Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt. You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

You Are 20% Spoiled

You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have. Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.

Are You Spoiled?

You Are 20% Spoiled

You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have. Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.

Are You Spoiled?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

http://www.blogthings.com/doyoufollowyourheadoryourheartquiz/">Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

a few weeks ago....


half an hour ago....



above is my sis's master piece. I think i looked like some transexual.
omg.

to my beloved Mr. Tan:
i hope the above pictures wont scare u away.
haha


p/s: the make-up for the last picture is not real,
my sis used a program to edit it....


i really really dun feel like studying.
:(

sometimes, i really wish that there's a clone of myself out there.
with her around, i can share my thoughts with her, share my little secrets with her, discuss my decisions with her, tell her all my problems without really explaining and elaborating much.

she will be the only one who will truly understand how i feel,
understand how i think,
understand how i behave,
understand my everything,
cos, she is just another samantha lim on this earth.

she will be there to share my thoughts,
she will understand my plight.
she will never question how i derive at a decision cos we both think the same way.

we will both share the same dream,
share the same happiness
share the same sadness.

we can really do and say about anything,
without having to explain and going into details,
without having her misunderstanding me,
and without me defending myself over things that i've said.

however,
i guess, having her around wont be a great help for me,
because, we are both indecisive.
if we were to decide on smth,
we will end up looking at each other at the end of the day,
with no decisions.

haha.
i think this is a funny post.

but i really wish that theres another samantha lim xiao wei beside me now,
so she can understand the feeling im having now.

the feeling,
which i no need to say, no need to describe,
but still, she will only be the one who knows and understand.

and most importantly, accept me for who i am.

only with her around, i can be my own self.

but then....

i wont share my boyfriend with her.

this is really a funny post.

haha.

Its been a long time since i blogged isnt it?

incase u guys miss me, im fine!

Its study week now, and i'll be graduating unofficially on my last day of exam which is on the 8th Feb.

WOW.

juz struggled through the toughest period of my Year 3 life.

handed up all report on time, except for my BD financial phase, which is dragged way beyond time.

Looking back, as much as i hate the life i lead at that moment, I'm missing it now.

its like, u can only experience that when you are still a student.

no doubt, in the society, u need to meet all datelines, but the feeling is different already.

i really wanna thank Mr. John Foo, for guiding my group [which i think only consists of 2.5 person when its full strength is 5] throughout this whole year. Without him, i really dunno what will happen. haha.

Had my final presentation to the bosses of SingaFood on 15 Jan.

jy and i were the presenters.

and this time round, i didnt prepare any scripts any yet managed to present through without much problem. haha.

and this one of the food item we prepared:

the chocolate man tou.

and because i steamed extra and brought it to school for incase, and nobody wanted to eat, so i kept it in my lunch box and bring it home again on the very day.

However, as you know, Samantha Lim Xiao Wei is a lazy and forgetful girl,

once i reached home, i juz leave my lunch box in a paper bag, and i hang the paper bag on one of the chairs and totally forgot abt its existence.

1 week later, my mummy went to open the lunch box.....

and tadah~

MOULDS GROWING ON IT!

it was really gross!!!!

it really looked like theres mushroom growing on it with dirty green patches all around the surface. and worst of all, theres like spider web covering the skin which i think look abit like candy floss.

disgusting is the word.

juz only 1 week, to be precise, its 6.5days, and the man tou become like this!

eeyer!!!!!

i didnt dare to smell it even though my sister challenged me to.

my mum thought i was conducting a science experiment!

-.-

i showed my dad this "science experiment" and he hurried me to throw the whole lunch box away.

haha.

the last 2 weeks of school, we had so many presentation that i almost didnt have enough formal wear to fit myself.

my only formal skirt had to be shared for so many presentations.

but im glad its all over la.

and the greatest news is,

our mmit project (Kenwood Marketing Campaign) managed to get into the FINALS!!!!

so happy!

a little more hardwork to be put in for the finals on 2nd March.

Princesses, lets work hard for the $1000 ba!

went to sec3F/4E chalet on 13 Jan

saw alot of faces which i didnt see eversince we graduated from MJR.

those who went army, becomed so talkative~

talk and talk and talk, abt army of course.

reached there late cos i was working on my BD presentation at JY house earlier on.

and so when i reached there, i felt kinda out of place.

i certainly loved gatherings, but its like....everyone's doing their own things, so difficult to feel united again.

i left at 11pm, when xin came. haha.

my life now is like a cross road.

so bleak. so lonely. so uncertain.

haiz.

i really dunno where and what should i start from.

im 75% confident that i cannot qualify for uni,

and i have no interest in private Uni.

but den, people say, u cant go far with a diploma.

plus, my communication skills is rather weak, and therefore, a sales job wont really suit me.

and that is why the more i need a degree.

i guess, what i can do now, is to continue sending out my resume and see which company wants me ba.

when u are given with so many options and choices, life becomes complicated.

and you know, samantha doesnt like complications.

boo~~

and when im bored, i play with my phone's camera!

so fun, yet bo liao. haha!



i guess, everybody's wish is to face smth like this 1 fine day....












