a very cute doggie beside it.
den we sat down and tok and tok and tok.
den danced for a while.
daddy say he not coming to fetch home le
which means i get to stay overnite.
but i didnt feel good la
cos when i called home
mum was angry
and she refused to accept my xmas greetings.
argh~~
im in the situation of moral dilema
which cause mi not to enjoy myself thoroughly throughout the nite.
thats the consequence of being a mummy's girl for the pass 16 plus yrs.
nvm...back to topic.
den some of them cant tahan le
so go to their lalal land.
well i managed to sleep for like 30 min.
den ard 4am like tt, ling say she not feeling well
so she went home first.
after she went home,
i was energetic
i couldnt get back to lala land anymore.
so i watch tv till abt 6.15am
den decided to go home lor.
reached home at 7am
bath and sleep.
wake up at 12pm
den go out preparing for the house warming at my grandma's new hse which i shant further elaborate cos its nth much.
was feeling quotie down as i couldnt attend the xmas party at amanda's hse with the rest of the 1 week gang.
last year i didnt attend
this yr i also didnt attend.
so sad.
argh~~~

new yr is coming
and i think i'll have to think of my new yr resolution.
feeling very drowsy now after gulping down a cup of apple wine
~sleepy~ (z_z)

Friday, December 24, 2004

hey pple out there!
im alrite now
after cryin myself to slp last nite!

was late for class again!
argh~~
cos i set alarm 6.15.
i think i accidentally pressed PM instead if AM.
and i woke up at 7.20
reached sch at 8.15
incredible mi~~
den gave out those marsh mellow and sweets to my classmates.
exchage our prezzie with each other.
fun~fun~fun
thx pple out there~

and if anyone out there wanna give mi presents
pls stop giving chocolate!
i have a MOUNTAIN of chocolates in my house now!
pon my stats lecture and went home straight
haha~~

merry xmas~

Thursday, December 23, 2004

am very sadded rite now.
am very dissapointed rite now
am depressed rite now
am crying rite now.

y is life juz so unfair.
y is my life so different frm my sis?
y muz u treat mi like a 3 yr old.
y do i have to listen to you all the time?
i know u are my mum
tts y i respected you.
i listened to you.
but y do i juz get this kind of treatment frm u?
i know, watever u do, is for my own good.
but let mi tell u....im not feeling good now.
i felt so restricted.
i felt so useless.
im grateful to you for giving birth to mi.
im grateful for those things you've done for mi.
but u know wat....i do hate you at times.
4 yrs ago when i was 13.
i cant even go out with my frens during weekend.
even if i can, i muz reached home b4 5pm.
ok. i listened to u. and i really tried to reach home b4 5pm.
4 yrs later, im 17.
my sis is 13.
she can get to go out if her frens every weekend.
she can go for concert and stuffs and return home late.
and u said nth.
well...i know it useless to compare now.
as nothing u do can bring mi back to my 13.
sometimes i wonder...am i born to suffer all this kind of unfair stuffs?
becos of you, i lose and i gave up alot of my happiness and interest.
life is juz so unpredictable.
wat if i die tml?
will u regret for restricting mi too much?
cos i haven enjoy much.
if u dun, den let mi tell u....
if i die tml, i'll regret being a mummy's girl
i will regret listening to your advise
i will hate myself for not defying you.
and....i'll hate you.
maybe i'll have a different view towards how u treated me 20 yrs later.
but for now i know....
im not happy at all.
and i really tried my best to find 101 excuses not to hate you.
pls dun push mi any further.
im actually a very weak person.
i may breakdown anytime.
thru this 4 yrs of my teenage yrs.
i've tolerate enuff.
i juz wanna fly away...
away frm you, away frm everything
to a place so called 'my world'....
pls leave mi alone...cos i had enuff....will you?

went to TM juz now with hui xian
bought some tidbits for my class tml.
had a tiff with my mum over my activity tml.
well...maybe i'll juz pack my bag and go and nv return.
thats juz maybe...cos it wouldnt happen at all.
i dun have the guts.

