my story. my life

1.5 hrs had passed
another 1.5 hrs more to go.
sianz
dun wan to spend money
therefore stay in sch to rot for the 3 hrs break.
b4 the break was actually statistic lecture.
but guess wad,
only 3 person in my class attended.
the the 3 person is mi and my other 2 frens.
no choice.
cos i tot xin wanted to go out with mi
thats y i attended the lecture to kill time and waited for her to finish her lesson.
den halfway thru the lecture, she sms mi say she going out with her other fren,
den i sian 0.5
if i know, i'll follow the rest of the class go jurong point buy presents for the down syndrome kids for our this coming tuesday event.
we are going to do community involvement work at this i-forgot-wat-name centre where they take care of those down syndrome kids.
my class is going to get something for those kids ba.... so sweet of us rite?

was planning to go fish leong concert with my classmates!
think got huixian, jia yi, zhong lue and huimei ba.
i love fish leong vocals can
always sing until can make mi cry de....

haiz...

was thinking quite alot recently.
gonna be emotional again.
u may want to know wat im emotional about.
friend,friends and friendsss....

everynite, my sis will chat with her frens on phone till late in the nite.
was rather pissed off and i was wondering....
she get to c each other in school everyday, den y at home also must chat until so late.
den i start to think back.
when im in sec sch,
i was also like tt ( not as serious as my sis lar, juz tok for not more than 1 hr)
eventhough i get to c my frens in school everyday,
i still have the urge to chat with them in the nite.
even if we have nth to chat liao,
we will juz keep quiet but still wun hang up.
haha.
come to think of it, no wonder telephone bills are high at tt time.

now...think i seldom use the phone to call or to chat with my frens.
neither did my frens called mi for a chat.
was wondering y...
maybe we go separate ways le
den we dun have common topic.
nth much to chat.
maybe...
they have new frens
maybe...
they are juz too busy for a chat
maybe....
maybe....
juz too many maybe.
sms is maybe the most easy and simple way of showing care and concern for ur frens now.
but i feel that sms is an insincere way of communication.
u juz get to see the other party's message
but u cant c their experssion and everything else.
u dunno whether the person is happy or angry
u dunno whether they are speaking the truth.
when u are gathering with ur frens,
doing projects and stuffs,
pple will start receiving sms frm other people
and then reply to the message.
so i seriously think that
even though its a form of easy communication,
its also a form of interruption.

going to tok abt smth personal now.
sorry if i've offended you in between wad i've said.
but this is my blog.
a place where i want to be true to myself.

i dunno
i sometimes feel that theres nth to tok between the 5 of us le.
our common topic will always be around msquare, msqaure and msquare.
dunno from when i start to feel very irritated.
juz tt i didnt show out my feelings and emotion.
the 2 of u will start whispering ears to ears with each other
as days passed
wad we are chatting is getting narrower and narrower.
and i'll start recalling when we 5 first met.
be it for lunch, for projects, for shopping or for wadever.
i wun feel awkard.
but now....
guess that juz like mi
u've feel the strain in our friendship ba.
maybe im over sensitive
we 5 will meet at mrt station everyday b4 lesson
den walk to SB
but mi and hx walk together
u 2 walk together
den....
i dunno how to say lar.
haiz
i really wanna know wads exactly wrong with us
or should i say,
wads wrong with mi.
if u guys get to read this...
juz wanna tell u guys tt
im tired and i feel very uncomfortable with the situation now.

during my younger days,
i feel that,
if u are my fren,
u are 100% my fren
i know im possesive.
i wanna know wad u're doing and wads going on with ur life.

but now,
i feel that
if u are my fren,
u are only 20% my fren.
we juz smile to each other,
do projects,
tok craps
say bye when going home
eat lunch together
and tts all.
no more heart to heart toks,
no more i miss u, u miss mi.
no more hugs.

maybe im thinking too much
maybe im sensitive
im juz not suitable to this kind of life
and im slow at adapting.

if u guys get to c this post,
pls dun take it to heart.
im juz stating how im feeling now.
no offence.
as in i dun wanna loose any of my frens now.

maybe....i really dunno how to look on the bright side of life.