im feeling really lousy now.
and i juz dun wanna admit to the reason that im feeling lousy over.
cos if i admit,
den i feel even worst.
no, im not jealous.
no, im not desperate.
no, no, no, no, NO.
i said NO!!!!
samantha lim, cant u hear mi?
i said NO!
nothing can make u jealous.
pls behave as if u are a saint.
u dun nid to care abt wad u are thinking now.

maybe i'll feel better after sorting out my tots.
and i think, im stepping into the hidden trap again.
shit.

its thursday,
and that marks the end of all the CA for term 1.
its only the end if all CA1,
but i treated it as if theres no more exams in the future.
pon my fma tutorial and went to play pool at clementi.
i juz have the urge to play pool at that time,
so i juz hack care my tutorial.
hmm...
that attitude is growing within mi.
haha.
after pool, went back sch for biz law tutorial.
after bizlaw,
i went kbox.
omg~
pocket another big hole.
actually intended to go shopping with that miss goh jia yi,
but we couldn't decide on the venue,
so ended up at chinatown's kbox with the help of miss ng hui xian.
rushed him to watch superstar.
that kelly is great.
chanel oso not bad.
hmm....
anyway, im not gonna vote this time round.
haha.
oh did i mentioned i finally plucked out my courage and step into Woods medical clinic to have the thyphiod injection.
$34.60
y so ex ar?
anyway, my company is gonna pay for it.

u people muz be wondering y i spent so much on destressing today.
haha.
cos i felt that the tests this term has really drained mi out mentally.
i haven been shopping for a long time
and now that the singapore sales is gonna end.
or has it ended le?
no life that is, and i really need to destress.

next week will my 1 week term break.
wah.
8 weeks past le.
hmm....
next week,
wed got pool's bbq.
thurs got class chalet
mon, fri and sat working.
anyone wanna jio mi out??
pls make appointment with mi asap!!!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to ah wei
happy birthday to you.

ah wei, can u hear mi?
haha.
may not be there to celebrate for you today,
but that doesnt mean ive forgotten all abt today.
geez.
and i promise this whole life i oso wun forget.
staying as frens frm the age of 13 till now is really not easy.
looking back,
all those tears and laughter we shared was just like yesterday's.
how time flies,
we are 18 this yr.
5 yrs of knowing each other.
5 yrs of loving each other.
5 yrs of tolerating each other.
5 yrs of ______________[watever u can think of]

meeting up is always not easy for us,
but really i miss all my close sec sch frens like shit.
especially when i flipped thru my photo albums.
argh~
its not easy to have frens like you all in this harse and realistic tertiary world.
its not easy to stay as simple as b4.
oOO.
i really missed those days.
sit together in a circle outside lvl 1 classroom during recess time to chat.
going for choir,
singing together.
chiong out of the classroom to cry together upon knowin the syf's result.
telling lame jokes.
wah.
*reminiscing*

i realised i haven mentioned abt energy's concert last sat at all.
wad more could i say.
it was good and high.
but compared to the first concert,
i feel that, this time round,
the feeling i have when watching them sing was never as good as the previous 1.
i dunno.
ah di's leaving.
and energy will be down to 3.
oh. so weird.
hmm....
maybe frm 9th of july 2005,
it will marked the end of chasing celebrities in my life.
hahaha.
i really felt so lucky to have those memories of "chasing" energy.
attending their autograph, handshakes and singing sessions.
its becos of them,
i love hip hop.
its becos of them,
i stepped into zouk at the age of 16+ only.
its because of them,
it motivated mi to save more $$ for their album.
its because of them,
that add the colours to my teenage life.
haiz.
cant deny, im old le.

look at my schedule for next wk,
which is the last wk of term 1.
omg~
its almost everyday tt im having CA.
so stress. omg~
i wonder if i can finish studying.
mon--QA CA1
Tues--RWPS CA
wed--Japanese CA
thurs--MR CA
*faints*

and finally,
it finally came.
i've been so worried.
cos its been so irregular eversince 3 months ago.
the hormones within mi has gone bersak,
together with mi.

this is so scary.
i dunno what is he thinking exactly.
i dunno if wad he said was real.
he is really very very scary.
im terrified.
my imaginations are running wild.
i dare not say much
wad if he reads my blog?
will he make my life difficult.
y is he in our class?
omg~
i muz learn how to protect myself.

business law today was a killer.
i went in the test venue with 70% confidence.
and i came out with 80% confidence.
yeah~ but its the confidence that i'll fail.
there were 4 questions.
when the invigilator annouce that there will be 10 min left,
im still stucked at question 2.
that scare the hell out of mi can
and then i pratically crap thru the last 2 question w/o thinking.
argh~
this is so saddening.
i really studied for this test.
and the outcome is like this.
i hate myself.

oh ya.
and regarding the NKF thingy.
*^%$#
how come cheat our money?!!
sometimes ago, xinhui and i passed by some flag raisers.
and i did not donate money to them.
xin said that im a person with no "gong de xin" or smth like tt.

and now this nkf thingy happen.
wad does it show?
it doesnt mean that when u donate money,
the unfortunates will benefit frm our donations.
i've been in those line where i will approach pple on the street and sell some merchandise to those pple under the name of charity.
but i will get commission for every one of the merchandise sold.
isnt this some kind of fraud?
cos when a person buy that merchandise for $10.
he or she will expect the full amt of $10 to be donated to the charity organisation.
but the fact is, some of their donation is our commission.
hmm....
sometimes, it doesnt pay to be really kind.
so i nv donate, doesnt mean that im not kind.
its juz that,
there are some others channels that we can oso express our kindness.

and seriously,
i really felt a little hurt when u said that i dun have "gong de xin"
haha.
but wad is over, is over.
i forgive you!
haha.

this sat got FMA CA.
=( =( =(

but hor.....

this sat oso got ENERGY CONCERT LEH!!!!
=) =) =)

i guess.....

sat is the day i want it to come faster yet i dun wan it to come at the same time too.

im so so so tired of studying

suddenly i feel that the time in my world is running out of control.

suddenly, i left with no time to do alot of things.

suddenly, time passes so fast

suddenly, i realised that its JULY now.

suddenly, 1 week break is approaching and its like sch reopen juz ytd?

omg~~

wat is happening to 'time'?

rushin aeroplane meh?


frm now on, i declare i hate 'macdonald'.
first time i c hui mei angry.
and part of it is becos of MAcdOnald.
hmph!
the unluckiest thing is, i have to do project with MACDONALD!!!
omg~ y not uncle kentucky.
hmm.... guess some of you read le oso gong gong.
argh! leave mi alone.

ok. to show tt im a good fren,
im helping qunjie to advertise his link to his rwps survey.
friends out there,
it wont take long.
juz click here to take his survey!!!!

try this personality test

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

[75% true. i really dun like conflicts. but i certainly love arguing. but as for the last sentence, hmm.... no comments.]

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

[80% true. although i usually look out for shuai ge, but hor, till now, those guys tt i liked b4, hmm....really not good looking. haha.]

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

[eh...i dunno. maybe ba. of cos, getting to know the opposite well will be better]

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

[seriously, i find my straightforwardness is sort of a burden to mi. cos like this very easy de zui pple. ]

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

[unusual job? haha. but i really dun like to study.]

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

[the 1st sentence is absolutely true]

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

[yes. im afraid of failure. and i dun wanna face the fact that i fail in watever i do.]

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

[yeah, will keep tt in mind. i really mind how pple think and look at mi!]

