Xmas 2006 celebrations.

mLsars gathering.


Weekdays gathering.

Test my balancing skill at amanda's house

haha. look at my sis retarded face. i can foresee her hammering me by posting this pic up.

didnt take any pics with class clique and dear during our christmas gathering. =(

anyways, xmas was fun and fruitful (in terms of presents) this year! im a happy girl!

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the last day of year 2006.

having the feelings of mixed emotions now, treasuring every breathe of the moment.

because, once the clock strike 12 tonight, year 2006 will nv return.



so many things happened this year.

good ones, bad ones, happy ones, sad ones.

i believe, everything happens for a reason.



looking at last year's 31st dec entry, its like so emo and sad!

couldnt remember i felt that way already.

anyway,

i didnt set any new year resolutions this year.

haha! but i think i there are still some accomplishments!



i've got my driving license.

i've slimmed down a little.

cant think of any major one already....



and oh ya.

year 2006, its the year i accepted dear into my life!



so new year resolutions for the coming new year?



hmm....



slim down more,

smooth r/s,

earn more $$$$$



think that will be all.



we shouldnt be greedy.



=)



happy new year everybody.



*back to my report. so sad. haha*

Went xin's house as early as 8.30am to trouble her for helping out with my BD accounts.
it was incredibly messy even though john foo already help me balance my year 1 figures.
Up till 12pm, we were still figuring out why the balance sheet cannot be balance.
I really dont understand how people can stand the job of being a accountant. All they do is to face dead and boring figures.

We dated Pat( our teacher!) for lunch and was waiting for her to reply xin's sms on the venue and time to meet. But Pat said she planned something special for us which leaves me and xin anticipating what is she up to.
While xin is dressing herself up, i took an artistic photo of myself.

Dont you guys think its artistic? Haha. Im in the small little purple-framed mirror.

And while xin is busy checking the accounts, i took out all her rings and tried in on my own fingers. lame right?

Finally received Pat's call and she asked as to take a cab to Regents Hotel from cityhall taxi stand. We were so puzzled by her because we were wondering why must we take a cab specifically from the taxi stand outside Robinsons.
We did as what we were told and tadah~ we reached Regents Hotel.
We were treated like VIPs and i tell you, the feeling was wonderful. (sound so sua-ku)
Then we waited for Pat at the lobby started feeling that we were underdressed for this kind of place.

Then, Pat appeared! omg. she is still as pretty. and she treated us to this English High tea set. It was so much like fine dining. It was our 1st time dining at this kinda place and environment, so Xin and me felt so stressed and tensed up as we dun really know what to do with the cutlery and stuffs, and we were pratically sitting up straight on our back for the 1st 15 minutes!

I tried their Carribean Summer and it has an orangy-fruitty taste. Smells very sweet. and whats more important is that the colour of the tea is PINK in colour. So pretty!

Xin ordered Earl Grey which i think it tasted like my perfume from Body Shop.

The tea pot and the tea cup.

Chatted while we struggled to finish the pastries. We can really talked alot! from guys to life to future to love to religion. Felt so inspiring and comfortable talking to her. Its been a long time when i have this kinda conversation already. I dunno how to describe her, she is just like our idol. there's just so much to learn from her.

We left Regents hotel at 4pm and she drove us back to Eunos. The traffic lights at eunos were all out of order! the traffic was like scary. those people having driving test at around that time must be quite unlucky ba.

But the sad thing is....we forgot to take pictures with Pat. :(

After we reached home, we headed back to our accounts. time seems to pass so fast when we are figuring out the numbers.

Supposed to leave house at 6.30 to head to parkway to meet weekdays for k box session. But by the time we finished the accounts, it was already 8pm! felt so bad as the rest had to wait for us!

Regreted not bring ear plug to Kbox because TOR TECK CHIAT was simply irritating when the microphone is with him. haha! Nevertheless, really enjoy that night even though i was feeling real tired and i had to leave at 11pm. Going to meet them up on Christmas day itself to go KUSU island!

yippee! sounds odd. but who cares?! it will also be my first time there!

