hello everybody!



exams ended about 1 week ago...and i've yet to find any job.

been slacking around, watching coffee prince, chalet, birthday gatherings and dating!

last sunday(11 nov) was daddy's birthday. went to xin's hse in the afternoon to make amanda's birthday card.

it's a jig saw puzzel concept, whereby the 4 of us write and decorate on our respective part of the jigsaw!

this is my part. look at my border! so pretty! amanda said mine was the prettiest! yeah~

go visit jiamin's blog. look at her blog's picture layout.
she sketch it out! so pro can!
i think if you look from far, it's quite alike compared to the original picture!

at night, went to have daddy's birthday dinner at mummy's fren restaurant.
and they served us so many dishes can!
we ordered abt 6 dishes, but they treated us to additional 4, including dessert! so full~

this is the birthday cake i bought from Q bread. chocolate mint.
people, dun say i nv warn you.
dun buy this flavour from q bread any more.
looks nice but it taste simply disgusting.
i feel so guilty for not buying a nice cake for my dad.

daddy with the cake. he is so tanned lar. almost cannot see his features in the picture.


i remembered when i was in primary school, most of my frens who saw my dad, will ask me if my father is an indian or a malay.

MY FATHER IS A CHINESE! HE HAS SMALL EYES WITH SINGLE EYELID (which unfortunately, i inherited from him)

my daddy says "cheese~".
the one behind is my grandfather.

went orchard to get amanda's present with xin and chun the next day.
we got her a crumpler backpack.

i love the lightings at orchard road now.
so romantic.

it will be nice to hold my bf's hands and walk down the stretch of road, provided if its not crowded.

eversince my mum is discharged from the hospital, my maid will cook lunch and dinner at home.
ahh! i love home cooked food.

we've been eating outside food for the past 4 to 5 months.
and now...home cooked food almost everyday!
feel so blessed and healthy and loved.


i'll pack all this to work and share my food with tracy!

friday, went pak tor with bf. watch beowulf. incase you dunno how to pronounce, let me teach you first. its (bay-wolf). so embarrassing cos when buying the tickets i dunno how to pronounce, and i pronounced it as (be-oh-wolf).haha

at night, met up with weekday at 11pm at admiralty.
we gave amanda a surprise by appearing outside her house with cakes at 12am.
stayed over at her house, as usual, eat and chat.

so nice catching up with them. have yet to receive the pictures from chun hui. but without teck chiat around, we took little pictures. haha.

went to terminal 3 open hse yesterday afternoon.
brought mummy there for a walk. =)

the elevators.

the spacious terminal 3. it has an area equivalent to 63 football field.

the long escalator.

you know, i really love long escalators!
just by standing on them, taking my time to observe my surroundings, breathing slowing, knowing that im rising higher and higher slowly.

so nice! so romantic! i like!
i like the escalators at airport, LIDO, central. i can only think of this 3 places. haha

me and mummy and sister cam-whoring in the toilet.

at night, met up with mL to celebrate sa's 20th birthday.
we were definitely her true love.
pictures will do the talking when i received them all.

went to ECP to jog with my grandparents at 6.30AM.
so early can.
but im surprised when i stepped out of the house at 6.30am,
the sky is not dark anymore.

its been a long time since we went there for morning jog already.
about 5 years?

and today, i found out that people sell fresh fishes that they catch somewhere at indonesian sea.
big and fresh.
and my grandma bought 3 big fishes back for mummy there.
people will gathering around the boat to buy them.
so interesting you know, people selling fishes on boat in this urban city.
i've never seen this before.

now i know the market rate for fishes (but dunno which kind of fish lar) is $13 for 1 kg.

=) a new lesson learnt.

now tell me, should i work at origins or just find some telemarketeing job to do?

it's back to square one.

i've decided.

one of the things that's different from tommorrow onwards,

no more puffy eyes.

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


so tired.
no matter how hard i try to slp,
i see you in my mind.

i've been keeping my itchy fingers away from this computer...
and now.... i declare.....

EXAMS OVER!!!!

that's me, waving goodbye to my papers which will be sent over to australia for marking.
in case u are wondering what they stand for....
BB- buyer behaviour
MR- market research
OB- Organisation Behaviour
DC- Distribution Channel

University exams are really challenging.
Really test ur application skills and your memory skills.
most of the time, i dun have time to finish my paper.
there's so much to write, but i take a long time to think and organise.

i've got not much confidence that i'll pass all.
i'm mentally prepared to repeat any modules.

results will be out on 5 Dec. omg!!!!

the worst thing that could happen to you during exams period is -- falling sick.

i fell sick on the day before my 2nd paper. how great.
down with slight fever and flu.

went to see doc on monday...
but medicine like no use, cos till now, i've yet to recover.
been using so much tissues for my mucus! feel so damn guilty.

and because i was damn angry with myself for not being to memorise all the chapters according to my schedule, i drew this on my notes.

which word did u notice first?

sick but still need to study =x

yups, i've cut my fringe. looks nerdy. haha

Fogging outside my house. damn smelly.

in case you miss my curry puff.....

wahahahah

one of facebook application, sketch.

i think it's quite artistic.

