went to the dunno is animation fair or anime fair with jin sasa and wen ytd at expo.
nth interesting there
only got digital stuffs and computer staffs
only the computer computer (wen) and jin interested only.
den mi and sasa go hall 4 de robinson sale.
ok
its dissapointing.
and im dissapointed.
cos the stuffs selling there were boring.
den mi and sasa start taking pictures with garfield and care bear.
haha.
den stayed down there to watch xmas performance by garfield and the gang.
alot of kids.
they sing and jump ard the stage.
interesting la.
better den the animation fair and robinson sale.

den went to V8 movie cafe (again)
to have lunch with mandy, wei, jaja, gerrie.
crap alot as usual
v8 suddenly become so 'lively' cos of our presence.
haha.

den went home after tt.
had porridge for dinner
den started playing mahjong with mum and sis
started with $2.50
ended with $2.90
so i won the pathetic $0.40.
den they still wanna continue to play dai dee and black jack
and i ended losing $1.50
haha
nvm lah.
enjoyed myself during the process can liao.
and i found out that my mental calculation really very bad.
during balck jack,
i got an ace and a no. 9 card
den i still go and draw extra card.
stupid mi rite.
and simple calculations like 8+7 i need to use my fingers to count
haha.

den today really got nth to do.
and my mood isnt really very good.
felt so pek chek and irritated over nth.
so i began to pack the stuffs on my study shelves and cupboard
and i felt better
cos everything was neatly packed and nicely arranged.
so i today discovered tt cleaning and packing my hse can really brighten up my mood when im down.
but 1 thing is....
i really fall sick le
due to the amount of dust i 'sniffed' in
now i having a headache, an itchy and running nose, a sore and itchy throat.
argh!!!

getting very emotional these few days.
if u ask mi to cry now... i can cry now...over nth.
if u ask mi to laugh now...i can oso laugh now.
im mad
im mad
im mad
u c...im really mad.

i dunno y m i putting a mask in front of everybody.
infront of my frens
infront of my family members?
who actually know the real mi?
dun say u know the real mi
cos i myself, dun even know who m i.
i juz know im called Samantha Lim Xiao Wei.
one of the dunno how many billions or trillions human being in this world.
im supposed to live on this earth.
thats it.
i really find no meaning to whatever im doing.
im doing for the sake of doing.
problems arise one after another.
regardless of frenship, family problems or financial problems
i keep running away from reality.
dunno from when, i learnt to console myself.
but as time goes by, the mo0re i console
the weaker i felt.
i felt like a pile of shit
totally useless, wanted and hopeless.
i felt like playing tug-of-war
as the evil and kind side of mi keeps contradicting.
maybe, maybe i think too much.
but...but...if i dun think, den wat should i do?
i hate myself for being undecisive
i hate myself for giving in too easily
y cant i be stronger and firmer?
y cant i juz hurt everybody ard mi juz to get my privileges?
y muz my frens treats mi so nice?
nice till they give mi no reason to hate a little bit of them.
sometimes, i really wonder...
wonder y m i born like this.
haha.
pple see mi as a like-able and nice fren
but they may not know that
maybe i actually hate them
maybe i want them dead
maybe i can juz push them down 20 floor building
haha
evil mi.
all this things might not happen.
simply juz becos i dun have the guts and terms.
i dun have the terms to reject anyone or anybody
cos i need frens ard mi.
with my looks and everything
making and knowing frens is really so difficult.
i cant afford to loose anyone close to mi now.
i clinged on to them so tightly that i myself feel that im so damn disgusting.
im an angel to someone angelic in my life....
this nick i used in msn ytd.
really thank you for looking upon mi as an angel.
but seriously im not
im juz faking
believe mi, im really faking
im not fit to be a fren
dun even mention angel.
although when u all have probs,
and u have to to console u...
i sometimes felt so stressed that i really dunno how to console.
maybe its my voice tt u wanna hear
not those words.
cos i really cant console.
so i wanna thanks god for giving mi this voice.
my voice.
really.
this entry is bull shit
believe it or not its up to u all.

