Like my new blogskin?

yippee~ its all wenna's effort.

i shall blog, as a form of opening ceremony for my new blogskin. heez.

birthday over for almost 2 weeks, but i've not received all my presents yet, so... no photos.

but anyways, thank you:
-dear for nike bag and water bottle and all expenses incurred on 28 sep 2007.
-weekdays for their pink zen stone plus and skin
-Xin hui for the pedicure
-Chun hui for the hairband and earrings
-Amanda and jia min for the body shop body polish, cup and birthday collage
-mL for the origins products, cake and cactus
-Cynthia, ducky, joanne, sulwyn and wanwan for the wallet
-Michelle for the watch
-Maggie and Melissa for the body shop concealer
-Daniel for the hard disk

did i miss out anything?


went to celebrate my birthday at the settlers cafe with weekdays. it was my first time there and yups, we enjoyed it very much. Jia Min and Teck Chiat is scary!



i would like to visit the place again =)

next, met up with mL for my birthday and of cos mL's day which falls on 29Seop
had healthy mushroom dinner (or rather supper) at mandy's hse, and spent the rest of the night drinking redwine, gossiping and playing twister.

while shopping for grocery


our healthy mushroom meal





the delicious mango sago made by mandy's mum


the invader of the night. GROSS!


don't ask me what we're doing


i wish, i wish. look at my retarded face.



seven years of frienship!


me and my miracle cactus.





last sat was xin's birthday
went to....


it's a paradiz centre. and for lunch, they serve 6 course meals! the food there is fabulous! it's worth a try. im going to bring my boyfriend down someday =)

me and the birthday girl



people used to say we're twins or sisters in the past. we got so sick by people asking if we are really sisters, and we just said yes. im from the left fallopian tube and she's from the right one.
and tadah~ we are the twins.

me and chun darling


my caramel pecan spin from TCC. i love it cos it has marshmellow. yummy.



This is my boyfriend for the past 20 months. He'll be enlisting on 11 Dec. OMG.



Anyway, went seoul garden for lunch to celebrate our 2oth month.
and he likes the food there. =)



played monopoly at his house some time ago....

can u see all the hotels being built on the whole stretch?
all the hotels belong to him! the only thing i remember while playing monopoly with him is
PAYING THE HUGE AMOUNT OF RENT.



at the end of the day.... look at his assets


look at mine

so pathetic. im bankrupt. but its ok, since im the girlfriend of this millionaire.


something random

one egg with 2 yolks! amazing....


the 3 mirrors at the ice cream gallery.


me in my boyfriend's shirt




blogging is a waste of time.
i wonder why im blogging instead of mugging



gonna attend funeral.
another one of my relative passed away.



ah! sometimes, life is just so unpredictable.

Hi everybody.
Now that im 20 years old, how great?

you know, its weird.
eversince the age of 17, i dun feel excited whenever my bday is approaching.
Although it means that there will be presents and ang paos, cakes and gatherings, but....
u know u will only continue to age, you dun want to face the fact that u are turning 1 year older, but you have to.

plus, eversince the age of 17, nothing good happens around my birthday period.
things that happened, chose to happen around september, which horribly dampens my bday mood.

and hence, eversince the age of 17,during every 27 sep, i will get so emo all over,i just feel like spending time alone, dun feel like interacting with others,then all the negative thoughts starts creeping in. emo because im gonna be like 1 year older. emo because i can never remain at 16, 17, 18 or 19 again. emo because 1 year older means more responsibilities. emo because my life span is decreased by another year. emo because i will say hi to fine lines and wrinkles again. emo because theres just too many things for me to be emo.

and when the clock strike 12 on 28 sep, i know its my day, and i can most probably have things my way. i physco myself that im the queen, and i will have the final say in most decision. i try to be happy and enjoy the day because this is the day when i can act like a queen who commands around. to simplify, ITS JUST BECAUSE IM BORN ON 28 SEP, AND ITS MY DAY. so i have every reason to be happy and feel happy.

