new year resolution?

i dunno...

its seems like wadever resolutions i made last yr,

none of them were fulfiled.

so y waste time, waste space?

but....

in this new year,

i hope i'll be happy,

you'll be happy,

and we'll be happy!

........................................................................

"sometimes it feels no one understand, i dun even know why i do the things i do."

im feeling so emotional now on new yr's eve.
i dunno y.
i juz felt like a forgotten soul, trying so hard to fit into everyone's life.
i hate this.
i feel like crying.
boo hoo!

happy new yr everyone.
may this new yr be filled with lots of fun and love.
*kiss and hug all my frens*

xmas gathering on 23rd dec with mLsaRs.

we went to the.....

us....in the Whatever cafe!

the food we ordered.....

my suggestion :

if you dun like cheese or vegetables or organic stuffs, or u are a carnivore who cant leave w/o meat (juz like ah wei), pls dun go to the wadever cafe.

cos you will end up like mi!

eating the food there with this expression plastered onto my face for the entire dinner. hahaha.

and as for the drinks, i decided to try the organic root beer....

someone should have video or capture my expression when i was pouring the rootbeer into my cup. i've never seen rootbeer that looks exactly like sprite but taste exactly like rootbeer. omg. i was utterly amused. really.

and we finished our food!

*burp*

opps! excuse mi!

next, its the time to exchange our present!!!!
everyone were so excited!
and *drum rolls*
here's the result!

wenna got a belt from mandy.

ah wei got the horoscope guardian angel on the mo tian lun from ling.

sasa got the cool black hello kitty mug frm ah wei

ling got the pretty silver and gold star necklace from sasa

mandy got the plant which can grow without watering, sunlight and nutrients from shi jin.

shi jin got the cute and huge huggie dog from mi! (she's damn lucky. muahaha)

last but not least, i got a funky bag from wenna, which came juz rite in time cos i didnt bring any bag along that day and i need a bag to put my stuffs that im bringing to the chalet after the gathering.

take 1:

as you can see from the mirror reflection behind mi, the person taking the foto is the claim-to-be-artistic wenna poon. and look at the foto, its blur. wow. so artistic. opps =X

and so, take 2:

still abit blur rite, and so we can conclude wenna got shaky hands. but nvm, i give her 1 more chance cos she help mi fotoshop one of the fotos again! (guess which 1? dun tell u!!!)

take 3:

not shaky anymore! but now i wonder y sasa like to make special appearance in my foto. haha.

all our prezzies. so happy and blessed.



after chatting and coming out with the mL fund (which initially have $33++), we decided to go have desserts.
so we went walking around at chinatown area, but non of the dessert shop catches our attention.

so we decided to go to the place where mL+sars 1st met!!

GEYLANG LORONG 9 to have the famous yong he dou jiang!

we took a cab down using mLsars fund.
and paid using the mLsars fund.



and at the end of the day......

the mLsars fund only left a pathetic sum of $3.10

o_O;

after the desert, went down str. to coasta sands east coast.
its supposed to be 3F/4E gathering but apperently some didnt turn up.
1st nite, i got to slp 4 hrs.
den the next day, woke up, went bedok have lunch, den go back slp a little while more, wake up, went cycling and at nite, we bbq and den had a small chitchat session with weekdays by the beach!
changyi dropped by and we can really see the great change in him.
its like....its only 2 years.how come his change so big? (in terms of maturity rate and thinkings) he really surprise all of us.time can really change a person.
den finally its 12am, countdown to xmas with our chalet neighbours.

being a cinderella, i decided to return home at 12am!

the next day, meet up with weekdays to get our weekdays ring!
went orchard and i tell u, its damn crowded.

yesterday, went to jiayi's chalet at pasir ris.
its the same block as the time we had our class chalet.
huixian and i bought 12 bottles of alcoholic drinks.
our intention was to get ourselves drunk....but we failed miserably.
the drinks were too gassy, and i really felt uncomfortable drinking them, as if my stomach was going to explode anytime with the gas in it.
went bowling. and its my 2nd time. no improvement compared to the 1st time i played. i droped the ball 2 times while swinging and the other times, my thumb got stuck in the hole of the ball. and i only scored a pathetic score of 13 points. *shame*

went home the next day with barely 1 hour of sleep. and when i reached home, i knew smth is wrong with mi.
headache starts coming in and body temperature increasing.
took panadols to sleep and felt better when i woke up at 3pm.