ok. tok abt ytd
u c, i can change the atmosphere so fast.
from a moody moody and emotional topic to a clear topic.
thats mi.
i can change very fast.
ok lets continue.

my sis went back sch to collect her PSLE result.
ok
she did alot better den mi.
i felt happy and proud for her.
cos she can do well but i can only score 198.
haha.
congratualtions.

den had dinner at V8 movie cafe
after that catch the movie shutter with mum dad and sisters.
interesting show.
can understand the storyline easily.
unlike those korean/ jap horror movie which is so confusing.
some parts are funny.
those who haven catch this show.
its a nice show lah!

den today i go my ah him hse trim and highlighted my hair
it dun seems like highlighted hair
it looks like i went to DYE my whole head
but not the bad lah
better den the first time i highlighted which looks...
erm shall not further elaborate.

ok lah.
stop here le.

sometimes
i juz feel im so evil.
always saying things which is not wat im actually feeling
im so fake
dun understand y im like tt.

fortuanately
i've got great frens by my side.
i luv u guys.

ok.
job agency called mi today
and cfm mi a job which is only on this weekend
agreed with it anyway cos its better den nth.

went down to bugis to meet clar and leelin for job interview.
but when i reached,
clar and linz was like at the neoprint shop.
so we took neoprints.
its funny. haha
den had our lunch at the food court.
ate xin zhou bee hoon.
clar eat mee rubus. taste nice. will try someday

den we took cab to paradiz centre, where the career service office is situated.
den clar was cfm with the job le.
its about temp. screening and the rate was $9/hr
so high lor *envy*
she's gonna be a rich woman next yr.

after that we took bus 64 down to aljunied to wait for jamula to finish his last o lvl paper.
den we go clar hse to take foto to send to the job agency which cfm mi for this wkend job.
after that we go tampines mall.
den we go ntuc to shop for their prefect chalet thingy.
had gelare after tt.
*guilty* i feel so god-damn-fat now
went home after tt.

tts the end of my day.

took some personality test juz now.
and i feel its quite true.
maybe u guy wanna try tt out.
but try only if u are not rushing time
cos they have alot of questions for you to answer.

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here's my result :

You are gentle, caring, quiet, dutiful, neat, dependable, modest, unassuming, and humble. You can be counted on to make sure everything is in its place, that people are doing what they’re supposed to be doing and all the supplies have been secured.

You prefer to work behind the scenes, driven by a sense of obligation, often overworked for the benefit of others. You prefer tasks that are highly outlined, organized and practical. You fill your life with meaningful activities and schedule any down time. You enjoy helping any friend in need. You have a strong work ethic and can be critical of sloth, laziness and people who have possessions only through extreme indebtedness. All you’d like in return for all of your hard work is recognition and gratitude, neither of which you receive nearly in proportion to the effort and time you exert.

One of your greatest strengths is supporting family or group activities. Your contribution of cooking, cleaning, fixing or constructing is an expression of your love and loyalty to everyone present, and such labor is truly a pleasure for you to fulfill.

You were a model child. Relatively neat, sweet and conscientious, you were the child that every parent thinks they’re going to have. You may have openly disagreed or rebelled but if so it was short-lived and harmless and you were quick to accept the judgment of your parents along with any punishment they deemed reasonable.

Parenting, for you, is a lifetime commitment. You are protective, supportive and patient, often putting your children’s needs before your own.

You prefer not to make waves or attract too much individual attention. You go by the book and are suspicious of anyone suggesting that tried and true established methods should be revised or ignored.

You have a strong appreciation for antiques, traditions and heirlooms. You have a natural appreciation for and connection with your past and the people in your family tree. You find special joy in guarding old family artifacts regardless of their monetary value.

You put a lot of energy into maintaining your home. You keep things tidy, visually appealing and in working condition. You make sure your home is always well stocked with food and supplies. You take better care of your possessions than most types, cleaning, oiling, maintaining things so that they will always be nice, maintain their value, and function when needed. You want things to be sturdy and may replace something which isn’t broken if, after acquiring it, you realize that it’s of the new, shabbier quality.