time always pass extremely fast on 28 sep. its like 11.30pm in an blink of the eyes. then, i will secretly count down inside me, to see how much time im left to be the queen of the day. usually the last half and hour of 28 sep, i will feel emo again, all the way to 29 sep, cos the next time i can be queen again, it will be a year later.

and so, to summarise what i wrote above, im trying to say, im feeling EMO now. birthday is over. no more queen. no more MY WAY. more reality. how great.

however, last year, was the first birthday out of the past few birthdays which i had, that was celebrated peacefully and happily, with all my family members and friends all living well and healthily.

i tot last year was an indication of more happy birthday mood for me in the years to come. but thats not true.

i woke up early this morning, everything starts to go wrong.
i took out the pretty top which i intend to wear, and wanted to get it ironed cos it was crumpled.
so i happily took out the iron and the iron board, switched on the power of the iron, position my top nicely, take the iron with my right hand, put the iron down on the top.....

the next moment when i lift my my iron, i saw a hole on my top!

my top's material is those kind of silky material.

i forget to switched it to the cool mode.

you know how i felt at the instant.
i so much wanted to use the hot iron and iron my brain.
its like 20 years old already, i dun even know how to iron properly.
whats worst is, i only wear the top once only!
i feel so stupid and good-for-nothing.

so, no choice, i got to change my outfit.
i proceeded on to put on my make-up.
applied layers and layers of creams and powders to make myself feel pretty.

yes indeed, i felt pretty on my birthday,
but do you know how empty my heart feels?
so what if i feel im pretty? what i really wish for now, is not for me to become slimmer and prettier anymore. I JUST WANT MY MUM TO BE HEALTHY AND NORMAL LIKE BEFORE AGAIN.
nothing feels right today, without her usual greetings, helping me to buy birthday cake, giving me a peck on my cheeks, like how she used to do before.

whats the shit use of being pretty without all these?

ah! sad note aside.
im really glad that i've got my boyfriend today, to celebrate my birthday with me.
he was exceptionally handsome today, being extra gentleman, giving in to me more and tolerating my nonsense and absurbness.

even though its a simple dinner and simple movie and simple shopping,
all these were enough to brighten up my mood, feel like a real queen, make me dread the approach of 29 sep and the emo-ness that will soon be overtaking me.

I love you dear. Thanks for everything. i wondered how to survive the night with me being grouchy and picky on you. LOVE!

After that, daddy and sisters came all the way from home to fetch me back. cos they were afraid that i wont make it home in time to cut my birthday cake.

i wasnt expecting any cakes this year, and i was really touched and surprised when daddy said he bought it.
when we reached home, i looked at the cake (which i stupidly forget to take foto again) and laughed. He bought 3 slices of cakes instead. 2 mango, 1 strawberry. put on the candles and they sang the birthday song. i wanted to cry so much. i can't put how i feel into words. i guess u guys will nv understand how i feel.

ending my post here.
Below are my birthday presents so far.

pink wallet from cynthia, wan wan, sulwyn, joanne and ducky.

Nike bag and water bottle from Mr. Tan Tian Huat.

(Chun! we have the same water bottle now!)

a watch frm sis (michelle)

hmm....and a lap top from daddy.

and more to come i hope!

meeting weekdays and mL tomorrow.

royal clique, when are we meeting again? Am i gg to arrange for my own bday celebration? i think hx,jw,tobs,me and qj can celebrate together. LOL.

*i've made a very simple wish, and i know it will come true*

happy birthday to you, samantha.

21st of sep finally came,
handed up all the major projects,
now its only left with one, which will be due on 15 oct.

haven chiong project eversince feb this year.
it feels really tiring. its like.... going for a jog after you didnt run for like 1 year.
all the stamina gone.

didnt sleep for the last 3 nights, and yesterday, when i reach home,
i slept all the way for like 12 hrs. shiok!

went shun deng's hse to complete my distribution channle project.
and i brought my pooh bear along with me. its so huggable!
and... no smell. haha

my group mates and i staring at the computer screen. i think its 7am in the morning.
i looked like a total nerd with my thick specs on.

