who can truly understand how i feel?
who can truly understand why i cry?

妈妈，真的很想你。

看你受的苦，为你流的泪，又有谁能够完全了解？



看见朋友的妈妈都为他们操心，

对你的想念不知觉像海浪一样卷了起来。



一直把自己的身体照顾得好好的，

因为怕自己生病，

没有你在身边，

会回想起你那无微不至的关怀，

让自己跟伤心，让自己更难过，

然后，后悔为什么当初没有珍惜你为我做的一切。




不知道自己的眼泪还会流多久，

但每一滴泪，多代表着那无限的想念。

你还记得我吗？

我是你的大女儿，你到底记得吗？

你一定会记起来的对不对？




妈妈，请你不要忘记我好吗？

我真的真的很爱你。

Hello world. Its like half-way through August already. 2/3 of the year gone.



anyway, brought daddy to fish and co and velocity.

It was his 1st time there, and im so afraid that he will tell the service crew over there that he wants to eat chicken chop. haha.



ordered seafood platter and their fish and chips.

im glad daddy likes the food there.

he says we can come here to celebrate grandpa's birthday this 28 Aug!

cool~ my grandparents will be having their first time at Fish and Co soon.





















Eventhough we enjoyed the whole dinning experience, but there was something missing.

couldn't describe wad was missing,

but to put in simpler terms,

it would be perfect if mummy was there, to dine with us.



you know everyday, i couldnt help but envy,

envy those who got home cooked food to eat everyday.

cos now, all i eat was food from outside, or if not, hospital's food.

i missed my mum's dishes.







how did you spent your national day?

squeezing with people at cityhall to watch fireworks? haha~



caught rush hour 3 with bf on that day at vivo city!

watched in vivo max! big cinema with big leg space.

funny show, definitely worth watching!

i wonder when is jackie gonna stop acting.

he is not young anymore, yet still doing all those dangerous stunts.























went clarke quay with bf on sat, and we shopped at central.

there's quite a number of shops there to shop, and alot alot alot of restaurants there.

maybe we can go there for gatherings next time!

sure can find one place to sit and eat and chat.












sun, went to watch Rush hour 3 AGAIN.

cos daddy wanted to watch it, so i offered to accompany him.

even though i watched it the 2nd time, im still laughing over the same scene.

go watch go watch.

i wanna watch secret and disturbia too!



that sunday was a super suay sunday for me.

went to balestia cinema to watch the movie.

we bought popcorn, nachos and drinks.

the the counter staff didnt bother to close the lid of the drinks tightly,

so when i hold it, it spilled onto my white shirt that i was wearing.

damn it!



nvm, i ren! i go to the toilet, wash it with water, and blow dry it with the hands dryer.

but it was completely dried. it was still damped. so when im in the cinema, i was like sshivering whole way through!



at night, during dinner, my clumsy sis spilled her smelly miso soup onto my pants and sandals!

this time round, i was really mad!

and i guess i hurled some harsh words at her.

haha.

sorry, but i couldnt help it.

the above pictures were taken when im in mrt.
the legs in the pictures belonged to some secondary school boys!

noticed something?
they were all wearing ankle socks.
to think that during my time, we use to wear our socks quite high.
haha.

my advice to them?
maybe...."please pull up your socks"
haha.

in case you guys dunno, this is my new pants =)
haven been wearing pants for like so long already!
my classmates were like so shocked to see me wearing pants to school that day. haha.
but now i understand why people who wear pants will take longer time in the toilet.
damn troublesome!

this is such a busy week. i haven been visiting my mummy at the hospital since monday.

haven like project meetings every day, before and after school.
have to work.
have to rush through report.

me and ducky, in midst of project discussion. haha. i know im ugly!
all projects' fault!

and there's this mid-term test up-coming next tuesday.

great. so great.
i really should start studying soon.

i quitted tution, and went back ice cream gallery to work.


although i wont earn as much as giving tuition,


but at least i dun need to travel much also.













nothing much changed, and im still the friendly ice cream girl at eastwood!














