had lunch appointment with coface colleagues today.
omg. its only been a month since i left the company,
and when i saw Magesh (my trainer/supervisor), her stomach was like so big already.
a 5 months old baby boy is swimming inside!
im so looking forward to the birth of this little baby boy.







after lunch, met up with Miss Wu for shopping at bugis.
its been ages since i last saw my princess gang!
like more than 1.5 months?!




theres like nth much at bugis street for us to shop.
i intend to spend on some new tops,
but end up, both of us left bugis with a pair of earings only. damn lame.





settled my tea/dinner at swensens.
the SSS package, 10 bucks only.
1 soup plus 1 side plus 1 sundae.

so full can.





presenting to you our half-eaten banana split.

















the banana split suppose to have 3 small portion of whip cream on top of each flavour of the ice-cream.

when taking order, there goes our conversation.

jy: (tell the waitress) i dun wan whip cream.


waitress: ok. how about you mdm? *refering to me* do you want whip cream on your ice-cream?


me: yes please.


jy: you sure you want whip cream?


me: ya....


jy: whip cream is very fattening! all your efforts on dieting for the past few days will be gone!


me: *looks at waitress* can u give me just 1 portion of the whip cream instead of 3?


waitress: o_O"'


me: ahh, nvm, forget it. i dun wan the whip cream too.









the woman who dun wan whip-cream.



















ahh! wadever! the sinful banana split already flushed my efforts down the drain.

she is sulking in this picture cos im busy taking pictures and neglected her presence. haha

we bid each other goodbye at 6pm and i made a trip down to ttsh to visit mummy.

before we left hospital, my mum lifted up her right hand to touch my cheeks.

im so craving my my mum's warmth now.
please get well soon mummy. muacks.

im supposed to start on my individual essay which gonna due soon.
yet im blogging now.
can someone please teach me how not to procastinate?

i was blog-hopping,
and i saw this on one of my friend's blog.

quoted from her blog:

" it's only logical to start following the mind and not the heart anymore. cox the heart only led us to more n more heartbreaks. and never the solving of any problems."



its just so true.


my heart and mind always contradict each other, as though they were enemies.


but most of the time, i end up following my heart,
getting hurt at the end of the day.
my mind will then start laughing at my stupidity, for not believing in it at the 1st place.


but sometimes, its so difficult.
i often wonder, why are we born with feelings and emotions, that caused us to be illogical?



wadever. im emo-ing again. =(



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i have been telling people how boring my life is currently.
but thinking back on how i spent my days,
i must say i really enjoy school, enjoy projects, enjoy the lectures,
and most importantly, enjoy the presence of the people around me in school.


the people i always mixed ard in sch.
joanne, me, cynthia, ducky, sulwyn, wanwan.



cynthia is like the leader of the grp. she can bake nice muffins! *yummy!* and her laughter is damn contagious.

wan wan (the only guy) is the irritating one who always distract us during project meeting. i hope he will evaporate and nv condense back. haha.

ducky always surprise me with some of her actions. she likes to go "HELLO HELLO" loudly. she nv fail to make us laugh at her actions!

joanne, sulwyn and me are usually the quieter ones, always laughing at the other 3.



sulwyn and me. we always take bus 75 to marina square together. =)


the girls grp photo which wan wan took, but its stucked in sulwyn's phone.
i think we are looked so pretty in it.


and oh ya. they started calling me LIN MAN TE.
dun ask me why.
ask them.


had MOS burger for dinner with wen, man and jin on friday night.

check out mandy's new fringe. she looks younger and cuter with it.
no photos taken with jin cos she was the last to reach. haha



we sat from 6pm to about 9.50pm.
so much to talk!
after that....we went SASA for some quick shopping as i wanted to get myself a reliable eyeliner.



and today....cos its 15th of the lunar calendar,
im on vegetarian diet.

and guess wad i ate?

croquette burger from MOS burger.

so in conclusion, i ate MOS burger 3 times this week！ *feels disgusted*





today, im signing off with a constipated picture of myself. =)




to my dear bf, please take care of yourself.
rest and get well soon!

muacks.

koped from wenna's blog.
dun we looked like a girl band or smth?
took this at paaragon's toilet on ah wei's birthday.
we're loving it.
=)

Attended Jehanne's solemnization ceremony on saturday with huat and the rest of ice cream gallery colleagues.