You may or may not be a pessimist, but your speech is laced with reminders to realistically expect problems to arise. You are aware of the general dangers of living and are conscious of the fact that other people don’t heed your warnings as often as they should. You are also the first to point out to someone who seems surprised that they should’ve known that setbacks would occur

In a marriage you are helpful and supportive of your spouse. You enjoy working on tasks together, or working on your specialties at the same time (one cooks while the other fixes the plumbing). As a parent you do all you can to ensure that your children are well behaved and hard working.

nice and memorable events always ends so fast.
its sunday already.
fast isnt it?

anyway, didnt go home ytd nite
cos ton at mandy's hse.
met up with mL in the morning and off we go to sentosa.
but jin didnt turn up cos she had to work.
took monorail to palawan beach.
the ride is sure torturous
cos its slow and it makes my stomach churns
make mi feel like puking.
played in the water first b4 suntanning.
cut my feet in the water by those stones at the side...*ouch*
applied lots of suntan lotion cos i wan mi skin to look tan instead of burnt.
haha.
but in the end, i got myself sunburnt.
while we were suntanning,
i noticed a man dressed in formal clothings sitting at the bench quite a distant behind us.
he keep taking snap shots of us.
he used flash somemore.
making it more obvious that he is taking pics of us, especially mandy.
omg~~ wat will he do with those fotographs?
*worried*

left sentosa at abt 5.30pm
on our way home at harbour front,
there is a grp of guys who keep following behind us
they were so noisy and irritating.
while we were in the train,
a few guys from the grp approached mi and say one of the guy in the grp wants my no.
my god.
rejected them.
and they keep making fun of my actions and reactions in the train
i felt so frighten at that time.
lucky got mL with mi.
but the sad thing is...
i overheard one of their conversation.
and i think they said that on purpose.
cos they were loud.
this is wat they said : " eh...this kind of girl u oso like"
*sadded*
wat do they mean by "this kind of girl"
ok... nvm....cos they themselves sux big time too.
behaving like babarians in the public.
such a disgrace.
one of the guy wearing vjc t shirt somemore.

went kallang for dinner.
ate fried sotong, kangkong, xin zhou beehoon and hor fun
we were so famished at that time.
finished the food quite fast.
den we proceed to mandy's hse lor.

den clarissa appeared.
haha. funny story.
first, she sms wei say she coming. she call wei dun tell us cos she wants to surprise us.
but wei told us lor.
den we wanted to give clar a surprise oso lah.
so clar didnt knoe that we actually know she was coming.
den when she reached, we all act like very surprise.
haha.

den jin arrived a man hse also.
den we take out our surprise for clar.
a bday cake and her dolphin necklace.
actually the bday cake purpose was to celebrate all of our b days in this yr 2004.
cos we didnt really have the chance to celebrate it during our actual b day.
another purpose is to comemorate our 5 yrs of friendship.
haha.
such a sweet nite.
den clar left cos she cant stay overnite.
den jin also leave at abt 1am.
her dad came to fetch her.

after that, left the five of us.
man, wei, ling, wen and mi.
we watch tv and tok cock.
tok abt huang na's case.
shan't further elaborate.
cos we were all very furious and agitated when it comes to this topic.

den about 3.30 am
we go inside the bedroom play poker cards.
haha.
play play play until 4.45 am
all cant tahan le den slp lor.
i slp on the bed
the rest slp on the floor.
muahhahaha
evil mi.
no lah...is they all want to squeeze 2gether on the floor de.

woke up at abt 10.30am
went for breakfast.
den went home.
home sweet home.