u.s.e.l.e.s.s m.i.
i.h.a.t.e.m.y.s.e.l.f.
s.o.m.e.o.n.e.p.l.e.a.s.e.t.a.k.e.m.i.a.w.a.y

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

im tired and exhausted.
my sisters have been using computer at late nites
so i cant really stay awake to blog.
*yawnz*

yesterday ( 21-02-04)

countdown to xmas : 4 days

had lesson at 8am.
i think i heard my alarm clock ringing at 6.15am.
but den i tot i was dreaming,
so i couldnt care less as i always dream that my alarm clock is ringing.
haha.
and when i opened my eyes the next moment,
it was 7.15am!!!
gosh~~ am late for school.!!
1st time in my poly life!
am so proud of myself....cos im finally late.
im someone who is punctual....haha
decided to skipped my tutorial.
so i slept another hour more.
den go to sch for lectures.
saw my primary sch fren, joel inside my lecture hall.
he crashed our lecture. haha
both of us were so shocked to c each other.
after my last lesson,
went down to bugis to buy xmas gift with huimei.
den xin came down to join mi after her class.
bought alot of things lar.
which mean i spent alot
i hate xmas
cos it makes mi broke!

today ( 22-12-04)

countdown to xmas : 3 days

nth really special happen today.
econs tutorial was funny.
the tutor really know how to crap.
den lesson end at 3pm.
waited for xin to go home together.
den when i reach mrt platform
i suddenly got the very strong urge to pee....
haha
my bladder....recently not working well.
den when xin reached the mrt platform,
she oso have to urge to pee.
so we decided to alight at tiong bahru mrt to find a toilet to relieve ourselves.
yes, we did found the toilet.
but guess wat.....
after the toilet trip, we ended up shopping at tiong bahru mall
-_-"
haha.
didnt shop much lar.
i have to rush home.
cos i will be jogging with my dad in the evening.
those who are not really open minded can leave as im gonna digress....
*whisper* (jogging without a sport bra on is really *&^%$#@)
haha
guess thats the end of my day ba!
gonna zZz le...
nitez




Monday, December 20, 2004

heyo~~
juz back home frm dinner.
yes!
its dinner! not supper.
had my dinner (fishhead steamboat) with dad and mum at ard 9.30pm
b4 dinner i was famished can.
stomach keep growling.
but after dinner im full like hell.
cant breathe.
guess im gonna remain fat if i still continue eating heavy dinner at late nite.

start my lesson today at 9am and end my lesson at 7.30pm
*tired*-yawnz-
everything was ok lar....
except the 2 hrs break in between.
sat down at food court 6 to chat with hui xian.
thinks nth really special happened today for mi to update.

nvm...tok abt yesterday (sunday)
went temple in the morning.
den after tt dragged daddy down to heeren and bugis de OG to shop for xmas prezzies...
~hooray~ daddy bought mi a billabong sling bag.
which i think is quite ex.
but since he goona pay, why not?
was wondering if i should buy the sling bag or the converse jacket.
but in the end i think the converse jacket can wait lar.
getting a bag is my 1st priority.
so happy.
after all those shopping,
went to terminal 1 de swensens eat dinner.
(this is another reason to y im gonna remain fat)

den after dinner go home.
started doing tutorial and stuffs
*yawnz*

oh ya~~ sasa back frm taiwan!!!
welcome back~~~~~

Friday, December 17, 2004

oh...
finally thats the end of my term 3 week 1...
tutorials always end early cos its the first week.
but ending early=more and longer breaks.
sianz.
nth to do during the breaks.
but i used those breaks to watch cartoon in BizIT library.
thats wat so convienient in school of Biz.
theres a library at our own block!!!
been moody these few days.
feel like slapping those pple im not happy with whenever i see them.
yes.
giving them a slap sounds nice and shiok~~~
argh~ im mad.

today lesson start at 8am.
struggled myself out of bed.....
really dun feel like going to sch so early.
den the 8am lesson was 3 hrs marketing tutorial.
the tutor cant pronounce my name...
he pronouce it as " samanTH"
yes! "samanth"
he muz be hungry.
cos he ate my letter "a".
but his tutorial was fun though.
played some games today with him.
find marketing quite interesting lar.
after marketing, had stats lecture.
argh~~ thats another worst thing for today.
cos i totally dun understand wat the leturer is toking abt!!!!

