nice and memorable events always ends so fast.
its sunday already.
fast isnt it?
anyway, didnt go home ytd nite
cos ton at mandy's hse.
met up with mL in the morning and off we go to sentosa.
but jin didnt turn up cos she had to work.
took monorail to palawan beach.
the ride is sure torturous
cos its slow and it makes my stomach churns
make mi feel like puking.
played in the water first b4 suntanning.
cut my feet in the water by those stones at the side...*ouch*
applied lots of suntan lotion cos i wan mi skin to look tan instead of burnt.
haha.
but in the end, i got myself sunburnt.
while we were suntanning,
i noticed a man dressed in formal clothings sitting at the bench quite a distant behind us.
he keep taking snap shots of us.
he used flash somemore.
making it more obvious that he is taking pics of us, especially mandy.
omg~~ wat will he do with those fotographs?
*worried*
left sentosa at abt 5.30pm
on our way home at harbour front,
there is a grp of guys who keep following behind us
they were so noisy and irritating.
while we were in the train,
a few guys from the grp approached mi and say one of the guy in the grp wants my no.
my god.
rejected them.
and they keep making fun of my actions and reactions in the train
i felt so frighten at that time.
lucky got mL with mi.
but the sad thing is...
i overheard one of their conversation.
and i think they said that on purpose.
cos they were loud.
this is wat they said : " eh...this kind of girl u oso like"
*sadded*
wat do they mean by "this kind of girl"
ok... nvm....cos they themselves sux big time too.
behaving like babarians in the public.
such a disgrace.
one of the guy wearing vjc t shirt somemore.
went kallang for dinner.
ate fried sotong, kangkong, xin zhou beehoon and hor fun
we were so famished at that time.
finished the food quite fast.
den we proceed to mandy's hse lor.
den clarissa appeared.
haha. funny story.
first, she sms wei say she coming. she call wei dun tell us cos she wants to surprise us.
but wei told us lor.
den we wanted to give clar a surprise oso lah.
so clar didnt knoe that we actually know she was coming.
den when she reached, we all act like very surprise.
haha.
den jin arrived a man hse also.
den we take out our surprise for clar.
a bday cake and her dolphin necklace.
actually the bday cake purpose was to celebrate all of our b days in this yr 2004.
cos we didnt really have the chance to celebrate it during our actual b day.
another purpose is to comemorate our 5 yrs of friendship.
haha.
such a sweet nite.
den clar left cos she cant stay overnite.
den jin also leave at abt 1am.
her dad came to fetch her.
after that, left the five of us.
man, wei, ling, wen and mi.
we watch tv and tok cock.
tok abt huang na's case.
shan't further elaborate.
cos we were all very furious and agitated when it comes to this topic.
den about 3.30 am
we go inside the bedroom play poker cards.
haha.
play play play until 4.45 am
all cant tahan le den slp lor.
i slp on the bed
the rest slp on the floor.
muahhahaha
evil mi.
no lah...is they all want to squeeze 2gether on the floor de.
woke up at abt 10.30am
went for breakfast.
den went home.
home sweet home.
juz read jin's blog.
dunno how to describe my feeling while reading them.
to jin :
to be precise,
i was rather angry and dissapointed with u.
i mean... we are good frens, best frens, bestest fren.
at least i treat u as 1.
but watever probs u encounter
u always choose to keep them to urself and act like nth happen.
i know u dun wish to tell us and let us know.
but u know wat
u left the rest of us guessing wat really happen to u.
we are all worried for you.
we are always here for each other including u.
i know we sometimes very difficult to help each other's probs,
but at least we know wat happened,
at least we can give u some comforts, some suggestions.
maybe this post might sound a little harsh
but there are more i wanna tell u and i dunno how to express.
and tell u wat....u will always be my very very close and best frens
no matter wat.
hope u can really stay strong and face all those problems thats hindering you.
when u feel like crying
theres us.
~miraclez luv~
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Friday, November 19, 2004
long time no update le...
haha
thanks to those computer virus.
yeah my laptop tio virus AGAIN
but i think i cleared it accidentally.
ok tok about this fews days ba!
tuesday (16/11/04)
went to ang mo kio with mandy, liling, wenna and shunwei
for a job interview.
the pay is pathetically low.
and i mean damn low.
its a midnite job.
from 11pm to 7.30am
no transport provided.
and they pay us $50 a day only.
somemore, $50 a day for a girl to work midnite is below average.
erm, the job is i think motorola de la, fixing the parts 2gether.
den as wei haven had her lunch, we went mos burger to eat lor.
i mean wei eat only lah. cos we had ours b4 the interview le.
den we sit down eat and chat.
tok abt our perspective towards love.
starting to have negative tots 2wards love after hearing wat they say.
i really agree that guys and gals look at 'love' very differently.
sometimes, a guy will go and make fren with a gal
and his mission is to go steady with the girl.
wat i mean is...if the girl reject the guy
does tt mean that they cannot be frens anymore?
sometimes, a girl is not willing to commit herself too much in a relationship.
that is becos we cant predict the future.
who knows that the guy will fall in love with another gal?
who knows that the gal will fall in love with another guy?
who will still be there to heal her wounds when the guy leave the girl?
will they still continue be frens if they break?
even if they can stay on as fren after they break,
will u cfm tat u wun hate each other because of their bad habits?
love is simple, yet complicated.
and it takes alot of courage to accept and receive.
argh! i dunno wat im toking.but u know wat...
i still want to have a taste of love *shy**runs away*
after mos burger,went to wei hse to havoc.
its been a long time since i've been there.
stayed in her room.and we havoc inside.
haha.
stack ourselves one above each other,
use a blanket to cover someone up and lie on top of it,
tickle each other.
and they unzipped my jacket *blush*
and more and more 'r rated scene'
haha
we are still so childish afterall.
but who cares?
we juz enjoy wat we are doing at that moment.
afterall we only live once.
wednesday (17/11/04)
yeah! its amanda's bday!!happy 17th b day!
actually plan on going to sentosa with 1 wk gang.
but jia min got her dragon boat training for her sat's competition.
it wouldnt be fun if we go sentosa without her.
therefore decide not to go sentosa.
after jia's competition den we go oso the same lah.
den mi, xin and chun went to amanda's hse lor.
revealed our secret mission to amanda....
haha...the scrap bk on herself and a vcd
showing the process of making the scrap bk.
haha.
played the vcd.
starting of the movie, less den 5 min only
amanda was crying le
silly ger.
the her tears keep flowing and flowing non stop!
i think this is the best presents we've given her so far ba...
den watch long feng dou vcd.
the show was so-so lah.
a bit touchinga bit funny
but u muz think as u watch
cos the storyline abit confusing
and the ending was *argh!!!*machiam no ending like tt.
den after jia finish her drangonboat training,
we go bugis for dinner.
before dinner, we went seiyu's arcade to play.
xin spent quite alot there juz to get 140 tickets
to exchange for precious moments and winnie ppoh stickers.
the precious moments stickers can be bought at 10 pcs for $1 at pasar malam i think.
but she used up $8 juz for 1 pc of precious moments sticker.
-no comment- cos with $8 she can actually buy 80 pcs of the same type of stickers
instead of 1 pc only
haha.
den go v8 movie cafe for dinner.
had fish and chips
and brownie with vanilla icecream
so nice can!!!!
the brownie was hot and the ice cream is cold.
when i eat them 2gether....OMG~~~its HEAVEN
haha.
den took nep prints together.
we are their last customer of the day.
after taking and cutting them into pieces for distribution,
we left the neoprint shop.
and upon reaching mrt station on our way home,
xin realised that she left her precious moments sticker in the neo print shop!!!
haha
she is so blur man!
spent so much on the sticker and she left it there.
anyway, a very happy bday to amanda! hope amanda enjoyed our company!
thursday (18/11/04)
slp till 1230pm den wake up
watch the mars by zai zai and da S.
today episode was about the raping scene de.
omg~~ i cried when da S was screaming for help
when zai zai sort of wanted to rape her to find out the real reason y she keep resisting him when he wants sex.
i dunno.
i juz felt very very sad when i saw her screaming for help like mad
den tears juz flow.
i guess if i were her
kanna raped by my own father
i wun be able to be strong
and face the reality that my own dad rape mi.
i would rather die lor.
haiz
so girls out there, especially my frens
pls becareful when u go out late at nite!
after that went bugis (again)
to shop with wen, ling and weiwant to buy an alter neck shirt
to go suntan on sat.
tried on alot of sleeveless.
dun really dare to wear sleeveless cos im fat u c...
i scared i scare off pple around mi with my flabby meat.
so i wonder how will pple at sentosa react if i wear sleeveless for suntaning
argh~~~
actually, the greatest enemy is myself.
cos i have to overcome my own obstacle in my heart
to wear sleeveless.
juz finding excuses for myself tts all.
haha
i like the clothes from e-base
its chio lor.
but its also ex. $45.
hurhur...but dad agreed to sponsor mi half the amount.
haha. i love him!
cos he always sponsor mi things i like.
i seriously nid a job now to earn extra cash for newyear clothes
very broke liao....
read jia min blog
and she says that im rich.
actually im not rich
its juz that im sort of unwilling to spent alot on things i like.
i can ctrl myself not to spent alot.or u can say,
im stingy towards myself.
i've to think very long if i want to buy something.
however, when it comes spending on food during gathering
im willing to spent.
like havin dinner/lunch with frens at swensens, cafe cartel etc etc.
its not the food that im paying for
its the ambience, the atmospher, the comfortable place the tok and chat, the service, the time
that im paying forhaha.
chiong home to catch sg idols
sly didnt do as well as b4i think.
but i will still vote for him de lah
keke.
going to look for job with xin tml maybe.
looking towards saturday cos im tonning at mandy's hse.
having pyajamas party.
told my parents im going chalet....*guilty*
haha
thanks to those computer virus.
yeah my laptop tio virus AGAIN
but i think i cleared it accidentally.
ok tok about this fews days ba!
tuesday (16/11/04)
went to ang mo kio with mandy, liling, wenna and shunwei
for a job interview.
the pay is pathetically low.
and i mean damn low.
its a midnite job.
from 11pm to 7.30am
no transport provided.
and they pay us $50 a day only.
somemore, $50 a day for a girl to work midnite is below average.
erm, the job is i think motorola de la, fixing the parts 2gether.
den as wei haven had her lunch, we went mos burger to eat lor.
i mean wei eat only lah. cos we had ours b4 the interview le.
den we sit down eat and chat.
tok abt our perspective towards love.
starting to have negative tots 2wards love after hearing wat they say.
i really agree that guys and gals look at 'love' very differently.
sometimes, a guy will go and make fren with a gal
and his mission is to go steady with the girl.
wat i mean is...if the girl reject the guy
does tt mean that they cannot be frens anymore?
sometimes, a girl is not willing to commit herself too much in a relationship.
that is becos we cant predict the future.
who knows that the guy will fall in love with another gal?
who knows that the gal will fall in love with another guy?
who will still be there to heal her wounds when the guy leave the girl?
will they still continue be frens if they break?
even if they can stay on as fren after they break,
will u cfm tat u wun hate each other because of their bad habits?
love is simple, yet complicated.
and it takes alot of courage to accept and receive.
argh! i dunno wat im toking.but u know wat...
i still want to have a taste of love *shy**runs away*
after mos burger,went to wei hse to havoc.
its been a long time since i've been there.
stayed in her room.and we havoc inside.
haha.
stack ourselves one above each other,
use a blanket to cover someone up and lie on top of it,
tickle each other.
and they unzipped my jacket *blush*
and more and more 'r rated scene'
haha
we are still so childish afterall.
but who cares?
we juz enjoy wat we are doing at that moment.
afterall we only live once.
wednesday (17/11/04)
yeah! its amanda's bday!!happy 17th b day!
actually plan on going to sentosa with 1 wk gang.
but jia min got her dragon boat training for her sat's competition.
it wouldnt be fun if we go sentosa without her.
therefore decide not to go sentosa.
after jia's competition den we go oso the same lah.
den mi, xin and chun went to amanda's hse lor.
revealed our secret mission to amanda....
haha...the scrap bk on herself and a vcd
showing the process of making the scrap bk.
haha.
played the vcd.
starting of the movie, less den 5 min only
amanda was crying le
silly ger.
the her tears keep flowing and flowing non stop!
i think this is the best presents we've given her so far ba...
den watch long feng dou vcd.
the show was so-so lah.
a bit touchinga bit funny
but u muz think as u watch
cos the storyline abit confusing
and the ending was *argh!!!*machiam no ending like tt.
den after jia finish her drangonboat training,
we go bugis for dinner.
before dinner, we went seiyu's arcade to play.
xin spent quite alot there juz to get 140 tickets
to exchange for precious moments and winnie ppoh stickers.
the precious moments stickers can be bought at 10 pcs for $1 at pasar malam i think.
but she used up $8 juz for 1 pc of precious moments sticker.