and today, finally got time to really dress up!
and yes, i did felt pretty. haha.
my wardrobe is really getting boring.
should go shopping and get something for myself soon.
anyone keen to shop?

went to catch 'i pronounce u as chuck and larry' with mr bf.
funny show, but rather boring.
after that, met up with mL at night for mandy's bday dinner.

exams coming soon. i should really get started with those boring text book.
got a feeling that i did badly for some projects,
cant afford to fail.
STRESS AH!

birthday coming soon.
have you prepared my present?

my biggest birthday wish this year.... is for mummy to recover.
theres nothing more important than this.

why is sad incidents always more overwhelming than happy ones?

sometimes, you need to know you are sad, very sad.
and when u are happy, u will not doubt that u are happy, cos u've experience all the sad things in life.

i think life is being difficult on me.
what did i do to deserve all those shit?

like what one of my classmate always say -- SSDD
"same shit, different day"

but what to do?

thats life.

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

its really depressing.

how could life be so fragile?

看着融化掉的冰淇淋,

眼泪不知不觉地滑下。

不是因为它不好吃。。。

而是因为得不到谅解。

我真得很无奈。



我的心


不知道还可不可以承受那快窒息的感觉。

this blog of mine is like close to 4 years old.



and this is only the 500th post.



for this entry, i shall post my september schedule.

Im dying at SIM already.
i will like have project meeting almost everyday, for the next 2 weeks, before everything unofficially end on 21st sep.

i look at my schedule, and feel so exasperated.
theres like nothing i can do,
to improve my current situation.

im tired.
tired frm all the datelines,
tired frm the stress not only from projects,
but frm myself too.

pls tell me,
you will understand.

if there is any answer that could make my thoughts run wild and trigger my fear,
that answer would definitely be......







"i don't know"












everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.everything is fine.






feel like having you by my side now,
and hug you like theres no tommorrow.

i wanna feel safe in your arms again.

who can truly understand how i feel?
who can truly understand why i cry?

妈妈，真的很想你。

看你受的苦，为你流的泪，又有谁能够完全了解？



看见朋友的妈妈都为他们操心，

对你的想念不知觉像海浪一样卷了起来。



一直把自己的身体照顾得好好的，

因为怕自己生病，

没有你在身边，

会回想起你那无微不至的关怀，

让自己跟伤心，让自己更难过，

然后，后悔为什么当初没有珍惜你为我做的一切。




不知道自己的眼泪还会流多久，

但每一滴泪，多代表着那无限的想念。

你还记得我吗？

我是你的大女儿，你到底记得吗？

你一定会记起来的对不对？




妈妈，请你不要忘记我好吗？

我真的真的很爱你。

Hello world. Its like half-way through August already. 2/3 of the year gone.



anyway, brought daddy to fish and co and velocity.

It was his 1st time there, and im so afraid that he will tell the service crew over there that he wants to eat chicken chop. haha.



ordered seafood platter and their fish and chips.

im glad daddy likes the food there.

he says we can come here to celebrate grandpa's birthday this 28 Aug!

cool~ my grandparents will be having their first time at Fish and Co soon.





















Eventhough we enjoyed the whole dinning experience, but there was something missing.

couldn't describe wad was missing,

but to put in simpler terms,

it would be perfect if mummy was there, to dine with us.



you know everyday, i couldnt help but envy,

envy those who got home cooked food to eat everyday.

cos now, all i eat was food from outside, or if not, hospital's food.

i missed my mum's dishes.







how did you spent your national day?

squeezing with people at cityhall to watch fireworks? haha~



caught rush hour 3 with bf on that day at vivo city!

watched in vivo max! big cinema with big leg space.

funny show, definitely worth watching!

i wonder when is jackie gonna stop acting.

he is not young anymore, yet still doing all those dangerous stunts.























went clarke quay with bf on sat, and we shopped at central.

there's quite a number of shops there to shop, and alot alot alot of restaurants there.

maybe we can go there for gatherings next time!

sure can find one place to sit and eat and chat.












sun, went to watch Rush hour 3 AGAIN.

cos daddy wanted to watch it, so i offered to accompany him.

