Sunday, April 30, 2006

im so tired!
i have red cheeks and red nose!
cos im sunburnt!
ahh!!!

went escape theme park with huimei, jiayi, huat and qj.
thanks to hm, she got 6 free tickets!
the sun is damn scorching today and i perspire throughout!
the tickets consists for $3 food vouchers and drinks too.
escape is boring. there is only afew rides that are exciting.
and u wun want to try again and again if the queue is like so long.
so we left the theme park at ard 1pm.

after that went cycling with huat. the weather was better in the noon.
after cycling we slacked at white sands.


tml labour day.
i shall slack at home.
yawnz.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

when everything you see starts to spin,
when every breathe u take juz didnt seems enough,
when every beat of your heart is thumping like drums,
when you are blinded by anger,
when you are too weak to continue thinking,
when the impact came crashing down on you.....

its when i break down.

the unbearable tears.
the uncontrollable emotions.
the unspeakable tantrums.
the unexplainable guilt.
the undesirable circumstances.

the stagnant moment,
the magnanimous forgiveness.

some says its just like roller coaster ride.
but i say,


its the power of love.
yes, LOVE.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006
















As promised, a photo of phoon (my supervisor), mi, farhana, huiyun and lynette (farhana and huiyun's supervisor).
phoon is wearing my all time favourite colour!
and dun u think he looks like the taiwan comedian, dong zhi cheng?
haha.

Monday, April 17, 2006

crossroad.
dilema.
confused.

life is so unfair.
but thats wad everybody gonna accept it.
so am i.

i know its been 19 years since i took my very first breath,
but up till now, its really difficult not to compare.
yes, i know i should be contented with what i have...
but sometimes, i couldnt help but continue to envy others, or maybe sometimes to the extent of being jealous.
maybe thats human nature,
maybe thats the childish and insensible me.
for all i know, what i've lost or missed, could nv be returned.
therefore, its really difficult for me to stop envy-ing others, jealous over [you-know-who]
yes, i dun deny this fact that my living environment is really fortunate compared to alot of pple.
i do treasure and cherish everything in my life.
but the imbalance in me.... is smth that is always there eversince the start of my sec sch life and it still exists.

the truth hurts, and im learning how to deal with it.
everybody needs time to learn to let go,
and maybe i just need a little more time compared to others.

i guess, majority of us always make comparisons,
and thats y life has always been complicated.
its the enviroment that most of us have been brought up in.
when we were young, parents compare our results with others.
teachers compare our behaviour with others.
classmates compare their academic welfare with others.
friends compare about the environment they live in.
colleagues compare abt the ranks and salaries.
with all this comparisons, pple react differently.
some work harder to achieve their desired goals.
some use cunning tricks and methods.

but i choose to dwell on the past and complain abt my helplessness.
cos i guess...thats the only thing i can do to make myself better.
its a way for me to relieve the anger, the pain, the jealousy.

sorry if i've upset you with what i've said.
i may be spoilt in my own way.
yes. you are right, no use comparing when things are over.
i only make maybe more angry only.

im so glad that i have u with me now.
thanks for everything.
sometimes what i do may not be enough to show how feelings grow.
i am blessed.
i am happy.
cos i have you.
:)

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Finally, after 6 weeks, its time for me to bid goodbye to Jardine OneSolution and continue with my last year of polytechnic education.



i had fun as well as difficulties but i conquer them all.



really wanna thanks my supervisor, lynette and charmaine for all their care and concern in this 6 weeks.



not forgetting my 2 best frens in this company, hui yun and farhana!



Everything was like in a rush on my very last day of work. i compiled everything that i'd done for the past 6 weeks into a file and showed my supervisor. den he ask mi do a report for VMware solutions day in RWPS format. den i start to panic cos i forget the format liao. lucky i still have RWPS report in my yahoo mail, and so i take the report as start off with executive summary, conclusion and recommendations. My supervisor, phoon, drove us to parkway for lunch at swensens! had crayfish pasta and was like so god damn full. haha. his treat again! yeah! we left at abt 2.15pm but phoon says he got a meeting with his boss at siglap at 2.30pm and so he drop us off halfway to take a bus back. so when we reached the office, its like 3pm le. incredible rite? we left the office at 12.30pm for lunch and came back at 3pm. wad will u think if u dunno wad happen to us?



after reaching the office, i work on my report and finish everything by 5.15pm. after that, start clearing my desk and got the HR to debrief us and i get to go home at abt 6.15! and guess wad, when i was in the bus to mrt, i remembered that i forget to return the key to my drawer. shit man! think gotta post it back to them lor. haha. wait till they call me den say lar.



since its my last day, i decided to take some fotos of my work desk for rememberance!




my work desk.....



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heez. got my name on my work desk. and yes, everybody has their own dustbin! haha.