-no comment- cos with $8 she can actually buy 80 pcs of the same type of stickers
instead of 1 pc only
haha.
den go v8 movie cafe for dinner.
had fish and chips
and brownie with vanilla icecream
so nice can!!!!
the brownie was hot and the ice cream is cold.
when i eat them 2gether....OMG~~~its HEAVEN
haha.
den took nep prints together.
we are their last customer of the day.
after taking and cutting them into pieces for distribution,
we left the neoprint shop.
and upon reaching mrt station on our way home,
xin realised that she left her precious moments sticker in the neo print shop!!!
haha
she is so blur man!
spent so much on the sticker and she left it there.
anyway, a very happy bday to amanda! hope amanda enjoyed our company!
thursday (18/11/04)
slp till 1230pm den wake up
watch the mars by zai zai and da S.
today episode was about the raping scene de.
omg~~ i cried when da S was screaming for help
when zai zai sort of wanted to rape her to find out the real reason y she keep resisting him when he wants sex.
i dunno.
i juz felt very very sad when i saw her screaming for help like mad
den tears juz flow.
i guess if i were her
kanna raped by my own father
i wun be able to be strong
and face the reality that my own dad rape mi.
i would rather die lor.
haiz
so girls out there, especially my frens
pls becareful when u go out late at nite!
after that went bugis (again)
to shop with wen, ling and weiwant to buy an alter neck shirt
to go suntan on sat.
tried on alot of sleeveless.
dun really dare to wear sleeveless cos im fat u c...
i scared i scare off pple around mi with my flabby meat.
so i wonder how will pple at sentosa react if i wear sleeveless for suntaning
argh~~~
actually, the greatest enemy is myself.
cos i have to overcome my own obstacle in my heart
to wear sleeveless.
juz finding excuses for myself tts all.
haha
i like the clothes from e-base
its chio lor.
but its also ex. $45.
hurhur...but dad agreed to sponsor mi half the amount.
haha. i love him!
cos he always sponsor mi things i like.
i seriously nid a job now to earn extra cash for newyear clothes
very broke liao....
read jia min blog
and she says that im rich.
actually im not rich
its juz that im sort of unwilling to spent alot on things i like.
i can ctrl myself not to spent alot.or u can say,
im stingy towards myself.
i've to think very long if i want to buy something.
however, when it comes spending on food during gathering
im willing to spent.
like havin dinner/lunch with frens at swensens, cafe cartel etc etc.
its not the food that im paying for
its the ambience, the atmospher, the comfortable place the tok and chat, the service, the time
that im paying forhaha.
chiong home to catch sg idols
sly didnt do as well as b4i think.
but i will still vote for him de lah
keke.
going to look for job with xin tml maybe.
looking towards saturday cos im tonning at mandy's hse.
having pyajamas party.
told my parents im going chalet....*guilty*
Monday, November 15, 2004
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happy hari raya
went to john little sales with xin and her sis ytd.
really got nth to shop there lor
all auntie's stuff.
but still managed to get my lingeries.
saw the alphabet 's' behind the word lingerie and u shall know wat i mean.
after that went tampines mall to shop for amanda's prezzie.
saw julian
while he didnt change much
and his 'dao' attitude really kinda pissed mi off.
well...maybe he is in a bad mood...i dunno
den had mahjong session with my mum and sis in the nite till early morning.
den went to bed
slept for like 6 hours b4 going out to tampines (again)
cos at 1st is wanna go k lunch with mL de
but wen and ling sick
so they couldnt make it
den jin say wen and ling didnt go so she sian 3/4 le
but luckily still got man man and wei
den we cannot decide whether to continue going k box or go have lunch
den
saw cafe cartel
settled ourselves inside
ordered their signature dishes.
porkribs and sambal fish it think
nice...yummy
den as usual
crapz alot
but not as noisy as when wen, jin and ling were ard.
this proves that wen, jin and ling were the noisy ones when they were ard.
after that man and wei go off le lor
den i need to go whitesands to buy amanda's b day prezzie
really don have idea wat to get for her
she seems like lack of nth 1.
den finally bought smth for her
hope she wil like
cos it cost mi a small bomb
but its ok lah
good frens mah
den yesterday also sasa de b day
happy bday girl
the sweet 17 will be another challenging yr for u!
but not to worry
cos mL is always here to accompany go thru the sweet 17
haha
crappie mi!
went to john little sales with xin and her sis ytd.
really got nth to shop there lor
all auntie's stuff.
but still managed to get my lingeries.
saw the alphabet 's' behind the word lingerie and u shall know wat i mean.
after that went tampines mall to shop for amanda's prezzie.
saw julian
while he didnt change much
and his 'dao' attitude really kinda pissed mi off.
well...maybe he is in a bad mood...i dunno
den had mahjong session with my mum and sis in the nite till early morning.
den went to bed
slept for like 6 hours b4 going out to tampines (again)
cos at 1st is wanna go k lunch with mL de
but wen and ling sick
so they couldnt make it
den jin say wen and ling didnt go so she sian 3/4 le
but luckily still got man man and wei
den we cannot decide whether to continue going k box or go have lunch
den
saw cafe cartel
settled ourselves inside
ordered their signature dishes.
porkribs and sambal fish it think
nice...yummy
den as usual
crapz alot
but not as noisy as when wen, jin and ling were ard.
this proves that wen, jin and ling were the noisy ones when they were ard.
after that man and wei go off le lor
den i need to go whitesands to buy amanda's b day prezzie
really don have idea wat to get for her
she seems like lack of nth 1.
den finally bought smth for her
hope she wil like
cos it cost mi a small bomb
but its ok lah
good frens mah
den yesterday also sasa de b day
happy bday girl
the sweet 17 will be another challenging yr for u!
but not to worry
cos mL is always here to accompany go thru the sweet 17
haha
crappie mi!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
yeah!
my laptop now is free from virus!
thx to teck chait
he help mi reformat my lappy....
ok tok abt ytd...
spent my whole afternn at pasir ris library.
wanted to borrow some books to kill my boredom
was feeling quite moody
i dunno y...
i juz felt so irritated by myself, by everything ard mi...
and i found a corner, i sat down and i began to tear.
dun ask mi y
i oso dunno y
depression maybe.
this is not the 1st time like this le
haha...
maybe i should c a doctor.
but i felt better to let those tears out.
den wen sms mi and ask her if i can go for a movie at nite.
but
im not in the mood for movie
turn her down at 1st.
but decided to go in the end cos the whole of mL is going.
dun wan to spoil mood so i go lor.
den i went home to change into a more presentable clothes b4 going down to PS to meet them
they told mi to meet at 7.30pm
but they were late!!!!
gosh!!
felt so hungry at that time
but cant blame them lah
they go back to NP to reformat their laptop
so i forgive them....
didnt go for movie in the end
cos they were late
and i dun want to reach home too late.
so we juz go mos burger for dinner
and go istana park to chat chat till 11pm
den went home lor.
den today...
went xin house to complete our secret mission
and teck chiat help mi reformat lor.
den xin cook bee hoon for us....
not too bad
had two plate of it
haha
yeah!
mum agree to let mi work midnite shift to earn extra cash!
haha
can work with mL le
cos they gonna work midnite shift oso!
ok lah...
enuff of updates
going to john little sales to hunt for lingeries.
haha
my laptop now is free from virus!
thx to teck chait
he help mi reformat my lappy....
ok tok abt ytd...
spent my whole afternn at pasir ris library.
wanted to borrow some books to kill my boredom
was feeling quite moody
i dunno y...
i juz felt so irritated by myself, by everything ard mi...
and i found a corner, i sat down and i began to tear.
dun ask mi y
i oso dunno y
depression maybe.
this is not the 1st time like this le
haha...
maybe i should c a doctor.
but i felt better to let those tears out.
den wen sms mi and ask her if i can go for a movie at nite.
but
im not in the mood for movie
turn her down at 1st.
but decided to go in the end cos the whole of mL is going.
dun wan to spoil mood so i go lor.
den i went home to change into a more presentable clothes b4 going down to PS to meet them
they told mi to meet at 7.30pm
but they were late!!!!
gosh!!
felt so hungry at that time
but cant blame them lah
they go back to NP to reformat their laptop
so i forgive them....
didnt go for movie in the end
cos they were late
and i dun want to reach home too late.
so we juz go mos burger for dinner
and go istana park to chat chat till 11pm
den went home lor.
den today...
went xin house to complete our secret mission
and teck chiat help mi reformat lor.
den xin cook bee hoon for us....
not too bad
had two plate of it
haha
yeah!
mum agree to let mi work midnite shift to earn extra cash!
haha
can work with mL le
cos they gonna work midnite shift oso!
ok lah...
enuff of updates
going to john little sales to hunt for lingeries.
haha
Friday, November 12, 2004
ok
shall declare that my laptop is down with virus
n i dunno wat im gonna do with it.
now, im using my PC with the risk of causing the whole house circuit to go haywire
haha.
*evil grin*
daddy b day today.
went to have tim sum for breakfast.
den followed by k box.
was daddy's and mummy's 1st time there.
haha
they sang alot of hokkien songs
and i sang along too.
den drank 2 cups of vodka sprite and sip some other alcoholic dinks my parents ordered.
and i felt so hot!
gosh!
almost couldnt walk in a str. line
haha
lousy mi!
was too full to have dinner
so brought some buns and a bday cake hm as dinner.
watched sg idols.
i dunno. they sound weird...i think
haha
shall declare that my laptop is down with virus
n i dunno wat im gonna do with it.
now, im using my PC with the risk of causing the whole house circuit to go haywire
haha.
*evil grin*
daddy b day today.
went to have tim sum for breakfast.
den followed by k box.
was daddy's and mummy's 1st time there.
haha
they sang alot of hokkien songs
and i sang along too.
den drank 2 cups of vodka sprite and sip some other alcoholic dinks my parents ordered.
and i felt so hot!
gosh!
almost couldnt walk in a str. line
haha
lousy mi!
was too full to have dinner
so brought some buns and a bday cake hm as dinner.
watched sg idols.
i dunno. they sound weird...i think
haha
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
oh...
finally
i can blog...
i think my laptop is going bonkers
juz like mi....
going bonkers cos of boredom
omg~~~
ok...due to my short term memory
shall update on wat happened on monday and tuesday b4 i totally forgot abt them.
monday 8/11/04
a very fine day.
no rain
not so sunny.
had lunch at century square with my mum and sisters.
den we watch a movie
princess dairy 2
nice and funny show...
bought myselfs a watch
tuesday 9/11/04
woke up quite early
was dragged down frm bed by my mum
she wanted mi to accompany her go fetch sisters home from sch!!!!
the reason is for accomapnying her is....i have nth to do and im too free....
after that went to have lunch
den go changi rise for a swim
followed my steam bath
cool....
den had dinner at my grandmother house
she cooked curry agian!
yummy!
her curry is fabulous!
to kill my boredom, i rent 3 vcds to watch
a walk to remember
windstruck
and the confession of teenage drama queen.
finshin watching a walk to remember.
by mandy moore and shane west...
this story book and movie never fail to make mi tear....
haha
although its like typical story line...
but....
its still so nice.
im now half way thru windstruck.
finshed vcd 1....
sweet but sad for the 1st vcd
shall carry on later.