Munchy donut opened an outlet outside my house inside cold storage!
although theres like practically no queue each time i buy, but their donuts are always sold-out.
i personally think it taste better than donut factory.
im v happy cos i dun need to queue retarded-ly just to eat nice donuts.
envy?


caught the movie "alone" with huat.
injured myself while watching the movie, so you can imagine how scary it is.
i think the story line not bad leh, worth watching.
see le, got lotsa 'feel'
haha.

i love watching scary movies with my boyfriend!


i seriously think i need to better manage my time.
i dun seem to have enough time to finish my task.
im feeling stress as date lines are drawing nearer.
somehow, i think i lost myself among the unaccomplished work.

im in the midst of doing my individual assignment. its so darn boring!

so i decided to post smth v random. heez.

lecture for today!

i find the lecture boring today! lecturer was rushing through, cant really catch up!

half way through, a libarian came to give us a talk on how to use our library resources for projects. equally boring. and so i begin taking pictures!

my organiser aka note book.

cute? motivates me to open and flip through it everyday to check all the date lines of assignments. haha.

the 1st page of my notebook.

sulwyn wrote my name on the post-it, decorate it with a flower and pasted it on my note book for me.

pretty pretty.

my cute folder. i have the need for my stuffs to be cute or pretty. i cant stand ugly stuffs. haha.

joanne's billabong pencil box,

my playboy pencil box

and sulwyn's pencil case with lotsa post-it on it.

at the hospital, i always eat this for my dinner.

and for your info, its always the same type of dish.

green vege, potato and hotday, beancurd tofu.

*yummy* i love plain porridge!

i think im a very professional mould-grower.

Xin made potato salad for me about 1 month ago when she visited my mum at the hospital.

she gave me 5 cups of it.

I tot i finished them all,

but i was wrong! there's one more cup hiding at a corner of the fridge, with its view blocked by the ugly butter!

thats the reason i didnt notice the poor little potato salad.

and my sis took it out and show me its pathetic state.

the green part is the mould! so big and disgusting!

yucks!

This is not the 1st time i grow mould on food already. haha.

i better go slp soon. gotta wake up at 6.30am later to accompany to the hospital.

i only have like 5.5 hrs of slp frm now.

gosh.

eye bags!

bye!

had lunch appointment with coface colleagues today.
omg. its only been a month since i left the company,
and when i saw Magesh (my trainer/supervisor), her stomach was like so big already.
a 5 months old baby boy is swimming inside!
im so looking forward to the birth of this little baby boy.







after lunch, met up with Miss Wu for shopping at bugis.
its been ages since i last saw my princess gang!
like more than 1.5 months?!




theres like nth much at bugis street for us to shop.
i intend to spend on some new tops,
but end up, both of us left bugis with a pair of earings only. damn lame.





settled my tea/dinner at swensens.
the SSS package, 10 bucks only.
1 soup plus 1 side plus 1 sundae.

so full can.





presenting to you our half-eaten banana split.

















the banana split suppose to have 3 small portion of whip cream on top of each flavour of the ice-cream.

when taking order, there goes our conversation.

jy: (tell the waitress) i dun wan whip cream.


waitress: ok. how about you mdm? *refering to me* do you want whip cream on your ice-cream?


me: yes please.


jy: you sure you want whip cream?


me: ya....


jy: whip cream is very fattening! all your efforts on dieting for the past few days will be gone!


me: *looks at waitress* can u give me just 1 portion of the whip cream instead of 3?


waitress: o_O"'


me: ahh, nvm, forget it. i dun wan the whip cream too.









the woman who dun wan whip-cream.



















ahh! wadever! the sinful banana split already flushed my efforts down the drain.

she is sulking in this picture cos im busy taking pictures and neglected her presence. haha

we bid each other goodbye at 6pm and i made a trip down to ttsh to visit mummy.

before we left hospital, my mum lifted up her right hand to touch my cheeks.

im so craving my my mum's warmth now.
please get well soon mummy. muacks.

im supposed to start on my individual essay which gonna due soon.
yet im blogging now.
can someone please teach me how not to procastinate?

i was blog-hopping,
and i saw this on one of my friend's blog.

quoted from her blog:

" it's only logical to start following the mind and not the heart anymore. cox the heart only led us to more n more heartbreaks. and never the solving of any problems."



its just so true.


