my story. my life

ok....i cannot deny the fact that im 17 now.
dunno whether to be happy or sad.
had the normal routine today at sch
den received xin hui prezzie and my project group presents.
alright, xin hui gave mi a cushion.
the cover sheet of the cushion is actually a plain 1
but she very sweet lor
stitch some wordings on it
so touched...
ok...the feeling is like i dunno how to say lor
its too difficult to write down here
on the overall, i juz felt touch and happy to have a sweet fren like her lor.
:) thankyou xin hui...u should know how much u mean to mi ok?
den my project group gave mi a set of accessories. necklace, ear rings, and bracelet.
thank you them oso.
receive my b day greetings from my frens too...the surprising thing is...the 1st sms received was from mandy!!!! haha....she is not the slow and blur mandy anymore....haiz...anyways...miss her!
den after lesson went singapore post de this fashion buy my skirt for presentation.
after that went parkway
the heels at bata is really cheap lor...its less than $10. should have get it today.
den amanda, jia min, chun hui and teck chaite suddenly appear in front of mi and they gave mi a shocked lor.
but im really happy to c them
cos i missed them lor
den we go sit sit tok tok....
den saw geng ya
den amanda and jia bought 2 slices of cake from break tok to celebrate my b day.
but i stop them from doing so
cos i dun intend to hear any b day songs or blow off any candles...
but they insisted.
then tears juz flow
cos it really remind mi of how sad i am today
i know i shouldnt be sad
but there is no really for mi to be happy.
i juz know that....birthday doesnt really matter to mi now...its who im with...
and u know wat....2 yrs back...i still got my pet dog jackie to celebrate my b day with mi as we share the same b day
but this yr....he is not with mi...i could still vividly remember the different ways he tried juz to eat the b day cake....and those 'stunts' he performed cause mi to roll on the floor, laughing hard...haha...but where is he now? i dun know....haiz
i know i kinda spoil the mood today when amanda they all came speciallydown juz to help mi celebrate my b day....i really appreciated it very very much...as u all let mi feel that at least im not alone...but i juz feel like crying...forgive mi kay?
although i promised xin not to cry alone on my way home....i juz cant stop tears from flowing down in the bus...haha...memories of the past juz keep flashing...the condition of my grandma....haiz...but i felt better...although some pple in the bus treated mi and looked at mi like im a monster or smth like tt....
reached my ah ma hse late for dinner.....
den went home.
mum returned home with apple strudel to celebrate although i tell her not to get anything back....haiz
so had to hear them sing b day song and blow off the candle flame....
in the end, i still have to be 17 yr old...
but uknow wat...i feel like a pig now
am growing fatter day by day
cos i've got b day cake in my hse, moon cakes, ice cream moon cake and apple strudel...
omg~~~ wat m i going to do with them??!!!!
oh no....muz start exercising liao.....

haiz...although i dun wish to be 17, i still wanna make 3 wishes and hope that they will come true

1)my frens and family members to be happy always
2) to slim down
3) *secret*

tata....gona face the new 17 yr old mi =)