juz read jin's blog.
dunno how to describe my feeling while reading them.
to jin :
to be precise,
i was rather angry and dissapointed with u.
i mean... we are good frens, best frens, bestest fren.
at least i treat u as 1.
but watever probs u encounter
u always choose to keep them to urself and act like nth happen.
i know u dun wish to tell us and let us know.
but u know wat
u left the rest of us guessing wat really happen to u.
we are all worried for you.
we are always here for each other including u.
i know we sometimes very difficult to help each other's probs,
but at least we know wat happened,
at least we can give u some comforts, some suggestions.
maybe this post might sound a little harsh
but there are more i wanna tell u and i dunno how to express.
and tell u wat....u will always be my very very close and best frens
no matter wat.
hope u can really stay strong and face all those problems thats hindering you.
when u feel like crying
theres us.
~miraclez luv~

long time no update le...
haha
thanks to those computer virus.
yeah my laptop tio virus AGAIN
but i think i cleared it accidentally.

ok tok about this fews days ba!

tuesday (16/11/04)

went to ang mo kio with mandy, liling, wenna and shunwei
for a job interview.
the pay is pathetically low.
and i mean damn low.
its a midnite job.
from 11pm to 7.30am
no transport provided.
and they pay us $50 a day only.
somemore, $50 a day for a girl to work midnite is below average.
erm, the job is i think motorola de la, fixing the parts 2gether.
den as wei haven had her lunch, we went mos burger to eat lor.
i mean wei eat only lah. cos we had ours b4 the interview le.
den we sit down eat and chat.
tok abt our perspective towards love.
starting to have negative tots 2wards love after hearing wat they say.
i really agree that guys and gals look at 'love' very differently.
sometimes, a guy will go and make fren with a gal
and his mission is to go steady with the girl.
wat i mean is...if the girl reject the guy
does tt mean that they cannot be frens anymore?
sometimes, a girl is not willing to commit herself too much in a relationship.
that is becos we cant predict the future.
who knows that the guy will fall in love with another gal?
who knows that the gal will fall in love with another guy?
who will still be there to heal her wounds when the guy leave the girl?
will they still continue be frens if they break?
even if they can stay on as fren after they break,
will u cfm tat u wun hate each other because of their bad habits?
love is simple, yet complicated.
and it takes alot of courage to accept and receive.
argh! i dunno wat im toking.but u know wat...
i still want to have a taste of love *shy**runs away*

after mos burger,went to wei hse to havoc.
its been a long time since i've been there.
stayed in her room.and we havoc inside.
haha.
stack ourselves one above each other,
use a blanket to cover someone up and lie on top of it,
tickle each other.
and they unzipped my jacket *blush*
and more and more 'r rated scene'
haha
we are still so childish afterall.
but who cares?
we juz enjoy wat we are doing at that moment.
afterall we only live once.

wednesday (17/11/04)

yeah! its amanda's bday!!happy 17th b day!
actually plan on going to sentosa with 1 wk gang.
but jia min got her dragon boat training for her sat's competition.
it wouldnt be fun if we go sentosa without her.
therefore decide not to go sentosa.
after jia's competition den we go oso the same lah.
den mi, xin and chun went to amanda's hse lor.
revealed our secret mission to amanda....
haha...the scrap bk on herself and a vcd
showing the process of making the scrap bk.
haha.
played the vcd.
starting of the movie, less den 5 min only
amanda was crying le
silly ger.
the her tears keep flowing and flowing non stop!
i think this is the best presents we've given her so far ba...
den watch long feng dou vcd.
the show was so-so lah.
a bit touchinga bit funny
but u muz think as u watch
cos the storyline abit confusing
and the ending was *argh!!!*machiam no ending like tt.
den after jia finish her drangonboat training,
we go bugis for dinner.
before dinner, we went seiyu's arcade to play.
xin spent quite alot there juz to get 140 tickets
to exchange for precious moments and winnie ppoh stickers.
the precious moments stickers can be bought at 10 pcs for $1 at pasar malam i think.
but she used up $8 juz for 1 pc of precious moments sticker.
-no comment- cos with $8 she can actually buy 80 pcs of the same type of stickers
instead of 1 pc only
haha.

den go v8 movie cafe for dinner.
had fish and chips
and brownie with vanilla icecream
so nice can!!!!
the brownie was hot and the ice cream is cold.
when i eat them 2gether....OMG~~~its HEAVEN
haha.