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

[200% true]

bend lower.
lock your elbow.
aim properly.
mis-cue.
the balls can move, human oso can move.
remember to come for training next wed.
practice your cueing more.

my mind is filled with all these stuffs relaed to pool.
its the stress im giving myself,
its the expectation im setting for myself.
the dissapointment will be shown on my face whenever i cant pocket those balls which can we easily pocketed.
ok. i dunno wad im toking now.
my brain is 'dehydrated'.
no more brain juice to think.
wednesday is supposed to be the most relaxed schedule on my time table.
but now, its the most tiring day.
i have pool training in the noon,
after tt, gotta proceed to have my japanese lesson.
i can barely concentrate!
so tired!

went to practice pool at clementi recreational centre with emi, xin and hui xian.
den some of my classmates oso came.
managed to have more confidence is cueing and shooting.
the i keep having stomachache whenever i think of the pool training session later.
argh~
emi got thru the trial, she's one of us now!
today's training session was quite a fruitful 1,
we 3 and another guy got 1 pool table for training. yes. its only the 4 of us.
the trainer got to train us more detailedly compared to last week.

the activity last sat was fun lar,
but most of the time i felt so disgusted.
haha.

ytd went tm with hx to do our ssm project.
decided to observe the guy from OSIM.
hmm...is attitude quite good.
very friendly.
and we drafted out the report le.
think left with writing out the report formally.

ah!!!! you guys know wad,
CAs approaching le.
omg~
nv in my life i felt as helpless as now.
i dunno how to do accounts
i dunno how to do BLaw
i dunno how to do QA
AHH!
die liao la!
bless mi!

oOO....so tired.
tml gonna be in sch frm 8am to 10pm.
note the am and pm difference.
the pool club having treasure hunt thingy,
xin and i decided to participate.

met mL and sasa on wednesday for dinner.
wanna have vegetarian dinner initially,
but ended up at funan IT mall de sakae instead.
we were so hungry tt we almost grabbed and gobbled down all the sushi on the belt.
as usual we were noisy lar.

watched the movie "alot like love"
its not very nice as its quite draggy.
to think i've spent $8 on tt movie on a wednesday,
its sort of bo hua.
boo hoo~~ there goes my $8.
GV sucks.
at the rate they charging nw,
i hope no pple will wanna go GV watch movies,
and i shall happily wait for them to close down!
muahaha. evil mi.

argh. im so tired.
enuff of my stuffs.
lala land is waiting for mi!

feeling so tired now.
so many tots running in my mind.
happy ones
sad ones.
i dunno if i've made the correct choice,
i dunno if im doing the rite thing.
can someone out there be my guiding light,
guide mi to the place where im supposed to be.
=(

too lazy to blog.
nth to blog.
too much to blog.
too sian to blog.
haiz.
i shall not blog.
=(

for those who express their concern via sms, tagboardm fone calls etc,
thank you.
im feeling better now.
erm close to perfect health again.
had been eating right and sleeping right too.
haha.

did i mentioned i was unlucky now a days?
1st, i got sick.
den high fever, blah blah blah.
and this mon,
went i was abt to stepped into tanah mehra mrt station,
my specs broke.
as in one of the 2 side frame broke.
so i went home, (w/o my glassese) to use a scortch tape to tape it together and den proceed to school again.
and i went to sch w/o my glasses becos spec will land slanted on my nose, and that makes mi dizzy.
im as gd as a blind person.
i smsed hui xian to picked mi up at level 4, outside sch of business office as i really cannot c them.
haha.

but went back to the vision shop at nite.
and they have spare parts for mt specs.
and tada, they changed it for mi.
so afraid that this incident will happen again,
i decided to make contact lense for myself.
=)

and i went to causeway point to catch "my boyfriend is type 'B' "
the ticket price is still at $6.50
nice show.
there are more shows i wanna catch.
but cant find the time.
mr ans mrs smith
be with you
alot like love.
hmm....

after the movie,
went back to sch for the pool trial.
it started at 3.
but we (xin and i) reached at abt 3.30
but the trial got hell lotsa pple queuing for their turn.
and we began to feel stress
because we dun have how to play well.

and by 4.15, we were still outside the room, waiting for our turn.
den the president came out and asked who dunno how to play n need some guidance.
so we raised our hand.
we were let into the room.
we watched pple play pool
gosh. some of them played really well.
we muz wait for the trial to be over b4 they can teach us.

so by the time we got to 'touched' the cue
its smth like 6pm le.
and they began teaching us.
at 1st, i even hold my cue wrongly.
hahaha.
so pai seh.

training till 8.15pm.
but not sure if we are confirmed in the club.
they put a star beside our name.
hmmm....
need more practice.

now, im waiting for xin to end her lesson.
waiting for the jap class.
argh!
i hate thursday!

tomorrow will be the ice cream gallery 1 yr old bday.
i dun nid to work!
cos we (staffs of ice cream gallery) having dinner together at parkway!
hee.

*cough cough*
i muz really say sorry to my classmates
cos i've been really noisy these few days.
noisy as in cough and cough and cough.
argh. even i myself oso cant stand it le.

save mi!!!!

seriously, i cant really think now.
the heat within mi is burning my brain.

went home after MR tutorial ytd.
went to the polyclinic,
hell, the waiting time almost made mi give up on consulting the doctor.
wait for like half an hour,
but consulting time was juz 3 min.
the doctor took my temperature.
its 38.9 degrees.
i didnt expect it to be so high.
and the doctor juz prescribe panadols.
oh hell. no antibiotics.

took a cab home. i couldnt stand anymore.
everyone on the streets tot i was mad,
cos im wearing a jacket under the hot sun.
took the medicine and went to lala land.

guess the panadols arent working.
i still have the headaches
and my whole body ache too.

i woke up for dinner.
and i felt like puking upon imagining mi eating down the porridge.
so i juz had afew scoops of porridge.

at abt 9.45 pm,
i couldnt tahan anymore.
i checked my temperature
and it shoot up to 40 degrees.
im so scared that the heat would burn my brain and i'll become an idiot.

daddy and mummy drived mi to the clinic.
and this doctor precribed 'stronger' medicine for mi.
went home, ate medicine, sleep.
even though im sleeping in a 23 degrees aircon room,
im sweating.
wad the hell.

and this morning i woke up at 8.30am because of the constant coughing.
went to the living room to slp cos i dun wanna wake my sis up.
and i begin to slp till abt 130pm.
and tada, here i m.
gosh, i sound like an idiot now.

*sneeze*
oh. wad the hell?!
this is the dunno hw many times i've sneezed.
oh. m i falling sick again?
NO!!!!!
*sneeze*
wads wrong with mi?
argh! worst of all, the blocked nose is back.
ahh....!!!!

had jap lesson today
omg~
those kitagana.
so diffucult!

saw helena on train on my way hm.
chatted quite abit.
wow,
a SIM degree cost $30000.
omg~
where to dig out so much $$?
y so ex?

sometimes, when im doing my tutorials,
i start asking myself why did i have to go thru all these shit.
did i make the correct choice of taking up business course.
haiz.
tutorials are driving mi crazy.
im so afraid those white hair will starting growing out while im doing them.
especially the accounting.
i mean, y cant i balance them?
where the hell did i go wrong?!
i really pity and those pple who major in Accounting.
they have to do the same thing over and over again.
and i wonder y they can tolerate those numbers.

today, dunno is a lucky or unlucky day.
im supposed to attend bizlaw lecture today frm 10-11am.
and thats the only lesson i have today.
but when i reach dover mrt station,
some classmate told mi lecture canceled.
wth?!!!
came all the way frm tanah mehra,
waking up at 8am,
and they told mi lecture cancel?
argh. that dennis sim.

so went to k box with huixian, jia yi and pat.
we took separate room so tt each of us will occupy 1 microphone.
sort of sang my heart out today.
haha.

im so tired now.
wenna passed mi the gdtw last 2 episode.
hmm....*look at time*
should i watch now?

well, haven been bloggin for days.
fatigue+laziness accumualting inside mi.

nth much happened.
some accidents took place at the slope of SB.
quite serious.
but i shant say much.

one of the customer asked mi if my boss was pregnant.
and i told him "yes, she's pregnant. y?"
he : "oh. nth lar. i tot she had too much ice cream."
mi: -_-" stupid guys. insensitive. no common sense.

i seriously very lazy to touch my tutorials.
my mum bday coming.
father's day on the way too.
wad should i get for the both of them?

energy is coming to sg.
but most of their event i cant attend
cos im working.
sad-ed can.
ah di is leaving.
and hence energy is left with 3 person.
so weird!!!

