my story. my life

before the clock strike 12,
juz wanna wish all mothers happy mothers' day.

this yr mothers' day
i didnt prepare any gift for my mum.
juz prepared the awful dinner on thursday
and an icecream cake.

i muz admit that being a mum is the toughest job on earth.
first, she had to suffer for 10 months,
and bear the pain of giving birth.
next, she muz face the fact that she may nv regain that wonderful figure she had b4.
she had to wake up in the middle of the nite to feed milk
she have to save and sacrifice some for her money and time spent of herself juz to take care the baby.
and when the baby grows bigger,
she have to supervise the studies of her child.
and when the child is at his teenage yrs,
they will begin to find their mother a nag.

wah...
u do other jobs outside,
u are being paid for ur contributions.
but being a mother,
its all 24 hrs contribution
and yet no money in return.
some even worst,
they are being abandoned by their own child after bringing them up.

i haven said happy mothers' day to my mum.
and guess
after blogging this,
it will be past 12 le.
so this yr,
its a miss.
haha.

sometimes,
i really hate my mother for the strict control
i hate her for not putting herself in my shoe
i hate her for being my mother.

but other times
i realised,
im so fortunate to have her.
she worries for mi,
she cares for mi
juz tt she express in another way.

but most of the time,
wad she says actually have a very huge and direct impact on mi.
or should i say,
i actually very zai hu how she tink of mi,
i wanna be the best ger in her heart
but somehow
i dunno wad is she thinking most of the time.
if she says im not gd,
den i'll admit tt im really not gd.
i dunno why,
but thats they way it is now.
whenever my mum smiles at my achievement,
it doesnt matter to mi how big or small the achievement is
becos i've got her smile.

im always telling myself to defy her for once
but failed terribly
cos i dun wanna hurt her.
even though if i succeeded in defyin her,
im not happy at all,
i couldnt enjoy wad i was doing
cos all my heart is thinking
she's not happy.
and i made her unhappy.
and i've gotta face the music again when i got home.

to my mum, whom i love and hate at the same time,
know u wun be able to read this,
but dun worry,
i'll take care of u
juz like wad u did.
happy mothers' day!