den took nep prints together.
we are their last customer of the day.
after taking and cutting them into pieces for distribution,
we left the neoprint shop.
and upon reaching mrt station on our way home,
xin realised that she left her precious moments sticker in the neo print shop!!!
haha
she is so blur man!
spent so much on the sticker and she left it there.
anyway, a very happy bday to amanda! hope amanda enjoyed our company!

thursday (18/11/04)

slp till 1230pm den wake up
watch the mars by zai zai and da S.
today episode was about the raping scene de.
omg~~ i cried when da S was screaming for help
when zai zai sort of wanted to rape her to find out the real reason y she keep resisting him when he wants sex.
i dunno.
i juz felt very very sad when i saw her screaming for help like mad
den tears juz flow.
i guess if i were her
kanna raped by my own father
i wun be able to be strong
and face the reality that my own dad rape mi.
i would rather die lor.
haiz
so girls out there, especially my frens
pls becareful when u go out late at nite!

after that went bugis (again)
to shop with wen, ling and weiwant to buy an alter neck shirt
to go suntan on sat.
tried on alot of sleeveless.
dun really dare to wear sleeveless cos im fat u c...
i scared i scare off pple around mi with my flabby meat.
so i wonder how will pple at sentosa react if i wear sleeveless for suntaning
argh~~~
actually, the greatest enemy is myself.
cos i have to overcome my own obstacle in my heart
to wear sleeveless.
juz finding excuses for myself tts all.
haha
i like the clothes from e-base
its chio lor.
but its also ex. $45.
hurhur...but dad agreed to sponsor mi half the amount.
haha. i love him!
cos he always sponsor mi things i like.
i seriously nid a job now to earn extra cash for newyear clothes
very broke liao....

read jia min blog
and she says that im rich.
actually im not rich
its juz that im sort of unwilling to spent alot on things i like.
i can ctrl myself not to spent alot.or u can say,
im stingy towards myself.
i've to think very long if i want to buy something.
however, when it comes spending on food during gathering
im willing to spent.
like havin dinner/lunch with frens at swensens, cafe cartel etc etc.
its not the food that im paying for
its the ambience, the atmospher, the comfortable place the tok and chat, the service, the time
that im paying forhaha.
chiong home to catch sg idols
sly didnt do as well as b4i think.
but i will still vote for him de lah
keke.
going to look for job with xin tml maybe.

looking towards saturday cos im tonning at mandy's hse.
having pyajamas party.
told my parents im going chalet....*guilty*

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went to john little sales with xin and her sis ytd.
really got nth to shop there lor
all auntie's stuff.
but still managed to get my lingeries.
saw the alphabet 's' behind the word lingerie and u shall know wat i mean.

after that went tampines mall to shop for amanda's prezzie.
saw julian
while he didnt change much
and his 'dao' attitude really kinda pissed mi off.
well...maybe he is in a bad mood...i dunno

den had mahjong session with my mum and sis in the nite till early morning.
den went to bed

slept for like 6 hours b4 going out to tampines (again)
cos at 1st is wanna go k lunch with mL de
but wen and ling sick
so they couldnt make it
den jin say wen and ling didnt go so she sian 3/4 le
but luckily still got man man and wei
den we cannot decide whether to continue going k box or go have lunch
den
saw cafe cartel
settled ourselves inside
ordered their signature dishes.
porkribs and sambal fish it think
nice...yummy
den as usual
crapz alot
but not as noisy as when wen, jin and ling were ard.
this proves that wen, jin and ling were the noisy ones when they were ard.

after that man and wei go off le lor
den i need to go whitesands to buy amanda's b day prezzie
really don have idea wat to get for her
she seems like lack of nth 1.
den finally bought smth for her
hope she wil like
cos it cost mi a small bomb
but its ok lah
good frens mah

den yesterday also sasa de b day
happy bday girl
the sweet 17 will be another challenging yr for u!
but not to worry
cos mL is always here to accompany go thru the sweet 17
haha
crappie mi!

yeah!
my laptop now is free from virus!
thx to teck chait
he help mi reformat my lappy....

ok tok abt ytd...