went to a dance concert.
its abt modern ballet dance.
my dad's fren got alot of tix and no one wanted to go,
so we were made to be the victims of those unwanted tix.
daddy forced all of us to go.
we were all so reluctant can!

upon reach indoor stadium,
for a moment, we tot we were at the wrong venue because the carpark wasnt packed at all.
usually, when there is a concert, the carpack will be full, no place to park and hence muz find a lot somewhere near leisure park.
but ytd was completely opp.
got alot of parking lots.
but anyway, back to topic.
there was a very shuai ge at the entrance collecting tickets.
he look so much like feng de lun can?!!
so handsome!!!!
aHHHH.....really cute and handsome.
gosh, cant get him off my mind le.
daddy suggested getting his no. for mi.
but i stopped him. so damn pai seh if he really go take his no.
but now, come to think of it, abit regret le.
cos if i have his number, even i dun dare to call him,
staring at his number will also be fine.

the concert is sort of boring.
but their movements very nice.
energetic yet 'soft' at the same time.
ijuz dun understand wad they are trying to convey thru their dance,
soi juz anyhow imagine my own storyline, so as to let their dance fit into my story line.
hmmm....the indoor stadium seats were hard.
my butt couldnt take those hard seats anymore,
so we suggested leaving the place in the middle of the performance.

went kfc for a light meal before heading home.

sold both my econs text and stats text at $45.
hmm...quite a great deal i guessed.

BizLaw is quite interesting.
not as boring as it seems.
maybe its becos of the lecturer.
anyway, the bizlaw tutor wanted us to write down smth abt ourselves, or smth we want him to remember us of.
i really dunno wad to write.
and so....
thats wat i wrote of that piece of paper:

[Samantha Lim
*shrugs* i dont know.]

on seeing these, jia yi and huixian decides to write smth like this too:

[Jia yi
*shakes head* i dont know]

[Hui Xian
*scratch head* i dont know]

i guess, the tutor will sure remember us!

juz took a personality test created by SP school of business.
here's the result:

You approach life with intuition and ideals. Gifted with the ability to understand intricate significances among relationships and people, you possess sharp insights into the feelings and stimulus of others and yourself. While you are compassionate and friendly, You require time to be familiar with others before you are comfortable to share your feelings, insights and complex thoughts. You value your privacy highly and must have your personal space to revitalize your energy. You seek purpose in your life - work, relationships and possessions. Thus you are most fulfilled doing activities that are congruent with your strong beliefs. You remain committed to organizations and people who possess similar values.

Potential Strengths:

Imagination
Sense of purpose
Creativity
Ability to get things organised
Can develop human resources

Popular Occupations:
Social worker
Human resource manager
Marketer (of ideas or services)
Organisation development consultant
Psychologists
Educational consultants
Priests/monks/nuns -->??!!-_-"
Physicians
Media specialists
Artist
Novelist
DesignerEditor/art director (magazine)
Teachers (English, art, drama)
Writer
Newscaster

get urs here! click mi!

today lesson starts at 9am
ended at 5pm.
god-damn tired.
im so not used to waking up early and slping early now.
i got strict and boring lecturers.
double sian.
i hope i'll love my class.

*yawnz*
its monday.
the first day of yr 2, day 1.
sch starts at 9am.
but it was tutorial, ended 20 min later.
but next lesson is at 12pm.
so diao rite?
muz wait so long for the next lesson.

went for the cca fair thingy.
wanted to join pool and snooker.
and they accept year 2!!!!
but their cca day is on wed 3-7pm.
my wed de lesson end at 11am.
and i have work at 6pm.
i was so sad can?
my time-table totally sucks!
its all not 3 not 4!

pon my lecture at 1pm
cos i totally got no mood for sch.
monday blues u see.
so went shopping with xin at ps and tm.
and i splurged on U2 jacket, Gio net top and 1 OP skirt.
its all on sales!
but daddy gonna pay for my jacket and skirt.

received a call from my boss,
she asked if i could work on friday and sun instead.
and i said yes,
which means i can sign up for the pool and snooker.
yeah~~~
but i gonna wait frm 11am to 3pm.
kaoz, really sian.!!!!

met my mum for dinner at breeks.
den proceed to watson.
bought the loreal lip gloss.
so nice can!!!

last sat,
wen,jin,sasa and man came my house to watch dvds.
my boss's daughter and monster-in-law.
wasnt really watching.
we were chatting in the middle of the show,
so i didnt pay attention to the movie.
man was late, so she have to come to my house herself.
instead of bus 14, she took bus 12,
and she ended up at some ulu place.
took a cab here in the end.
haha. blur mandy.

before they left my house,
wenna almost spoil my toilet bowl!!!
but lucky jin was there,
she repaired it for mi.
thanks ger, muacks!

didnt blog for the past 3 days due to extreme fatigue, both pysically and mentally.
ya, its the freshmen orientation program.
everything on the overall, i can say it sucks la
the organising committee's not organised enuff.
i know im in no position to say smth like this, they put in alot of effort,
but well, we all have eyes to c isnt it?

well, im the class fac for DAC04 together with xin, emiline, yiling and kw.
1 class 5 facs
which i feel its not effective and ineficient.
other class only have 2 to 3 facs, we have 5.
so when it comes to decision making,
most of us have different opinions, thus makin it quite tough to make decision.
another prob is the 5 of us were not close.
the other 4 frm the same class,
and i only know xin and emi.
the other 2 i only saw them twice.
didnt tok much.
and obviously, due to some reason, the 3 of us(mi, emi and xin) dun really like the other two.
im not sure if the other 2 will accidentally read my blog or not. but i think its kinda obvious tt we dun like them lar.
and i think the people in DAC04 have a little attitude problem.
its difficult to get to know them thoroughly, yet we muz try our best to bond these pple together, cos they're gonna face each other for the next 3 yrs.

i dunno wad SIN i'd commited in the past because im choosen to be the game master for army warfare game out of abt 40 to 50 facs. and i've got to stand in the sun frm 9am to 5pm.
im so so so burnt now. my face is red. and soon it will turn black. omg. im look so ugly now. like a clown with red nose. but besides red nose, i have super red cheeks and red forehead. i was so shocked and i look into the mirror. and after like running and walking around the multi purpose field frm 9-5pm, i still have to rush back to work with my burnt skin and breaking legs.
i started coughing more often. medicines didnt helped much.
aNd oh ya,
half way thru the game,
one of the freshies injure his shoulder.
he fell while he's running
and he 'somersaulted'
landed on his shoulder first.
the most diao part is he continued to run despite the injury.
den after everything, his class fac say he injured.
den the right side of this shoulder is straight, but the left side is pointing up.
oOO. pain. called for ambulance. but the ambulance was like took forever to arrive.


the 2nd day of orientation is at the convention.
it was cold in the morning as its raining.
and we had to listen to those speeches for the second time (we heard it last yr)
had Mr and Ms SB.
well our class got elimated in the first round.
cannot blame. they dudnt prepare anything. unlike other classes, their Mr and Ms SB brought their clothes and props. one guy even dress up like roti- prata-teh-tarik guy.
ours totally NTH.
and when our class representative went up the stage, no body bothered to cheer for their own classmate. i was like so dead. y these pple no respond? they are pple frm their class leh.
after tt, went SB to collect tins for flag day.
the whole process seriously sucks.
the queue was messy.
1st they call facs to go into the room
den they ask us to get out
den when its finally our turn,
i took everything excpet for the tin sign out form.
someone called mi back
and the vice chair of this FOP gave mi that super fierce and irritated look.
hey come on! is she a bitch or a bitch?
we are humans, we make mistake. i think she made quite alot of mistake but y muz give mi tt bu shuang, fierce, and irritated glare?
do i owe u anything?
u thing u like tt pple will likw scared of u?!
oh, pls fu*k off.
rush off to work again.
this time round,
think due to the weather,
the flu bug moved up frm my throat to my nose.
i started having running nose during work.
it was damn uncomfortable and irritating.