ARGH....
im bored
damn bored
wanna look for a job
but our sch reopen date not 3 not 4
very difficult for the employers to employ us
cos we can work only less den 1 month
but xmas is comin
i need cash for presents!
finally
i can blog...
i think my laptop is going bonkers
juz like mi....
going bonkers cos of boredom
omg~~~
ok...due to my short term memory
shall update on wat happened on monday and tuesday b4 i totally forgot abt them.
monday 8/11/04
a very fine day.
no rain
not so sunny.
had lunch at century square with my mum and sisters.
den we watch a movie
princess dairy 2
nice and funny show...
bought myselfs a watch
tuesday 9/11/04
woke up quite early
was dragged down frm bed by my mum
she wanted mi to accompany her go fetch sisters home from sch!!!!
the reason is for accomapnying her is....i have nth to do and im too free....
after that went to have lunch
den go changi rise for a swim
followed my steam bath
cool....
den had dinner at my grandmother house
she cooked curry agian!
yummy!
her curry is fabulous!
to kill my boredom, i rent 3 vcds to watch
a walk to remember
windstruck
and the confession of teenage drama queen.
finshin watching a walk to remember.
by mandy moore and shane west...
this story book and movie never fail to make mi tear....
haha
although its like typical story line...
but....
its still so nice.
im now half way thru windstruck.
finshed vcd 1....
sweet but sad for the 1st vcd
shall carry on later.
ARGH....
im bored
damn bored
wanna look for a job
but our sch reopen date not 3 not 4
very difficult for the employers to employ us
cos we can work only less den 1 month
but xmas is comin
i need cash for presents!
Saturday, November 06, 2004
someone said to mi...
when something comes to an end,
its a beginning of another thing...
which is quite true now
becos...my mid session test is finally over
and now im beginning to relax, play and everything
haha....
juz checked my accounts results
and i passed!
in fact, the whole of our class pass accounts and we dunnid to retake!
hooray!
haha....
sat for a 3 hr paper today (mangement)...
but i think i finished my paper within 1.5 hr
was sitting there rotting and shivering (aircon very cold)
and turning back slightly to c if xin finished her paper....
wah...she very slow...make mi wait till im on the verge of freezing to death.
but when i see her like finishing her paper tt time,
i pass up my paper and leave the room 1st....
taboleh tahan the cold...
after that, both of us went heeren to have our lunch....
haha
ate sakae sushi....
long time nv eat liao *getting fatter and fatter*
den after that went to orchard mrt go meet up with chun hui, jiamin, amanda,teck chiat and chang yi.
den we go far east shop lor....
was damn tired at that time due to the insufficient slp the nite b4.
den the 5 of us (girls) bought a similar ring to represent our friendship ring...
actually wanted to engrave our grp name (1 week) on it de...
den some of us think is too....*ahem*
so we engrave our name on it...haha
den as changyi is sick and xin hui nids to go to the food fair to meet her dad,
we left orchard at abt 5.30pm
den i dun feel like going home so early
so decided to changi airport to tok cork with amanda and jiamin....
den we tok about alot of things
such as how is wind form....y got wind etc etc
den tok abt flight experience and places we wanted to go,
sec sch life, sec sch p.e. teacher....
finally tok abt supernatural stuffs haha....
den after that rushed home to watch sg idol...
leandra is out
who is next?
its so heart-wrentching to c pple getting out of the competition now
as in they spent so much time praticing and reharsing....
they clinged on to a little hope of staying in the competition each episode....
they must sacrifice so much to become a sg idol...
but...but...the thing is pple might not like them
they might not be as popular as the other contestants.
so no matter how good they are
they cant garantee that they will not be out the next episodes
and i feel that the remaining 4 out there are all very good.
they can sing well...
but now, its not a matter of how well can they sing now...
its a matter of who has more supporters now....
anyway....everything must come to an ending for the start of another god-knows-what activity/events/programmes.
thankew.
i shall end my speech here!
when something comes to an end,
its a beginning of another thing...
which is quite true now
becos...my mid session test is finally over
and now im beginning to relax, play and everything
haha....
juz checked my accounts results
and i passed!
in fact, the whole of our class pass accounts and we dunnid to retake!
hooray!
haha....
sat for a 3 hr paper today (mangement)...
but i think i finished my paper within 1.5 hr
was sitting there rotting and shivering (aircon very cold)
and turning back slightly to c if xin finished her paper....
wah...she very slow...make mi wait till im on the verge of freezing to death.
but when i see her like finishing her paper tt time,
i pass up my paper and leave the room 1st....
taboleh tahan the cold...
after that, both of us went heeren to have our lunch....
haha
ate sakae sushi....
long time nv eat liao *getting fatter and fatter*
den after that went to orchard mrt go meet up with chun hui, jiamin, amanda,teck chiat and chang yi.
den we go far east shop lor....
was damn tired at that time due to the insufficient slp the nite b4.
den the 5 of us (girls) bought a similar ring to represent our friendship ring...
actually wanted to engrave our grp name (1 week) on it de...
den some of us think is too....*ahem*
so we engrave our name on it...haha
den as changyi is sick and xin hui nids to go to the food fair to meet her dad,
we left orchard at abt 5.30pm
den i dun feel like going home so early
so decided to changi airport to tok cork with amanda and jiamin....
den we tok about alot of things
such as how is wind form....y got wind etc etc
den tok abt flight experience and places we wanted to go,
sec sch life, sec sch p.e. teacher....
finally tok abt supernatural stuffs haha....
den after that rushed home to watch sg idol...
leandra is out
who is next?
its so heart-wrentching to c pple getting out of the competition now
as in they spent so much time praticing and reharsing....
they clinged on to a little hope of staying in the competition each episode....
they must sacrifice so much to become a sg idol...
but...but...the thing is pple might not like them
they might not be as popular as the other contestants.
so no matter how good they are
they cant garantee that they will not be out the next episodes
and i feel that the remaining 4 out there are all very good.
they can sing well...
but now, its not a matter of how well can they sing now...
its a matter of who has more supporters now....
anyway....everything must come to an ending for the start of another god-knows-what activity/events/programmes.
thankew.
i shall end my speech here!
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
ok...
didnt really studied juz now
thanks to the 5 min heavy downpour at raffles this afternn.
and i found out that being kind doesnt pay off...
shittening.
xin went of of the coffeebean to outside, by the river, to study
den it rains heavily.
i went out with my purple umbrella to save her
den i saw theres 3 others eurasian there also....
after dropping xin at that shelter,
i went back, thinking that they might want to come to the shelter too...
but the 3 person there discuss so long
den they say "no! thankew!"
wat the hell...i was all drench at that time!
my jeans and baleno jacket were all wet.
argh!
den i request for a stack of tissues from coffeebean to dry myself
den i dun have mood to study liao...
so we decided to head to tanjong pagar to find job agency to help us find job
haiz
so in the end, i only completed 1 chapter.
sianz
when i reach home,
i c the weather so good
so jio my dad go jogging
feel so refreshing now
hope later can concentrate more!
i can do it! yeah! frens out there...wait for mi...i'll be free in 2.5 days!
didnt really studied juz now
thanks to the 5 min heavy downpour at raffles this afternn.
and i found out that being kind doesnt pay off...
shittening.
xin went of of the coffeebean to outside, by the river, to study
den it rains heavily.
i went out with my purple umbrella to save her
den i saw theres 3 others eurasian there also....
after dropping xin at that shelter,
i went back, thinking that they might want to come to the shelter too...
but the 3 person there discuss so long
den they say "no! thankew!"
wat the hell...i was all drench at that time!
my jeans and baleno jacket were all wet.
argh!
den i request for a stack of tissues from coffeebean to dry myself
den i dun have mood to study liao...
so we decided to head to tanjong pagar to find job agency to help us find job
haiz
so in the end, i only completed 1 chapter.
sianz
when i reach home,
i c the weather so good
so jio my dad go jogging
feel so refreshing now
hope later can concentrate more!
i can do it! yeah! frens out there...wait for mi...i'll be free in 2.5 days!
Monday, November 01, 2004
nth really happened today....
and the fact is
nth really special will happen in my life anyway....
cancelled the trip to raffles coffeebeab to study cos xin dun wan to go
and i could not make it
studied at home
but the whole is i spent on slacking only.
realised that....i really cannot study at home
unless its midnite
cos in the afternn,
i turn to my left, theres a room where a comfortable bed is situated.
i turn to my right, there is a comfortable sofa for mi to take a nap while listening to the radio.
i face the front, there is a tv, which always play some interesting shows during my study hours
and i faced behind, there is a laptop which nv fail to distract mi....
my god....
how to study like that?
i only completed 1 chapter out of alot of chapters
and i wonder how m i gonna finish memorise them...
feel like heck care it
but im afraid of repeating this torturous boring module.
someone, pls save mi!
watch the champions juz now....
love can make a person turn good and evil at the same time....
it can make a person laugh and cry at the same time....
so is love a good thing or a bad thing?
*ponders*
and the fact is
nth really special will happen in my life anyway....
cancelled the trip to raffles coffeebeab to study cos xin dun wan to go
and i could not make it
studied at home
but the whole is i spent on slacking only.
realised that....i really cannot study at home
unless its midnite
cos in the afternn,
i turn to my left, theres a room where a comfortable bed is situated.
i turn to my right, there is a comfortable sofa for mi to take a nap while listening to the radio.
i face the front, there is a tv, which always play some interesting shows during my study hours
and i faced behind, there is a laptop which nv fail to distract mi....
my god....
how to study like that?
i only completed 1 chapter out of alot of chapters
and i wonder how m i gonna finish memorise them...
feel like heck care it
but im afraid of repeating this torturous boring module.
someone, pls save mi!
watch the champions juz now....
love can make a person turn good and evil at the same time....
it can make a person laugh and cry at the same time....
so is love a good thing or a bad thing?
*ponders*
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
went coffeebean again
yes
AGAIN
no choice can only study there.
left at 4pm to meet mL for dinner
but the sad thing is ling did not join us cos she had to work.
den the rest of us went to chinatown
kayz...cant deny that we were loud
but...who cares?
haha
as long as we happy can le
den went chinatown.
actually wana go to the vegetarain restaurant to eat de
but when we reach that place tt time
the vegetarian restaurant shut down le!!!!
and we have to walk all the way back to the mrt station.
den decide on eating swensens.
craving for the fish and chips u c...
but...
but...the fish and chip today dun taste nice.
haha
but still manage to finsh it...
den we ordered ice cream to eat.
order red-blue and white
and the waitress stared at us expecting more order.
den i said thats all.
den her eyes open big big and ask : u all 5 sharing 1?
omg~~
very funny meh?
we all very full liao wat
so call 1 we all share lah
wats the problem with u?
jealous our relationship good izzit?
*pissed off*
haha
den we began to take fotos...
thats wat we always does
haha
den chat chat chat.
didnt know theres actually so many pple waiting outside the shop to be seated
haha
so we chat until 8 o clock den go home
rushed home to watch the champions
missed the 1st 5 minutes of the show
shitty bus 14
always so slow....
den now toking to man man and wen
we say we wana go do exercise together
haha...
looking forward to that day.
im always looking forward to meeting sec sch frens becoos they are wat we call true frens.
no doubt poly frens are good
but some are just too artificial
too surface
they make frens juz for the sake of having and
leave u alone when they found another 1....
y is the world like tt?
anyway
have to get use tothis kind of style
cos when we are out in the society
pple will be like tt too....
haiz
yes
AGAIN
no choice can only study there.
left at 4pm to meet mL for dinner
but the sad thing is ling did not join us cos she had to work.
den the rest of us went to chinatown
kayz...cant deny that we were loud
but...who cares?
haha
as long as we happy can le
den went chinatown.
actually wana go to the vegetarain restaurant to eat de
but when we reach that place tt time
the vegetarian restaurant shut down le!!!!
and we have to walk all the way back to the mrt station.
den decide on eating swensens.
craving for the fish and chips u c...
but...
but...the fish and chip today dun taste nice.
haha
but still manage to finsh it...
den we ordered ice cream to eat.
order red-blue and white
and the waitress stared at us expecting more order.
den i said thats all.
den her eyes open big big and ask : u all 5 sharing 1?
omg~~
very funny meh?
we all very full liao wat
so call 1 we all share lah
wats the problem with u?
jealous our relationship good izzit?