ANd to Pat: if you are reading this, i wanna thank you for the treat again!
Learnt so much from you!
Like wad Xin said, we love you.

my father said:

“可以用钱解决的问题，不是问题。
用钱还解决不了的问题， 才是真正的问题。”

I HATE BD!

yeah! i passed my driving test on 7th Dec 2006! first try!

i was so nervous the night before that i couldnt sleep well,
and on the actual day,
i couldnt sit still, i could feel my heart racing every minute, and irregular breathings makes me dizzy. worst still, my hands were cold through out the day.
i swear, this driving test can be ranked the top 3 in "the scariest test" of my life.

Huixian's test was on the same day as mine except that her slot was the morning slot and mine was the afternoon one.
when she called to tell us that she passed,
i got even stress-er.
but i feel so happy for her!


and i skipped my afternoon lesson for my last session of practical lesson b4 test.
and den finally, it was time for me to warm up in my test car.
my instructor wished me good luck and he said that he will wait for my good news.
dunno why, i feel like crying liao.
den b4 warm up, i called dear and my tears jus flow! i was really NERVOUS and SCARED. its like i have to face this battle alone. a lonely and tough battle!

but anyways, the test is now over, and i finally got my driving license after spending like $2000.
now that im a qualified driver, i can drive on the road!
but before that, i still need to learn how to park without the poles that we always use in the driving centre. haha.
if not know how to drive but dunno how to park also no use.

i didnt regret registering as a student of BBDC.
the instructors were patient and the test routes were smooth! unlike the one at Ubi, with congested traffic.

and i think, praying b4 the test and eating vegetarian on ur test day helps.
cos i did that and i passed.

thanks my friends who send me encouragement messages. It help to boost my confidence level up a little.
thanks jingwei and huixian for telling me all the necessary stuffs to look out for.
thanks my parents for encouraging me.
thanks huimei for giving me her luck, which cause her to have bad luck for the rest of the day.
thanks jiayi for working so hard for BSG while i concentrate on my driving.
and lastly, thanks dear for believing in me. =)
your words, your encouragement, your everything.

.promise.

It never occur to me that promise is just and empty word to me, until yesterday, when i had a tiff with dear for breaking my promise.

Promise- something so important, so saint, so meaningful and so hopeful to him. Yet, over here, i looked upon promise so lightly and easily, that i almost didnt know what is the exact meaning of the word 'promise' anymore.

And with that, I portrayed myself as someone who is irresponsible, not trustworthy and someone who only make empty promises. Its a miracle, how he could tolerate me again and again, continue to love me and not giving me up.

On my way back home yesterday, i recaped what happened between us in the day and then reflected my ations and behaviour, trying to find out what promises really mean to me. why am i someone who take promises so lightly.

The only reason to defend myself is that im being brought up in an environment of empty promises. It doesnt really matter to me that someone break his/her promise to me. It really doesnt matter to me because, from young, i've learnt to look at promises lightly and not give a damn abt those promises which makes people goes 'awww....'
I've learnt how not to feel so hopeful about a promise. I dont feel extremely happy or assured even if someone fulfilled his/her promise. My parents sometimes make empty promises too and i've learnt how to deal with it. My friends makes empty promises and i've learnt how to not let it bother me. In other words, i've excreted the word 'promise' out of my world, my dictionary. It's like a vase, beautifying the whole picture. Just a vase, a plain vase.
And then, i wonder if pushing the word 'promise' out of my dictionary is equivalent to pushing the responsibilities im liable for ???

yup, maybe to others, all the above were just bullshits and lame excuses. Im ok with people thinking this way because i would too, if im a third party. I'll see myself as an irresponsible piece of shit.
my uncle said " you're just like a piece of shit" right into my face when i told him i'll rank friends before family a few years back. and i tell you, it really doesnt feel good at all.
but hell, now, i really feel no difference from being a piece of shit.
I felt so regretful so making empty promises, hurting the one i love, the one who love me.