and today,
i reach chinatown at 730AM.
my job is to supervise and facilitate the flag day for DAC04.
while they were selling flag,
xin, emi and i were like slacking our time off in macdonalds and OG.
ended everything at 1.30pm and returned back to sch to count the amt collected.
the 3 of us (xin emi and mi) were like siao char bo.
so retarded can.
dunno y suddenly so high.
anyway, our class collected $870.03 only.
haha.
think emiline can forget abt winning the optical mouse cos the highest collection im our class is $79+ only.

im a chinese,
so my full name is Samantha lim Xiao wei.

if im an indian,
my full name is SAmantha daughter of yew soon.

if im a malay,
my full name will be Samantha bte Mohammad yew soon. *hahahahaha*

while on the way home in the train,
we tok abt names. discuss at our national anthem.
and we remembered tt when we were i primary school, during flag rising or flag lowering, we will sure sing the national anthem. sometimes, trying to compete with the person standing beside you, c who sing louder. so in the end, everybody was like shouting instead of singing. so enthu sia. haha. but when we go up to sec sch, nobody sings. y is it tt we will feel weird and pai seh singing the national anthem?

and i also remember when i was very young,
everytime i finish doing my big business in the toilet or into the potty,
i will start calling out for my maid like this :"auntie clean backside for mi"
and even if my maid ensure mi that she will come like 5 min later,
throughout the whole 5 min of waiting, i go"auntie clean backside for mi" continuosly for the whole 5 mins"
haha
now think of it, so pai seh.
still nid pple to clean backside for us.

joke of the day :

there's a conversation between A & B at SP multipurpose field.

A: finally there's a place for pple to play crickets in SP.

B: crickets? u mean the insect?

A: no lar, its a kind of sports lar. u know wad, it originated frm india.

b: issit?!!! from INDIA?!! den y is it not call cricket-neh?

wah kao. this is damn bloody hell lame.
den y roti prata call roti prata instead of smth like "roti prata-neh?"
argh.
tired le.
zZZ.

bought a new phone today.
samsung X640.
well....
its not the phone i really want.
but due to my careless-ness and forgetful-ness
my parents dun wanna get a ex fone for mi.
boo hoo~~~

my dad wanna buy 4D in the afternn.
but when he reach the place to buy 4D,
he realised that today is actually a monday!!!
hahaa.

one of the little boi boi in the tour grp. he speaks slank and perfect english. sometimes, cant really catch wad is he toking. but i think he looks a little bit like wen hao. haha 

my tour groupmates foto. *spot me!!!* 

if u think these are fishballs, den u're wrong. they are actually chicken rice balls. 

dun u think the leaves of this tree looks like starfruit? 

the view from the hill slightly lower den bukit timah hill. 

my 'luggauge' 

my weapon to conquer boredom. but it didnt helped. cant read on the bus, cos i get dizzy when reading. 

the view outside my room. 

the hotel swimming pool. 

the balcony 

the really small toilet. 

the bedroom. 

the small kitchen in my room. *messy. tsk tsk* 

my room's little living room. the extra bed infront with the green cushion on it is actually meant for my maid. no space for extra bed in the room. 

this time round, frm big to small bubble. *we were BORED!* 

we were too bored. so we played with the bumble gums we were chewing. from small bubble to big bubble. 

in the bus, on the way to tuas (2nd link)  

back frm malacca.
gosh.
got sick and sunburnt.
argh!!!

the tour guide was kind of cute.
as in the way he speaks.
but sometimes he almost hypnotised mi to slp in the bus while he is explaining the history.
we visited 2 temples, the malacca bee farm, did shopping at mahkota shopping center and went to the historic places where the pple of holland used to govern malacca.
shopping was not fun and shiok because the time given is only 1.5 hrs and the shopping centre was like 2 to 3 times of singapore's jurong point.
bought a small bag and 2 tops.
my parents sponsor. =)

the hotel was so so.
it was kind of small,
but it gives mi the feeling of singapore 3 room HDB flat.
got living room, kitchen and balcony.

the food was fabulous.
wad was even more fabulous of the price for this whole package tour.
1 person $100.
includes 1 nite accom0dation, 1 breakfast, 2 lunch, 2 dinner.
the places we dine in was quite class, their food were really yummy, maybe except for the chicken rice.
but wad more can u asked for when u only paid $100 rite?

besides the sunburnt part,
i can say that i enjoyed this trip to malacca.
but i didnt get to mi sasa.
haha.
no fate.

have been having weird dreams....
well, its not counted as nightmare.
but whoever appear in my dreams and done smth scary,
i tend to be wary of that person in real life.

and last nite,
i dreamt that i went to have my belly button pierced.
2 days later,
black curly hair starts growing out frm my belly button!!!
gross rite?
anybody, pls interpret wad does this dream mean?

going malacca tml.
back on sunday nite!
tata!

i have some tots in my mind now.
it shows tt im thinking too much.
but anyway, maybe i can share with whoever who wants to read it.

有时候，我觉得， 如果我是个自私的人就好了。
不必考虑到别人的感受，狠狠地去达到我想要的快乐。
身边的人高不高兴，快不快乐，是他们的事，不管我的事。

自私的人也许会感到内疚，但是他们达到目的的快乐， 远远的超越愧疚感。
所以我觉得，自私的认是世界上最快乐的人。

但另一方面，又有谁会想和自私的认作朋友呢？
没有朋友也许会不快乐，
但是，他们的成就感会让他们快乐。
别忘了他们是自私的人。
什么都为自己着想就好了。
他们并不在乎朋友的感受，
所以，朋友对他们来收是多余的。

woke up at 9.40am today.
its bloody hell early can.
plus the fact tt i slept at abt 5am
but no choice.
i've to get out of my bed to register for my general elective module which starts at 10am.
muz chiong for the module i wanna take because places are 1st come 1st serve basis.

and so, at 10 am, i logged in my account.
but i cant choose the module i wanna take
cos there is smth wrong with the computer system.
i got fed up after trying logging in and refreshing the page for abt 100 times.
i picked up the phone beside mi and called the school to ask/complain abt the computer system.
but the bloody hell line couldnt get thru.
so i got freaking pissed, i shut down my computer, and went back to bed.
received sms frm the sch, saying that due to technical fault, the registration will be postphoned to 3pm.

so i went back at 3pm, thinking that everything should be alright.
but hell, i was wrong.
the system still wasnt working.
i almost wanted to buy kerosene and burn the school down!
wads the problem with the computer system?!
and finally after refreshing the page and re-logging in for the 500th time,
i managed to register for the module tt i want.
the luckiest thing is, i took up the last vacancy.
the happiest thing is, the module is scheduled on friday, during the 3 hrs break. which means tt i wun be wasting that 3 hrs of my time doing nth.
and the most relieving part is, hui xian taking the same course with the same time as mi.
tt means i got company, and i wun be so sian.

if you are wonderin y i sound so angry and vulgar than usual,
den i muz tell you,
its because of the hormones.
yes. to be exact, its PMS.
get it?!
if u dun, pls go bang urself against the wall.
and pls stop telling mi PMS= pre-marital sex.
u will c mi running after you with a chopper in my hand.

the S & k shirt.  

the new slipper which i invested on. say its nice and i'll love you. 

the perfume i juz bought today. can u smell the scent? haha. 

i used up the last little bit of my angbao money today.
bought a pair of slipper, shirt and perfume.
hmm....
samantha lim shall hereby declare broke for the rest of the month and will continue to live by eating grass everyday.

meet up be my 'tai tai' khaki, sasa.
haha.
and yes, we are can be the potential tai tai in the future.
had kfc $2.95 meal and we begin to shop at suntec.
tried on many clothes.
lame ard the mall again.
walked to raffles mrt to get my perfume.
and den go singapore post find wenna.
after meeting wenna,
we went to this fashion try on some skirts and stuffs.
decided not to get anything till june becos tts my mother's bday month and we can enjoy 20% discount.
and yes, we took a cab back home again.
this time round the driver remembered to on his meter.
his not retard. haha. but he's damn enthu dunno for wad reason.
after sasa alight, i told him where i live and he began telling mi stories of the place i lived used to be his kampung.
den show mi all the different road name and tell mi wad it use to be in the past,
which i wasnt really interested.
the past is the past.
u tell mi so many,
i oso cant c the real picture.
but dun forget im a very friendly girl,
so i decided to laugh along with him,
reply and nod as he continue telling mi his " long time ago...there used be bla bla bla"
im good.
so love mi!