wow...i think its a long entry.

sch gonna repoen soon.
den all projects will start dueing one by one
den followed by exams,
den my attachment.
omg. can somebody stop the time for a while so i can breathe and appreciate the scenery outside my window.

my only motivation now is my shanghai trip during chinese new year.
jia you!

merry christmas!
will be back for more posts if im free!
and im busy.
so pls visit mandy's blog and sasa's blog to know how i celebrated my xmas with mL+saRs.
im so bloody hell sleepy and tired after the chalet.
haven bath somemore, and i emit the smell of barbequed food.
omg.
sticky face also!
argh, and i wonder y am i still her blogging.

oh. WADEVER. gonna go pom pom now.
merry xmas once again.
nitez

omg!
im so so so in love with wenna poon!!!!
*kiss her all over her face*
she made my freckles dissapear!!!!
AHH!!!!! *jumps around*
no more freckles! no more freckles!
*kiss her again*

but.....its only in this one and only one picture that she photoshop.....
sobz....
the freckles are still on my face and i think its gonna stay there forever.
*cries out loud*

one more week to christmas!
im so looking forward to it,
cos i think im gonna enjoy myself.
but oso got lots of projects to rush.
lots of gathering.
and drinking session!
haha.
im so so so excited!

had gift exchange in with my classmates yesterday!
so fun!

this is a happy entry is'nt it?
its hard to be happy.
but its even more difficult to try to be happy.
dun u guys think so?

i took a colour quiz sometime last week.
and i think its quite true.
maybe u guys wanna try it out
:)

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Tue Dec? 6 19:39:01 2005.

Your Existing Situation
Works well in cooperation with others but is disinclined to take the leading
role. Needs a personal life of mutual understanding and freedom from discord.

Your Stress Sources
The existing situation is disagreeable. Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an
unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her
own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation
magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to her
self-sufficiency because of the restraint she normally imposes on herself. Since
she wants to demonstrate the unique quality of her own character, she tries to
suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned
self-reliance to conceal her fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize
her behavior with contempt. However, beneath this assumption of indifference she
really longs for the approval and esteem of others.

Your Restrained Characteristics
An unadmitted lack of confidence makes her careful to avoid open conflict and
she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Your Desired Objective
Has an imperative need for some bond or fusion with another which will prove
sensually fulfilling, but which will not conflict with her convictions or sense
of fitness.

Your Actual Problem
Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of
outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics she admires
and to display originality in her own personality.

Your Actual Problem #2
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals
have led to anxiety, and she is distressed by the lack of any close and
understanding relationship. She attempts to escape into a substitute world in
which things are more nearly as she desires them to be.

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caution!
if u ever wan to go fish and co to eat,
never never never order a main course if u are not sharing it with other frens,
in other words, u are having the main course urself.
unless you got a expandable and elastic stomach like wenhao's,
den go ahead and order.
their serving is LARGE.
REALLY.

had fish and co today cos its huat's birthday.
went park mall's one.
got live band somemore.
haha.
dedicated him a birthday message.
happy 18th birthday!
hope u enjoyed urself today.

tml gonna work again.
after work, will be rushing down to woodlands for project.
after project, will meet mL+sars for midnite shopping plus ton session over at ah wei's house!
den after ton-ing at ah wei house,
gonna rush back to work again at 1pm.
after work, i'll be back to study and continue with my studies.
im leading a busy and cong shi life.

so now, im gonna go and try completing my uccd tonight.
ciaoz.

i juz reached home 5 min ago,
and its like i've experienced a battle.
this is because.....
theres 2 dragonflies juz outside my house!!!!
they are BIG.
im not exaggerating.
i juz couldnt bring myself to open the door. and so i pressed the doorbell so my sis will open the door for mi, and i'll juz have to dash into my house.
ok, my sis opened the door, but upon seeing the dragonfly outside the door, she slammed the door closed immediately.
-_-"
argh!!!

i managed to get into the house in the end lar.
when both dragonflies finally decides to take a rest.

