a brand new samantha says HI


remember i mentioned abt the wedding i attended 2 weeks ago?

us and mummy


All of us


stop telling me my sis is pretty.
i'll get jealous!
haha!
im pretty also okay!


the people i see EVERYDAY.
and i mean EVERYDAY. from mon to sun!



jo and duck


cyn and me


stop telling me i got fat face. cos im still pretty!
haha

cynthia is very sweet! she bought this for me and gave it to me in school when im sick~


oOOO.... im still happy to receive it even though she bought another bottle for WANWAN also! (not specially for me) hahaha. but, nvm, i still love cynthia, that crappy friend who always hit me on my arms. pain you know!


went for new zealand icecream at ECP with bf 2 weeks ago.


and we promised to be back for cycling.
and so, on good friday, we last minute decided to go ECP again to cycle.




thanks to the scorching sun. im burnt! and the funny part is, only my arms are burnt! so lucky my face is not burnt lar.


pain~~~


and im sick again.
the irritating running nose and sore throat.
its like forever there de leh!
super sian u know!

these few days, i've been reflecting so much on myself.
after doing so,
i feel that i failed almost all the roles that i played in my life.

i failed my role as a daughter.
didn't really do much to help my dad.
didn't really do much to help my mum.
have been relying so much on the maid.

i failed my role as a grand daughter.
you know, when i was young, i could still vividly remember how much i used to talk and play with my grandparents,
now that im 21, im like not talking to them!
im not making enough effort to communicate with them.
each time they are here at my house, they will watch tv and i'll just do my things.

i failed my role as a sister.
i don't know why i treat my sisters so coldly.
i dont know why sometimes i'm so harsh and stern to them unnecessarily.
i dont know why i cant bring down my pride to apologise to them.
i dont know why am i so selfish towards them sometimes.
i feel that i've really let them down. they really deserve a sister who is better.

i failed my role as a girlfriend.
the way to a man's heart is through is stomach.
i cant even prepare a simple meal for him.
i cant fulfill my promises
and there's still so much i dont understand and dont know abt him.

i failed my role as a best friend.
need i elaborate more?
what did i really do as a best friend?
i cant remember doing anythings for my best friends.

i feel so sorry for everyone around me. sorry for them to have someone like me.

after today, i want to be a better person.
a better samantha.
a better daughter, grand daughter, sister, girlfriend and best friend.








im trying hard to walk out of my emo circle.
no more emo entries from me.

the hormones in my body have all gone haywire again.
i waited and waited, its still not here.
im sick of eating pineapple everyday.
and i have to wait for like one month for to get my womb scanned.

should there be anything wrong with my womb, i guess i would be dead by then.







my mood is just like a roller coaster ride.
someone, please turn off the tap in my eye.

i don't know what i've been busying with.

i feel so busy.

or maybe, i tried to fill my time up,

so that i can live in my own world,
not caring the rest outside my circle.

sorry to friends whom i rejected dates, gathering etc.
yes, im down with project,
but the other reason is,

i just want to live in my own world, alone, for a little while.

我想。。。

人人常说的“船到桥头自然直”

只是一种 逃避问题的借口吧。

当世界不知不觉的变了

有时候我怀念以前的我

作的梦虽然远远的

想像是一种快乐



拥有了同时也失去什黱

而眷恋原来会带来软弱

你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折



我不想舍得 不想懂得

是谁惹谁言不由衷

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错

怕抱不紧什黱



我不想舍得 不想懂得

谁说割爱才更深刻

彼此依赖是爱不是负荷

能握著手就是感动的







just came back from a relatives' wedding dinner.

unlike the other wedding dinners that i attended previously,

the emerging feeling of wanting to get married didnt arise.

even though the restuarant was filled with blissful atmosphere and romantic songs,

all i could feel was......a tinge of sadness.



i tried v hard to fight back the welling tears.

i tried v hard to brush away all my insecurities.



im dwelling into my redundant emo-ness again.

不知不觉, 一年就这样过去了.

从中, 我领悟到....


时间 真的会让一个人渐渐地被遗忘.



啊公, 我好想你.

after 28373856million years of not having McDonald's breakfast.....

i managed to persuade daddy to bring me to have hotcakes today!

can you believe i didnt sleep well that night before because i was too excited?
woke up at 6.45am today, and got myself ready for hotcakes!
its that early because mummy got doctor apptm at 8.45am.

my hotcakes plus sausage plus harsh brown plus hot tea!

daddy with michelledaddy and mummy. i think my mummy is cute! haha. so kpo of what my dad is doing


i think it will be another 18375946 years before i get to eat McDonald's breakfast again.

简单 真的很幸福

Second time within a month

Once again.
i lose my voice. cant talk, cant sing, cant scream.

but i can still irritate people with my "sexy" voice.
haha.