1 down 3 more to go.
i just hope i'll be able to pass my buyer behaviour module.
i couldn't finish my paper. i seriously need some time management.
pls pls pls. let me pass!
i was writing so fast till my hand went totally numb at the end of the paper.
i couldn't even tie my own script! haha.

bahhs~ shan't think of it now. got 3 more to go.

going to post the pictures took on Jia's bday celebration at pasir ris park.

the two setting up the fire in their own world.

me and best friend. Gabriel says we looked like each other (yet another one. --> repeat the fallopian tube story to him)

don't ask me why i give her that kind of look. i cant rmbr. haha

us.

amanda.

chun hui, the satay girl. she keep on distributing satays to us!

me. only there to eat. haha. nv cook anything.

spooky.

it's us again. with the blue and red light sticks.

amanda and the moon. quite artistic isnt it?

i know this is an ugly picture, but we three decided to be the new generation of powerpuff girls. teck chiat managed to capture us flying in the air.

this time round, the new generation of 5 superwomen. what's missing is the red underwear. wahaha.

emo-ing.

the cat who stole our lime light.

me and the birthday girl

Birthday girl and birthday boy.

the legendary WEEKDAYS.

The whole group of us.

me, chun and xin, shagged after a long day.

we missed the last train at pasir ris. gotta trouble Chun's dad to fetch us back. a big thanks to uncle, for sending me back home, safe and sound.

you know, half way through the BBQ,
we witness some teenagers (we assume they're teenagers cos they look quite young. you know --> gin nas.)
the guy was asking the girl to be his gf i think. (to be his girl friend?)
the guys, with the help of some of his friends, place candles on the ground (i suppose it has some formation, but we were too far to see the exact formation).
the girl, came running back with another few more friends, with the guy waiting for her with flowers.
the guy give the flowers to the girl, and then theres silence.
i think the guy is waiting for the girl's answer.

i didn't know what happened next, cos the silence was too long, and so i got distracted by some other things.

then amanda told me, the girl threw the flowers into the bin.

wasted. haha.

after that day, i coped myself at home to STUDY STUDY STUDY.

but then, went out with dear as a form of reward for working so hard.
we went to the great world city.

its our first time there. wonder if we will go back there again or not cos its v inaccessible and rather boring.

had tcc for lunch.

mine:

his:

i was very hungry, and so i forgot to take pictures of the food we ordered.

me, while waiting for him to try some outfit at ZARA.

we went to catch the show "seeker"
not my cup of coffee....
its like those magical adverturous type. very boring.
i dunno how to appreciate this kind of show. haha.
if you like harry porter, maybe you'll like this show.
cos i'm biased now, i'll say, save your money for better movies if you wanna watch it.

us, waiting for shuttle bus.

went home, played with this hot that was supposed to let my mum wear it. but she didnt like it.

daddy says i looked like some tourist from japan.

kawaii desuka?

my mum is discharged from amk hospital and is now at home. it's so inconvenient for her to stay at home cos we dun have all those facilities for her.

so we're looking for some rehab centre that she can go in the morning. you guys got any recommendations?

im now going back to do my revision. =(
stressed.

you know... sometimes, im really glad that i've got him. he always try to make me feel optimistic.

for example, last week i randomly smsed him :

"till date, we've been together for 622 days! sound so short" (as usual, me being pessimistic)

then he replied:

"that means we've been together for 14928 hours! so long!"

and i smiled, with the feeling that i've got a pocket full of hopes.

又恨又爱，我想这就是爱情里最甜美的矛盾

read through one of wenna's post which was posted long time ago....
and i cant help but agree:

"我们放下了尊严，放下了个性，放下了固执，

都只因为。。

放不下一个人 。"

i read already got "feel" sia.
haha. how about you?



feeling so stress due to exams. because im stress, im feeling pessimistic. =(















arent the above 2 pictures beautiful?
the brightness of the flame brings hope

but....

soon, it'll be extinguished.
no more beautiful glowing flame.
pessimistic.




maybe you're right,
i can't live without you.
love you many many. =)

Look at the dark clouds gathering over my house.


stormy weather. slippery road.
just like how i'm feeling now.

对我们的未来 心里明明早就有数
可是
为什么 当话从你口中说出时

我的心 还会隐隐作痛？

一直以为我不在乎未来是怎样，
但今天，

我发现。。。

因为爱你，所以想要有个未来

但是，听你说了那番话后
我害怕未来

At this moment, i dun need distractions

i need to study
TO MAKE SURE I DUN FAIL ANY OF MY MODULES.

i read one of my senior's blog,
and i came across a depressing post.
wad she wrote
was just so real,
as if it happened to me.

i could feel her pain, her helplessness, her agony.

the seven years that they spent together, only need a day, or maybe, even a sentence to have them bid goodbye.

he may be the right one for her, but...i hope she'll find someone better, so that she can move on with her wonderful life.

somebody told me: "i cant stand girls stupidity in a relationship. just let go lar"

if only it was that easy,
there wont be anymore heartbreaks.





my huge appetite is back.
please stop me from eating.




i should really start studying.