I HATE FLYING CREATURES!!!!

hrm test tml.
haiz.

Guess what did i have for dinner today.....

tadah!~~ its the newyork pizza!
look at the size, and i actually finished all of it!

This whole pizza cost $3.90. (singapore dollars)
its so cheap! despite of its size.
hmm...taste not bad too. nth much to comment, cos im NOT fussy!

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congrats to amanda and jia min.
u guys can enjoy life le lor.
finally finised ur A levels.
shiok sia.
i oso wan holidays!!!!

went out with them yesterday.
intended to dine at Barcelona (a pub recommended by jia yi)
but we had delifrance instead.
after delifrance, den we went Barcelona for drinks and light snack.
listened to the band for awhile den went off at ard 1030,
cos we were too tired, and cos we were good gers

stayed over at amanda's house.
slept together in her room.
mi, xin and chun shared the bed
amanda and jia had to sleep on the 'tee-lam'
haha.
and that chun hui dunno wad happen to her oso.
laugh laugh laugh and laugh when we were abt to sleep.
and due to extreme fatigue,
i didnt care much abt her laughter and went to lala land soon after.
but hor,sleeping beside miss NG XIN HUI is worst than a nightmare.
she twist and turn like nobody's business, i still can accept it,
but the problem is i dunno y she needs to twist and turn with all her might,
shaking the bed and snatching away my share of blanket.
if not, she will stretch her hand and hit my face.
for a moment, i feel like strangling her.
haha.

den we were all woken up by a phone call at 8.45am.
but we all lazy to get up so early.
den i suggested that the 5 of us squeeze into the bed together.

omg. it was so squeezy lor,
den dunno who start tickling each other and we almost had our legs tangled together under the blankets.
the crazy amanda and chun hui kicked mi down the bed and began wrapping mi up with the blanket.
after that, they stack themselves on mi.
wah, really difficult to breathe sia.

intended to leave the house at 1015am to lot 1's k box.
but in the end, we left the house at 1045am.
haha.
den sang sang sang till 3pm.

chun says she feels like playing pool.
so we took the train to tampines to play lor.
and thats the end of my day.
there goes my weekend,
and i muz work full again tomorrow.

AHH!!! I DUN WAN!!!

CAs coming and i haven start my revision.
sian.

anyway, ah wei updated her blog with fotos took during the mL+sars gathering.
if u all wanna c the fotos, juz go her blog ba.

today's lesson starts at 10Am
and i actually forget it starts at 10am.
so i happily woke up at 7.10am,
thinking that lucky i didnt oversleep and manage to get myself out of the comfortable bed even though its drizzling outside and it will be so nice if i can cont to sleep.
i left the house at 7.50am, still raining.
when i was crossing the road, i saw bus 14 coming,
and i dash all the way to the bustop,
relieved that i didnt miss the stupid bus 14 today.
den i reach tanah mehra mrt,
i took the train.
at abt 8.15, i was at aljunied le.
and i start asking myself, wad is my 1st lesson.
den it occur to mi that my 1st lecture is HRM, which starts at 10AM
and i dunno wad am i doing in the stupid crowded train at 8.15AM when my lessons actually starts at 10.
"shit!"
that was wad i said to myself.
and den i got so angry with myself that i feel like alighting the mrt and jump down of the mrt track.
with this nice weather, i can actually sleep for an extra precious 1 hour,
but i woke up that early to go to school.
omg.
laugh at mi people. laugh at mi to make mi feel stupid and silly.
i SHALL and i WILL NEVER want to repeat wad had happened today.

anyway,
went to keppel logistics today.
it was a fieldtrip organised by eddie ong for supply chain module.
saw how goods were shifted and distributed and stuffs.
we even get to enter their cold room which was -25 degress celsius.
so cold.
it was indeed a fun experience la.