my heart and mind always contradict each other, as though they were enemies.


but most of the time, i end up following my heart,
getting hurt at the end of the day.
my mind will then start laughing at my stupidity, for not believing in it at the 1st place.


but sometimes, its so difficult.
i often wonder, why are we born with feelings and emotions, that caused us to be illogical?



wadever. im emo-ing again. =(



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i have been telling people how boring my life is currently.
but thinking back on how i spent my days,
i must say i really enjoy school, enjoy projects, enjoy the lectures,
and most importantly, enjoy the presence of the people around me in school.


the people i always mixed ard in sch.
joanne, me, cynthia, ducky, sulwyn, wanwan.



cynthia is like the leader of the grp. she can bake nice muffins! *yummy!* and her laughter is damn contagious.

wan wan (the only guy) is the irritating one who always distract us during project meeting. i hope he will evaporate and nv condense back. haha.

ducky always surprise me with some of her actions. she likes to go "HELLO HELLO" loudly. she nv fail to make us laugh at her actions!

joanne, sulwyn and me are usually the quieter ones, always laughing at the other 3.



sulwyn and me. we always take bus 75 to marina square together. =)


the girls grp photo which wan wan took, but its stucked in sulwyn's phone.
i think we are looked so pretty in it.


and oh ya. they started calling me LIN MAN TE.
dun ask me why.
ask them.


had MOS burger for dinner with wen, man and jin on friday night.

check out mandy's new fringe. she looks younger and cuter with it.
no photos taken with jin cos she was the last to reach. haha



we sat from 6pm to about 9.50pm.
so much to talk!
after that....we went SASA for some quick shopping as i wanted to get myself a reliable eyeliner.



and today....cos its 15th of the lunar calendar,
im on vegetarian diet.

and guess wad i ate?

croquette burger from MOS burger.

so in conclusion, i ate MOS burger 3 times this week！ *feels disgusted*





today, im signing off with a constipated picture of myself. =)




to my dear bf, please take care of yourself.
rest and get well soon!

muacks.

koped from wenna's blog.
dun we looked like a girl band or smth?
took this at paaragon's toilet on ah wei's birthday.
we're loving it.
=)

Attended Jehanne's solemnization ceremony on saturday with huat and the rest of ice cream gallery colleagues.

even though we missed the ceremony when we reached the chalet,
but the whole environment was filled with smiles and love!
felt so xinfu at the very instant when i stepped into the chalet.
but i think she is still young leh. haha. why get married so early?






















after that, ann send all of us back to eastwood!
went to ice cream gallery to have some icecream with huat before gg home.























i love the weekend. felt so blissful. haha.










i missed my mummy so much.
theres so much i wanna tell her,
theres so much things i wanna ask her.

its really really sad when i needed her and she's not well enough to be available for me.


its really disheartening to see her suffer all these shit now,
but what really break my heart into pieces is when i think of the things that we might not be able to do together in the future.



why is life like this?

after lunching with some of my classmates yesterday (oh, btw, we had katong laksa. yummy!),

went to meet amanda and chun hui at novena, as they wanted to visit my mum at the hospital. [girls, thanks for the essence of chicken. :)]

after that, we decided to have KFC for dinner (SINFUL) before gg over to a music cafe at chinatown to chill out a little.

the cafe is located at new south bridge road. they have different types of musical instruments there, and u can play with any of it.
the beverages and cake they offer is also rather afforfdable.


the counter of the cafe.



some of the music instruments in the cafe




we chose a seat by the side, with 2 window planes beside us. ( I love big big windows! beautiful.)


we also tried their tiramisu and one of their tea--beauty (i love their tea pot... its so pretty)




and.... because of the comfortable and relaxing ambience, its such a waste not to make use of it to take some photos of ourselves!










admiring the scenery of chinatown outside





Miss Ng Chun Hui



Miss Amanda Zheng





the 3 of us!


amanda says she is disgusted by Chun hui in this picture when chun hui thinks she looks cute in it.



Chun Hui forced to take a nerdy and ugly picture with her!



as usual, i shall end off today's entry with my pictures!
sometimes, i think i love myself too much. haha





projects datelines drawing nearer.
gosh...
can u believe next week is the 4th week of school?