And today, i finally learnt my lesson.
Never promise anything that you arent sure if the promise can work out. Especially to your love ones. If notm the outcome will turn out so disappointing and so disatourous. It misplaces one's trust. And yes, in every relationship that is significant, trust is the foundation.

Instead of saying "i promise", i would rather say "i'll try my best"

Im currently accepting the word 'promise' into my world again.
Im currently learning the importance and significance of the word.
A simple word, yet contain tons of responsibilities, hopes and trusts.

At the end of the day, my advice is not to promise anything that you arent capable of, or promising without thinking of the feasibility. Sometimes, it is just so difficult because, promising and not promising will also lead to disappointment.

A promise is still an empty promise if not delivered completely, regardless of how much effort or sacrifices is invested, in trying to deliver it.

I must admit im not a good girlfriend, someone who tends to be irresponsible, someone who runs away from problems, someone who makes empty promises, someone who always makes statement without thinking which cause negative consequences.

But im very sure that, be it because of my environment or my incapabilities, i'll do something to achieve my promise even if i know i will fail to complete the whole picture.

i dunno what will be your reaction when u see this post.
all i want to say is.... sorry for making empty promises.
from now on, i'll see promises at the angle that u are seeing.
love!

so wad have i been doing for the past 1 week?

this is the executive summary:

mon: rush and handed in mmit report.
tues: driving lesson. princess outing. went bugis v8 cafe, took neoprints.
wed: attended marketing career talk.
thurday: went concourse with zm and hx after school to get christmas deco for retail display.
fri: mmit presentation.
sat: orchard-ed whole day with dear.
sun: work whole day.

and tadah~ there goes one week.
so fast!
and my big day which i feared most is coming. omg.

most memorable one was on tues thurs!

u want to take a look at the neo prints we took, pls refer to huixian's blog!

as for thurs,
all i can comment is....

looks are deceiving.
sometimes, somethings will be better and even memorable if we only look at the surface and not understanding it.
the more u understand, the more faults u will find.
and.... ur wonderful 1st impression formed will be like shattered glass.

haha.
try figuring out wad i mean exactly ba.

the reason why i start up this blog is to inform my close frens such as mLsars and weekdays about my life as we couldnt really meet up.

so the objective here is to inform and update them.

and now, i could really feel that the objective of me having this blog is met.
cos i just found out that my primary school best friend, one whom i haven really keep in touch with, reads my blog!

and yes, i read hers too.

haha.

so even though we didnt catch up with each other's life, we managed to have a rough idea of wad is happening in our lifes.

a big HI to wanyu~
*waves like a mad woman*






handed in our mmit report on time today. and the feeling is good.
now have to start preparing for the presentation this friday!

and and and.....

m i really behaving like an auntie?
my princess clique keep saying i behave like 1.
just because....
i shop like to shop at john little and metro,
i die die want to catch a movie before 5 on thursday to save the $1.50,
i look out for discounts and free gifts,
i clear my throat before test.....

VERY AUNTIE MEH?

Happy Birthday to Amanda!
went to celebrate her birthday at sakae sushi changi airport!
we had the whole tatami room to ourselves!
cool~

its supposed to be a birthday surprise for her.
but accidents do happen sometimes,
she got to know the surprise as some 'innocent' party leaked out the message.

but still,
its like a mini 4E gathering.
and i love sakae potato salad!
i just cant resist potatoes~ omg.

showed amanda the video that we made,
and there comes her tears~
haha.

happy 19th birthday Amanda!
WE LOVE YOU~

my dear tai tai partner.
happy 19th birthday!

we've been through so much together,
cried together,
laugh together,
shopped together,
lame together.

on this special day of yours,
i just wish you will be happy,
and enjoy yourself.

thanks for listening to me,
thanks for motivating me.
thanks for everything and everything.
and of course....thanks for teaching me how to be lamer and teaching me those indian-filipino accent.

Happy birthday!