tonight is really cold.
i wanna sleep now.
nite

i had a really sad nightmare last night.
i forget the details of my dream.
i can only remember mi crying and crying and crying non-stop.
the feeling was helpless, like trying-very-hard-to-breath-but-u-cant feeling.
and den i woke up unknowingly,
with tears still streaming down from my eyes, mucus flowing out from my nose (i know its disgusting, but i cant control when im sleeping)
and pillow wet by my tears.
the grief is so strong that until now, i still got the sad, devastated and depressed feeling within mi.
omg.
i really wanna know wad exactly did i dreamt which left such a strong sense of grief.

went mr naufal's house today.
didnt chat much with him.
saw his cute baby nadia.
i carried her!
omg! she smells so nice and she's so soft!
oOO....its makes mi so happy upon seeing mr naufal with her baby.
argh. i dunno how to describe the feeling.
its like seeing someone got something they really want after trying very hard.
touched?
thats the word i can think of.

ahh!
im working again tml!
my colleague sick, muz cover her shift.
so tired.
yesterday worked.
today worked.
tml working.
mon working again.
give mi a break!

omg.
that guy is actually my new neighbour.
black mark upon 1st meeting.
and my there goes my 1st impression....
*open the window and jumps down*

if u guys dunno wad im toking,
pls refer to my previous post.

its been 2 yrs since i had the same experience.
i stood down there and my body juz trembled like nobody's business.
suddenly, i start searching for the nearest exit sign.
but im proud that we chose to hang on till everything is over,
eventhough we may not be satisfied with wad had happened,
but we didnt let ourselves down,
and ger, its ur 1st step 2wards ur dream.
outcome doesnt matter, its the process that we enjoyed and the experience gained is priceless.
=)
jia you ba!

14 Nov 2005
HaPPY BirThdaY to the retard-est vice chairman of the retards society and sometimes my super hilarious tai-tai partner, ONG SASA.
HAHA.
ms ONG SASA, may all ur dreams come through and i hope u will feel as proud as mi, being the vice chairman in the retard society.
hope that we can have more retarded shopping trips!!!!

mr naufal invited ex students of mjr to his house this sat!
and WE are definitely going.
miss him so much can!
his baby girl so CUTE la!!!

had a mini celebration for sasa's bday at TM.
had delifrance for dinner and chatting sessions at starbucks.
got her a dolphin necklace!!!
lalalala~
and i bought a new jacket!
im a happy girl!

so so so busy with everything now.
sch started 3 weeks,
i didnt carry out any revision,
i didnt do any tutorial,
i didnt even unwraped the text book which i bought last week.
wow.
i wonder wad have i been busying.

projects projects and projects.
sickening.

yesterday, while i was on my way home, i was listening to my mp3, with volume that is rather high to the level that i totally cant hear you if u call mi from behind.
den when i was retrieving my keys from my bag,
my legs kana scratched by the file im holding in my hands.
so pain can!
and the worst thing is,
instead of "ouch!",
wad came out of my mouth was "F*CK!"
and i think i said out it out very loudly,
cos i can hear myself so clearly, despite the fact that i was listening to the mp3.
and and and,
theres actually a shuai ge infront of mi!!!
he turned back and give mi the samantha-is-a-vulgur-girl look.
omg lar.
stupid mouth.
stupid file.
stupid guy.

with my parents constant nagging,
i decided to go get myself a driving license.
went to bukitbatok driving centre (bbdc) to register.
at 1st only wanted to take basic theory 1st...
but since bbdc de comes in a package,
and hx is taking it,
and my dad says i can make my own decision,
and my mum says i can oso make my own decision,
and i go all the way to bbdc,
i decided to register at bbdc instead of cdc which is at ubi.

the walk there from bukit gombak is so so so long.
and actually we dont have to walk,
but thanks to somebody, he says the shuttle bus interval is 1 hour,
so its better to walk go.
and somemore, that somebody says he took 7 min to WALK there,
which i really doubt so, unless like wad huixian says, he FLY there instead.
Thanks ar jing wei. thanks for being that somebody.
so much for trusting him.
haha.

the waiting time is long too.
their system there really very very inefficient.
they only have 1 counter for enquiry and so many pple wanna ask questions.
y dun they open another counter?
and i hate 4078. (lazy to explain. and i think u all not interested to know)
dun remind mi of them again.
i hope xin's curse can come true.
muahahah.