Because i've not been online for quite sometime,
i read through mL's blog.....

awww.....i miss you girls so much too!!!!
*and wenna, thanks for posting those ugly pictures up*
we've come such a long way together, 7 years, going 8.
lets celebrate our 50th anniversary when we are 63 years old ok?

anyways,
my sisters got a virtual shop.
http://www.the-fabuloushop.blogspot.com/
i would say the price is reasonable.
go take a look. =)
they got that entrepreneurial spirit which i lack.
haha.
support support ok?

1 down 3 more to go.
i just hope i'll be able to pass my buyer behaviour module.
i couldn't finish my paper. i seriously need some time management.
pls pls pls. let me pass!
i was writing so fast till my hand went totally numb at the end of the paper.
i couldn't even tie my own script! haha.

bahhs~ shan't think of it now. got 3 more to go.

going to post the pictures took on Jia's bday celebration at pasir ris park.

the two setting up the fire in their own world.

me and best friend. Gabriel says we looked like each other (yet another one. --> repeat the fallopian tube story to him)

don't ask me why i give her that kind of look. i cant rmbr. haha

us.

amanda.

chun hui, the satay girl. she keep on distributing satays to us!

me. only there to eat. haha. nv cook anything.

spooky.

it's us again. with the blue and red light sticks.

amanda and the moon. quite artistic isnt it?

i know this is an ugly picture, but we three decided to be the new generation of powerpuff girls. teck chiat managed to capture us flying in the air.

this time round, the new generation of 5 superwomen. what's missing is the red underwear. wahaha.

emo-ing.

the cat who stole our lime light.

me and the birthday girl

Birthday girl and birthday boy.

the legendary WEEKDAYS.

The whole group of us.

me, chun and xin, shagged after a long day.

we missed the last train at pasir ris. gotta trouble Chun's dad to fetch us back. a big thanks to uncle, for sending me back home, safe and sound.

you know, half way through the BBQ,
we witness some teenagers (we assume they're teenagers cos they look quite young. you know --> gin nas.)
the guy was asking the girl to be his gf i think. (to be his girl friend?)
the guys, with the help of some of his friends, place candles on the ground (i suppose it has some formation, but we were too far to see the exact formation).
the girl, came running back with another few more friends, with the guy waiting for her with flowers.
the guy give the flowers to the girl, and then theres silence.
i think the guy is waiting for the girl's answer.

i didn't know what happened next, cos the silence was too long, and so i got distracted by some other things.

then amanda told me, the girl threw the flowers into the bin.

wasted. haha.

after that day, i coped myself at home to STUDY STUDY STUDY.

but then, went out with dear as a form of reward for working so hard.
we went to the great world city.

its our first time there. wonder if we will go back there again or not cos its v inaccessible and rather boring.

had tcc for lunch.

mine:

his:

i was very hungry, and so i forgot to take pictures of the food we ordered.

me, while waiting for him to try some outfit at ZARA.

we went to catch the show "seeker"
not my cup of coffee....
its like those magical adverturous type. very boring.
i dunno how to appreciate this kind of show. haha.
if you like harry porter, maybe you'll like this show.
cos i'm biased now, i'll say, save your money for better movies if you wanna watch it.

us, waiting for shuttle bus.

went home, played with this hot that was supposed to let my mum wear it. but she didnt like it.

daddy says i looked like some tourist from japan.

kawaii desuka?

my mum is discharged from amk hospital and is now at home. it's so inconvenient for her to stay at home cos we dun have all those facilities for her.

so we're looking for some rehab centre that she can go in the morning. you guys got any recommendations?

im now going back to do my revision. =(
stressed.

you know... sometimes, im really glad that i've got him. he always try to make me feel optimistic.

for example, last week i randomly smsed him :

"till date, we've been together for 622 days! sound so short" (as usual, me being pessimistic)

then he replied:

"that means we've been together for 14928 hours! so long!"

and i smiled, with the feeling that i've got a pocket full of hopes.

又恨又爱，我想这就是爱情里最甜美的矛盾

read through one of wenna's post which was posted long time ago....
and i cant help but agree:

"我们放下了尊严，放下了个性，放下了固执，

都只因为。。

放不下一个人 。"

i read already got "feel" sia.
haha. how about you?



feeling so stress due to exams. because im stress, im feeling pessimistic. =(















arent the above 2 pictures beautiful?
the brightness of the flame brings hope

but....

soon, it'll be extinguished.
no more beautiful glowing flame.
pessimistic.




maybe you're right,
i can't live without you.
love you many many. =)

Look at the dark clouds gathering over my house.


stormy weather. slippery road.
just like how i'm feeling now.

对我们的未来 心里明明早就有数
可是
为什么 当话从你口中说出时

我的心 还会隐隐作痛？

一直以为我不在乎未来是怎样，
但今天，

我发现。。。

因为爱你，所以想要有个未来

但是，听你说了那番话后
我害怕未来

At this moment, i dun need distractions

i need to study
TO MAKE SURE I DUN FAIL ANY OF MY MODULES.

i read one of my senior's blog,
and i came across a depressing post.
wad she wrote
was just so real,
as if it happened to me.

i could feel her pain, her helplessness, her agony.

the seven years that they spent together, only need a day, or maybe, even a sentence to have them bid goodbye.

he may be the right one for her, but...i hope she'll find someone better, so that she can move on with her wonderful life.

somebody told me: "i cant stand girls stupidity in a relationship. just let go lar"

if only it was that easy,
there wont be anymore heartbreaks.





my huge appetite is back.
please stop me from eating.




i should really start studying.