May is coming to an end,
then comes June....
den my 3 weeks term break starts!
i feel so seriously out of cash.
i wanna work, i want money.
if only i can strike lottery now.
i wanna take up more jobs,
but when i open up my organiser,
my schedule is like so packed with driving lessons and project meetings.
theres juz so many things to do, yet so little time.
wads worst is that its Singapore Sales NOW!
teach mi how not to spend.
i hate the feeling of so restricted by the lack of cash,
i hate the feeling of having to plan ahead and sacrifice some of the little things.
but but but....
for this coming hong kong trip, im juz gonna face this situation of mine willingly.
yes, im going hongkong this coming end of august with the school and my frens!
woohoo~
and heard from jiayi that the period is juz nice hongkong's summer sales!
gonna shop till i drop there!
so gotta save alot now.

people ask me why do i have to save so much and save so hard when my parents could help me a little with the expenses.
but...i dun feel like taxing on my parents anymore, yet, i feel so suffocated with the lack of money.
gosh.

my sis juz came back from Hong Kong last fri.....
its soon will be my turn...

the past weeks have been a busy one
tests, projects,work.
and i predict things will get worse when school reopens for term 2.

grandma was admitted into hosiptal last sat.
and she juz went through one operation juz now.
x-ray shows that theres smth that need to be remove.
but after the operation, the doc say they couldnt find the "thing" that needs to be remove as shown in the x-ray.
and they suspect........


im scared. seriously so scared.
im scared of the ordeal that i muz once face again juz like 1 year plus ago.
the pain that my grandma is facing now is juz too much for her to take.
im scared of my relationship.
i scared i have no time.
im scared of time. really.

am suppose to be napping now...
but somehow, i dunno y i ended up here.
haha.

went ah wei house for LAI LI LING de bday celebration on friday after work.
even though i was there for like less than a hour,
u know i still love u as much de right?
haha.
hope u will have a peaceful yet happening 19th year of ur life!
muacks!

read wenna's blog and she said that pple grow up and become self-centred and stuffs like that.
well...i agree with this.
as we grow up, we become more practical.
we (or maybe I) stop believing in things that will happen in fairytale.
we are no longer as innocent and naive as how we used to be.
things normally turn out in a different way of how we think it should be.

y is this like that.
its scary to grow up isnt it?

sometimes there are certain decisions that im so surprised that i actually made them.

i really dunno wad to blog abt.
i've been leading a busy life everyday.
sch started 4 weeks.
and projects will soon due and tests are all coming in.
the projects that im handling now are all quite "big case" and hence, its very stress.

tml will be mothers' day.
a very happy mothers' day to all mothers.
last yr, prepared western meal for mothers' day, but my mummy says its not nice.
hence, i shall not cook anymore. its demoralising.
i've lost all my courage in cooking.
haha. im exaggerating.
take it as an excuse of being lazy.

yesterday, weekdays celebrated teck chiat bday and had iccecream cake from the icecream gallery.
i was working and so they did they blowing of cake and stuffs while i was serving the customers.
but well....
hope he enjoyed yesterday.

sometimes.....i gain something and i lose something.
what i've lose....im juz gonna admit it and face it...
even if it means im gonna sacrifice my time and my frens....
cos what i'd gain....is also juz as important.

today is election day.
i asked my daddy which party he gonna vote for...
and thats wad he told me....

"投票是神圣的。 投票是秘密的。"

-_-"

had my 1st driving practical on wednesday...
was surprised as i got to drive the car around the sch's circuit on the very 1st lesson.
now the nearest slot i can sign up for the next lesson is june le...
chiong ar!!!

gotta rush off for work le! byebye.

today is election day.
i asked my daddy which party he gonna vote for...
and thats wad he told me....

"投票是神圣的。 投票是密密的。"

-_-"

had my 1st driving practical on wednesday...
was surprised as i got to drove the car around the sch's circuit on the very 1st lesson.
now the nearest slot i can sign up for the next lesson is june le...
chiong ar!!!

gotta rush off for work le! byebye.

[a story of he and she.]

she liked him first.
and alot of things happened.
in the end, he liked her too.

however, she didnt want to be in a relationship at that time,
and therefore rejected him over and over again.

He didnt give up on her.
and finally, he and she were together.

after spending 3 months together,
he asked her:
"now that we are together for almost 3 months, have you ever regretted your actions to reject mi in the past?"

well...so whats her answer?







her answer:
"eversince the first day that we are officially together, i put my past into a parcel and sent it away.
We may have hurt each other before, but that was the past. and the past is already now in the parcel that is sent out. it has nth to do with me now.
Now, what matters most is that we are together, cherishing each and every moment."




so......have you put ur past into a parcel and send it out?





i love you.