sorry sasa and mandy that i'd register 1st.
but i cant resist the temptation.
i cant imagine myself driving!!!
omg! im going drive.
im gonna get my license in half a year time!!! (if i heng lar)
omg.
i cant believe im 18.
and i cant believe my parents actually let mi make my own decision.

butbutbut......
since i dun intend to be a taxi driver,
since i dun intend to drive a SBS bus or a lorry/pick-up,
i signed up for auto instead of manual.
i wanna take the easy way out....

im so so so excited!!!

been eating pineapple,
but it still dun help.

i hope the pimple outbreak on my face is an indication that it is coming.
its ok if its late.....
but this time, its really worrying,
cos its really late
and its not the 1st time.
omg lar.

jerry says he gets irritated when his frens dun update their blog frequently.
actually, i wanna irritate him more by not updating.
haha.
but, samantha is a nice girl who dun irritate pple.
so i shall update!

last nite went East coast to cycle with daddy, mummy and sisters.
we rent 2 double bikes and 2 single bikes.
cycle from MAC to Bedok jetty. (not that far la)
and i cant ride that stupid double bike and i dunno y.
its been really a long time since i last cycled.
wanted to during the class chalet, but but but.....
haiz, dun wanna tok abt it le.
and now, my thigh feel so tight and my butt hurts like shit now

tml is jia min and amanda de 1st paper for A levels.
jia you!
2 more weeks to freedom again!!!

i lost my river raft donation card!
omg.
so suay.
think my make police report.
and i cant find SIM KIAN HO!!!
wad should i do?

went bugis with xin today with the intention to shop for my dad's bday present.
but i bought myself another top instead.
haha.

den meet up with wen and ling for dinner @ v8.
took neoprint again.
this time the neoprint machine got fan de wor!!! make u feel like u shooting MV, but make ur eyes dry oso.

last but not least,
happy birthday to WENHAO!!!!





there may be things i dun understand,
and u dun wanna explain.
but i think i know wad u mean....
sry if i'd caused unhappiness and troubles to you.
sry for being selfish.
maybe one day i'll regret wad had took place.
but for now, i hope u will be happy too.

Selamat Hari Raya.

had mL+saRs gathering today.
went to indochine to have our lunch.
after that went to tcc to have dessert.
sat down and chat and chat and chat.
tok abt skin care and cosmetics.
omg. its so taxing and troublesome to be a woman.
its really so important to have proper skin care.
and women have the privilege to be vain.
haha.
lucky, theres shun wei and mandy as our consultant.
and they recommend mi and ling to get sun screen to prevent the growing of freckles.
so i heed their advice and get myself a sun screen @ basic beauty.

took neo prints.
haha.
will wait for jin to scan them and send it to mi.

toking abt neo prints,
this reminds mi of the shop assistant with sucky shit attitude.
if only i can use the excuse of mi being mentally unsound,
i'll give her 2 tight slaps.
hmm....think of it, 2 tight slaps like not enuff sia.
but nvm, being kind hearted,
give her discount lar.


omg. sch again tomorrow!!!
ahHHHH!

Happy Deepavali

a wasted day.
sch again tml.
sian.
looking forward to thurs.
and i can meet my dear mL+sars again.

did some clearing and tidying of stuffs to my shelves today.
its freaking dusty. omg. the dust has been accumulating since 29 sep, my last paper.
since tml will be the start of sem 2,
i decided to clear and throw away those useless notes and welcome the new semester!!!

and after clearing......

TADAH!!~~

so neat rite?
im so proud of myself.

 

and due to space constraint,

i have to do throw away all the magazines.

and look at the amt of magazines im throwing away.....

i wonder wads the total amount of money i invested in magazines. haha.

and the most saddening thing is.......

i have to throw them away too.....

ahh!!! as i say....nth last forever.
no matter how much i love them,
i will still have to throw them away one fine day.
??????г???????
but im so duper sad now lar.
regret le.

byebye energy.

byebye money.

hello sem 2.

hello my frens!

