my story. my life

yeah~
econs CA3 over le.
so wads next?
projects projects and projects
followed by those end yr exams.

the weather is terribly irritating.
the haze
the heat
the burning smell in the air
is making mi sick.
when will it rain again?

suddenly find myself immuned to bad news and sad stuffs.
maybe i ran out of tears.
but not having to cry after facing things that were not easy to deal with is definately no good at all.

went general hospital to visit my ah gong after my test today.
he was supposed to have his operation today.
but, he didnt
cos his body condition doesnt allow him to go for the operation.
the doctors found out that his heartbeat was irregular
and if an operation is carried out, his heart might not take it.
and that thing in his lung turn out to be cancer.
yes. cancer again.
im so fated to cancer.
maybe i die, i might die frm cancer too.
but for the past 17 yrs or so,
he didnt smoke.
and he seldom drink.
so y lung cancer?
really dunno.

he was really happy when mummy, daddy and i went to visit him
imagine being all alone in a ward
with no television and stuffs
how boring can 1 be?
although he keep asking us to go home earlier, no nid to waste time at the hospital accompany him,
i knew this was not wad he want.

i so afraid of being old.
but i dun wan to die so young.
i dun wan any of my family members to leave mi.
if i can choose,
i rather be selfish.
i will choose to leave this world earlier den my friends and family members,
so i wun have to suffer the pain of losing my loved one.