*pissed off*
haha
den we began to take fotos...
thats wat we always does
haha
den chat chat chat.
didnt know theres actually so many pple waiting outside the shop to be seated
haha
so we chat until 8 o clock den go home
rushed home to watch the champions
missed the 1st 5 minutes of the show
shitty bus 14
always so slow....
den now toking to man man and wen
we say we wana go do exercise together
haha...
looking forward to that day.
im always looking forward to meeting sec sch frens becoos they are wat we call true frens.
no doubt poly frens are good
but some are just too artificial
too surface
they make frens juz for the sake of having and
leave u alone when they found another 1....
y is the world like tt?
anyway
have to get use tothis kind of style
cos when we are out in the society
pple will be like tt too....
haiz
Monday, October 25, 2004
finally....
accounting mid session is already over
spent almost 1 week studying it
hope i can at least can a pass?
haha
if not end yr sure die le
cos mus cfm get a very good pass
so as not to repeat accounting next yr.
haiz
to watever gods and buddha out there...
bless mi!
have been spending quite much on coffeebean lately
broke...
money hard to earn but easy to spend
haiz
ok...
now must study econs
another 'on-the-verge-on-dieing' subject
god bless again!
accounting mid session is already over
spent almost 1 week studying it
hope i can at least can a pass?
haha
if not end yr sure die le
cos mus cfm get a very good pass
so as not to repeat accounting next yr.
haiz
to watever gods and buddha out there...
bless mi!
have been spending quite much on coffeebean lately
broke...
money hard to earn but easy to spend
haiz
ok...
now must study econs
another 'on-the-verge-on-dieing' subject
god bless again!
Thursday, October 21, 2004
yeah
felt a sense of satisfaction
cos ive studied today!!!
finshed 5/6 of my pacc
only left with balance sheet!!!
haha
u know y
cos i did not study at home today
xin hui and mi went to raffles place de coffee bean study...
haha
the ambience was so suitable for studying
the air-con there was extremely cold
so u cannot fall asleep.
den there also got no pple
except that their music was loud
haha
those opera-kind music
shall go there and finsh my revision there tml!
tata pple
im going to eat my dinner and then burrow my head in my lecture notes again!!
felt a sense of satisfaction
cos ive studied today!!!
finshed 5/6 of my pacc
only left with balance sheet!!!
haha
u know y
cos i did not study at home today
xin hui and mi went to raffles place de coffee bean study...
haha
the ambience was so suitable for studying
the air-con there was extremely cold
so u cannot fall asleep.
den there also got no pple
except that their music was loud
haha
those opera-kind music
shall go there and finsh my revision there tml!
tata pple
im going to eat my dinner and then burrow my head in my lecture notes again!!
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
tired.
and i keep feeling that im 'flooding'
thx to the once a mth thingy.
sianz
went sch early to last minute revise my excel test with hui xian.
this early trip to sch was worthwhile cos i discover alot things things tt i didnt knoe
and it actually came out in the test'
haha
so happy!!!
den after the test went to eunos meet xin hui and we go parkway together to celebrate jia's b day.
meet the rest at waterise.
eat abit den went up k box
ok
didnt really enjoy my stay there cos i was feeling uneasy (flooding)
den got a lil headache
and the aircon is cold.
but enjoyed my stay there cos it JIA's bday
how can i not enjoy?
no lah
its not where the place that im enjoying
its the pple who im with that i enjoyed.
haha
and jia was so high today!!!
sang alot of songs
and her most high-est song is...SHE BANGS SHE BANGS
haha
any, wanna wish her a very happy 17th b day!!!!!!!
and i keep feeling that im 'flooding'
thx to the once a mth thingy.
sianz
went sch early to last minute revise my excel test with hui xian.
this early trip to sch was worthwhile cos i discover alot things things tt i didnt knoe
and it actually came out in the test'
haha
so happy!!!
den after the test went to eunos meet xin hui and we go parkway together to celebrate jia's b day.
meet the rest at waterise.
eat abit den went up k box
ok
didnt really enjoy my stay there cos i was feeling uneasy (flooding)
den got a lil headache
and the aircon is cold.
but enjoyed my stay there cos it JIA's bday
how can i not enjoy?
no lah
its not where the place that im enjoying
its the pple who im with that i enjoyed.
haha
and jia was so high today!!!
sang alot of songs
and her most high-est song is...SHE BANGS SHE BANGS
haha
any, wanna wish her a very happy 17th b day!!!!!!!
Monday, October 18, 2004
today...
no sch
cos it study week!!!!!
but i didnt study today
sobz
slack the whole day today
gonna start later.
and did i mentioned that i failed my accounts?
oh if i didnt,
den i shall declare that i failed my accounts
got 42%
higher than i expected.
my teacher tot that i got smth wrong
cos i was smiling instead of frowning when i got my result.
hahaha.
shall work hard!!!
cant fail accounts
cos its a 1 yr module...
if repeat muz repeat 1 yr.
tedious sia
but today went school for my jap test at 530 pm
erm the test was quite..... hard
no confidence....
cos i only spent 30 min revising
haha
having ITAB test tml
sure die
cos i sux at excel
dunno most of the function
haiz
headache.
after the test tml
going to KBOX
to celebrate jia's b day
haha
KBOX again!!!
no sch
cos it study week!!!!!
but i didnt study today
sobz
slack the whole day today
gonna start later.
and did i mentioned that i failed my accounts?
oh if i didnt,
den i shall declare that i failed my accounts
got 42%
higher than i expected.
my teacher tot that i got smth wrong
cos i was smiling instead of frowning when i got my result.
hahaha.
shall work hard!!!
cant fail accounts
cos its a 1 yr module...
if repeat muz repeat 1 yr.
tedious sia
but today went school for my jap test at 530 pm
erm the test was quite..... hard
no confidence....
cos i only spent 30 min revising
haha
having ITAB test tml
sure die
cos i sux at excel
dunno most of the function
haiz
headache.
after the test tml
going to KBOX
to celebrate jia's b day
haha
KBOX again!!!
Sunday, October 17, 2004
ok...
changed my blog skin
my sis deserve the credits
cos she helped mi de...
and u all hv to know that im a computer idiot.
this kinda things is sure not i do de.
heez. so proud of it!
having jap test tml.
wish mi luck and hope i'll not malu myself infront of my teacher liked last time!!!
and frens out there,
im feeling better le!
thx for ya concern
*muacks* *run away*
haha
juz now watch the show : my left eye sees ghost
cute and funny show
laughed all the way....
changed my blog skin
my sis deserve the credits
cos she helped mi de...
and u all hv to know that im a computer idiot.
this kinda things is sure not i do de.
heez. so proud of it!
having jap test tml.
wish mi luck and hope i'll not malu myself infront of my teacher liked last time!!!
and frens out there,
im feeling better le!
thx for ya concern
*muacks* *run away*
haha
juz now watch the show : my left eye sees ghost
cute and funny show
laughed all the way....
Friday, October 15, 2004
feeling so xin ku now...
cos feel like want to sick but not sick like tt.
feel that my body is so hot now and yet im wearing my jacket
god...m i dieing?
my leg pain pain *sob out loud*
presentation was ok today.
teacher said i was juz too stiff and others is ok cos i give eye contacts...
yeah...but actually i was searching for the exit sign. ya...reminds mi o mr liew yeah?
jerry finally got out of sg idol.
i felt bad for him though
the comments were juz too harsh.
but...but...he is really not good.
but dun cry cos its over smile cos it happen
wonder who will be the next....
cos feel like want to sick but not sick like tt.
feel that my body is so hot now and yet im wearing my jacket
god...m i dieing?
my leg pain pain *sob out loud*
presentation was ok today.
teacher said i was juz too stiff and others is ok cos i give eye contacts...
yeah...but actually i was searching for the exit sign. ya...reminds mi o mr liew yeah?
jerry finally got out of sg idol.
i felt bad for him though
the comments were juz too harsh.
but...but...he is really not good.
but dun cry cos its over smile cos it happen
wonder who will be the next....
Thursday, October 14, 2004
ok.
im in pain now
i fell down outside lecture hall today
so embarrassing lor.
and that ulu ulu guy help mi up
haha
i know im bad calling him ulu
but...thx anyway.
and now i hve a scratch on my left knee
and i think i sprained my ankle
cant walk properly now.
ouch
tml how to wear high heel?
sianz
suay.
watch sg idols
this wk is not gd
im in pain now
i fell down outside lecture hall today
so embarrassing lor.
and that ulu ulu guy help mi up
haha
i know im bad calling him ulu
but...thx anyway.
and now i hve a scratch on my left knee
and i think i sprained my ankle
cant walk properly now.
ouch
tml how to wear high heel?
sianz
suay.
watch sg idols
this wk is not gd
ok...m feeling very sad now
cos i miss mL+ sArS
haha...
at school attending ITAB
listening to Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui.
reminds mi of ling
somemore 1 person sitting here alone
can feel the loneliness...
i miss u aLL....
你的心情总在飞,什么事都要去追,想抓住一点安慰,你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊你最害怕孤单的滋味你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎,经不起一点风吹你的身边总是要许多人陪,你最害怕每天的天黑，但是天总会黑,人总要离别,谁也不能永远陪谁,而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对,不只是你我会感觉到疲惫.*当你孤单你会想起谁,你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会,让我再陪你走一回
cos i miss mL+ sArS
haha...
at school attending ITAB
listening to Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui.
reminds mi of ling
somemore 1 person sitting here alone
can feel the loneliness...
i miss u aLL....
你的心情总在飞,什么事都要去追,想抓住一点安慰,你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊你最害怕孤单的滋味你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎,经不起一点风吹你的身边总是要许多人陪,你最害怕每天的天黑，但是天总会黑,人总要离别,谁也不能永远陪谁,而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对,不只是你我会感觉到疲惫.*当你孤单你会想起谁,你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会,让我再陪你走一回
ok...m a happy girl today
cos i cleared all spyware in my com
haha
they are real irritating and shittening
shant elaborate
thx wenna!!!!
k
had my final IDEA presentation today
not the bad
teacher didnt comment much and didnt question alot.
den did my EC project
gonna present them in my formal wear and high heels on friday
which marked the end of all projects and semester 1...
after tt will be study week (1 wk) and den followed by mid yr exams
haha
*nervous*
watch a indonesian firm with ROny today while waiting for our turn to show our presentation slides to ms joosa.
ok.
its my 1st time
and i pratically didnt understand wat they are doing
and...and...its boring *yawn*
but the back ground music not the bad...soothing
and that rony was like laughing throughout the movie
cos i have that frowning 'dun understand' look on my face...
well well well....laugh all u want and i still wun understand ur languange!!!!
haha
den went tm de popular buy calculator...
cost mi a bomb.
its $29.90
but manjusri bkshop is selling at $18
but no choice
i need it tml
so.....arghZ....
cos i cleared all spyware in my com
haha
they are real irritating and shittening
shant elaborate
thx wenna!!!!
k
had my final IDEA presentation today
not the bad
teacher didnt comment much and didnt question alot.
den did my EC project
gonna present them in my formal wear and high heels on friday
which marked the end of all projects and semester 1...
after tt will be study week (1 wk) and den followed by mid yr exams
haha
*nervous*
watch a indonesian firm with ROny today while waiting for our turn to show our presentation slides to ms joosa.
ok.
its my 1st time
and i pratically didnt understand wat they are doing
and...and...its boring *yawn*
but the back ground music not the bad...soothing
and that rony was like laughing throughout the movie
cos i have that frowning 'dun understand' look on my face...
well well well....laugh all u want and i still wun understand ur languange!!!!
haha
den went tm de popular buy calculator...
cost mi a bomb.
its $29.90
but manjusri bkshop is selling at $18
but no choice
i need it tml
so.....arghZ....
