my story. my life

when was the last time you gave ur mum a kiss?




i did that 2 days ago....







AND SHE CRIED.



At that very moment, i felt guilty for not giving as much love as how she gave us.
i often took her love and care for granted,
thinking that is always so natural for her to act this way,
forgetting that everybody needs love,
and my mum is not an exception.


mum is admitted into CGH due to appendicitis.
and the worst thing is, she had the operation a day before her birthday,
so she spent her birthday in torturous pain and uncomfortable hospital bed.

i couldnt really put into words how i felt the moment we (my sisters and me) kissed her and she cried.
i could sense how much she loved us,
how much she missed us,
and how much the 4 of us meant to her.



and i really hate hospitals.
people often say the airport is the saddest place, cos u see people leaving.

but i feel that, hospital is the saddest and disgusting place of all.
u not only see people suffering, u also see people leaving their kins PERMANENTLY.
argh.
I HATE HOSPITALS!


this week, my life is rather boring.
i dun have much after-work activites cos i have to visit my mum.
the most happening thing this week was catching Fantastic 4 (nice show!) and Jack's place lunch with bf.


and the damnest thing of all that could happen to me is.....

MY DAMN APPETITE IS BACK.

i cannot imagine the amount of food and snacks that i stuffed into my mouth.

i bought sweets and snacks back to office, and i couldnt resist the temptations!

the snacks in my office drawer.


i bought a packet of this. 1 packet has 5 tubes in them.
and guess wad. i can finish 1 whole tube within 15 min!
i just couldnt stop my hands from taking one of it and pop it into my mouth.
and 15 min later, i realised, i ate it all.
tsk tsk *sinful*



and ya, i have a very messy stationery drawer.


look at the amount of fats on my face.
=(
i wish i could have a slimer and smaller face.
=( =(




but nevertheless, i still love myself very much,
appreciating how pretty i am everytime i looked into the mirror,
and self-indulged in my own narcissism.




for the very 1st time i feel i have big eyes and small face.
haha! dun looked like me at all.



With this Pooh Bear, im able to sleep better every night!
its so soft and nice to cuddle!
Thanks bf for giving this to me =)





im still in love with myself, even without any make-up on.







sometimes, all i need is a little respect on my stand and thoughts.
its unbelievable.
one moment i was so angry,
but when the phone rings,
im alright again.

im weak.