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couldnt finish mmit test in time today :(

went to auntie irene's wedding last sat night.
gosh.
she slimmed down so so so much!
i oso want!!!

every woman want to look her best on her wedding.
so i guess thats her motivation to help her slim down.
her husband look so much like mr sheh!
omg.

the wedding was held at Le Meridian.
and the souveniur was a key chain and a hp accessory.
cute!




last friday, spent the whole day at vivo city with dear.
whole day!
and i feel so pretty that day with my new top, sis necklace, new belt and of cos, dear's Gucci shades [help conceal my eye bag and dark circles].
watched Grudge 2.
i dun like the seats there. its so stiff and hard.
i still prefer the seats at The Cathy!

anyway, the show was so so.
i dun really understand the story line.
but it was quite scary and i dunno y i kept on laughing and laughing [cos i felt that the ghost look disgustingly funny and lame]
and dear tot i was crazy!

e-learning week.

seriously, e-learning assignments are real boring and lame!
i dun like e-learning week!

and yes, i have to start studying for my mid-semester test next week.
sian!

and im sick!
feel so weak after medication!

and oh ya!

Happy Birthday to WENHAO!
sorry i couldnt make it to ur birthday dinner, cos im not feeling well~

but nevertheless, hope u enjoy ur bday!

its such a emotional day.

im so glad that everything is ok for honey now.
dun see her size small small,
she's braver and stronger than anyone of the us.

tears are contagi0us.
keeping them inside and let letting them flow is really torturing.
but like i say,
i want to be strong for mLsars.
and so, i will be one.

through these,
i can sense the strong bond between us.
this is another ordeal that challenged us and we overcomed it.

everyone is praying so hard.
everyone is worried.
i can feel seven of our hearts beating as one.

take care and get well soon honey.
shopping, dinning and partying will all be waiting for u once u recover!

is everyone feeling the same as i do,
or is it juz me?

time is pressuring isnt it?
i look at my schedule,
it records my never-ending projects,
meetings,
dates,
birthdays,
tests,
assignments.

i find it so hard to set aside time for myself anymore.
when was the last time when i indulged in a very nice and soothing album,
thinking of nothing, but juz staring into the space and enjoying the air, the atmosphere?

maybe, it wont happen anymore.
no time for that.

haha.

really difficult to dig out my time anymore.
everything and everyone demands my time.
whatever decision i make,
there bound to be dissapointments.
but den....

infront of me, all i could see, is juz a wall, blocking my way.




i can feel myself aging already.

do you think that fairytale exist in reality?
one such typical example would be "....and they live happily ever after"

i used to belive it in the past,
and i reckon every child believes in it too.
we want our prince charming to find us with one of the missing glass shoe,
we want our prince charming to kiss us so that we can wake up from the long sleep.

however, nothing is perfect in this world, nothing is absolute in this world.
fairytales are too perfect.
and hence, when i grew older, i realise,

it will not exist at all.

"fairytale" is juz a term for us to fantasize,
a term for us to work towards it,
a term to teach children what peace and bliss is all about.

im practical,
im realistic.

if only all of you could think in a more realistic way,
u will understand my actions, my behaviour, my decisions.

i know the truth hurts,
but isnt this wad we have to go through when growing up?



im always having problems with my tone.
frens out there, please take note of my tone ok?
slap me, pinch me or do watever u want to remind me that, "hey, ur tone sux"
its really giving me a serious communication problem.
so hard to change, and always talking in a agitated tone without myself knowing it and hence gives people impression that im picking a fight.






if only i could put ur soul into my body so that u can experience my life, my thoughts and my feeling. period.

due to the recent unlucky events that befall on me,
i really think im really stupid and living on in this world seems like im just wasting the earth's resources.
but today, someone said this to me:

" you are not wasting the earth resources. u are living on for something and somebody. dun think that u are taking up space and wasting earth resources cos u are contributing at the same time.

you see ar, when you shit right, soon it will processed to be fertilisers, the grass will be getting nutrients and the grass will be happy, see, you are contributing.

even if ur shit is not being processed to be fertilisers, it will attract houseflies.
the houseflies will be happy cos they finally got more shit to feast on.
see, u make the houseflies happy.

if theres no shit, there wont be toilet bowl around.
therefore, u are providing happiness to different things!"

i know all these may sound lame to others who may be reading this.
but it meant so much to me.
its a form of sweet encouragement that made me feel im wanted. im living for a purpose. im being love.

after listening, i lean forward and said......
" i love you dear."
*muacks*

at the very moment,
if only i could let time stop and let everything remain.
the ambience,
the love,
him,
me.

i love him.
yes. i really do.