Monday, October 11, 2004
came across an interesting paragraph...
wanna share it with u all :
One night there was a woman at the airport who had to wait for several hours before catching her next flight. While she waited she bought a book and a pack of biscuits to spend the time. She looked for a place to sit and waited.She was deep into her book, when suddenly she realized that there was a young man sitting next to her who was stretching his hand, with no concern whatsoever, and grabbing the pack of cookies lying between them. He started to eat them one by one. Not wanting to make a fuss about it she decided to ignore him. The woman, slightly bothered, ate the cookies and watched the clock, while the young and shameless thief of biscuits was also finishing them. The woman started to get really angry at this point and thought "If I wasn't such a good and educated person, I would have given this daring man a black eye by now."Every time she ate a biscuit, he had one too. The dialogue between their eyes continued and when only one biscuit was left, she wondered what was he going to do. Softly and with a nervous smile, the young man grabbed the last biscuit and broke it in two. He offered one half to the woman while he ate the other half.Briskly she took the biscuit and thought, "What an insolent man! How uneducated! He didn't even thank me!" She had never met anybody so fresh and sighed relieved to hear her flight announced. She grabbed her bags and went towards theboarding gate refusing to look back to where that insolent thief was seated.After boarding the plane and nicely seated, she looked for her book which was nearly finished by now. While looking into her bag she was totally surprised to find her pack of biscuitsnearly intact. "If my biscuits are here", she thought feeling terribly, "those others were his and he tried to share them with me." Too late to apologize to the young man, she realized withpain, that it was her who had been insolent, uneducated and a thief, and not him.How many times in our lives, had we known with certainty that something happened in a certain way, only to discover later that it wasn't true?How many times has our lack of trust within us made us judge other people unfairly with our conceited ideas, often far away from reality.That is why we have to think twice before we judge others. Let's always give others the benefit of the doubt before we think badly of them.
i must admit that first impression is always very important.
it always gives pple an overall picture abt u when they didnt knoe u well enuff...
thats y girls always wanna dress and look well infront of the guy she likes
and i think this apply to guys too...
ok...for mi...i m really those type of person who really care and feel sensitive to how pple comment abt mi...and i realli take those negative comments to heart....that is y i felt that i live on this world juz to please pple ard mi...and i felt real pathetic abt myself....cos i dunno if pple were speaking truth...they may be joking saying that im ugly...and i really take it to heart lor....because i always appear that kind of 'happy-go-lucky' person....and that is the reason pple thought i dun mind them saying negative comments abt mi....haiz...
the cruelty of truth....is always stabbing my heart
ok...dunno wat im toking.
and den juz now i oso read my fren blog. this is quoted from her blog :
wish there's someone now to say he love me. so that he can be with me. i want someone to be with me now. right now. i wanna say out everything that's on my mind to tat person. i want him to be there whenever i'm upset. i want him to listen to me cry. i dun want someone who will feel irritated by my cries. i want someone who's truly mine. someone who wants to be mine.
and i think...this is also wats in my mind now...
but....too bad...haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
guess....it shall be decades of yrs later and its my turn to have my 1st bf....
and by that time i shall be 55 or maybe even 65....
cannot be able to give birth anymore
cannot be a mother....
saddening...
den wats the use of having bf at that time?
my youth is gone...cant give my husband happiness.
haha...if this day should come
den i shall be the 1st to chiong to the matching making centre and get myself married off by the age of 35!!! (latest)
haha
wanna share it with u all :
One night there was a woman at the airport who had to wait for several hours before catching her next flight. While she waited she bought a book and a pack of biscuits to spend the time. She looked for a place to sit and waited.She was deep into her book, when suddenly she realized that there was a young man sitting next to her who was stretching his hand, with no concern whatsoever, and grabbing the pack of cookies lying between them. He started to eat them one by one. Not wanting to make a fuss about it she decided to ignore him. The woman, slightly bothered, ate the cookies and watched the clock, while the young and shameless thief of biscuits was also finishing them. The woman started to get really angry at this point and thought "If I wasn't such a good and educated person, I would have given this daring man a black eye by now."Every time she ate a biscuit, he had one too. The dialogue between their eyes continued and when only one biscuit was left, she wondered what was he going to do. Softly and with a nervous smile, the young man grabbed the last biscuit and broke it in two. He offered one half to the woman while he ate the other half.Briskly she took the biscuit and thought, "What an insolent man! How uneducated! He didn't even thank me!" She had never met anybody so fresh and sighed relieved to hear her flight announced. She grabbed her bags and went towards theboarding gate refusing to look back to where that insolent thief was seated.After boarding the plane and nicely seated, she looked for her book which was nearly finished by now. While looking into her bag she was totally surprised to find her pack of biscuitsnearly intact. "If my biscuits are here", she thought feeling terribly, "those others were his and he tried to share them with me." Too late to apologize to the young man, she realized withpain, that it was her who had been insolent, uneducated and a thief, and not him.How many times in our lives, had we known with certainty that something happened in a certain way, only to discover later that it wasn't true?How many times has our lack of trust within us made us judge other people unfairly with our conceited ideas, often far away from reality.That is why we have to think twice before we judge others. Let's always give others the benefit of the doubt before we think badly of them.
i must admit that first impression is always very important.
it always gives pple an overall picture abt u when they didnt knoe u well enuff...
thats y girls always wanna dress and look well infront of the guy she likes
and i think this apply to guys too...
ok...for mi...i m really those type of person who really care and feel sensitive to how pple comment abt mi...and i realli take those negative comments to heart....that is y i felt that i live on this world juz to please pple ard mi...and i felt real pathetic abt myself....cos i dunno if pple were speaking truth...they may be joking saying that im ugly...and i really take it to heart lor....because i always appear that kind of 'happy-go-lucky' person....and that is the reason pple thought i dun mind them saying negative comments abt mi....haiz...
the cruelty of truth....is always stabbing my heart
ok...dunno wat im toking.
and den juz now i oso read my fren blog. this is quoted from her blog :
wish there's someone now to say he love me. so that he can be with me. i want someone to be with me now. right now. i wanna say out everything that's on my mind to tat person. i want him to be there whenever i'm upset. i want him to listen to me cry. i dun want someone who will feel irritated by my cries. i want someone who's truly mine. someone who wants to be mine.
and i think...this is also wats in my mind now...
but....too bad...haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
guess....it shall be decades of yrs later and its my turn to have my 1st bf....
and by that time i shall be 55 or maybe even 65....
cannot be able to give birth anymore
cannot be a mother....
saddening...
den wats the use of having bf at that time?
my youth is gone...cant give my husband happiness.
haha...if this day should come
den i shall be the 1st to chiong to the matching making centre and get myself married off by the age of 35!!! (latest)
haha
Saturday, October 09, 2004
nth special happened today.
had a bad start of the day...
had a real tummy ached this morning
felt better after visiting the toilet...
and it reminded mi abt the movie white chicks where that guy was doing business in the ttoilet
haha
so funny lor
den 12.15 like tt,
germaine, karen and hui mei reached my hse
den we started working on our project
finished everything at abt 6pm
finally!
and now...
online
chatting with mL and SaRz
miss them like hell
wonder whens our next gathering
cant waait for the exams to be over!!!!
had a bad start of the day...
had a real tummy ached this morning
felt better after visiting the toilet...
and it reminded mi abt the movie white chicks where that guy was doing business in the ttoilet
haha
so funny lor
den 12.15 like tt,
germaine, karen and hui mei reached my hse
den we started working on our project
finished everything at abt 6pm
finally!
and now...
online
chatting with mL and SaRz
miss them like hell
wonder whens our next gathering
cant waait for the exams to be over!!!!
Friday, October 08, 2004
its a long day today...
sch start at 10am...
sianed
but luckily it ended early today
den waited for xin for like 45 mins @ dover mrt platform
den we proceed to bugis to meet the rest...
den xin start to shop for her formal wear while waiting for ah ma, jia min, botak, yunsheng and weitai.
den the blue formal wear she want is out of stock for most of the stalls...
ohh..~~ that means she have to get the expensive one...haha.
den we go seiyu's arcade...its cheap...one token 50cents...
den when all peeps reach le...we went opp. parco de thai restaurant have dinner....10 person altogether
yeah~~~i love this kind of gatherings...miss all of them loads...
den ordered thai fried noodle...quite nice abit saltish though...
den xin treat us $50 off our total bill.
in the end, we only need to pay like $2.50 each
haha
den we were busying chatting and taking pix.
erm...chun hui and ah ma ordered thai style popiah
i tell u...its.....
wat i can say is this is the worst popiah that ive tasted
its popiah skin is cold cold de
den inside dunno wrap out...
the vege taste very strong...
i puke everything out immediately
cannot ta han
but wei tai, ah ma and chun hui swallowed it all down
ong~~ how did they do that? i really dunno
but by looking at their expression...u know it really taste awful!!!
haiz...today is xin de b day...
and she said she enjoyed it very much...
haha...gd for her
at least she enjoyed her once a life time 17th b day.
tml germaine they all coming my hse do project...
projects projects and projects and nth else....
sch start at 10am...
sianed
but luckily it ended early today
den waited for xin for like 45 mins @ dover mrt platform
den we proceed to bugis to meet the rest...
den xin start to shop for her formal wear while waiting for ah ma, jia min, botak, yunsheng and weitai.
den the blue formal wear she want is out of stock for most of the stalls...
ohh..~~ that means she have to get the expensive one...haha.
den we go seiyu's arcade...its cheap...one token 50cents...
den when all peeps reach le...we went opp. parco de thai restaurant have dinner....10 person altogether
yeah~~~i love this kind of gatherings...miss all of them loads...
den ordered thai fried noodle...quite nice abit saltish though...
den xin treat us $50 off our total bill.
in the end, we only need to pay like $2.50 each
haha
den we were busying chatting and taking pix.
erm...chun hui and ah ma ordered thai style popiah
i tell u...its.....
wat i can say is this is the worst popiah that ive tasted
its popiah skin is cold cold de
den inside dunno wrap out...
the vege taste very strong...
i puke everything out immediately
cannot ta han
but wei tai, ah ma and chun hui swallowed it all down
ong~~ how did they do that? i really dunno
but by looking at their expression...u know it really taste awful!!!
haiz...today is xin de b day...
and she said she enjoyed it very much...
haha...gd for her
at least she enjoyed her once a life time 17th b day.
tml germaine they all coming my hse do project...
projects projects and projects and nth else....
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
haiz....
finished up my IDEA business proposal today at sch
cos we got 3 hrs break in between
ECONS had been postphoned to friday morning
which is to say
i have to go sch early on fri...
sianz
pon my MOB tutorial again
yesh...AGAIN
okok...pple out there
stop naggin mi
cos next wk is the last week for lectures and tutorials
and if ur attendance is less den 75%
u wun have any grade for ur exams...
and since my attendance is still more den 75%
den i pon lor....
haha
den dun feel like going home early
so i go orchard walk walk shop shop ALONE
yesh!!! ALONE
surprised?
always tot tat shopping alone is boring
well
indeed.
its boring
but guess wat?
bought high heels at OG orchard....
yesh
finally found heels that fits mi....
conclusion for today :
1) my feet dun suck any more....heheZ
finished up my IDEA business proposal today at sch
cos we got 3 hrs break in between
ECONS had been postphoned to friday morning
which is to say
i have to go sch early on fri...
sianz
pon my MOB tutorial again
yesh...AGAIN
okok...pple out there
stop naggin mi
cos next wk is the last week for lectures and tutorials
and if ur attendance is less den 75%
u wun have any grade for ur exams...
and since my attendance is still more den 75%
den i pon lor....
haha
den dun feel like going home early
so i go orchard walk walk shop shop ALONE
yesh!!! ALONE
surprised?
always tot tat shopping alone is boring
well
indeed.
its boring
but guess wat?
bought high heels at OG orchard....
yesh
finally found heels that fits mi....
conclusion for today :
1) my feet dun suck any more....heheZ
Monday, October 04, 2004
Sunday, October 03, 2004
went bugis and suntec to shop with germaine and karen
ok...
was sad and dissapointed
cos my feet juz wun fit into any of the high heels shoe
i hate my feet
argh...
anyone got any shop to recommend me mah?
ok...did a sinful thing today
dad call mi to book movie tix on line
they wanna watch a new police story
as i was in a rush
i juz book for them without checkly very clearly lor
den when they reached tampines mall de cinema to collect the tix,
the girl at the counter told them that we actually booked the tix for the movie at GREAT WORLD CITY lor...
omg~~ im so sorry....
haha
but in the end, golden villiage agreed to let them change the venue...
juz that they have to sit the first row cos they seats liao...
haha
feel so sorry
cos them to have aching neck for that 2 hrs show...
after tt, dad drive us go siglap de cafe cartel to have lunch
and we sat at the table that we (amanda, jiamin,xin hui, chun hui, yuni,weitai,changyi) sat when i gave them birthday treat last yr...
haha
haiz....
the 2 conclusion for today is....