received a call frm the FO comittee members and they say tt im selected to be the game master for windy dog game.
omg~ y so suay?
tt means i wun be able to c the pple in the class im incharged the first day.
sianz.

i felt so fat now.
argh.
been eating and eating non stop eversince thursday.
and i feel like puking out my whole gastric.

working in the icecream shop is a sin!
a SIN!!
yesterday, my colleague serve a angmoh.
the ang moh ordered triple scoops but wanna take away de.
but my colleague gave him triple scoops having here de.
so, no choice, we have to give him his take away triple scoops.
so the original triple scoop have to be eaten, since we cannot put back cos the 3 scoops were 'mix' together.
who eat?
i eat!
cos my colleague is sick, so cannot eat.
boo hoo~~~

and before working,
i went to amanda's hse to celebrate teck chiat bday.
we had swensens ice cream cake.
ICE CREAM AGAIN!!!!
omg~~~

before the ice cream,
we have steam boat.
and there were hell lots of ingredients in the steam boat.

after my work,
which is abt 9+,
my parents suggested to have prata for supper.
i went with them cos i missed the ice milo there, and with NO INTENTION to eat.
but upon reaching there,
the tissue prata tempted mi.
and i haven had my dinner....
so....
so....
think u all guessed correctly,
i had the tissue prata.
hohoho.

a sin....a sin....a sin.....aH!!!!

the best thing that happened yesterday was being able to c my 1 week gang.
nothing beats the feeling of being able to have them right infront of my sight,
eating steamboat together, playing 'zhong ji mi ma' to finish up the food, watchin and 'sabo' chun hui eat vege (she hates vege), threatening xin of stepping on her injured leg, seeing how jia min gobble down her food and huggin amanda goodbye when catching my bus. i love u guys. and i know u guys will love mi no matter how FAT i m. haha.

should i or should i not?
i juz have to go there and tok,
tell them y i deserve their offer.
its a slim opportunity i know.
but its still an opportunity, a difficult-to-come-by chance.
many pple muz be fighting for that chance, including mi.
but y m i still pondering if i should give it a try?
cos 期望越大，失望会更大
but the timing juz clashes with my schedule.
oh....
maybe i should juz leave this chance to fate.
if i can make it to the place b4 3pm,
i shall pluck up my courage and go for a try.

• fried rice
• baby tomatoes
• samosa
• nuggets
• stuffed mushroom
• potato salad
• edamame
• vege dumpling
• mushroom soup
• sour plum pasta
• agar agar
• potato chips
• fruit punch

this is wad i had today. and till now im still so bloated. felt so guilty at the same time.
*look at my stomach* how much exercise must i do to remove the calories intake today?

had a very wonderful day today.
mL+ sars gathering.
ate like crazy,
chat like crazy,
laugh like crazy,
havoc like crazy,
*watever u can think of* like crazy.

happy moments dun last.
parted at 8pm
wonder when's the next.
but i know it wun be fast.
maybe the next holiday?
haha.

learnt how to fried rice today at sasa house.
i think, this is the first new yr resolution tt i carry it out.
haha.

gonna have another gathering this sat.
1 wk gang!
celebrating tc bday.
but the sad thing is i have to leave early as i have to work at 4pm.
boo hoo~~~~~

juz got to know which class i've got into.
so lucky that most of my classmates got into the sameclass as mi.
tt means tt i wun be left to die alone in the new class.
*phew.

check out the time table,
it seriously sucks.
wed lesson is juz 1 hour. (10-11am)
and fri, i've got another 3 hours break in between again.
gosh~
time realli pass so fast.
sch gonna reopen again sia.

been posted to marketing management.
hurhur.
MARKETING MANAGEMENT.

at this point of time,
i start asking myself.
will it be better if i study tourism management?
it has always been my interest.
but for the sake of my future's job prospect,
i think marketing management is a better choice.
well....in life, its all abt decision.

so 2 yrs later, i'll graduate with.....

Singapore Polytechinic

Diploma in Business Administration (Marketing Management Option)

well...provided that i can make it lar!

so lets see wad are the courses i have to take next yr.

Second Year (Marketing Management Option)

• Business Law
• Marketing Research
• Quantitative Analysis
• Financial & Management Accounting
• Report Writing & Presentation Skills
• Selling & Sales Management
• E-commerce management
• Human Resource Management
• Principles of Supply Chain management
• Cost & Management AccountingFinancial Management
• Understanding Cross Cultural Diversity
• Customer Behaviour
• General Elective Module

wah....no comments.

gonna have a mini picnic with mL+saRs at sasa house tml.

finally its a gathering where ALL OF US will turn up.
yipee!

went to school for FO thingy today.
ok. nth worth elaborating
so i'll juz fast forward to nite event.

ok. its not an event.
its so called a routine.
went ah ma hse for dinner.
mummy didnt go cos she was having headache.

and when we were leaving,
in the lift,
we met our old neighbour.
and he told my father : "wah, ur eldest daughter (me) look more and more like her mother ar".

wad he said, let mi have a gd thought with myself.
pple always say tt i resemble my mum.
maybe its becos of my size.
well, if not, i cant c the reason y they keep say i resemble her.
she got big eyes, i got small eyes.
she got double eyelid, i got single.
i got smaller nose den her.
ok, if u insist that i resemble my mum,
den maybe we both have thick sexy lips.

in terms of character,
im totally different frm her oso.
im soft spoken, i give in easily.
she's different.
she's fussy at times, but im not.
blah blah blah.
in other words, i think i take after my dad much more den my mum.
den i tell my sister :" i think its quite lucky that i didnt inherit mummy's bad points."

and my sis cleverly replied : " mummy got good point meh?"

and i opened my eyes BIG BIG and look at her like this --> O_O!!!

on the way back home, in the car,
i told daddy wad my sis had said.
and ask him wad is mummy's good points.

he think awhile.
and said:
"ur mummy good point is, when she is enthu abt one thing, she will spent all her day doing the thing. for eg, she is so into my sis gameboy that she hugged and played with it the moment she reach home till she tucked in."

" ur mummy is usually generous when it comes to money."

"ur mummy agaration is bad. one person meal she can cook like 5 person's serving"

and he goes on and on with all the bad points.

so to my daddy,
although theres some bad points he cant stand,
its like those bad points are considered as good points le.

maybe, tts really the life of 2 loving married couples ba.

before the clock strike 12,
juz wanna wish all mothers happy mothers' day.

this yr mothers' day
i didnt prepare any gift for my mum.
juz prepared the awful dinner on thursday
and an icecream cake.

i muz admit that being a mum is the toughest job on earth.
first, she had to suffer for 10 months,
and bear the pain of giving birth.
next, she muz face the fact that she may nv regain that wonderful figure she had b4.
she had to wake up in the middle of the nite to feed milk
she have to save and sacrifice some for her money and time spent of herself juz to take care the baby.
and when the baby grows bigger,
she have to supervise the studies of her child.
and when the child is at his teenage yrs,
they will begin to find their mother a nag.

wah...
u do other jobs outside,
u are being paid for ur contributions.
but being a mother,
its all 24 hrs contribution
and yet no money in return.
some even worst,
they are being abandoned by their own child after bringing them up.

i haven said happy mothers' day to my mum.
and guess
after blogging this,
it will be past 12 le.
so this yr,
its a miss.
haha.

sometimes,
i really hate my mother for the strict control
i hate her for not putting herself in my shoe
i hate her for being my mother.

but other times
i realised,
im so fortunate to have her.
she worries for mi,
she cares for mi
juz tt she express in another way.