Like my new blogskin?

yippee~ its all wenna's effort.

i shall blog, as a form of opening ceremony for my new blogskin. heez.

birthday over for almost 2 weeks, but i've not received all my presents yet, so... no photos.

but anyways, thank you:
-dear for nike bag and water bottle and all expenses incurred on 28 sep 2007.
-weekdays for their pink zen stone plus and skin
-Xin hui for the pedicure
-Chun hui for the hairband and earrings
-Amanda and jia min for the body shop body polish, cup and birthday collage
-mL for the origins products, cake and cactus
-Cynthia, ducky, joanne, sulwyn and wanwan for the wallet
-Michelle for the watch
-Maggie and Melissa for the body shop concealer
-Daniel for the hard disk

did i miss out anything?


went to celebrate my birthday at the settlers cafe with weekdays. it was my first time there and yups, we enjoyed it very much. Jia Min and Teck Chiat is scary!



i would like to visit the place again =)

next, met up with mL for my birthday and of cos mL's day which falls on 29Seop
had healthy mushroom dinner (or rather supper) at mandy's hse, and spent the rest of the night drinking redwine, gossiping and playing twister.

while shopping for grocery


our healthy mushroom meal





the delicious mango sago made by mandy's mum


the invader of the night. GROSS!


don't ask me what we're doing


i wish, i wish. look at my retarded face.



seven years of frienship!


me and my miracle cactus.





last sat was xin's birthday
went to....


it's a paradiz centre. and for lunch, they serve 6 course meals! the food there is fabulous! it's worth a try. im going to bring my boyfriend down someday =)

me and the birthday girl



people used to say we're twins or sisters in the past. we got so sick by people asking if we are really sisters, and we just said yes. im from the left fallopian tube and she's from the right one.
and tadah~ we are the twins.

me and chun darling


my caramel pecan spin from TCC. i love it cos it has marshmellow. yummy.



This is my boyfriend for the past 20 months. He'll be enlisting on 11 Dec. OMG.



Anyway, went seoul garden for lunch to celebrate our 2oth month.
and he likes the food there. =)



played monopoly at his house some time ago....

can u see all the hotels being built on the whole stretch?
all the hotels belong to him! the only thing i remember while playing monopoly with him is
PAYING THE HUGE AMOUNT OF RENT.



at the end of the day.... look at his assets


look at mine

so pathetic. im bankrupt. but its ok, since im the girlfriend of this millionaire.


something random

one egg with 2 yolks! amazing....


the 3 mirrors at the ice cream gallery.


me in my boyfriend's shirt




blogging is a waste of time.
i wonder why im blogging instead of mugging



gonna attend funeral.
another one of my relative passed away.



ah! sometimes, life is just so unpredictable.

Hi everybody.
Now that im 20 years old, how great?

you know, its weird.
eversince the age of 17, i dun feel excited whenever my bday is approaching.
Although it means that there will be presents and ang paos, cakes and gatherings, but....
u know u will only continue to age, you dun want to face the fact that u are turning 1 year older, but you have to.

plus, eversince the age of 17, nothing good happens around my birthday period.
things that happened, chose to happen around september, which horribly dampens my bday mood.

and hence, eversince the age of 17,during every 27 sep, i will get so emo all over,i just feel like spending time alone, dun feel like interacting with others,then all the negative thoughts starts creeping in. emo because im gonna be like 1 year older. emo because i can never remain at 16, 17, 18 or 19 again. emo because 1 year older means more responsibilities. emo because my life span is decreased by another year. emo because i will say hi to fine lines and wrinkles again. emo because theres just too many things for me to be emo.

and when the clock strike 12 on 28 sep, i know its my day, and i can most probably have things my way. i physco myself that im the queen, and i will have the final say in most decision. i try to be happy and enjoy the day because this is the day when i can act like a queen who commands around. to simplify, ITS JUST BECAUSE IM BORN ON 28 SEP, AND ITS MY DAY. so i have every reason to be happy and feel happy.

time always pass extremely fast on 28 sep. its like 11.30pm in an blink of the eyes. then, i will secretly count down inside me, to see how much time im left to be the queen of the day. usually the last half and hour of 28 sep, i will feel emo again, all the way to 29 sep, cos the next time i can be queen again, it will be a year later.

and so, to summarise what i wrote above, im trying to say, im feeling EMO now. birthday is over. no more queen. no more MY WAY. more reality. how great.

however, last year, was the first birthday out of the past few birthdays which i had, that was celebrated peacefully and happily, with all my family members and friends all living well and healthily.

i tot last year was an indication of more happy birthday mood for me in the years to come. but thats not true.

i woke up early this morning, everything starts to go wrong.
i took out the pretty top which i intend to wear, and wanted to get it ironed cos it was crumpled.
so i happily took out the iron and the iron board, switched on the power of the iron, position my top nicely, take the iron with my right hand, put the iron down on the top.....

the next moment when i lift my my iron, i saw a hole on my top!