1) my feet sux
2) im getting fatter
ok...
was sad and dissapointed
cos my feet juz wun fit into any of the high heels shoe
i hate my feet
argh...
anyone got any shop to recommend me mah?
ok...did a sinful thing today
dad call mi to book movie tix on line
they wanna watch a new police story
as i was in a rush
i juz book for them without checkly very clearly lor
den when they reached tampines mall de cinema to collect the tix,
the girl at the counter told them that we actually booked the tix for the movie at GREAT WORLD CITY lor...
omg~~ im so sorry....
haha
but in the end, golden villiage agreed to let them change the venue...
juz that they have to sit the first row cos they seats liao...
haha
feel so sorry
cos them to have aching neck for that 2 hrs show...
after tt, dad drive us go siglap de cafe cartel to have lunch
and we sat at the table that we (amanda, jiamin,xin hui, chun hui, yuni,weitai,changyi) sat when i gave them birthday treat last yr...
haha
haiz....
the 2 conclusion for today is....
1) my feet sux
2) im getting fatter
Saturday, October 02, 2004
haiz...tiring...saddening
didnt really slp and rest well this week
cos of test, projects and everything
and u can c pimples start popping up again
sianz
ok...today go school take my Accounts CA2...
guess...this paper shall be the first test i failed in singapore poly
3 cheers for mi....
haiz...
once i fliped open the paper
my mind go blank
i didnt know wats the question is abt
i totally cant recall the format for doing profit and lost account
den i think i closed my eyes for abt 5 min....
den tried to squeeze smth out of my mind
shittening rite
i know i'll fail for sure
but i really hope that i wun get the lowest in class...
but i think its difficult
cos everyone was like so confident with themselves
den after that went ang mo kio to do my IDEA project...came out with the sales forcast for our scent sling file bag....
and...all i can c is $$ rolling in
haha
den after that, mi, germaine, karen and hui xian go meet rony to catch a movie
watch the new police story
nice
funny
hilarious
sad
touched
haha
all these mixed emotions
always tot the cheng long shows are boring
but this is ok la...the plot not bad
muz watch ok?
ok...erm....tok abt a few days b4
on friday, meet wen and ling for dinner at kfc tampines
supposed to meet wen at 5pm at dover mrt
but my class released at 4.10
and wen is being released at abt 5.10 like tt
den i was like waiting alone her wenna for abt 1 hour?
*yawn* but nvm its not her fault
den meet ling at tampines mrt cntrl...
den we go eat lor
eat le i go bata wanna buy the high heels de
but tm de bata dun have i want de pattern
saddening
should have bought at parkway tt day
sigh...
den we go hm lor
gave them a hug b4 we go on separate ways
and they keep apologising to mi
cos they say they were not there for mi when i need them
ok...this is wat i wanna tell mL....physical existence is impt....but wats more important is that i have u in my heart and u have mi u ur heart too...its not ur fault not to be there for mi cos i know time is always not at our side as in we have different time schedule tat makes it hard for us to mi...as long as u spent at least 1 min a day thinking of mi and i'll be contented!!! really...cos i make an effort to think of u guy at least 1 minute a day no matter how tired i may be...so.... smile more...
and ya...wen....u better take care urself more
say i dunno how to take care myself
but looks who toking
u are the one who is sick now lor...
take more vit. C and drink more H2O lor
sick is no fun and yet is are always sick....
haha
anyways,rest well kayZ?
didnt really slp and rest well this week
cos of test, projects and everything
and u can c pimples start popping up again
sianz
ok...today go school take my Accounts CA2...
guess...this paper shall be the first test i failed in singapore poly
3 cheers for mi....
haiz...
once i fliped open the paper
my mind go blank
i didnt know wats the question is abt
i totally cant recall the format for doing profit and lost account
den i think i closed my eyes for abt 5 min....
den tried to squeeze smth out of my mind
shittening rite
i know i'll fail for sure
but i really hope that i wun get the lowest in class...
but i think its difficult
cos everyone was like so confident with themselves
den after that went ang mo kio to do my IDEA project...came out with the sales forcast for our scent sling file bag....
and...all i can c is $$ rolling in
haha
den after that, mi, germaine, karen and hui xian go meet rony to catch a movie
watch the new police story
nice
funny
hilarious
sad
touched
haha
all these mixed emotions
always tot the cheng long shows are boring
but this is ok la...the plot not bad
muz watch ok?
ok...erm....tok abt a few days b4
on friday, meet wen and ling for dinner at kfc tampines
supposed to meet wen at 5pm at dover mrt
but my class released at 4.10
and wen is being released at abt 5.10 like tt
den i was like waiting alone her wenna for abt 1 hour?
*yawn* but nvm its not her fault
den meet ling at tampines mrt cntrl...
den we go eat lor
eat le i go bata wanna buy the high heels de
but tm de bata dun have i want de pattern
saddening
should have bought at parkway tt day
sigh...
den we go hm lor
gave them a hug b4 we go on separate ways
and they keep apologising to mi
cos they say they were not there for mi when i need them
ok...this is wat i wanna tell mL....physical existence is impt....but wats more important is that i have u in my heart and u have mi u ur heart too...its not ur fault not to be there for mi cos i know time is always not at our side as in we have different time schedule tat makes it hard for us to mi...as long as u spent at least 1 min a day thinking of mi and i'll be contented!!! really...cos i make an effort to think of u guy at least 1 minute a day no matter how tired i may be...so.... smile more...
and ya...wen....u better take care urself more
say i dunno how to take care myself
but looks who toking
u are the one who is sick now lor...
take more vit. C and drink more H2O lor
sick is no fun and yet is are always sick....
haha
anyways,rest well kayZ?
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
ok....i cannot deny the fact that im 17 now.
dunno whether to be happy or sad.
had the normal routine today at sch
den received xin hui prezzie and my project group presents.
alright, xin hui gave mi a cushion.
the cover sheet of the cushion is actually a plain 1
but she very sweet lor
stitch some wordings on it
so touched...
ok...the feeling is like i dunno how to say lor
its too difficult to write down here
on the overall, i juz felt touch and happy to have a sweet fren like her lor.
:) thankyou xin hui...u should know how much u mean to mi ok?
den my project group gave mi a set of accessories. necklace, ear rings, and bracelet.
thank you them oso.
receive my b day greetings from my frens too...the surprising thing is...the 1st sms received was from mandy!!!! haha....she is not the slow and blur mandy anymore....haiz...anyways...miss her!
den after lesson went singapore post de this fashion buy my skirt for presentation.
after that went parkway
the heels at bata is really cheap lor...its less than $10. should have get it today.
den amanda, jia min, chun hui and teck chaite suddenly appear in front of mi and they gave mi a shocked lor.
but im really happy to c them
cos i missed them lor
den we go sit sit tok tok....
den saw geng ya
den amanda and jia bought 2 slices of cake from break tok to celebrate my b day.
but i stop them from doing so
cos i dun intend to hear any b day songs or blow off any candles...
but they insisted.
then tears juz flow
cos it really remind mi of how sad i am today
i know i shouldnt be sad
but there is no really for mi to be happy.
i juz know that....birthday doesnt really matter to mi now...its who im with...
and u know wat....2 yrs back...i still got my pet dog jackie to celebrate my b day with mi as we share the same b day
but this yr....he is not with mi...i could still vividly remember the different ways he tried juz to eat the b day cake....and those 'stunts' he performed cause mi to roll on the floor, laughing hard...haha...but where is he now? i dun know....haiz
i know i kinda spoil the mood today when amanda they all came speciallydown juz to help mi celebrate my b day....i really appreciated it very very much...as u all let mi feel that at least im not alone...but i juz feel like crying...forgive mi kay?
although i promised xin not to cry alone on my way home....i juz cant stop tears from flowing down in the bus...haha...memories of the past juz keep flashing...the condition of my grandma....haiz...but i felt better...although some pple in the bus treated mi and looked at mi like im a monster or smth like tt....
reached my ah ma hse late for dinner.....
den went home.
mum returned home with apple strudel to celebrate although i tell her not to get anything back....haiz
so had to hear them sing b day song and blow off the candle flame....
in the end, i still have to be 17 yr old...
but uknow wat...i feel like a pig now
am growing fatter day by day
cos i've got b day cake in my hse, moon cakes, ice cream moon cake and apple strudel...
omg~~~ wat m i going to do with them??!!!!
oh no....muz start exercising liao.....
haiz...although i dun wish to be 17, i still wanna make 3 wishes and hope that they will come true
1)my frens and family members to be happy always
2) to slim down
3) *secret*
tata....gona face the new 17 yr old mi =)
dunno whether to be happy or sad.
had the normal routine today at sch
den received xin hui prezzie and my project group presents.
alright, xin hui gave mi a cushion.
the cover sheet of the cushion is actually a plain 1
but she very sweet lor
stitch some wordings on it
so touched...
ok...the feeling is like i dunno how to say lor
its too difficult to write down here
on the overall, i juz felt touch and happy to have a sweet fren like her lor.
:) thankyou xin hui...u should know how much u mean to mi ok?
den my project group gave mi a set of accessories. necklace, ear rings, and bracelet.
thank you them oso.
receive my b day greetings from my frens too...the surprising thing is...the 1st sms received was from mandy!!!! haha....she is not the slow and blur mandy anymore....haiz...anyways...miss her!
den after lesson went singapore post de this fashion buy my skirt for presentation.
after that went parkway
the heels at bata is really cheap lor...its less than $10. should have get it today.
den amanda, jia min, chun hui and teck chaite suddenly appear in front of mi and they gave mi a shocked lor.
but im really happy to c them
cos i missed them lor
den we go sit sit tok tok....
den saw geng ya
den amanda and jia bought 2 slices of cake from break tok to celebrate my b day.
but i stop them from doing so
cos i dun intend to hear any b day songs or blow off any candles...
but they insisted.
then tears juz flow
cos it really remind mi of how sad i am today
i know i shouldnt be sad
but there is no really for mi to be happy.
i juz know that....birthday doesnt really matter to mi now...its who im with...
and u know wat....2 yrs back...i still got my pet dog jackie to celebrate my b day with mi as we share the same b day
but this yr....he is not with mi...i could still vividly remember the different ways he tried juz to eat the b day cake....and those 'stunts' he performed cause mi to roll on the floor, laughing hard...haha...but where is he now? i dun know....haiz
i know i kinda spoil the mood today when amanda they all came speciallydown juz to help mi celebrate my b day....i really appreciated it very very much...as u all let mi feel that at least im not alone...but i juz feel like crying...forgive mi kay?
although i promised xin not to cry alone on my way home....i juz cant stop tears from flowing down in the bus...haha...memories of the past juz keep flashing...the condition of my grandma....haiz...but i felt better...although some pple in the bus treated mi and looked at mi like im a monster or smth like tt....
reached my ah ma hse late for dinner.....
den went home.
mum returned home with apple strudel to celebrate although i tell her not to get anything back....haiz
so had to hear them sing b day song and blow off the candle flame....
in the end, i still have to be 17 yr old...
but uknow wat...i feel like a pig now
am growing fatter day by day
cos i've got b day cake in my hse, moon cakes, ice cream moon cake and apple strudel...
omg~~~ wat m i going to do with them??!!!!
oh no....muz start exercising liao.....
haiz...although i dun wish to be 17, i still wanna make 3 wishes and hope that they will come true
1)my frens and family members to be happy always
2) to slim down
3) *secret*
tata....gona face the new 17 yr old mi =)
Monday, September 27, 2004
ok...i dunno how im feeling now...