but most of the time,
wad she says actually have a very huge and direct impact on mi.
or should i say,
i actually very zai hu how she tink of mi,
i wanna be the best ger in her heart
but somehow
i dunno wad is she thinking most of the time.
if she says im not gd,
den i'll admit tt im really not gd.
i dunno why,
but thats they way it is now.
whenever my mum smiles at my achievement,
it doesnt matter to mi how big or small the achievement is
becos i've got her smile.

im always telling myself to defy her for once
but failed terribly
cos i dun wanna hurt her.
even though if i succeeded in defyin her,
im not happy at all,
i couldnt enjoy wad i was doing
cos all my heart is thinking
she's not happy.
and i made her unhappy.
and i've gotta face the music again when i got home.

to my mum, whom i love and hate at the same time,
know u wun be able to read this,
but dun worry,
i'll take care of u
juz like wad u did.
happy mothers' day!

seriously,
the truth hurts.
though i didnt show how i felt on the outside,
but i felt so sad inside.
like all efforts gone down to the drain.
i was anticipating smth good frm my mum's comment abt the dinner.
but she said:"u want to hear the truth?"
and i know its was smth negative.
shant further elaborate.

well....
wad to do?
maybe the fact that i cant cook will always stay with mi.
not gonna cook anymore
cos dun wanna torture those pple gonna who try my cooking
this is not giving up.
its juz...
not wanting to know the negative comments abt my hardwork/heartwork again.
*shattering heart*
maybe i shall juz stick to making sandwiches only for picnic sessions.
haha.
or maybe juz sponsor some potato chips.
i terribly sad-ed.

gonna go out for dinner now.
celebrating my ah gong's b day.
byebye.

ah.
back frm jin's dance performance.
she's great.
really fantastic.
maybe too long didnt c her le.
tts y when she appeared on the stage,
i have the urge to cry.
but the feeling was funny and it somehow touched my heart like how a mother would feel when she c her child performing on stage.
its the feeling of proud and touched 1.
frm sec 1,
we have been performing on stage together.
be it the choir performance, teacher's day performance or wadever else performances,
we have always worked hard together,
stand on the same stage together,
enjoy the fruits of our hardwork together.
but this time,
its a different case.
she is alone, with her other frens.
and yet,
she can still do so well.
its like watching ur child grow up and mature.
the sense if relieve is hard to describe in words.
maybe im too kua zang.
but thats exactly how i feel.
a few yrs back,
we didnt expect and imagine this day would come.
we (ling, man, wen), as audience, are cheering and clapping for our best fren, shi jin.
haha.

before going to TP for jin's performance.
went sasa hse.
played mahjong and daidee.
she cooked fried rice for us.
haha.
den watched President Wee Kim Wee's live telecast on his last journey.
well, personally, i've saw him quite a few times.
my grandfather used to be a chef in the istana,
cookin meals for him.
and he nv treat my grandfather as his worker.
he treated my grandfather liked his friend.
he attended my parents wedding,
which caused the relatives of my mum to change their perception of my dad.
becos last time my dad was poor and they sort of didnt really want my mum to marry my dad.
Dr Wee Kim Wee even visited my grandfather when he was sick.
and im really touched and grateful for his contributions.
*salutes*
may u rest in peace.

yesterday,
i prepared western food as mothers' day dinner for my family.
its an early one because we will be dinning out on sunday.
well, though my mum didnt comment on the food,
but i guess she was happy.
cos its my first time, standing in the kitchen for 3 to 4 hours,
juz to prepare this dinner.
of cos, i have 2 helpers with mi to aid the process of marinating and cooking.
w/o them, i guess the dinner will not be a smooth 1.
maybe the chicken will be half cooked only.
haha
thanks clarissa and xin hui.
*muacks*

You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're
confident, independent, outgoing, and love
attention. You might become a star one day. All
the girls like to follow in your foot steps
because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't
care about anything. You make the rules, never
follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy.
That could be bad. But keep the attitude.
That's what makes you, you.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by


seriously, if im prettier,
my character will be like the above mention.
but theres smth which is quite true,
its my attitude!
haha

exams result out!
quite satisfied and happified!
geeZ.
no D this time!

Information Application in Business 2 [A]
*not a computer idiot anymore.

Fundamentals of Marketing [B]
*abit dissapointed la. cos have high hopes for this. sobz

Economics [B]

Statistics for Business [B]

Effective Speaking Skill [B]

Character Developement [B+]
*wad the hell? its only B+? whrs my moral?!!

Principals of Accounting [C]
*most satified de. cos always tot i will fail this module!

Critical Reasoning Skill [C+]

.................................................................................................................
Cumilative GPA [2.93]
..................................................................................................................
Distinction [>=80]

A [>=80]


B+ [75 to < 80]


B [70 to < 75]


C+ [65 to < 70]


C [60 to < 65]


D+ [55 to < 60]


D [50 to < 55]

sometimes, i wonder if wad i did was mean.
mean in the sense that, i've hurt somebody (from wad i've said/done) to make myself gain frm something or to make myself happier.
but other times i oso wonder that,
y cant we be mean to people?

seriously, i always feel that humans are selfish.
dun ask mi y,
i wun bother to give my long explanation.
everyone wants to survive in this harsh world.
and sacrifices have to be made.
but bear in mind that the sacrifices we made doesnt have to be something of our own.
it may be the feelings or the other party etc etc.

but normally, we wont show the mean side of us to pple.
and today, frm work, i've learnt a lesson.

theres this lady with fabulous figure came in, stood in front of the ice cream for sometime, tried almost all the flavours of the ice cream, tell mi that she dunno wad to choose, den start telling mi those ice creams will make her FAT.
ok. i mean, if u already step into this shop, u have the intention to eat icecream liao, den y bother so much abt how fattening the ice creams are.
besides that, she's not FAT. if she's FAT, den wad m i?
sometimes i really wonder, THIN pple who keep saying they are FAT FAT FAT, are they trying to mock at my horrendous figure? i mean its like, they are indirectly shooting mi.
u may say im sensitive.
ya! im SENSITIVE! can?!

ok. back to the lady. finally she decided on wad to buy.
and she requested for bigger scoop.
in my heart, i go like : " who is the one who say ice cream will make her fat?!"


and after she left the shop, i started complaining her to my colleague.
blah...blah...blah....
in other words, im saying bad stuffs behind people's back.
this make mi a very mean person.
but i found out that,
by doing this mean stuff (saying bad stuffs behind pple back)
i started to feel better.
and i begin to ask myself y?
is it because im born to be a mean girl?
i really hope its not.
but finally, i come out with a logic that which seems quite true to mi.
and the logic is :
"sometimes, we have to be mean to pple to achieve emotional balance."

we'll be emotional imbalance if we are always good to people.
some people dun deserve our kindness.
this is when we can be mean.
as a librian,
being emotionally balance is impt.
therefore,
to me, being mean to people occasionally is nth wrong.
well, to u, it may be an excuse.
but to mi, this is L-O-G-I-C.

results out tml.
argh.
bless mi!

woots~~
was browsing thru those fotos taken when i was young.
i think tt im real cute during those days.
but no longer now.
boo hoo.
its really surprise to c all those cute and demure actions i posed infront of the camera.
but as i grow older,
i grew uglier as well.
feel like burning all those fotos taken during primary school days.
my hairstyle is those real short ones,
like a mop on the head.
with my small eyes and thick lips.
my dad was pratically laughin at mi the whole nite and he called mi "ah tu"
i ask him y he called mi tt.
den his reply was.....
"cos pple c already will vomit. so call u ah tu!"

)(*&^%$#@!
hmph!

and oh ya.
my mum said tt i've took part in the cutest baby competition at eunos cc when i was young.
haha.
and guess wad.
i've got 2nd.
cool rite.
didnt reallly expected tt and i couldnt remembber a single thing abt that competition.
and i really wanna know who got the first
and c how he/she looks like now.