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thats my chair and my dustbin. i dunno why but chia (the guy sitting next to me) likes to throw his rubbish into my dustbin and everytime the uncle clear my dustbin, he will give mi a weird look, probably thinking " why the hell this girl got so much rubbish everyday?" haha. The stuffs behind my chair are not mine, don't worry. If its mine, it wun be so untidy. i want to pack things up for them as the stuffs on the shelves are dirty!



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thats my drawer where i keep important documents and tidbits! *shh~!!*



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the company laptop which i have the ownership for just 6 weeks. well...although its damn slow, but well....it connects mi to my classmates who are also suffering at itp. and sometimes, when we are bored we will add each other into our chat room and start chatting nonsense!



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this is my mug! cute? as for the paper below, u can imagine how bored am i with the scribblings and stuffs.
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i still have a group foto of phoon, mi, lynette, hui yun and farhana, but its still with farhana. so i'll post them up when i get it from farhana. till den!


*tml is the start of year 3 sem 1! so fast!!! will be graduating soon!*



Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Today, on my way to work, I saw quite a few teenagers wearing black shirts with the word "president challenge" on it. Immediately what comes to my mind was….They must be from Singapore Poly oso!

One of them approached me and ask if I would like to donate. I took out my wallet and tried digging out the available coins in it….but I forgot I took out all my coins last night to feed my piggy bank. So I juz take out a $2 note and donate it. Haha.

I know I've been like saying this for the 34389691463th times in my blog. But I juz wanna say again. TIME FLIES.

I remembered I was juz like one of them, asking people for donations at NUS 2 years ago. And shoo~ now im blogging in the midst of my attachment which is like going to end in 2 days time. Then I will return back to school to complete the last year of my polytechnic life. Everything was just like yesterday. Like yesterday was the 1st day of freshman orientation where I meet my classmate for the very 1st time. Like yesterday was the 1st day when I was the class fac of the new batch of year one.
and now, in a blink of eye, I'm gonna graduate with a diploma, which will be like tomorrow since time passes like no one's business.

I can really feel myself aging. I used to be 13 years old. Everybody used to be 13.
But now, im 19 this year.
Y most of us only come to realize that time passes extremely fast when we start secondary education?

Back to the donation thingy.
While im waiting for the bus, I tok to one of them and they say they are oso from DBA. Same course as me. He ask mi where m I going at that point of time and I told him " im having my attachment now"

"huh…u year 3 liao ar?"
"no lar….this new acad year den I’ll be year 3."
"oh I c….u don’t have a year 3 face."
"-__- is this a compliment?"
“ haha. U can take it as a compliment”

Now, should I be happy or sad about this?

Sunday, April 02, 2006

its april now.
3 weeks ago, i told myself to hang on for another 5 weeks.
now, its 2 weeks more before my attachment officially ends.

for this week, all i did was call, call and call customers.
im sick of repeating the same old things to every customers i speak to.
its really sad when you are only doing your job and yet the person you are talking to on the phone is the most ridiculous on earth.
i wish i could slam down the phone.
if only i can, i will shout and scream vulgarities into the phone lor.

den on thurs, sheryl and me was given a task that pple need to use 6 weeks to complete that.
however, we were only given 3 days.
and so, we are asked to work OT.
we stayed back till like 10pm on thurs,
9.15pm on fri.
and sat, 8pm.
yes. i hope it was april's fool too.
but yes, we stayed in the office till 8pm on a saturday.
we almost need to go back office today,
but my supervisor says no need.
lucky! phew.
but but but....the good news is,
from fri, we could claim cab fares and the cost of the good food we ate!
and and and and and.....my supervisor gave us a day off next fri!
thats mean i no need to go work on next fri!
whee~
thurs is gems appointment, and i only need to go back office after 1pm.
so i think its a super long weekend for next week.
im so happy.

i could feel myself expanding horizontally too!
these days with OT i ate so much!
ate fastfood for dinner the 3 consecutive days.
on fri, my supervisor treated us to the thai village restaurant at singapore post centre.
and he was like ordering the food like no one's business.
fri nite, he ordered dinner for us.
cos it was raining, the delivery line for kfc was engaged.
so he went out personally to get dinner for us.
guess wad he got for us?
KFC, MAC and LJS.
i think he treated us as pigs lor.
the 3 of us obviously cant finish the food!

through this OT,
i learnt and chatted quite alot from my supervisor.
hmm....its quite sad when u start to enjoy ur work when the attachment period is near to the end.
haha.

well, campus superstar juz ended.
and zhi yang won!
yeah!
actually, both teresa and zhi yanf sings really well.
so no matter who won,
it doesnt matter anymore,
cos they both can qualify as a superstar with their superb voice.

my motivation sentence for this week:
whatever i do now, im sowing seeds for the future.






take care of your throat my dear.
drink more water ok?
=)