den had a 3 hr break frm 12-3pm.
went bugis de OG with xin cos she wanted to buy a white blouse frm OG.
but in the end, she didnt get the blouse, she got a skirt frm This Fashion.
-_-"
she's spending again.
saw a really nice jacket frm converse.
but it cost $60.....
so ex can!!!!
gonna 'ketok' my dad c if he can get mi 1.
den the OP got 1 bag pack oso very nice....
argh~~ everything is juz so tempting~

den went back sch for another 2 hrs marketing lecture.
struggled to stay awake also.
guess i really have short concentration span.
if u think thats the end of my day,
den u are wrong.
cos i went down to coffeeshop to help out.
actually it doesnt really make a difference if im there or not.
cos i really didnt help out in alot of things.
biz was really bad at night.
not much pple.
maybe becos tonight was a rainy nite ba....

*yawnz* felt so tired.
but the great thing is tml is saturday.
i can finally wake ua at a later time, juz like wat i did in the holidays!!
whee~~ i lurve slping!
hope my pimples will juz vanish when i wake frm my dream land~~

and oh ya~
today, one of my fren is sad and hurt over frenship.
guess that frenship really mean alot to each individuals ba.
w/o my frens....guess im wont be wat i m now.
to one week : sorry that i cant attend the xmas party with u guys.
but my heart will always be with u guys ok?
enjoy urself fully at the party!!
*muacks*

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

went jogging juz now....
sort of to ease my 'guiltiness'.
dragged my daddy and mummy along.
hehehe...

school these days are the same.
lecture....tutorial....breaks....sianz
haiz
keep wondering wad to wear the next day for sch...
kinda 'zibei' to c wat im wearing compared to those other girls frm SB.
argh~~~

Monday, December 13, 2004

yeah~~ am here to blog now.

friday 10 dec 2004

went back to manjusri sec.
go c hows choir doing now.
well...nud bad i think.
if they really work hard, getting a medal shouldnt be much a problem.
the set piece this yr wasnt so nice.
as in the degree of difficulty is higher den last yr de SYF.
but the other 2 songs they sang was nudbad lar.
melody was quite nice.
the new conductor is frenly...
haha....cos she said 'hi' to mi with a great smile.
after tt, went to have dinner with sasa and leelin.
ate KFC. gosh~~ the chicken is damn oily.
shall not have to much of that next time.
den wenna joined us halfway thru our dinner.
as usual, we tok craps and i told dem some ghost stories.
it was meant to be scary lar...
but apparently, i made it sound funny.
went home after dinner lor.

saturday 11 dec 2004

went to do some shopping with sasa for the chalet thingy at bedok de ntuc fairprice.
den after tt, go sasa hse make jelly for the chalet.
haha.
learnt alot lar.
1st time know got kiwi seed this thing.
u put in hot water, it will expand and make it look like rice grains.
den we started making lor....
was incharge of pouring in those powder to make the jelly and stiring the solution.
but alot of funny things happened as i was afraid of the stove...or rather fire.
shant elaborate wad happened as its so embarassing. :x
was supposed to meet xin and chun to go compass point shop de.
but time is not on my side, we haven finish making jelly and i have to go home by 4 sumthing cos having dinner at abt 5.30pm.
so i called xin and told her i cant go compass point le...sorry!!!