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im super high now.
cos i've juz bought the energy concert tix with my dad's credit card.
i love him so much.
bot the $88 one.
cos i think it doesnt really matter if the concert is held at indoor stadium, cos its like u still can c at different angles of the hall, compared to the suntec city concert hall.

ytd i attended the western food class.
and we went the wrong timing.
its not our fault actually,
cos the teacher initially told us our slot is the morning slot.
but we still attended the morning the slot.
im so thrilled to find out that one of the device in my kitchen is actually an oven.
which means tt i can cook and bake alot of food with it.
this shows that i dun cook in the past because i dun even know tts an oven.
think abt it, i felt so shameful abt it.

today, i attended the vanilla cupcakes.
easy to make lar.
the diao part is
i forget to put in the vanilla essence when mixing the eggs and stuffs.
omg~~
haha.
laugh till i peng.
so im baking vanilla cupcake without vanilla essence.
but the end product tasted quite gd.
quite successful.
because its my end product mah.
haha.

met a demanding and idiotic customer ytd at work.
because my boss was scooping durian icecream for 1 angmoh.
but because the durian icecream in between got alot of air
so the ice cream scoop looks very big.
i must say that im usually very generous when scooping ( especially to shuai ge. haha )
but this idiotic customer (its a couple) who ordered a double scoop (soursob and belgium chocolate),
looked at the angmoh's durian icecream and complained that wad i've given him is too small and little.
infact, its already quite alot. (tts wad my boss says)
they loooked rather unhappy abt it,
bo bian, my boss ask mi give them a little more and left the counter.
i gave them more soursop.
and they said : "wad abt the chocolate? give us more lar. so stingy!"
)(*&^%$#@!
WAD THE HELL?!!
if only i could roar vulgarities at them,
throw the double scoop icecream straight on their face,
paste the money they gave mi on their icecream smeared face
and kick them out of the shop.
argh!!!
they say im stingy.
wad abt them?
u 1 more, pay more lar.
wonder y this type of pple like to disgrace themselves out at public.
buay ta han.

today biz very gd.
sold alot of of tubs of icecream.
supposed to close shop at 9pm
but people keep coming in.
so in the end close at 9.30pm
tired!

my dad wanna bring us to malacca on 21 to 22 may.
he insisted
but i dun feel like going.
sianz.
should i or should i not?
any one wanna join mi to malacca?

im felt so shagged now.
wad has happened to singapore's weather recently?
its so stuffy,
it affects everyone's mood.
its like im going to melt any moment, if i juz walk on the streets.

ytd worked for 8 hours.
1st time work there so long.
tiring and boring.
becos afternn not much pple.
so i juz sit there and rot.
i dropped the whole tub of the soursop sobet icecream on the floor infront of the customers.
gosh.
luckily he didnt mind.

today, worked myself out at the gym,
followed by steambath
and swimming.
woo~~
leading a tai tai's life.
haha.

think i shall end here.
dun wanna bore u guys with my boring and retard life.

tml gotta wake up early to go sch
but i cant slp now.
i got hell loads to blog,
after reading the famous blogger xiaxue's blog.

tok abt today first ba.
meet sasa at tampines.
had ajisen for lunch.
had stupid games in the arcade.
watched the movie 'guess who'.
nice and sweet ending. love it!
meet up with ling.
shop ard.
tried on some clothes
bought jeans.
tts it for today.
spent alot today.
gosh. when can i earn them back.
i know some people ard mi were like looking for a job.
and they will go like :' aiya, u got job le still say no money'
true, i have a job.
but my job is one tt hv short working hours.
1 wk 3 days, 1 day 3 hours.
how to earn?
i spend faster den i earn.
haiz.
maybe looking for another part time ba.
but well....c first ba.

oh ya....
came across 1 joke frm the newpaper.
there this couple,
we stayed in this flat.
and the previous flat owner was a gambler.
he owed the ah longs alot of money,
without paying back the money, he sold his flat to this couple before fleeting.
and the ah longs did not know abt this.
so one day, those ah longs went up to the couple's apartment and vandalised the walls of the corridor.
using red paint, they wrote:
[to ah gou of unit #xxx
owe $ return $ (in chinese lar)
(912345678 (fone no. of ah long)]
the couple upon returning hm frm work, was obviously shocked to c those paintings.
out of anger,
the husband took out his cell fone
and called the ah long.
husband : "can i have 2 hawaiin pizza pls."
ah long : "sure. no problem. but at the end of the month muz pay mi back 4 large hawaiin pizza. fucked u!"

haha. pengz rite?
nowadays pple really getting more and more creative.

read xiaxue's blog juz now.
her recent entry was abt her, introducing her gerfren to the guy she like.
and the guy she likes, fall in love with her gerfren.
and this doesnt happen once,
but more den once. (fei hua rite?)
and she hates it when this kinda things happen.
and she states in her blog how she feels:
"It sucks for so many reasons I don't even know where to begin. It sucks because it bruises your ego, it sucks because it causes a tension between you and your friend, and you start to think bad, evil stuff about your friend that you'd never have dreamt you would (i.e: What is so good about her? Her ass is so fat blah blah). It sucks because you can't sleep thinking - what if my friend likes him back? And would I lose her because of this ... etc."

true enuff, it really sucks.
although this kinda thing didnt happen on me,
but i cant help imagine myself in this situation.
wad if my best fren fall for the guy i liked?

i know love this kinda thing cannot be forced de.
but i treat u as my best fren, tts y intro u to the guy i like,
hope u can help mi get closer to him.
but in the end, things turn out differently.
of cos, i'll get jealous,
the feeling of u betrayed mi will juz arise.
maybe, i wont consider forgiving my best fren ba.
ya. i know im bad.
im selfish.
but its difficult to forgive.
not to say forget.
its like, ur best fren snatch ur favourite teddy bear away.
no, its more complicated than that.
maybe on the outside, i tell my best fren : "its ok, wish u good luck with him"
but on the inside, i'll go "hope u guys will break up asap"
haha.
okok. i can sense rotten eggs coming my way.
but teach mi how to be a person with big heart to forgive and forget.

for mi, if my best fren intro the guy she likes to mi,
no matter how much i like the guy,
i will ctrl my feelings, not to let 'things' happen.
as in 喜欢归喜欢，但是不要发生比朋友更进一步的关系。
i know feelings difficult to control,
but i'll think of the consequences.
i dun wanna loose my best fren juz becos of that guy.

ok. think i tok too much le.
zZZ.

http://my.so-net.net.tw/sirwang/fur.wmv

this video shows the inhumane actions of human.
juz becos of those furs,
the animals muz suffer.
was really damn sad to watch this.
my tears juz couldnt stop streaming down.
gosh.
think i'll hv nitemare tonight.

i wonder y my life is so fucked up by my stupid emotions.
but my emotions juz wun generate automatically.
theres muz be some problems that lead me to be emotional
and tt, i shall not put it here.

this week is quite a busy week.
attended sushi class and tempura seafood platter class.
now i know wad to prepare the next time if i have any picnic going on.
not juz sandwiches anymore.
isnt that worth celebrating?
cos SAMANTHA LIM FINALLY KNEW HOW TO COOK AND PREPARE SOMETHING.
in the past, i normally only have to eat.
as for food, others will prepare.
so this is part of the reason that explain my size now.

next week got another 4 elective programmes.
tuesday gonna attend professional image and attire and business and social ettiquet.
friday, i have western food class
and sat vanilla cup cakes.
wednesday gonna work frm 1pm to 9pm.
so im free on mon and thurs.
but i've got a date with sasa on mon.
haha
anybody out there interested in steambath?
inform mi!