[to become a millionaire]

question of the day.

after listening to most of my fren's story.....

can love and trust be mutually exclusive at the same time?

im not avoiding any problems.
im just not in the right state of mood and emotions to discuss deeper into the matter.
im sad and troubled by the two ____( feel in the blanks with all the vulgarities) guys in my bd group.
one doesnt want to pick up my call or reply my sms.
one haven send his work to me regardless of my repeat reminders.
i just cant save the damn fucking teaser ad into movie format.
whats wrong with the damn original source of the pictures?
why you this damn computer make life difficult for me?!

i just feel like giving the whole of phase 3 up.
not caring if the analysis was correctly done,
not caring if the figures are correct,
not caring if its rightfully balanced,
and just hand up all the shit work.

i just feel like blasting all the vulgarities i know!
AHHH!


i shouldnt....i really shouldnt bring up this matter today.
it just caused me to be upset,
not because of you,
but because of myself, for bringing it up to u today, when i actually know that i cant handle the whole situation well.
damn myself!

i really feel so surrounded by stress and problems, that no matter how much tears was shed, i wont feel or get any better.

what a good start for year 2007.

hang on for 2 more weeks.
2 MORE WEEKS.

confession of pain.

i think its a nice show worth which worth the price of a weekday ticket.
i would rate it better than curse of the golden flower.
cos the storyline of curse of the golden flower very boring. (even though your eyes can feast on the assets of women)

after watching confession of pain...
by just looking at the title,
it sets me wondering....
is it very difficult to confess something which pains u?

whatever.
to conclude, i think, all types of confession needs courage.

Xmas 2006 celebrations.

mLsars gathering.


Weekdays gathering.

Test my balancing skill at amanda's house

haha. look at my sis retarded face. i can foresee her hammering me by posting this pic up.

didnt take any pics with class clique and dear during our christmas gathering. =(

anyways, xmas was fun and fruitful (in terms of presents) this year! im a happy girl!

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the last day of year 2006.

having the feelings of mixed emotions now, treasuring every breathe of the moment.

because, once the clock strike 12 tonight, year 2006 will nv return.



so many things happened this year.

good ones, bad ones, happy ones, sad ones.

i believe, everything happens for a reason.



looking at last year's 31st dec entry, its like so emo and sad!

couldnt remember i felt that way already.

anyway,

i didnt set any new year resolutions this year.

haha! but i think i there are still some accomplishments!



i've got my driving license.

i've slimmed down a little.

cant think of any major one already....



and oh ya.

year 2006, its the year i accepted dear into my life!



so new year resolutions for the coming new year?



hmm....



slim down more,

smooth r/s,

earn more $$$$$



think that will be all.



we shouldnt be greedy.



=)



happy new year everybody.



*back to my report. so sad. haha*

Went xin's house as early as 8.30am to trouble her for helping out with my BD accounts.
it was incredibly messy even though john foo already help me balance my year 1 figures.
Up till 12pm, we were still figuring out why the balance sheet cannot be balance.
I really dont understand how people can stand the job of being a accountant. All they do is to face dead and boring figures.

We dated Pat( our teacher!) for lunch and was waiting for her to reply xin's sms on the venue and time to meet. But Pat said she planned something special for us which leaves me and xin anticipating what is she up to.
While xin is dressing herself up, i took an artistic photo of myself.

Dont you guys think its artistic? Haha. Im in the small little purple-framed mirror.

And while xin is busy checking the accounts, i took out all her rings and tried in on my own fingers. lame right?

Finally received Pat's call and she asked as to take a cab to Regents Hotel from cityhall taxi stand. We were so puzzled by her because we were wondering why must we take a cab specifically from the taxi stand outside Robinsons.
We did as what we were told and tadah~ we reached Regents Hotel.
We were treated like VIPs and i tell you, the feeling was wonderful. (sound so sua-ku)
Then we waited for Pat at the lobby started feeling that we were underdressed for this kind of place.

Then, Pat appeared! omg. she is still as pretty. and she treated us to this English High tea set. It was so much like fine dining. It was our 1st time dining at this kinda place and environment, so Xin and me felt so stressed and tensed up as we dun really know what to do with the cutlery and stuffs, and we were pratically sitting up straight on our back for the 1st 15 minutes!

