my story. my life

i got back my bizlaw paper today.
the feeling was like taking back o lvl paper.
i juz had the feeling i will fail,
cos i dunno wad the hell m i writing in the paper.
but the good thing is
i passed!!!
64%
im so relieved and happy can?
i passed u know!
yeah~~~

i wasnt feeling really good today.
i felt so stressed, so qi guai, so emotional.
but i cant find anyway to relieve myself.
i cant cry, which makes mi feel so xin ku.
tears juz wun flow.
i wonder where the crybaby-samantha is now.
its juz so pek chek and irritating when u cant cry.

celine recommended mi and jy a movie, little brother.
both of us decided to catch it after school.
all i can say is, this show is worth the money.
cos it made mi cry.
frm the starting 10 min to the end of the show,
i think tears juz flow out like tapwater.
the whole cinema only got 4 audience including mi and jy.
haha.
i felt so shiok lar.

we had a tok during dinner at long john.
and i ordered a cup of coffee to warm myself.
we chatted really heart to heart,
abt how we felt abt certain sensitive things.
but we got to rushed home to watch superstar,
so the tok we had was like not enuff.

i hate to ride in the train alone.
i really hate it.
i dunno y my tots will keep wondering.
i really dunno y.
i dun wanna think of anything,
but my mind juz wun listen to mi.
my heart wad like screaming for freedom,
wanna escape frm the reality.
but i cant.
cant those tots juz leave mi alone.
i almost breakdown in the train.
i dunno why.
and suddenly, i felt like vomitting.
i felt really terrible.
it muz be the coffee.
i muz be the coffee.
its not the tots.
it muz be the coffee that makes mi feel like vomitting.

i hate contradictions.
but somehow, i keep contradicting myself.
so therefore, in mathematical terms,
i hate myself.

should i give myself a break frm all problems?
as if i could......