even though we missed the ceremony when we reached the chalet,
but the whole environment was filled with smiles and love!
felt so xinfu at the very instant when i stepped into the chalet.
but i think she is still young leh. haha. why get married so early?






















after that, ann send all of us back to eastwood!
went to ice cream gallery to have some icecream with huat before gg home.























i love the weekend. felt so blissful. haha.










i missed my mummy so much.
theres so much i wanna tell her,
theres so much things i wanna ask her.

its really really sad when i needed her and she's not well enough to be available for me.


its really disheartening to see her suffer all these shit now,
but what really break my heart into pieces is when i think of the things that we might not be able to do together in the future.



why is life like this?

after lunching with some of my classmates yesterday (oh, btw, we had katong laksa. yummy!),

went to meet amanda and chun hui at novena, as they wanted to visit my mum at the hospital. [girls, thanks for the essence of chicken. :)]

after that, we decided to have KFC for dinner (SINFUL) before gg over to a music cafe at chinatown to chill out a little.

the cafe is located at new south bridge road. they have different types of musical instruments there, and u can play with any of it.
the beverages and cake they offer is also rather afforfdable.


the counter of the cafe.



some of the music instruments in the cafe




we chose a seat by the side, with 2 window planes beside us. ( I love big big windows! beautiful.)


we also tried their tiramisu and one of their tea--beauty (i love their tea pot... its so pretty)




and.... because of the comfortable and relaxing ambience, its such a waste not to make use of it to take some photos of ourselves!










admiring the scenery of chinatown outside





Miss Ng Chun Hui



Miss Amanda Zheng





the 3 of us!


amanda says she is disgusted by Chun hui in this picture when chun hui thinks she looks cute in it.



Chun Hui forced to take a nerdy and ugly picture with her!



as usual, i shall end off today's entry with my pictures!
sometimes, i think i love myself too much. haha





projects datelines drawing nearer.
gosh...
can u believe next week is the 4th week of school?

its the 2nd week of school,





i made more new friends,





lunch with them most of the time,





and im enjoying school life very much.





one thing that is burning a big hole in my pocket is...





the expensive text books.





i only managed to get 1 second hand de... and the rest, are all new ones.








met up with weekdays on fri night.





had dinner at sakae sushi....AGAIN.





its like our hangout place whenever we have gatherings.





i just love sakae sushi. their chawanmushi, their soft shell crab hand roll, their potato salad, their salma kamage, kakiage....





omg, im hungry again.











13 july, jing wei and tobbie had gone to serve our nation.





good luck to their NS life.











and just now, met up with mL.


celebrated ah wei's birthday at paragon.





pictures too.....

stay tune.










headache.
dry and tired eyes.
aching body.
sore throat.



gosh.


signs of falling sick.

imagine theres a bottle containing soiled water which i used all my effort to seal it tight.

then someone went to twist open the cap and the soiled water flow out.





this is exactly how im feeling now.


the soiled water are memories which i want to forget.




its either i didnt seal the bottle tight enough,

or, the person used used to much force to open the bottle.




im now soaked in soiled water.

work ended,

school started.













i was indeed looking forward to returning back to school.














Studying at SIM was not much of a difference as compared to SP,

except that there were more international students,
nicer lecture halls,
more students in a lecture,
and no tutorial.

the rest, it was almost the same.

perhaps, wad makes SIM different was,
serving us snacks like cakes, tarts and bread to us during our 20 min break with tea or coffee.

i think its a good idea, cos they can stop my stomach from growling aggressively.
















my time table was rather relax, with only 3 hours of lecture everyday.

saw quite a number of familiar faces from SP.

i could concentrate well throughout the 3 hr lecture,

taking down relevant notes, without feeling sleepy.

(maybe its because its only the 1st week of school)

however, im beggining to feel tired with the long traveling time and distance.







my mum is able to open her eyes now *relieved*

but now, the problem is...


we dunno if she recognises us, or understands wad we're talking.





but most impt is, she came round.


shall just hope for the best.




for frens who texted or msg or sms me, thanks for your concern! muacks.

im suffocating in the overwhelming sense of desperation.

no matter how i stretch, my hands arent long enough to reach my desired destination.




im scared.

theres nth i can do,

theres nth i can help.




i wonder how much tears must be shed, in exchange for a small miracle.





please....return our healthy mummy back to us.





can u feel my heart aching for my grandparents?

can u feel my heart aching for my father?

can u feel my helplessness and desperation?

mummy, i miss you so much.

thanks to those who express their care and concerns,

thanks to those who urge me to stay strong.

for those who make a trip down to the hospital, thank you so much, frm the bottom of my heart.


im doing fine....

this time round,



im unexpectedly strong.




so strong, that i feel so disgusted by myself.





i still feel like crying,

but theres like not much tears left.



im still leading my life as per normal.



school starting next week.

im looking forward to it.







mummy, haven u slept long enough?

open your eyes and WAKE UP.

continue to sing loudly in the house,

continue nagging at me for not bathing early.

continue to do wad you want to do,


we just need you to wake up.