I tried their Carribean Summer and it has an orangy-fruitty taste. Smells very sweet. and whats more important is that the colour of the tea is PINK in colour. So pretty!

Xin ordered Earl Grey which i think it tasted like my perfume from Body Shop.

The tea pot and the tea cup.

Chatted while we struggled to finish the pastries. We can really talked alot! from guys to life to future to love to religion. Felt so inspiring and comfortable talking to her. Its been a long time when i have this kinda conversation already. I dunno how to describe her, she is just like our idol. there's just so much to learn from her.

We left Regents hotel at 4pm and she drove us back to Eunos. The traffic lights at eunos were all out of order! the traffic was like scary. those people having driving test at around that time must be quite unlucky ba.

But the sad thing is....we forgot to take pictures with Pat. :(

After we reached home, we headed back to our accounts. time seems to pass so fast when we are figuring out the numbers.

Supposed to leave house at 6.30 to head to parkway to meet weekdays for k box session. But by the time we finished the accounts, it was already 8pm! felt so bad as the rest had to wait for us!

Regreted not bring ear plug to Kbox because TOR TECK CHIAT was simply irritating when the microphone is with him. haha! Nevertheless, really enjoy that night even though i was feeling real tired and i had to leave at 11pm. Going to meet them up on Christmas day itself to go KUSU island!

yippee! sounds odd. but who cares?! it will also be my first time there!

ANd to Pat: if you are reading this, i wanna thank you for the treat again!
Learnt so much from you!
Like wad Xin said, we love you.

my father said:

“可以用钱解决的问题，不是问题。
用钱还解决不了的问题， 才是真正的问题。”

I HATE BD!

yeah! i passed my driving test on 7th Dec 2006! first try!

i was so nervous the night before that i couldnt sleep well,
and on the actual day,
i couldnt sit still, i could feel my heart racing every minute, and irregular breathings makes me dizzy. worst still, my hands were cold through out the day.
i swear, this driving test can be ranked the top 3 in "the scariest test" of my life.

Huixian's test was on the same day as mine except that her slot was the morning slot and mine was the afternoon one.
when she called to tell us that she passed,
i got even stress-er.
but i feel so happy for her!


and i skipped my afternoon lesson for my last session of practical lesson b4 test.
and den finally, it was time for me to warm up in my test car.
my instructor wished me good luck and he said that he will wait for my good news.
dunno why, i feel like crying liao.
den b4 warm up, i called dear and my tears jus flow! i was really NERVOUS and SCARED. its like i have to face this battle alone. a lonely and tough battle!

but anyways, the test is now over, and i finally got my driving license after spending like $2000.
now that im a qualified driver, i can drive on the road!
but before that, i still need to learn how to park without the poles that we always use in the driving centre. haha.
if not know how to drive but dunno how to park also no use.

i didnt regret registering as a student of BBDC.
the instructors were patient and the test routes were smooth! unlike the one at Ubi, with congested traffic.

and i think, praying b4 the test and eating vegetarian on ur test day helps.
cos i did that and i passed.

thanks my friends who send me encouragement messages. It help to boost my confidence level up a little.
thanks jingwei and huixian for telling me all the necessary stuffs to look out for.
thanks my parents for encouraging me.
thanks huimei for giving me her luck, which cause her to have bad luck for the rest of the day.
thanks jiayi for working so hard for BSG while i concentrate on my driving.
and lastly, thanks dear for believing in me. =)
your words, your encouragement, your everything.

.promise.

It never occur to me that promise is just and empty word to me, until yesterday, when i had a tiff with dear for breaking my promise.

Promise- something so important, so saint, so meaningful and so hopeful to him. Yet, over here, i looked upon promise so lightly and easily, that i almost didnt know what is the exact meaning of the word 'promise' anymore.

And with that, I portrayed myself as someone who is irresponsible, not trustworthy and someone who only make empty promises. Its a miracle, how he could tolerate me again and again, continue to love me and not giving me up.

On my way back home yesterday, i recaped what happened between us in the day and then reflected my ations and behaviour, trying to find out what promises really mean to me. why am i someone who take promises so lightly.