spent my whole afternn at pasir ris library.
wanted to borrow some books to kill my boredom
was feeling quite moody
i dunno y...
i juz felt so irritated by myself, by everything ard mi...
and i found a corner, i sat down and i began to tear.
dun ask mi y
i oso dunno y
depression maybe.
this is not the 1st time like this le
haha...
maybe i should c a doctor.
but i felt better to let those tears out.
den wen sms mi and ask her if i can go for a movie at nite.
but
im not in the mood for movie
turn her down at 1st.
but decided to go in the end cos the whole of mL is going.
dun wan to spoil mood so i go lor.
den i went home to change into a more presentable clothes b4 going down to PS to meet them
they told mi to meet at 7.30pm
but they were late!!!!
gosh!!
felt so hungry at that time
but cant blame them lah
they go back to NP to reformat their laptop
so i forgive them....

didnt go for movie in the end
cos they were late
and i dun want to reach home too late.
so we juz go mos burger for dinner
and go istana park to chat chat till 11pm
den went home lor.

den today...
went xin house to complete our secret mission
and teck chiat help mi reformat lor.
den xin cook bee hoon for us....
not too bad
had two plate of it
haha

yeah!
mum agree to let mi work midnite shift to earn extra cash!
haha
can work with mL le
cos they gonna work midnite shift oso!

ok lah...
enuff of updates

going to john little sales to hunt for lingeries.
haha

ok
shall declare that my laptop is down with virus
n i dunno wat im gonna do with it.
now, im using my PC with the risk of causing the whole house circuit to go haywire
haha.
*evil grin*

daddy b day today.
went to have tim sum for breakfast.
den followed by k box.
was daddy's and mummy's 1st time there.
haha
they sang alot of hokkien songs
and i sang along too.
den drank 2 cups of vodka sprite and sip some other alcoholic dinks my parents ordered.
and i felt so hot!
gosh!
almost couldnt walk in a str. line
haha
lousy mi!
was too full to have dinner
so brought some buns and a bday cake hm as dinner.
watched sg idols.
i dunno. they sound weird...i think
haha

ok...a short one for today...
say yes!
cos i passed my econs!

went xin hse to do our secret mission.
but didnt manage to finish...so going back on sat.
think tts all for today

haha. a short one indeed!

oh...
finally
i can blog...
i think my laptop is going bonkers
juz like mi....
going bonkers cos of boredom
omg~~~

ok...due to my short term memory
shall update on wat happened on monday and tuesday b4 i totally forgot abt them.

monday 8/11/04

a very fine day.
no rain
not so sunny.
had lunch at century square with my mum and sisters.
den we watch a movie
princess dairy 2
nice and funny show...
bought myselfs a watch

tuesday 9/11/04

woke up quite early
was dragged down frm bed by my mum
she wanted mi to accompany her go fetch sisters home from sch!!!!
the reason is for accomapnying her is....i have nth to do and im too free....
after that went to have lunch
den go changi rise for a swim
followed my steam bath
cool....
den had dinner at my grandmother house
she cooked curry agian!
yummy!
her curry is fabulous!

to kill my boredom, i rent 3 vcds to watch
a walk to remember
windstruck
and the confession of teenage drama queen.

finshin watching a walk to remember.
by mandy moore and shane west...
this story book and movie never fail to make mi tear....
haha
although its like typical story line...
but....
its still so nice.

im now half way thru windstruck.
finshed vcd 1....
sweet but sad for the 1st vcd
shall carry on later.

ARGH....
im bored
damn bored
wanna look for a job
but our sch reopen date not 3 not 4
very difficult for the employers to employ us
cos we can work only less den 1 month
but xmas is comin
i need cash for presents!

someone said to mi...
when something comes to an end,
its a beginning of another thing...

which is quite true now
becos...my mid session test is finally over
and now im beginning to relax, play and everything
haha....

juz checked my accounts results
and i passed!
in fact, the whole of our class pass accounts and we dunnid to retake!
hooray!
haha....