我一向来都把他当成超人，

因为家里所有的事，

只要有他在，

什么难题我们都不必操心。

家里的电灯坏了，他就会把灯泡换掉。

家里的电器坏了，他就会把它修好。

家里出现可恶的蟑螂，他就会把它除掉。

不想搭巴士去地铁站， 他就好开车载我去。





真的不会想到，

他今天会对我说。。。。



“我现在很无奈，很彷徨”




你叫我怎么不心碎?





原来超人也会感到无奈。







爸爸，你要坚强。
我会尽我的一切，
减轻你的负担。
爸爸，我爱你。

life is so unpredictable.


can you believe it?


no, i cant.








my life is in a mess now.





my heart aches like no body's business.





whats wrong with year 2007?







please....

hang on for us.

*pray pray pray real hard*



pls, let everything be alright,
she is still young to suffer all these shit.



pls pls pls.
everything MUST be fine.
we cant do it without her.

我。。。


不喜欢自己的决定不被尊重，

不喜欢自己的立场不被祝福。


我。。。

希望大家能够多体谅我，支持我，


因为只有这样，

我才能不顾一切的去追求我想要的东西，



就算将来会后悔当初的决定.....



我也只能怪我自己，

而不是你们。

i dunno if i should like the word "cute".
when i think of "cute", i would think of smth which is round, soft, nice to cuddle.
but i dun wan to be ROUND.

maybe because one is not pretty enough, thats y people use the word "cute" as an alternative.
i myself do that sometimes too.
haha.

sometimes when i think too much,
"cute" turns out to be an insult if its used on me.











so depressing.
so disheartening.





my sis and mum commented that my face turned ROUNDER suddenly.
and when i look into the mirror,
i discovereed the horror too.
not only my face became rounder,
everywhere on me is becoming rounder too.






ahhh!!!!!




the weighing scale in my hse is also driving me crazy,
with different measurements everytime i stand on it.





I WANT AN ACCURATE DIGITAL WEIGHING SCALE!

you know,
i feel that lao tian ye is like loving my current shape so much that he doesnt want me to exercise!

yesterday,
im suppose to go for a swim in the morning, but it rained,
so i continue slping in that nice weather.

today, on my way home,
i determined to walk home from the mrt station.

but but but,
when i stepped out of the station,
i started to pour HEAVILY!

i had no choice, but to take a bus back instead.
and when i board the bus,
the rain miraculously STOPPED.

i think lao tian ye really love me for who i am now too.
haha.

but seriously, i really feel so fat,
cos i over ate the past few days.

when my mum was in CGH,
i ate yogurt icecream almost everyday!
and because my grandparents were there, i have to finish up my whole plate of dinner (they say its not good to waste food)
and then relatives and friends who visited my mum at the hospital brought a hamper with lotsa goodies inside,
and i couldnt resist the temptations to snack!
omg.

and i think my house can open a stall to sell essence of chicken.
we have ALOT at home.
drink until nose bleed also can.
haha

u know, Changi Hospital is like a mini SP.
there's like I-SCREAM yogurt (which i really missed)
and this....



the sandwich vending machine.
although the sandwich is expensive,
but i think it tasted good.


had been shopping at bugis street with my dear sisters over the weekend.
bought tops which i think was real cheap!
im happy.



still remember the extendable mirror my dad bought from IKEA for me to use when i make-up?

hahas.

i love my reflections in them.





wenna says im beginning to blog like shunwei!

omg. i feel that too.
maybe its because, its them who thought me how to love myself first before loving others.
theres so many photos of ourselves in our blog,
cos we love ourselves.












he won my heart back.
im falling in love all over again.
theres still sparks in us,
despite the clashing schedules we have and the limted times to meet up.


its all about the moment.
i shall just enjoy my scenery and not think too much.


I really feel happy and contented now.
(except for the fact that i feel so fat currently =x)

i hope you guys will feel happy for me too.

LOVE!