even though i watched it the 2nd time, im still laughing over the same scene.

go watch go watch.

i wanna watch secret and disturbia too!



that sunday was a super suay sunday for me.

went to balestia cinema to watch the movie.

we bought popcorn, nachos and drinks.

the the counter staff didnt bother to close the lid of the drinks tightly,

so when i hold it, it spilled onto my white shirt that i was wearing.

damn it!



nvm, i ren! i go to the toilet, wash it with water, and blow dry it with the hands dryer.

but it was completely dried. it was still damped. so when im in the cinema, i was like sshivering whole way through!



at night, during dinner, my clumsy sis spilled her smelly miso soup onto my pants and sandals!

this time round, i was really mad!

and i guess i hurled some harsh words at her.

haha.

sorry, but i couldnt help it.

the above pictures were taken when im in mrt.
the legs in the pictures belonged to some secondary school boys!

noticed something?
they were all wearing ankle socks.
to think that during my time, we use to wear our socks quite high.
haha.

my advice to them?
maybe...."please pull up your socks"
haha.

in case you guys dunno, this is my new pants =)
haven been wearing pants for like so long already!
my classmates were like so shocked to see me wearing pants to school that day. haha.
but now i understand why people who wear pants will take longer time in the toilet.
damn troublesome!

this is such a busy week. i haven been visiting my mummy at the hospital since monday.

haven like project meetings every day, before and after school.
have to work.
have to rush through report.

me and ducky, in midst of project discussion. haha. i know im ugly!
all projects' fault!

and there's this mid-term test up-coming next tuesday.

great. so great.
i really should start studying soon.

i quitted tution, and went back ice cream gallery to work.


although i wont earn as much as giving tuition,


but at least i dun need to travel much also.













nothing much changed, and im still the friendly ice cream girl at eastwood!














Munchy donut opened an outlet outside my house inside cold storage!
although theres like practically no queue each time i buy, but their donuts are always sold-out.
i personally think it taste better than donut factory.
im v happy cos i dun need to queue retarded-ly just to eat nice donuts.
envy?


caught the movie "alone" with huat.
injured myself while watching the movie, so you can imagine how scary it is.
i think the story line not bad leh, worth watching.
see le, got lotsa 'feel'
haha.

i love watching scary movies with my boyfriend!


i seriously think i need to better manage my time.
i dun seem to have enough time to finish my task.
im feeling stress as date lines are drawing nearer.
somehow, i think i lost myself among the unaccomplished work.

im in the midst of doing my individual assignment. its so darn boring!

so i decided to post smth v random. heez.

lecture for today!

i find the lecture boring today! lecturer was rushing through, cant really catch up!

half way through, a libarian came to give us a talk on how to use our library resources for projects. equally boring. and so i begin taking pictures!

my organiser aka note book.

cute? motivates me to open and flip through it everyday to check all the date lines of assignments. haha.

the 1st page of my notebook.

sulwyn wrote my name on the post-it, decorate it with a flower and pasted it on my note book for me.

pretty pretty.

my cute folder. i have the need for my stuffs to be cute or pretty. i cant stand ugly stuffs. haha.

joanne's billabong pencil box,

my playboy pencil box

and sulwyn's pencil case with lotsa post-it on it.

at the hospital, i always eat this for my dinner.

and for your info, its always the same type of dish.

green vege, potato and hotday, beancurd tofu.

*yummy* i love plain porridge!

i think im a very professional mould-grower.

Xin made potato salad for me about 1 month ago when she visited my mum at the hospital.

she gave me 5 cups of it.

I tot i finished them all,

but i was wrong! there's one more cup hiding at a corner of the fridge, with its view blocked by the ugly butter!

thats the reason i didnt notice the poor little potato salad.

and my sis took it out and show me its pathetic state.

the green part is the mould! so big and disgusting!

yucks!

This is not the 1st time i grow mould on food already. haha.

i better go slp soon. gotta wake up at 6.30am later to accompany to the hospital.

i only have like 5.5 hrs of slp frm now.

gosh.

eye bags!

bye!