sunday 12-12-04

heyhey....the day im waiting for this whole week.
its our chalet day....!!!
dad fetch us (mandy, shun wei, chin tow and leelin) at tanah mehra mrt and we proceed off to aranda country club.
but ling and jamula didnt join us due to some reasons
yeah~~ havoc havoc hoavoc~~~eat eat eat.
man prepared macoroni.
wei prepared potato salad and prawn salad.
jin bought vegetarain noodle
sasa prepared spagetthi
wow~~ much more la....
i didnt prepare anything
felt so bad...cos im really bad at cooking.
only bought sausages but we didnt cook them in the end cos there were too much food.
intended to call canadian pizza but we dropped that idea cos we were very full with those current food le.
den sasa de uncle bought us old chang kee and some fruit tart.
den we ate like glutton. majiam nv eaten for days like tt. keep stuffing food into our mouth.
felt so guilty now.....*fattening*
someone pls force mi to do exercise the next few days.
den we watched the stars award.
k lar....some award winners really very unexpected de lor...
den tok cock again....tok tok tok till like 11.30pm
my dad fetched mi home.
haiz~~ cant stay overnite cos tml sch start le!!!
~sob sob~
i wanna stay overnite!!!!!!
and the worst thing that keep bothering mi today is....
this is the last day of my holiday!
gonna face those lecturers and do those tutorials again.
soon exams will be coming.
den this semester de timetable totally sux....
so many breaks in between!
~argh~!!!!!!!!!!!

my dad says something abt frenship in the car while fetching mi home.
he say, he used to have very good frens during his teenage yrs.
den they have alot of promises for their future like say every year muz do this, do that.
but now leh, one by one loss contact.
they stopped contacting each other since they stepped into society.
den all those promises juz broken.
his close fren married tt time, didnt even bother to invite him to his wedding.
so he said tt now, i may be very very very close with my frens...but the future will be unpredictable.
u all will juz lost contact.
which i strongly disagree.
as long as i always have mL and 1 wk in my heart,
we will always be 2gether.
even till we old le....we every week oso muz meet up once for mahjong session.
suddenly feel so sad for my dad....cos he now lost all his contacts with his very close frens last time.
haiz....poor daddy.


Thursday, December 09, 2004

yesterday 08.12.2004 wednesday.

had lunch at parkway parade with mummy and sisters.
den went home to watch tv.
den it started raining heavily at around 4pm.
was so worried that we had to cancel the jogging session!!
luckily, the rain stopped at 4.45pm
haha.
hehe.
so feeling so glad that it stopped raining cos i've been praying silently for the rain to stopped.
den meet up at wei's hse at 5.30pm.
wen and jin were late cos they were preparing the pizza and cookie.
haha. so sweet of them rite? *dun be too jealous of mi!*
ling cant turn up cos her sis going home tt nite.
den wei and jin wasnt feeling so well.
so only mi, wen and man went to jog.
it was ard 8pm already.
first time jog at nite....
gan jue bu cuo.
as u run, u feel the cool breeze....(but abit of the polluted air cos we jog at the side of the road. alot of car exhaust.)
den after jogging for like half an hour, we proceed to the market to have fruits (papaya, watermelon,honeydew and starfruit.)
feel so xing fu~~ so the fruits so sweet esp. the honeydew.
was craving for orange juice since morning. so i ordered a cup of orange juice.....nice nice.
den abt 9.30 i go home le lor.
was feeling quite lerthargic after jogging.
maybe too long to jog le.
but, i still took the flu medicine to put mi to slp.
haiz....insomnia. *tsk tsk*