The only reason to defend myself is that im being brought up in an environment of empty promises. It doesnt really matter to me that someone break his/her promise to me. It really doesnt matter to me because, from young, i've learnt to look at promises lightly and not give a damn abt those promises which makes people goes 'awww....'
I've learnt how not to feel so hopeful about a promise. I dont feel extremely happy or assured even if someone fulfilled his/her promise. My parents sometimes make empty promises too and i've learnt how to deal with it. My friends makes empty promises and i've learnt how to not let it bother me. In other words, i've excreted the word 'promise' out of my world, my dictionary. It's like a vase, beautifying the whole picture. Just a vase, a plain vase.
And then, i wonder if pushing the word 'promise' out of my dictionary is equivalent to pushing the responsibilities im liable for ???

yup, maybe to others, all the above were just bullshits and lame excuses. Im ok with people thinking this way because i would too, if im a third party. I'll see myself as an irresponsible piece of shit.
my uncle said " you're just like a piece of shit" right into my face when i told him i'll rank friends before family a few years back. and i tell you, it really doesnt feel good at all.
but hell, now, i really feel no difference from being a piece of shit.
I felt so regretful so making empty promises, hurting the one i love, the one who love me.

And today, i finally learnt my lesson.
Never promise anything that you arent sure if the promise can work out. Especially to your love ones. If notm the outcome will turn out so disappointing and so disatourous. It misplaces one's trust. And yes, in every relationship that is significant, trust is the foundation.

Instead of saying "i promise", i would rather say "i'll try my best"

Im currently accepting the word 'promise' into my world again.
Im currently learning the importance and significance of the word.
A simple word, yet contain tons of responsibilities, hopes and trusts.

At the end of the day, my advice is not to promise anything that you arent capable of, or promising without thinking of the feasibility. Sometimes, it is just so difficult because, promising and not promising will also lead to disappointment.

A promise is still an empty promise if not delivered completely, regardless of how much effort or sacrifices is invested, in trying to deliver it.

I must admit im not a good girlfriend, someone who tends to be irresponsible, someone who runs away from problems, someone who makes empty promises, someone who always makes statement without thinking which cause negative consequences.

But im very sure that, be it because of my environment or my incapabilities, i'll do something to achieve my promise even if i know i will fail to complete the whole picture.

i dunno what will be your reaction when u see this post.
all i want to say is.... sorry for making empty promises.
from now on, i'll see promises at the angle that u are seeing.
love!

so wad have i been doing for the past 1 week?

this is the executive summary:

mon: rush and handed in mmit report.
tues: driving lesson. princess outing. went bugis v8 cafe, took neoprints.
wed: attended marketing career talk.
thurday: went concourse with zm and hx after school to get christmas deco for retail display.
fri: mmit presentation.
sat: orchard-ed whole day with dear.
sun: work whole day.

and tadah~ there goes one week.
so fast!
and my big day which i feared most is coming. omg.

most memorable one was on tues thurs!

u want to take a look at the neo prints we took, pls refer to huixian's blog!

as for thurs,
all i can comment is....

looks are deceiving.
sometimes, somethings will be better and even memorable if we only look at the surface and not understanding it.
the more u understand, the more faults u will find.
and.... ur wonderful 1st impression formed will be like shattered glass.

haha.
try figuring out wad i mean exactly ba.

the reason why i start up this blog is to inform my close frens such as mLsars and weekdays about my life as we couldnt really meet up.

so the objective here is to inform and update them.

and now, i could really feel that the objective of me having this blog is met.
cos i just found out that my primary school best friend, one whom i haven really keep in touch with, reads my blog!

and yes, i read hers too.

haha.

so even though we didnt catch up with each other's life, we managed to have a rough idea of wad is happening in our lifes.

a big HI to wanyu~
*waves like a mad woman*






handed in our mmit report on time today. and the feeling is good.
now have to start preparing for the presentation this friday!

and and and.....

m i really behaving like an auntie?
my princess clique keep saying i behave like 1.
just because....
i shop like to shop at john little and metro,
i die die want to catch a movie before 5 on thursday to save the $1.50,
i look out for discounts and free gifts,
i clear my throat before test.....

VERY AUNTIE MEH?

Happy Birthday to Amanda!
went to celebrate her birthday at sakae sushi changi airport!
we had the whole tatami room to ourselves!
cool~

its supposed to be a birthday surprise for her.
but accidents do happen sometimes,
she got to know the surprise as some 'innocent' party leaked out the message.

but still,
its like a mini 4E gathering.
and i love sakae potato salad!
i just cant resist potatoes~ omg.

showed amanda the video that we made,
and there comes her tears~
haha.

happy 19th birthday Amanda!
WE LOVE YOU~

my dear tai tai partner.
happy 19th birthday!

we've been through so much together,
cried together,
laugh together,
shopped together,
lame together.

on this special day of yours,
i just wish you will be happy,
and enjoy yourself.

thanks for listening to me,
thanks for motivating me.
thanks for everything and everything.
and of course....thanks for teaching me how to be lamer and teaching me those indian-filipino accent.

Happy birthday!

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couldnt finish mmit test in time today :(