[世界上没有永远的爱情，只有永远的伤痕。]

feeling now :

i've bumped onto some mediacorp artiste these few days.
last thurs,
saw fiona xie and mo xiao ling at bedok interchange.
last sat, saw chen yi yun.
she came to ice cream gallery to buy ice cream.
i didnt serve her cos my boss was telling mi about their shop's system.
but she's gorgeous. pretty and sweet, cant imagine she juz gave birth 3 months ago.
and today, i saw her husband, lin ming lun coming out frm the dvd shop outside my hse.
ok. he grew sideways eversince he got married.

went to school today for freshmen orientation programme meeting.
boring.
den went to meet wenna.
she passed mi the ge dou tian wang episode 13.
went home and finished watching it.
and now i want episode 14.
argh...the show is nice!!!

and oh ya.
ytd, the retards society officially set up.
im the chairman,
clarissa the vicechairman
and wenna the welfare head.
haha.
so funny.
for more info,
pls visit clarissa's blog.

tata~

really muz admit that im old le.
juz abt 1 hour of shopping,
im so tired and my body starts to ache.

met up with sasa and mandy today.
go cineleisure watch the pacifier.
haha.
this show is funny lar.
worth watching.
and i finally had the old chang kee curry puff which i've been craving for weeks.

had kfc for dinner.
took neoprints.
shopped ard at taka.
and bought basic driving theory book.
yesh!
we gonna take up the highway code.
we gonna learn how to drive.
haha.

went home after tt.
due to the tireness,
sasa and i decided to share a cab back home.
the retarded looking driver didnt didnt turn on the meter.
and when he discovered, we were actually reaching sasa hse.
after sasa alight, we proceed to my hse.
and when i alight,
he says he wanna charged mi $0.50 more because he didnt turn on his meter juz now.
so i muz pay $0.50 more for his retarded mistake.
is it my fault?
and the distance from bedok mrt to sasa hse is less then $0.50 i supposed.
but luckily today i xin qing hao.
didnt argue with him.

the most diao part is after i get off that cab,
the retarded driver honk at mi,
asking mi ti stop.
i tot i left smth behind, so i turned back and look.
he rolled down his window and ask mi
"excuse mi, how to go out to the main road ar?"

so now u know y i call him that retarded driver.

天啊！！！
ENERGY 要解散了！！！

i really hope this is not true.
but....
they are having their goodbye singapore concert this july.
and i confirm + gurantee + chop going.
this time round,no one, and nothing is gonna stop mi frm going.
love'em!

sometimes, i really wonder
y my mother overprotect my youngest sis.
she juz close 1 eye and open 1 eye to watever things she done wrongly.
take for instance,
she had a bad habit of pressing the buttons of the lift when she is coming out of the lift.
imagine u are waiting for the lift,
and so suay tt my sis is in the lift u are waiting for.
she pressed the lift buttons when she is coming out.
and u enter.
how would u feel?
if she's ur sis, how would u feel den?
i've been telling her off regarding this bad habit of hers
but she still doing the same thing.
and today, she did it again.
so i say : " how many times must i tell u not to do this? u really dun have manners leh. people will think your mother never teach u manners ok!"
my mother upon hearing these, flared up.
"shut ur stupid mouth."

at that instance, i felt so hurt.
im trying to teach ur daughter some manners.
imagine i c already oso feel tt my sis dun have manners, den how will outsider think?
normally, u says its also part of my responsibility to teach my sis wats right wats wrong, den now u called mi to shut my stupid mouth.
fine. fine. fine.
shall not care abt any one of my sis.
shall keep my stupid mouth shut.
its ur daughter, not mine.
all u do is to open 1 eyes and close 1 eyes,
cant u c she doing some wrong thing?
ok. i juz said its none of my business le.
enuff of this.

ytd went sasa hse for mahjong in the morning.
wen ling mi and sasa.
the rest couldnt make it.
but nvm cos mahjong needs 4 people and we have 4 people.
ytd i was the suay 1. cos initially didnt win any round at all.
only the last 2 rounds. i won.

den in the evening, went to the icecream gallery to report.
my first day.
haha.
well, this job is never easy.
now my right hand is shaking/ trembling due to excessive use of strength when scooping.
the ice cream were hard.
lucky i had dinner b4 reporting to work
if not sure no strength to scoop.
well, scooping is oso not easy.
the auntie there scoop de ice cream all so round and nice,
i scoop de all ka na sai.
so ugly and flat.
if its not too big, den its too small.
i felt so stress can. i cant scoop nice ice cream for the customers.
boo hoo.
some more i scoop very slow, den its like the ice cream all melting.
boo hoo.
but i believe practice makes perfect.
but i scared i no strength to practice le.

my schedule is out,
my time slot is wed, fri and sat.
6pm to 9pm
short working hours.
but at least better den nth.

im still so angry with my mum!!!
argh!

phew.
over.
exams over.
year 1 is over.
its time to slack.

dun ever ask mi how well have i doneor how will i fare for my exams.
im not greedy!!!
all i ask is C and above.
nth below grade C pls.

felt so aimless after exams.
its tat funnt feeling i dunno how to describe.
its like, exams finally over, today is wad im looking forward eversince 2 wks ago.
but after my paper today,
i juz cant cheer my mood up,
i felt a tinge of sadness.
m i emotional or wad?
guess tt im juz tired lar.

watch house of fury and took neoprints with xin.
the show was nice.
the actions, the plot
and the shuai ges.
haha.
sitting juz rite below the air con
so we were like freezing away.

went hm after movie
cos im juz too tired.
my brain isnt functioning.
the downpour at my hse here was damn heavy.
was drenched eventhough i was carrying an umbrella.
rent 3 dvds hm.
intend to watch them to kill time.
see.
after exams, im left with nth to do.
boring`~

went home after movie

Friendster now have the joint horoscope thingy.

den they introduced astrology.com

so i go try mine.

"North Node of the Moon in Aries

In a prior life, samantha, you deferred to the wishes of others and did not learn to think for yourself. This time, you are forced to take action and to make split-second decisions, causing you to feel very uncomfortable. This time you are still concerned with making things more beautiful and harmonious, finding any aggressive action distasteful.

In the past, you relied on outward physical beauty to carry you and in this life you are still susceptible to flattery and can spend a great deal of time and money on cosmetics, grooming and clothing.

You hate being alone, samantha, and yet wish that people would leave you alone. You are so sensitive to your surroundings that anything which can be construed as coarse sends you off to seek the solace of music or art. The symmetry you find calms your bruised sensibilities. "

and i find it so true can....
spooky.
maybe u can try tt out too.

sucks.
the stats test really sucks.
instead of the usual 17 to 18 questions,
now it reduce to 14 question,
which means 1 question now carries 20 marks.
omg~~
the 1st question already wrong.
supposed to use t score, but the careless mi used z score.
i dunno how to do the anova question w/o using the statistical table provided,
i dunno how to do the damn probability question.
gosh~
sounds serious eh?
guess this time round juz like my seat number,
104
if translate to chinese,
yi ling si
dun u think it sounds like:
yi ding si
suay!

2 more days to my 1st paper.

9 more days to my last paper.

im sure it'll be over in a wink.

cos time flies.

ah gong is getting weaker and weaker after going thru chemography.

he vomits watever he eats.

he seems to have no strength to walk.

he muz lie on the bed most of the time.

he has no appetite.

his beer belly shrunked by half within 4 days.

he does not cook dinner anymore.

he's thinking of giving up on the chemography.

and yesterday he was admitted to the hospital again.

cos of stomach ache or gastric pain.

and he was sent for drip becos he hasnt been eating since the day of chemography.

wad i can do to lessen his pain and sufferings?

cos it hurts alot to c him go thru all these.

gop frm sasa de blog.
abt jc thingy.
quite funny la.
tts y wanna share in case u didnt visit sasa's blog.

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How many JC students does it take to change a light bulb?
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One faculty to design the new bulb, one faculty to test it out, one faculty to market it and one guy to write a stupid E-mail about lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb?
A: None. They'd use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate (how do you think they're able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They'd prefer it darker. *raises eyebrows*

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They wouldn't bother.

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: Huh, wat litebarbu...

Q: Don't you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: TJC!

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already.

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: F*** the lightbulb lah, the principal will do something about it. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

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hmmm....maybe thr also this sorta jokes on poly.
haha.

this yr april fool is a dull and boring one.
pathetic.
and thanks wenhao for the april fool sms.
at least it reminded mi that today is april fool.
really miss those times in sec sch days
when the guys will prank on girls.

will start working at the ice cream shop outside my house immediately after my exams.
ya.
i dun wish to have any free time to slack and think of anything.
so i'll juz work and earn $$!!!