today. 09.12.2004 thursday

woke up at 6.50am this morning.
was like so long didnt wake up at such an early time.
went to school cos of the event.
the orphans from some home.
60 children altogether.
yes...they are cute.
they are angelic.
but the another side of them is devil.
some of my seniors and frens start wondering are they frm hell or wad?
and they already planned not to have kids in the future...haha
~~~ gosh....really cant tahan and handle kids.

the kids reach SP at ard 10am.
went to welcome them.
but they so dao.
all dun wanna tok to mi.
den i use marker write my nick name on the masking tape to paste on my t-shirt.
den kids start laughing at mi....
cos my nick name is " housefly"
haha.
dunno why i name myself 'housefly'.
should name myself as 'firefly' or 'dragonfly'
but nvm la. all the kids know mi as housefly jie jie den jiu housefly lor.

den they started playing games and everything.
im one of the station leader for the treasure hunt.
wah....then they kids like all so hyperactive.
when they c you at the station, they will starting 'climbing' up to us.
cos they wanna get the clue to the next station.
muz do some tasks and forfeit lar.
but some boy boy starting to 'por' mi....
haha....den i give in lar.
juz call them sing some xmas songs for mi and they can go.
den got 1 particular girl, she tok very evil de.
she stand on the bench and so she's taller den mi.
mi : wah....girl girl...now u taller den housefly jie jie le leh!
girl girl : haha...you are a short and fat housefly! (smack my shoulder somemore)
mi : -_-" ya lor. i so short. * but actually wanna give her 2 tight slaps*

but on the overall, had fun with them la.
although they dun like to listen to instructions.
always makes us angry....but they are after young kids.
some of them also very 'matured'.
cos every one of the kids receive a coloured band to wear it on to indicate which grp they belong.
den one boy boy ask their grp leader : eh! y u all give us wear sex band?
pengZ rite?
haha.
den during the games, their GL oso very ke lian. cos muz do forfeit.
den muz take markers draw on the GL face and body.
haha.
tsk tsk. lucky the kids didnt like mi as much
if not i sure kanna.

send the kids back to their home.
den had 1 hour of debreifing seesion.
we were suppose to comment on the overall and tell the person in charge how we felt about this event.
den all the GL starts to complain
hahaha
all the vulgarities keep coming out.
bth~~ haha.

den got one senior say to us :

these children do not have a complete family.
they either come frm single-parent family
or they dun even know who their parents are.
den were sent to the homes during the day,
den sent back to their real house with their guradian or watever in the nite.
we invite them over for the xmas activity is to fill their life with something special, where their parents or family cant provide.
but we want the kids to know thats not the end of the world, cos they still have others like us, there for them , to listen to them and to play with them.
maybe after having the 5 hours fun with us today, they have to go back to their usual life, usual routine, facing the fact that they dun have a family.
haiz~~
felt so emotional after wad he said.
no doubt that all the GL tolerance level had increase when it comes to these kids.
maybe cos deep down, we pity them or smth like that, that we juz didnt express out.
they learnt most of the things on their own with no daddy or mummy there to teach them proper manners.
oh~~ i really feel that im really one of the fortuanate ones. got complete family. though sometimes we juz couldnt get along well.
and i dun understand why parents can bare to leave their kids alone. y bother to give birth to one when u have no intention to take care of one? so so irresponsible? y dun use proper contraception? y hurt the innocents? y? y? y? i really dun understand y.

on the overall, didnt regret to join this activity lar.
besides cca points, i've learnt alot lor.
no doubt that im actually felt so lonely on the 1st day of briefing.
i sit at the corner alone. i dun tok. i go home alone.
but today. i've made lots of frens. frens with same interest. haha. and mostly also frm my course de.
den i get to know a guy. i find him so farmiliar.
den i ask him : eh...u working at V8 cafe rite?
guy : eh? how u know?
haha. saw this waiter at V8 cafe afew times le
no wonder he look so farmiliar to mi.
haha. maybe he is that nerdy nerdy guy tt ling xin shang
haha.
~tired~~accomplished~

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

quoted frm some malay's blog :



i learn tat malays r united and friendly pple..unlike chinese who r always fightin among themselves..their family r close and nice pple and open unlike chinese parents..yucky..