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a few more minutes to 19 of oct.
Happy birhtday to LIN JIA MIN!

these were taken last saturday when the six of us went to compete in the CIMS competition.
we were the 1st runner up. Better than last yr.
well....should feel happy, but i guess i felt more of dissapointment than happiness.
haha. its not that my expectations were high, its just that i cant justify why the winner emerge as 1st.
not petty, but....i think we did better than them.

we cant change the outcome. we can only be glad that we've got this opportuinity to be involved in this competition.
no more sandwiches for lunch. yeah!

after the competition, went to watch 'silk' with the group members plus my bf, jw and zheng min.
if u want to watch...go ahead, but please go on a weekday. its not worth weekend charges.

went escape theme park on sun with huat, jy, pauline and jas since i have free tickets.
its hazy, hot and boring.
Escape is a place which u can only visit once in every 5 years.
cos its simply boring.
2 of its rides were under maintenanance.
its colosed on weekdays and opened on weekends only, and yet they schedule their maintenance on weekends.
well, i think the management should consider studying services marketing.

i had a really bad day yesterday.
things and people were against me.
i feel so down on my luck.
it feels really terrible to not let ur tears flow as and when they want.
haha.
and yeah, the stupid blogger here,
cancelled her practical test which is like in 3 weeks time, when she actually wanted to check her progress of her driving lessons.
how stupid and careless can one be.
i guess, im the extreme on this earth, wasting earth's resources and deprieving other's oppportunity to stay alive 'cleverly' in this world.
and guess wad, they earliest test date which is made available to me is 1st of march 2007.
kill me people.
at least, when i die, i wont feel so stupid and careless.
argh!
$#^#&%^*%&(%

All these pictures were taken on 7 Oct when i meet mLsars for my belated bday celebration at chicago steakhouse!

the food were yummilicious! and at the same time budget oso!

ah wei that xiao fu po was busy working~ poor thing. but its ok! u didnt miss out too much of fun except for the good food.

we stayed at the restaurant to chat even after we finished our dinner and the staffs cleared our table. And the staffs keep coming over to ask us if we want any desserts as if to inform us that we've been taking up their space for too long!

and upon request, they bought a cute epilator for me! but because of my laziness, wenna help me keep the present first. and when we departed, i forgot to take the present back from her. which means, i do not have the epilator with me now. -_-"

8 OCT

its xin's bday.

went to her hse to celebrate her bday. and she whipped a delicious meal for us! thankew so much!

and for goodness sake, i love the adidas watch we gave her as bday present. so chio!

chit chatted and see her outfit for her colleague's wedding.

hmm...den went home.

no mood to blog liao. tired sia. haven bath. gtg le. nitez.

went marina south for steamboat with classmates juz now.
and i tell u, its fun!
im begining to love my class,
im beginning to feel the bond.
looking back, we almost treat each other as strangers and those kind of 'hi-bye' friend before,
who would actually think that we will seat down as a class, laugh together, cooked together, at marina south?
its a sad thing that things like this always happen when people are going different ways.
abt 3 mths later, we'll graduate from SP, and after that, can we still be as crazy as now?
haha.
why is life like that?
they say, people will learn to treasure after losing things.
but den...this time round, im treasuring every moment i have with this bunch of classmates before we eventually say good bye to SP.
=)

anyway, back to topic.
we left marina south at abt 10.20pm.
decided to walk back to marina bay mrt station.
i thought the journey shouldnt be long and so i agreed to walk back together.
but guess wad time did we reach marina mrt station?
i tell u, its 11.20pm!
we walked for an hour!
haha. cos we lose our way half way through,
and thanks to wee kiat and Zheng Min (the two with no sense of direction) who eventually lead us back to marina mrt station.