my top's material is those kind of silky material.

i forget to switched it to the cool mode.

you know how i felt at the instant.
i so much wanted to use the hot iron and iron my brain.
its like 20 years old already, i dun even know how to iron properly.
whats worst is, i only wear the top once only!
i feel so stupid and good-for-nothing.

so, no choice, i got to change my outfit.
i proceeded on to put on my make-up.
applied layers and layers of creams and powders to make myself feel pretty.

yes indeed, i felt pretty on my birthday,
but do you know how empty my heart feels?
so what if i feel im pretty? what i really wish for now, is not for me to become slimmer and prettier anymore. I JUST WANT MY MUM TO BE HEALTHY AND NORMAL LIKE BEFORE AGAIN.
nothing feels right today, without her usual greetings, helping me to buy birthday cake, giving me a peck on my cheeks, like how she used to do before.

whats the shit use of being pretty without all these?

ah! sad note aside.
im really glad that i've got my boyfriend today, to celebrate my birthday with me.
he was exceptionally handsome today, being extra gentleman, giving in to me more and tolerating my nonsense and absurbness.

even though its a simple dinner and simple movie and simple shopping,
all these were enough to brighten up my mood, feel like a real queen, make me dread the approach of 29 sep and the emo-ness that will soon be overtaking me.

I love you dear. Thanks for everything. i wondered how to survive the night with me being grouchy and picky on you. LOVE!

After that, daddy and sisters came all the way from home to fetch me back. cos they were afraid that i wont make it home in time to cut my birthday cake.

i wasnt expecting any cakes this year, and i was really touched and surprised when daddy said he bought it.
when we reached home, i looked at the cake (which i stupidly forget to take foto again) and laughed. He bought 3 slices of cakes instead. 2 mango, 1 strawberry. put on the candles and they sang the birthday song. i wanted to cry so much. i can't put how i feel into words. i guess u guys will nv understand how i feel.

ending my post here.
Below are my birthday presents so far.

pink wallet from cynthia, wan wan, sulwyn, joanne and ducky.

Nike bag and water bottle from Mr. Tan Tian Huat.

(Chun! we have the same water bottle now!)

a watch frm sis (michelle)

hmm....and a lap top from daddy.

and more to come i hope!

meeting weekdays and mL tomorrow.

royal clique, when are we meeting again? Am i gg to arrange for my own bday celebration? i think hx,jw,tobs,me and qj can celebrate together. LOL.

*i've made a very simple wish, and i know it will come true*

happy birthday to you, samantha.

21st of sep finally came,
handed up all the major projects,
now its only left with one, which will be due on 15 oct.

haven chiong project eversince feb this year.
it feels really tiring. its like.... going for a jog after you didnt run for like 1 year.
all the stamina gone.

didnt sleep for the last 3 nights, and yesterday, when i reach home,
i slept all the way for like 12 hrs. shiok!

went shun deng's hse to complete my distribution channle project.
and i brought my pooh bear along with me. its so huggable!
and... no smell. haha

my group mates and i staring at the computer screen. i think its 7am in the morning.
i looked like a total nerd with my thick specs on.

and today, finally got time to really dress up!
and yes, i did felt pretty. haha.
my wardrobe is really getting boring.
should go shopping and get something for myself soon.
anyone keen to shop?

went to catch 'i pronounce u as chuck and larry' with mr bf.
funny show, but rather boring.
after that, met up with mL at night for mandy's bday dinner.

exams coming soon. i should really get started with those boring text book.
got a feeling that i did badly for some projects,
cant afford to fail.
STRESS AH!

birthday coming soon.
have you prepared my present?

my biggest birthday wish this year.... is for mummy to recover.
theres nothing more important than this.

why is sad incidents always more overwhelming than happy ones?

sometimes, you need to know you are sad, very sad.
and when u are happy, u will not doubt that u are happy, cos u've experience all the sad things in life.

i think life is being difficult on me.
what did i do to deserve all those shit?

like what one of my classmate always say -- SSDD
"same shit, different day"

but what to do?

thats life.

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

its really depressing.

how could life be so fragile?

看着融化掉的冰淇淋,

眼泪不知不觉地滑下。

不是因为它不好吃。。。

而是因为得不到谅解。

我真得很无奈。



我的心


不知道还可不可以承受那快窒息的感觉。

this blog of mine is like close to 4 years old.



and this is only the 500th post.



for this entry, i shall post my september schedule.

Im dying at SIM already.
i will like have project meeting almost everyday, for the next 2 weeks, before everything unofficially end on 21st sep.

i look at my schedule, and feel so exasperated.
theres like nothing i can do,
to improve my current situation.

im tired.
tired frm all the datelines,
tired frm the stress not only from projects,
but frm myself too.

pls tell me,
you will understand.

if there is any answer that could make my thoughts run wild and trigger my fear,
that answer would definitely be......







"i don't know"












everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.






feel like having you by my side now,
and hug you like theres no tommorrow.

i wanna feel safe in your arms again.