my story. my life

is it becos im ugly?
is it becos im fat?
y is it so difficult for mi to understand my frens?
or rather for my frens to understand and like mi.

i know im not pretty.
i know im not slim.
but surely i deserve the chance like any other gers have to a big bunch of frens to laugh with her, share her silly jokes etc etc.

im really tired of pleasing everyone around mi.
i feel like im a clown infront of my frens.
but somehow, i oso feel the other way round, where my frens are the clowns infront of mi.
it seems liked im not being appreciated for wad i've done.
maybe i got an attitude.
maybe im overly sensitive.
but wad makes in overly sensitive?
its the lack of security.
and therefore im pleasing the whole of the world.
i dun like you, yet i pretended i liked u.
i hate and cant stand ur attitude, yet i say "no. it doesnt matter"
guess if i reallly speak the truth, everyone will hate mi.
so y say smth that makes pple hate u?
i feel that its better to keep everything to oneself.
cos not all pple can really accept the truth.

pple. pls. if u're pissed off with mi, juz say it rite infront of my face.
yes, i may be angry or so.
but its better for u guys to tell mi the truth den showing mi attitude when i really got no idea wat went wrong.
and i really hate pple acting infront of mi.
thank you.