2 hours more to 17 yrs old...
but u know wat
i dun want to be 17 yrs old...
i hate 17 yrs old
i dun feel like celebrating my b day
or should i rather say
i dun want to be 17 rs old
i still want to be the 16 yr old mi
the 16 yr old days
when we are still worried over our o lvl
when we were mugging for exams in sch till evening
when i could juz c my close frens everyday
when all the sweet memories, happy memories, unhappy events took place
but why
why?
days pass so fast
soon i'll be 17, where 16 will nv occur again
where the memories will juz be memories
where meeting my frens will like have to wait for 3 to 4 mths to meet each other again?
haiz...
last time, whenever i'm low, frens will be there and i know i can always depend on them
now, although i have frens all over singapore, north, south, east, west....but where are they when i really nid them? when i need a crying shoulder....when i miss them?
i know they are always there for mi mentally...but i need them physically.
i really dunno how are they...how their live have been...wat happen to them recently...haiz...and...and...being 17 means i have to learn to be independent....and...and...i juz dun wat to b 17.....
and its a sad yr for mi to be 17 this yr...y muz something terrible happen to my grandma at september? i know im bad...but its 1 of the factor contributing to the sad-ed mood.
yesterday i go vist her, her wound is bleeding
today, my mum told mi she is running a fever.
after hearing all this, do u still want to celebrate ur b day?
haiz....
ok....i dunno...i juz feel like crying....
i juz dunno whats getting over mi...
i juz dunno what to do
i dunno wats the reason to cry for
but i juz want to cry...
guess that the samantha lim that u all know is juz a child afterall....
to my frens out there....i really miss you~~
2 hours more to 17 yrs old...
but u know wat
i dun want to be 17 yrs old...
i hate 17 yrs old
i dun feel like celebrating my b day
or should i rather say
i dun want to be 17 rs old
i still want to be the 16 yr old mi
the 16 yr old days
when we are still worried over our o lvl
when we were mugging for exams in sch till evening
when i could juz c my close frens everyday
when all the sweet memories, happy memories, unhappy events took place
but why
why?
days pass so fast
soon i'll be 17, where 16 will nv occur again
where the memories will juz be memories
where meeting my frens will like have to wait for 3 to 4 mths to meet each other again?
haiz...
last time, whenever i'm low, frens will be there and i know i can always depend on them
now, although i have frens all over singapore, north, south, east, west....but where are they when i really nid them? when i need a crying shoulder....when i miss them?
i know they are always there for mi mentally...but i need them physically.
i really dunno how are they...how their live have been...wat happen to them recently...haiz...and...and...being 17 means i have to learn to be independent....and...and...i juz dun wat to b 17.....
and its a sad yr for mi to be 17 this yr...y muz something terrible happen to my grandma at september? i know im bad...but its 1 of the factor contributing to the sad-ed mood.
yesterday i go vist her, her wound is bleeding
today, my mum told mi she is running a fever.
after hearing all this, do u still want to celebrate ur b day?
haiz....
ok....i dunno...i juz feel like crying....
i juz dunno whats getting over mi...
i juz dunno what to do
i dunno wats the reason to cry for
but i juz want to cry...
guess that the samantha lim that u all know is juz a child afterall....
to my frens out there....i really miss you~~
:: Do you cry often: ya...
:: Do you often cry in front of people or alone: depends...but i prefer to cry alone
:: Have your friends ever seen you cry: yupz
:: Have you cried today: no...but feel like crying now
:: Do you usually cry for a long time:sometimes...cos it really feel good to cry out loud!
:: Do you get really red when you cry: ya...eyes and nose will become red and this make it so obvious that i've cried!
:: Have you ever cried because you were happy: yupz
:: Have you ever been someone's cryingshoulder? maybe yes...maybe no...if yes, i may forget le lor
:: Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying: i think yes ba...a person crying may need someone to comfort and console them
:: Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on: ya...but not now lor..
:: Have you been hugged when you cried: i think so
:: Do you cry during sad movies: ya...am a emotional person u c
:: Do you cry while reading books: no...its not so real...i will juz feel very very very touched thats all
:: Does music make you cry: yes...especially and im in a very bad mood or recalling something sad
:: Have you ever been called a cry baby: yes...when i was young, by my parents
:: Have you ever tried to stop yourself fromcrying: of cos...but its difficult to control...tears will juz eventually stream down
:: Have you ever cried in front of a teacher: yup...mr naufal...the very 1st teacher who touched mi
:: Does this survey make you want to cry?: erm...no...but it makes mi think of the happy and unhappy past which i miss very much
:: Have you ever cried over a guy/girl: ya...
:: Do you cry when you are physically hurt: erm depends...but when im really in pain, i cant control
:: Do you cry when you are scared: ya
:: Do you cry when you are mad: ya...thats wat i'll do when im really angry
:: Do you cry over bad grades?: yupz...especially those i really out in effort to study
:: Have you ever cried over spilled milk: erm...forget liao...maybe ba
:: Can you make yourself cry: haha...ya...im emotional...can cry for nth 1
:: When was the last time you cried: erm...forget liao
:: Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else: yes
:: Do you have a favorite crying quote: yes...cry out loud!!! u'll feel better
:: Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn't cry for you: yes...crush..infatuation and whatsoever
:: Do you ever cry on anniversaries of things?: erm...no at a moment
:: Do you cry over someone you love becoz they have a gf/bf? erm...no comments
::When was the last time u felt loved and u cried? erm......forget when liao
::Who is the person you always cry for? : myself? erm cos i tend to think too much
:: Will you cry because this survey is over: u muz be crazy
:: Do you often cry in front of people or alone: depends...but i prefer to cry alone
:: Have your friends ever seen you cry: yupz
:: Have you cried today: no...but feel like crying now
:: Do you usually cry for a long time:sometimes...cos it really feel good to cry out loud!
:: Do you get really red when you cry: ya...eyes and nose will become red and this make it so obvious that i've cried!
:: Have you ever cried because you were happy: yupz
:: Have you ever been someone's cryingshoulder? maybe yes...maybe no...if yes, i may forget le lor
:: Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying: i think yes ba...a person crying may need someone to comfort and console them
:: Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on: ya...but not now lor..
:: Have you been hugged when you cried: i think so
:: Do you cry during sad movies: ya...am a emotional person u c
:: Do you cry while reading books: no...its not so real...i will juz feel very very very touched thats all
:: Does music make you cry: yes...especially and im in a very bad mood or recalling something sad
:: Have you ever been called a cry baby: yes...when i was young, by my parents
:: Have you ever tried to stop yourself fromcrying: of cos...but its difficult to control...tears will juz eventually stream down
:: Have you ever cried in front of a teacher: yup...mr naufal...the very 1st teacher who touched mi
:: Does this survey make you want to cry?: erm...no...but it makes mi think of the happy and unhappy past which i miss very much
:: Have you ever cried over a guy/girl: ya...
:: Do you cry when you are physically hurt: erm depends...but when im really in pain, i cant control
:: Do you cry when you are scared: ya
:: Do you cry when you are mad: ya...thats wat i'll do when im really angry
:: Do you cry over bad grades?: yupz...especially those i really out in effort to study
:: Have you ever cried over spilled milk: erm...forget liao...maybe ba
:: Can you make yourself cry: haha...ya...im emotional...can cry for nth 1
:: When was the last time you cried: erm...forget liao
:: Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else: yes
:: Do you have a favorite crying quote: yes...cry out loud!!! u'll feel better
:: Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn't cry for you: yes...crush..infatuation and whatsoever
:: Do you ever cry on anniversaries of things?: erm...no at a moment
:: Do you cry over someone you love becoz they have a gf/bf? erm...no comments
::When was the last time u felt loved and u cried? erm......forget when liao
::Who is the person you always cry for? : myself? erm cos i tend to think too much
:: Will you cry because this survey is over: u muz be crazy
Sunday, September 26, 2004
ok...am back from my grandma home.
her wound is bleeding lor...
haiz
c her so pain, my heart oso very pain.
go parkway de crystal jade for dinner
den my uncle treat mi swensens ice cream mooncake and bengawan solo de banana and greentea snow skin moon cake as my b day present.
thank you uncle...
after that den go grandma hse lor.
she gave mi $100 ang pao as b day gift.
and...i said thank you lor....wat else could i do?
cant give her a hug cos i'll hurt her
haiz....
its a sad b day to go this yr...
a sad 17 b day
sad-ed
her wound is bleeding lor...
haiz
c her so pain, my heart oso very pain.
go parkway de crystal jade for dinner
den my uncle treat mi swensens ice cream mooncake and bengawan solo de banana and greentea snow skin moon cake as my b day present.
thank you uncle...
after that den go grandma hse lor.
she gave mi $100 ang pao as b day gift.
and...i said thank you lor....wat else could i do?
cant give her a hug cos i'll hurt her
haiz....
its a sad b day to go this yr...
a sad 17 b day
sad-ed
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Monday, September 20, 2004
juz came back from General Hospital
the walk from outram mrt to the hospital is far can...
haiz
after that went to the ward visit my grandma...
she looks weak....
haiz...
den she oso very sad although she nv express out...
she showed us her bandaged chest...
and she said : "c...1 big 1 small now" den tear roll down from the side of her eyes.
ok...
dunno what to say
having a mixed feelings now...
cos i feel that, breast to a female, give us an identity proving that we are women.
how would u feel if 1 side of ur breast, which u have had since the start of puberty, is gone within the few hours of operation and not having it back again?
weird isn't it?
for mi, i dun feel weird
but i will feel humiliated...
and i dun know if i still consider myself as a woman or not.
haiz...
but health is the most impt thing...
having lost the 1 side of her breast to save her life is worth it.
and i saw how my grandpa took care of my grandma...
i was like so touched with every actions of my grandpa and envy my grandma so much.
they were so loving...and i was like a light bulb that shining at dunno how many volts lor.
haha.
my grandma is so lucky and xin fu...
cos she have grandpa by her side, taking care of her....tending to her every needs.
this scene makes mi wonder how will i be when im old...
haha
and thx my frens who sent mi sms, encouring mi to be strong and assuring mi that everything will turn out fine. thx ya....wenna, li ling, amanda....
not forgetting clarissa, shun wei and jia min
so sorry that i make u all worried for mi
will take care of myself de...
i promise..
and frens...1 more week to my bday
dun forget hor!
haha...
muz go study for my econs cos having mock test tml!!!!
stressed!!!!
the walk from outram mrt to the hospital is far can...
haiz
after that went to the ward visit my grandma...
she looks weak....
haiz...
den she oso very sad although she nv express out...
she showed us her bandaged chest...
and she said : "c...1 big 1 small now" den tear roll down from the side of her eyes.
ok...
dunno what to say
having a mixed feelings now...
cos i feel that, breast to a female, give us an identity proving that we are women.
how would u feel if 1 side of ur breast, which u have had since the start of puberty, is gone within the few hours of operation and not having it back again?
weird isn't it?
for mi, i dun feel weird
but i will feel humiliated...
and i dun know if i still consider myself as a woman or not.
haiz...
but health is the most impt thing...
having lost the 1 side of her breast to save her life is worth it.
and i saw how my grandpa took care of my grandma...
i was like so touched with every actions of my grandpa and envy my grandma so much.
they were so loving...and i was like a light bulb that shining at dunno how many volts lor.
haha.
my grandma is so lucky and xin fu...
cos she have grandpa by her side, taking care of her....tending to her every needs.
this scene makes mi wonder how will i be when im old...
haha
and thx my frens who sent mi sms, encouring mi to be strong and assuring mi that everything will turn out fine. thx ya....wenna, li ling, amanda....
not forgetting clarissa, shun wei and jia min
so sorry that i make u all worried for mi
will take care of myself de...
i promise..
and frens...1 more week to my bday
dun forget hor!
haha...
muz go study for my econs cos having mock test tml!!!!
stressed!!!!