sat for a 3 hr paper today (mangement)...
but i think i finished my paper within 1.5 hr
was sitting there rotting and shivering (aircon very cold)
and turning back slightly to c if xin finished her paper....
wah...she very slow...make mi wait till im on the verge of freezing to death.
but when i see her like finishing her paper tt time,
i pass up my paper and leave the room 1st....
taboleh tahan the cold...

after that, both of us went heeren to have our lunch....
haha
ate sakae sushi....
long time nv eat liao *getting fatter and fatter*
den after that went to orchard mrt go meet up with chun hui, jiamin, amanda,teck chiat and chang yi.
den we go far east shop lor....
was damn tired at that time due to the insufficient slp the nite b4.
den the 5 of us (girls) bought a similar ring to represent our friendship ring...
actually wanted to engrave our grp name (1 week) on it de...
den some of us think is too....*ahem*
so we engrave our name on it...haha
den as changyi is sick and xin hui nids to go to the food fair to meet her dad,
we left orchard at abt 5.30pm

den i dun feel like going home so early
so decided to changi airport to tok cork with amanda and jiamin....
den we tok about alot of things
such as how is wind form....y got wind etc etc
den tok abt flight experience and places we wanted to go,
sec sch life, sec sch p.e. teacher....
finally tok abt supernatural stuffs haha....

den after that rushed home to watch sg idol...
leandra is out
who is next?
its so heart-wrentching to c pple getting out of the competition now
as in they spent so much time praticing and reharsing....
they clinged on to a little hope of staying in the competition each episode....
they must sacrifice so much to become a sg idol...
but...but...the thing is pple might not like them
they might not be as popular as the other contestants.
so no matter how good they are
they cant garantee that they will not be out the next episodes
and i feel that the remaining 4 out there are all very good.
they can sing well...
but now, its not a matter of how well can they sing now...
its a matter of who has more supporters now....

anyway....everything must come to an ending for the start of another god-knows-what activity/events/programmes.

thankew.
i shall end my speech here!

ok...
didnt really studied juz now
thanks to the 5 min heavy downpour at raffles this afternn.
and i found out that being kind doesnt pay off...
shittening.

xin went of of the coffeebean to outside, by the river, to study
den it rains heavily.
i went out with my purple umbrella to save her
den i saw theres 3 others eurasian there also....
after dropping xin at that shelter,
i went back, thinking that they might want to come to the shelter too...
but the 3 person there discuss so long
den they say "no! thankew!"
wat the hell...i was all drench at that time!
my jeans and baleno jacket were all wet.
argh!
den i request for a stack of tissues from coffeebean to dry myself
den i dun have mood to study liao...
so we decided to head to tanjong pagar to find job agency to help us find job
haiz
so in the end, i only completed 1 chapter.
sianz

when i reach home,
i c the weather so good
so jio my dad go jogging
feel so refreshing now
hope later can concentrate more!
i can do it! yeah! frens out there...wait for mi...i'll be free in 2.5 days!

completed 7 chapters within 2 days
amazing rite?
sometimes i wonder y m i so different in the morning and midnite.
can do nth in the morning
but can do wonders in the midnite....

4 more chapters to go!!!!
3 more days to temporary freedom!!!

jia you to those taking exams too!

nth really happened today....
and the fact is
nth really special will happen in my life anyway....

cancelled the trip to raffles coffeebeab to study cos xin dun wan to go
and i could not make it
studied at home
but the whole is i spent on slacking only.

realised that....i really cannot study at home
unless its midnite
cos in the afternn,
i turn to my left, theres a room where a comfortable bed is situated.
i turn to my right, there is a comfortable sofa for mi to take a nap while listening to the radio.
i face the front, there is a tv, which always play some interesting shows during my study hours
and i faced behind, there is a laptop which nv fail to distract mi....
my god....
how to study like that?

i only completed 1 chapter out of alot of chapters
and i wonder how m i gonna finish memorise them...
feel like heck care it
but im afraid of repeating this torturous boring module.

someone, pls save mi!

watch the champions juz now....
love can make a person turn good and evil at the same time....
it can make a person laugh and cry at the same time....
so is love a good thing or a bad thing?

*ponders*