departed from Marina bay and reached tanah mehra at abt 12am.
(im a cinderella)
was very lucky that i can still catch the last bus immediately when i came out of tanah mehra mrt station. can save money on taxi fare.

and during normal days, when i pass by the security guard house outside my house, the guard will greet me: "good evening!"

but juz now, the guard greeted: "good morning"

haha. its weird. and i was so worried that i will have to face the music when i reach home cos daddy was "bu shuang" with me when he called me at 10.15pm and i told him i was still at marina bay and he even threatened to change the lock of the gates. i really nv been home that late. normally, after 11.30pm if im still outside, i'll take a taxi straight back home. but this time round, im still in the train close to midnight.
its a wonderful experience i tell u. haha. its like a guai kia doing rebellious things for the 1st time.

bathed and watch channel u "say i do"

i tell u, i really like this show man!

its really sweet, even though jy disagree and think that y is there a need to confess and propose in public when u know that one day u will divorce.

haha. but i think its still very very sweet.
its like, listening to how the 2 couple met and how much they been through until today, one party decides to propose.
isnt this heart warming?
to witness the two love birds promising each other that they will love each other no matter.
i know in this society, things are practical and realistic,
but in me, i still wish for a little fairy tale to happen in my life. (which i think it did)

this week de episode is on the girl, proposing to the guy.
omg. i wonder where did she get her courage from.
with the help of channel U,
she managed to kneel down and say "will you marry me" at wisma atria, infront of the fish tank at B1. with many pairs of eyes on them.

when he say " of cos i do"
my heart go "aww....."
and my tears juz roll.
this is juz so touching.

i admire her courage.
really.

i still have a very traditional mindset,
and always believe that guys must be the one to propose.
now i still do.....
but who knows in the future, when i love and want him so much, i might juz do the same.

haha.
and again, who knows right?

but then again....
marriage is something more than juz a piece of paper.
so....
hmm....
who knows?

果然， 过了九月二十八号的晚上十二点
我不再是皇后。
我得回到原来的生活，面对所有的问题。
从中，我领悟到，其实。。。 快乐时短暂的。


我也许笨，我也许不细心， 我也许没EQ, 我也许死性不改。。。
但在上一秒钟，
我很确定，
我，是爱你的。

Happy Birthday to myself,
and of cos happy birthday to Pauline too.

i had a wonderful birthday celebration with weekdays and kenny ong juz now.
i was juz so great to be able to meet them again after so many months!
dine at swiss cafe and tcc!
finally accumulated $88 for their member card.
this year, receive a wallet, anti stretch mark essence, cactus, towela, ankle socks, earings, lip balm, chocolates and birthday card from them!
felt so loved by them today.
:)
4 years of frenship.
thats how we come by.
time flies, memories stay.

celebrating my bday tml with huat
and fri with poly mates.
den oct 7 with mL.

last but not least,
happy birthday to myself again!
*make a wish and blow the candles*
WORLD PEACE~

its the time of the year where people will start asking me "eh....wads in your wish list?" or "wad do u lack ar?" or " wad do you want?"

haha.

birthday should be a happy occassion where u can celebrate whole heartedly with your loved ones.

but its weird.

when i grow older, i dun seem to look forward to my birthday as how i used to last time.

whats so big deal abt it?
its juz a birthday.
haha.

seriously. this yr no birthday mood.
im not excited that my birthday is juz 2 days away.
last yr, when i wanted to celebrate it, im having FMA exam.
last last yr, celebrated my birthday in a low and weird atmosphere cos of family problems.

i really cant remember when was the last time i thoroughly enjoy celebrating my birthday le.
:(

this yr....
how would it be?








depressed.

i didnt know it can hurt so bad.
full stop.