quite agree to what the blogger wrote.
frm young,
i always c malays as a united bunch of pple.
during hari raya puasa
they always wait for the 6.55pm music played by the radio
den they all start break fast den eat together.
we chinese, since when so united?


bored.
boring
boredom.
arghZ

been stayin at hm if i've got nth to do on tt day.
frens like wen, ling, jin, wei went back to sch today.
gosh~~
soon it will be my turn.
1 more week.
to further elaborate, its 6 more days.
to be more precise, its 184 hrs.
holiday without working = no extra income.
oso = going out more often
= spending more.
= lazing at hm more.

seriously....i wanna go out.
but im juz lazy.
haha.
but on the other hand.
im bored.
but on the other other hand,
not going out = not spending money.

but sometimes, my dad and my mum will start contradicting.
let mi show u wat i mean.

when i stayed at home :

my dad will complain cos....
electricity bill rises.
im watching tv, listening to radio, online....
electric keeps going.

when im not at home :

mum will start nagging.
she says im spending too much time and having too much fun outside.
end up spending
and leaving my sis unattended.

my conclusion :

so wad the hell they want mi to do?
stay at home electric bill increase
if i go out, expenses will increase.
can u tell mi wad should i do?
i cant get a f*cking job at this moment.
due to the f*cking short holidays i got.
arghZ...everyhting is driving mi crazy.

im back to neopets again...
ya...
due to boredom.
b.o.r.e.d.o.m.


Sunday, December 05, 2004

ytd--fri--3rd dec

did nth ytd.

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today--sat--4th december

actually got to go back to sch for trial run for the 9th dec event.
alarm clocked rang at 7.30am.
wake up
go toilet
sit on the toilet bowl
and i dozed off.
haha.
cant imagine that i can actually dozed off on a toilet bowl.
den when i woked up.
its 8am.
and the trial run is at 9am.
so i sms the 2nd in charge say i not feeling well.
went back to bed.
woke up again at 12.30pm
with the fact that i slept at 12 am the nite b4.
sometimes i really wonder
m i a pig?
despite the 12.5 hrs if sleep
i still feel so tired.
haha.
no nid to hesistate.
can cfm im a pig le.

met up with sasa
den we 2 go PS shop shop.
she juz got her flu vaccine
so her left hand is like --swollen--
hehe
nice to beat
*evil grinz*
den wen, ling, wei, chin tow and heng yu
were all at bugis to support gerrie, jaja and qian yin.
cos they were on the stage performing a-cappella.
den i realised.
i actually haven been singing
as in singing with alot of pple with differnt parts *eg. choir*
haha.
really missed those days in the choir rm
singing singing
playing playing.
missed mr liew
missed the piano
missed the mirror in the choir rm
missed mrs sam
missed those SYF time
missed standing on stage to perform.
haiz

was chatting with ling on MSN.
haha.
time really passes so fast.
first we were in sec one
like 5 yrs ago?
and 5 yrs later, we were in poly.
5 yrs.
so many things happened.
realised how much i've matured.
frm that really childish samantha to a 2004 samantha.
still remember those days when all of us go when we touched a guy's hand.
"eee....nan nu shou shou bu qing"
haha.
silly
childish
so immature.
but thats us. :x

really didnt regret scoring 198 for my psle.
cos if i've done better
den maybe i wun end up in manjusri.
haha.
in manjusri
i've got great teachers
great frens.
if im not a 198 pointer,
will i get to know the 2 guys tt i've crushed on b4?
will there be mL?
will there be one wk?
haha.
i dunno
but im certain that i didnt regret scoring 198 for psle.
in fact, muz thx myself for scoring 198.
hey!
scoring 198 wasnt that bad afterall.
it maybe low, but wat it gives mi in the end
is much more than scoring 298
haha.

*still in the process of growing up*

Friday, December 03, 2004

oh ya~~

read the new paper today.

they say no world idol for taufik

oh wat a waste....

wats the use of winning sg idol

when u cant stand on the world idol stage?
sending frens a testi now
b4 i never can have the chance
to tell them how much i lurve them.

life is juz so unpredictable.

i maybe standing rite infront of u now,
but leaving this world the next moment.

incase i miss some of u guys out,

juz wanna say,

i lurve you!

will be writing a 'yi shu'

and hide it under my pillow

to tell my family members how much i luv them

and what to do with my things when im not ard

*touch wood*

haha.

today was feeling much better.
no more sneezing.
only left with coughing.
my voice.....argh!!!!
went to city link de VNC to exchange for a new pair of shoe i bought at harbour front on tuesday.
went alone in the afternoon cos xin got appointment for the gems survey.
met up with wen and ling at bugis de OG.