ITS THE END OF MY HOLIDAY.
OMG.
IS THIS A HOLIDAY?

i dread school reopening.
boo hoo.
i can feel the stress ahead......
haiz.

it was amanda's lunar bday today.
and since we cant celebrate her actual bday due to her A levels,
we decided to celebrate it for her today instead.
gave her a surprise by appearing for the steamboat session at her auntie's house.
and again....when it comes to steam boat, we will always have to force those food down our stomach.
nevertheless, we still enjoyed and entertained ourselves in the process of stuffing ourselves with food and playing stupid games.
went home at ard 10pm.
i was so damn scared that i will miss my last bus [which is as freaking early as 11pm].
but heng ar....which i didnt miss the last bus.
and ya, im 18 yrs and 1 month old young today.
=)


meet up with my tai tai partner, sasa, in the noon.
we went bugis-ing.
i bought myself 4 tops at the cost of $66 ONLY.

met this auntie at topshop.
she ask mi whether im interested in combining the things that we buy and pay together to enjoy the 20% discount.
since i can have the priviledge of enjoying the discount without buying another piece, so i agreed.
but i think this auntie is alittle mentally unsound.
while i was trying the clothes in the fitting room,
she juz pull open my curtain and barge into my fitting room, saying "i share this fitting room with you hor."
omg. im at loss of words. shocked? angry? i dunno.
but i juz walked out of the fitting room gave sasa the 'what the hell' look.
lucky i finished changing when she opened the curtains without my permission.

i did mentioned that i watch a show with xin ytd rite.
and i didnt managed to cry despite the sad yet touching plot and storyline.
and this is quoted from xin's blog:
"sam said that she had no tears at all...think she is getting more n more cold-blooded.
haha...she is not that kind of person who would let her tears drop infront of others.she would try her very best to hold them back."

come to think of it....its been a long time since i last shed tears.
the last time when i really had a good cry is when im watchin "little brother" with jia yi.
is this a sign of mi getting more cold-blooded, or maybe i've grown stronger emotionally after a series of ups and downs i'd faced.
in the past, whenever i watched those type of sad sad and touching shows,
my tears will juz flow lor.
this time round.....
i dun even have the urge to cry le.
maybe i cried too much in the past le ba.

xin said, im those who wun cry infront of others.....
hmmm....think muz depend lar.
cos when i cry, i think i will look super duper ugly.
my eyes and nose will turn red, and this i think will scare off all the pple around mi.
so i muz control.
but sometimes, its so difficult to control, cos u will feel ur eyes burning and ur throat breaking as try to 'swallow ur tears' and not letting it drip out from your eyes.

i missed the feeling of crying,
but somehow, i already forget how to cry.

finally done with this new skin.
alot of pple changing their blogskins now-a-days,
so i tot of joining in the fun.

it rained so heavily juz now.
gosh. wads wrong with the weather?

had my gems registration on wed.
well....i hate sas.
its super lag!
plus my nervous-ness and retard-ness,
i went to click refresh button,
and ta-dah, it became SLOWER.
when i finally got the page loaded,
theres no more vacancies for the friday's real estate marketing.
and i have to take up the last vacancy for the wed's real estate class.
haiz.
after that, went out with my taitai-to-be partner. [i supposed we are tai-tais now]
went to get our stomach bombed at billy bombers.
the serving is so BIG can?!
in the end, we had to packet the dory fish home.
wahaha.
watched the 40 yr old virgin at cineleisure.
its real HILARIOUS.
but girls, if u not open minded enuff, i suggest u not to watch with guys.
haha.
some scenes so pai-seh sia.
and oh ya, its our 1st M18 show [although sasa not yet 18, but the staff there didnt check]
after that, sasa's uncle drove us home.
and den home sweet home.

and today,
went out with xin to watch movie again.
had macdonal breakfast in the morning. [its been so long since i last ate my breakfast]
planned to watch APRIL SNOW at the PRINCESS,
but hor, so suay, dun hv that show liao.
so we watch ALOT LIKE LOVE by ANDY LAU and CHARLENE.
hmm....the movie not bad. quite sad and touching, but i didnt managed to cry.
after that went TM shop ard
went home at ard 4 smth.

tml gonna go shopping with sasa again!!!
but think we gonna hv budget lunch.
gonna shop myself some tops. [i've been wearing the same tops over and over again. boring]
*yawnz* im tired.
nitenite.