Sunday, September 19, 2004
ok....today went to have lunch with my grandma b4 entering the hospital...
and she was like keeping taking those dishes to my plate of rice
den keep saying "eat more...u big liao...want to eat anything juz take urself"
haiz...
i dunno wat to say...i juz nod my head and say thank you.
after that go admin her to General Hospital.
den pei her awhile b4 we go home.
den my grandma c us off outside the lift.
i have the urge to hug her b4 i go but i didnt
and now i miss her hug....
i could c her trying to hold back her tears while
saying bye bye to us....
i was holding mine back too
i dun want to start the atmosphere to let the rest of my family members cry...
haiz...
den at night mt parents go hospital again to accompany her eat dinner
den my father said...when they were abt to leave, my uncle start crying
followed by my mum
followed by my grandpa
den my grandma...
heart-wrentching scence.
lucky i was not there
cos i can cry now by juz imagining the situation
not to say if i was there.
and...and...my tears are rolling down now...cos i start to miss my grandma already...
i've nv ever in my life miss her so much...
i wonder how is she doing
is the bed comfortable for her
is she lonely cos she is left alone in the hospital w/o television
is she scared of the operation tommorow or not...
haiz...i dunno wat to say...
will visit her tml after my jap lesson...
and oh ya...today is mandy de b day
wish her happy b day.
and she was like keeping taking those dishes to my plate of rice
den keep saying "eat more...u big liao...want to eat anything juz take urself"
haiz...
i dunno wat to say...i juz nod my head and say thank you.
after that go admin her to General Hospital.
den pei her awhile b4 we go home.
den my grandma c us off outside the lift.
i have the urge to hug her b4 i go but i didnt
and now i miss her hug....
i could c her trying to hold back her tears while
saying bye bye to us....
i was holding mine back too
i dun want to start the atmosphere to let the rest of my family members cry...
haiz...
den at night mt parents go hospital again to accompany her eat dinner
den my father said...when they were abt to leave, my uncle start crying
followed by my mum
followed by my grandpa
den my grandma...
heart-wrentching scence.
lucky i was not there
cos i can cry now by juz imagining the situation
not to say if i was there.
and...and...my tears are rolling down now...cos i start to miss my grandma already...
i've nv ever in my life miss her so much...
i wonder how is she doing
is the bed comfortable for her
is she lonely cos she is left alone in the hospital w/o television
is she scared of the operation tommorow or not...
haiz...i dunno wat to say...
will visit her tml after my jap lesson...
and oh ya...today is mandy de b day
wish her happy b day.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
went tampines mall today to look see those formal clothings for my presentation.
but 1 from metro @ $9.90
its cheap lor...
but dunno acceptable or not.
after that go my grandmother hse (father's mum) to have dinner
long time didnt go and have dinner there eversince the start of work...
and when they see my enter their hse
they were like so surprised and happy to c mi....
actually...to make them happi is simple after all...
juz go and visit them, smile, tok and laugh with them will do...
simple things like this, no one seems to understand
and when everything is too late, its juz too late.
after that, went to my grandma (mum's mum) hse to visit her
and i ask her how was she feeling,
she say not good...
haiz
she's going for her operation this coming monday....
*prays hard*
but 1 from metro @ $9.90
its cheap lor...
but dunno acceptable or not.
after that go my grandmother hse (father's mum) to have dinner
long time didnt go and have dinner there eversince the start of work...
and when they see my enter their hse
they were like so surprised and happy to c mi....
actually...to make them happi is simple after all...
juz go and visit them, smile, tok and laugh with them will do...
simple things like this, no one seems to understand
and when everything is too late, its juz too late.
after that, went to my grandma (mum's mum) hse to visit her
and i ask her how was she feeling,
she say not good...
haiz
she's going for her operation this coming monday....
*prays hard*
Friday, September 17, 2004
wats the time now....
haha
its 2:38AM in the morning and im still here
doing this lame effective communication project.
tired can...
ya...guess my mum had been crying silently at night in bed
cos when i went into her rooms juz now,
she was crying again
sigh...
wat can i do?
i can't comfort her
or should i say i dunno how to...
wat a stupid daughter....
when im down, at least got my frens there to cheer mi up...
but my mum was like suffering alone in silence...
haiz...
when can this types of days end?
i really tired...
but i can't slp b4 finishing my project.
dun be surprised too much if u c mi really shagged with 10 rings under my eyes...
haha
its 2:38AM in the morning and im still here
doing this lame effective communication project.
tired can...
ya...guess my mum had been crying silently at night in bed
cos when i went into her rooms juz now,
she was crying again
sigh...
wat can i do?
i can't comfort her
or should i say i dunno how to...
wat a stupid daughter....
when im down, at least got my frens there to cheer mi up...
but my mum was like suffering alone in silence...
haiz...
when can this types of days end?
i really tired...
but i can't slp b4 finishing my project.
dun be surprised too much if u c mi really shagged with 10 rings under my eyes...
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
| sad....
really sad.... dunno what should i do now.... cancer...wat a nice name.... but a painful sickness.... use to watch them on tv...but i didnt expect that it will happen to someone so dear to mi. ya...my grandma....the result came out... its breast cancer....malignant de... im so scare now. when i got home from work yesterday night... my mum was like in her room crying... u know how i feel mah... its like...to mi, my mum is really a strong person... someone who can protect mi, punish mi, shelther mi thru rain and storms... but...she broke down...really broke down in front of us im speechless... dunno wat to say...dunno how to comfort....helpless... all i could do was to watch her cry... upon hearing the news...i couldnt react. i juz felt my heart go numb...i felt cold and i start to shiver a little but i did not cry...i tried not to cry...i cannot cry...i dunno...tears juz didnt manage to drop. having wild tots...no no no...nothing muz happen to my grandma... although everybody on this earth have to leave this yr someday... but....i really hope everyone ard mi can die peacefully and 'easily' as in not suffer pain before they leave this world... i couldnt slp properly last night...and my mind was like blank this morning in school i dun feel like saying anything dun feel like eating dun feel like doing everything. i juz want to stare into the space... haiz... but...i can never do this... lots more project is going to due. test test and tests im now really stressed! i really dunno wat i can do within this limited time period i feel like giving up giving up on my studies giving up on my projects and giving up on myself. and today....another person was killed by the train at bishan... who knows i might be the next one...? but i know i'm sensible enuff not to be so silly. but when things really drive mi crazy.... i think i wun know ' sensible ' this word. haha im mad really mad. told amanda's mum that i cant continue to work as a promoter. i felt so bad. its like im so irresponsible. but...i really dunno wat will happen to mi if i continue to work. she asked mi y... and i told her its becos of my grandma... and guess wat... my tears finally drop.... infront of her... but i really felt better after crying.... and i feel like crying one more time... acting strong juz wasnt mi not mi arn't mi isn't mi haiz... bought the samsung mp3 today. they give mi the new stock. lucky if not i have to take the display set cos they are selling real cheap and there are no more stock left. this is my b day present from xin hui and gang cos they sponsor mi $100 and the rest i pay...which was abt $120 but didnt have the mood to explore it now.... maybe other time when i m free.... thank kew them...lurve them think im not going to do my tutorial...juz tell my tutor i didnt do. have to rush thru my effective communication proposal its due on friday but i only done like 20%? haiz....my english suck....thats y i suck |
Monday, September 13, 2004
| tired...
really tired... really regret regret to work.... always tot its very simple... always think that yr 1 only.... halfway work half way study wun die... but im wrong... utterly wrong... look at the situation i m now... i can only sigh really hope that i can quit now... but pple will thik that im very irresponsible... i dunno how to organise my time... feel like im on the verge of breaking down... i hate myself... i hate time cos it is running way too fast for mi to catch up... i hate work...cos its taking too much of my time... test is coming up and i haven even touch my books and start to revise.... when i reach home from work....tired until cant study le... haiz.... money is impt....time is more impt... samantha...u juz have to put up with all this for 2 more weeks.... *hope that they will have 1 more promoter coming in to lessen my burden* ^sobz^ |
Friday, September 10, 2004
was back from fairytale to reality.
my fairytale is that i can actually stay out late and return home 15 min b4 1am.
but u guess wat...im now back to reality
and the reality is...facing my mum's music
haha...
ok lah...she didnt nagged much surprisingly
she juz ask mi if i had my dinner or not
den say next time blah blah blah
haha
*phew*
ok...start of the day
went woodlands library to meet for MOB project
haha
finshed abt 80% of it le
after that went Lido cinema to meet mL+saRs
miss them like hell...hugged them
except jin and clar
den decided to watch a cinderella story...
but all tic sold out for the 7-8 pm slot de
so we decided to catch the 10pm de.
its an obstacle for mi cos im not sure whether im allowed to reach home late or not.
so i call my mum to seek permission...
and thats how the conversation go
mi : mum ar....i'll reach home late abt 12 sumthing hor.
mum : y so late?
mi : cos the show late den start mah...nvm lah hor...i love u, u love mi mah...okok?
mum : u better get home earlier! *screamS* SIAO CHA BO
*hang up the fone*
haha
funny rite?
especially the siao cha bo and the i luv u u luv mi thingy
after that went to have dinner at pasta mania
after mushroom and ham pizza and hawaiin pizza
full-filling
den took neo prints
haha
nice shots
den after that, man and wei go for hair extension
the guy is damn cocky lor...
he is the kind of guy that i hate lor...
dun wish to tok abt him
den went in for the show.
sweet
sad
but its still a fairy tale
sometimes... i really hope i can live in a fairytale
cos most of them have happi ending
but living in this uncertain reality
happi endings is like so unapproachable and unpredictable
im really mermerised by this show lor...
for a moment i feel like i am the cinderella
meeting my prince charming
dance with him at the dance floor
leaving my stuffs behind and he will start to look for mi high and low...
morever, the cinderella in this story shares the same name with mi
oh come on...
things like this only happen in fairytale
we are living in this pragmatic world...
living in sg...
haha
dream on for this type of thingss to come true...
after that,
sat clar's uncle taxi home
and he didnt charge.
clarissa, help mi thank ur uncle 1 more time hor.
on the way, mandy, clarissa and chatted abt our life now and b4
compare and constrast
which makes mi feel tired and pathetic living in this world
thinking of last time
when we get to c others everyday
we do not know how to really care and cherish
until now...den u start to miss the good old days...
y is life always like tt?
leaving with regrets here and there?
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
| *yawn* juz reach home
im so full now... juz had macdonalds for lunch cum dinner cum supper with xin hui haha we will like gobbling down the fries lor... damn hungry... den took a cab home with xin cos idragged her to take cab with mi so instead of taking mrt home frm bedok, she had to go home from tanah mehra.. but...but... wat are frens for rite? haha thx xin! luv ya! *^^* |
Monday, September 06, 2004
| juz came back from Mr Cheong's hsewhich is at admiralty...
had bbq for class outing at his condo went admiralty mrt station after work. amanda's father offer a ride so i take his ride haha. thx amanda's father den xinhui had to take over my place to promote mooncakes wonder how did she fare cos she seems like very nervous. haha den when i reach there, we start to barbeque lor but my job is very simple. juz eat. so i eat and eat and eat but i only eat 1 chicken wing cos its very sweet they put lots of honey den i eat lots of nuggets, crab sticks and hot dog... which make mi damn full after that go to the condo games rooms to play pool... 1st time in my life to to hole a long stick but i sucks at it tough make until my hand and neck ached and worst is i cannot aim properly.... wonder how saturday pool session gonna be haha thx for class rep (tobbie) guidiance on how to hold the stick anyway although i think i still haven got the correct way of handling it after that took bus 969 to tampines which is abt 40 mins ride den take bus 10 hm. keep taking bus this few days and the $$ in my card is decreasing at an increasing rate, haizZ |
Sunday, September 05, 2004
| haha....felt that i haven blog for years.
not i dunwan to blog but is cos of i too tired to blog. have been working lately. den stand for long hours. once i reach home, i will automatically go bath and den go straight to bed. guess...thats the price i of earning extra cash for the stuffs i want tomorrow school holiday liao. will be having bbq for class outing at my tutor's hse. muz travel back to woodlands again very sian can? although singapore is small part travel from the east to somewhere north west is very long... transport fee also not cheap. but im looking forward to thursday cos im gonna watch a cinderella story oh ya... forgot to mentioned that i saw miss ivy koh today she's my english teacher during my sec 2 days. and she was good. she bought two mooncakes from mi... chatted quite abit. she quit her teaching job to join the law-firm and she says the difference is that she dun nid to scold students anymore. and i saw my primary school vice -principal i also saw my primary sch good buddy-- choon teck haha and...and....i hereby declare that my beloved calculator that i have used for 4 yrs is spoilt. *sobz* so sad lor got energy de pix on my calculator.... got my name which jia min use glass paint to write de... ~~~ feel so terrible now... as if someone close has left mi.... |
Friday, September 03, 2004
heyheywent k box again today.
have been going there now a days
n tts because i have the holiday mood now.
this gives me the reason to pon school today.
haha.
felt a little bad
cos hui mei was left alone in sch attending all lectures without us.
so sorry gal...
she was too guai le lah
say wat oso dunwan to pon
gotta make a trip down to woodlands library again tml...
sian....
train again
after tt still gotta come back to bedok and work...
life is life so like that?
money is spent so easily and earning them is so difficult...
when u want time to pass slowing...the time will like sit aeroplane like tt...pass so fast
y? y? y?
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
| sick todaystomach pain....lau sai
haha... went home half way thru lesson almost cannot make it half way thru the journey home. the pain was like making mi gonna faint anytime anywhere called bengawan solo bedok to tell them i can't make it to work today. wonder how is si ying doing. haha. felt so bad.... |
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