they wanted to buy their tops.
so i accompanied them.
and they really bought alot.
while i only bought 1 top from giodarno and a handbag.
haha.
tried on alot of tops with them...
and i really liked some...
but dun feel like spending
haha
den i bought a pink handbag.
actually i take the handbag for fun nia...
den oso dunno y did i buy in the end.
nvm la
i need a hand back anyway.
spent alot lar, despite being jobless.
*shakes head*
had our budget dinner at the hawker centre.
ater wantan mee.
nice.
hehe
$2 nia.
cheap cheap.
sometimes u really can enjoy a sumptous meal with low cost too.
=)

oh ya.
amanda going vietnam tml!
bon voyage!
come back soon!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

congrates to taufik.
hope u can do really well in the world idol to make singapore proud.
kinda dissapointed lar.
but i think both of them really gd.
sly will always be my idol even he cant make it to world idol.

was feeling no better than yesterday.
early in the morning
i woke up cos of the excrutiating pain in my stomach.
stayed in the toilet for 2 hrs
but no shit came out.
sweating all the way.
den in the afternnon
was sneezing and coughing non stop.
finished my packet of 24 logenzes.
den asked my sis to go cold storage to get mi a new packet.

pple have be telling mi to go c a doctor.
but i dunwan to go
cos i hate doctors
or should i say
im afraid of the doctors.
haha.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

im sick
im sick
im sick
feel so terrible now
with a blocked nose
and sore throat....
omg~~~
but i dun wanna eat medicine
i dun wanna c a doc
wad should i do?

today went sentosa de palawan beach with 1 wk gang without yuni cos she's back to china.
the weather was cool but humid
so i keep sweating.
tanned for abt 5 min only cos the sun only out for 5 min.
den we took pictures with the help of 2 china guys.
den we took monorial back.
the journey was -sick-
was vibrating all the way.
and half wat thry the journey
it began to rain heavily.
oh.
we were lucky to leave palawan by that time.

after tt we go harbour front centre shop shop.
bought a shoe from VNC to wear during sch reopen.
bought a blue fila t shirt at $10 for the 9th dec event where the orphans will come to SP to celebrate xmas and i'll be helping out.
den we proceed to marina bay mrt to meet with some of 4E classmates.
only a few turn up. 16 altogether.
den got 1 uncle approached us to promote his shop and wants us to go to his shop and eat.
so he offered us a deal of $9 each person instead of the usual $10.
1 free drinks each.
free transport to-and-fro to his shop and back to marina mrt.
free 5 bottles of sparkling juice.
hohoho.
$9 for steamboat and eveything is so cheap.
is like we tan tio. cos transport were provided etc etc.
but the funny thing is the uncle couldnt pronouce the sparkling juice properly.
he pronouce the juice as " zhu "
den we were all puzzled.
"zhu?" did he mean pig?
den he keep repeating his offer since we didnt intend to take up his offer at first.
and he will go like : " we charge $9 each. each person got 1 free drink and we give u free 5 bottles sparking zhu"
haha.
mi : *thinking* sparkling pig?
haha
and he keeping saying zhu zhu zhu zhuz zhu
haha
so funny
was making fun of him all the way.

wad is the defination of best fren?
to mi....best fren is there to share my problems.
when im sad
they can cheer mi up.
when im happy
i wish to share my joy with best frens.
when i got problem
i wanna share with them so they will know wat is actually happening to mi tts y i wun leave them guessing my circumstances.
and i really hope that my best fren treat mi like this.
i know there may be some expectations that couldnt be met.
but wat is the use of having a bestfren
when one keep everything to oneself
one nv share her sadness and happiness
its a sad case to find out that actually u do not understand ur bestfren well all the yrs,
and u couldnt help in any way with ur bestfren probs not becos you cant
is juz becos u dunno wats the problem.

someone reminded mi today.
when u are having some problems,
its better to tell ur normal fren rather than ur bestfren.
ha.
den i think in this case,
bestfren will only be there to share joy and not sadness.
den i think if thats the new defination of 'bestfren'
i dun need a best fren.
all i need is a normal fren to help with each other problems.
and thats wat best fren cant do.
all i can say is.... pathetic.
cos i have no best fren.

maybe being my bestfren isnt gd
cos im possesive.
i want to know everything that is happening to my bestfren.
but....but....its becos i treat u as my best fren tts y im possesive.
if not,
why shall i bother abt u?

maybe bestfren meant too much to me.
or maybe im juz not matured enough to handle simple relationship
such as frenship.