Hong Kong / Macau study tour 2006

Thanks to my sis, i have to re-upload these pictures up onto my blog cos she closed my 1st window. argh~

#$^##&$*&

Day 1: Macau Tower




The exibits at Macau Tower

Day 2 - took a ferry from macau to hong kong!

the ferry tickets

At the ferry terminal, us with mr cho

In the ferry. (which i think is way much comfortable than buget airline seats.)

A secret shot of our tour guide mr sim, whom we think he looks like Wu Zun.

Day 3 - City university of Hong Kong.

This hand belongs to our dear salty princess, ms ng hui xian. (-.-) extra!

Both of us were born on the same day, same year.
*hint* its 28 September.

With our student ambassador who brought us to shop at mong kok. and of cos the guy in purple shirt (SMRT uniform look alike) is Dr KK Lam.

Day 4 - Olympaian Shopping Mall

In the bus, on our way there.

Day 5- Disney Adverture begins....

Us with Susan, who gave us briefing on the HR issues of HK Disney Land

With Ms Lai

Mr Cho

The Parade.

Btw, Mickey and Minnie are not married. They are juz dating. :)



My all time favourite fairytsle character, Cinderella, who have to retun before 12am.

After Disney Land, we went Victoria Peak in the night to experience the beautiful night scene of HK.

Us with Grace and yuwei.

Mickey has got a smelly armpit.

Pictures of our accomodation

1504! hx and my room~









Us zi-lian-ing in JY room.

Finally, Day 6. Singapore, here we come~






oh! He Jun Xiang was in the same flight as us and we managed to take a foto of him.

The end~

in case u dunno, im back from HK on sun!
took quite a number of pictures
but its still with hui mei.
need to wait for her internet connection to be ready before i can upload them.
:)

think i caught a flu.
ahHH CHhh0o!


每一次呼吸， 我的心也会不知不觉地跟着揪起来。
一直在逃避。一直不敢面对。
对。。。那就是我。
一个没用的我。
这样的我。。。真的好令人讨厌。
有时候，连我自己都无法忍受这样的我。
假面的坚强，虚伪的勇敢。
你们还会接受我吗？

im going to hongkong tml!
and will be back on sunday night!
miss me everybody!
i'll make sure i enjoy myself.

till den.

dear, i'll miss you! take good care of urself and ruffles is prohibited!
haha.
surprise is coming your way. (u'll soon figure out)
muacks.

HOLLER HOLLER HOLLER!
EXAMS OVER!

it comes with a wink and goes in a blink.
but anyways, conclusion is.....ITS FINALLY OVER on 21 August 2006, Monday, 11.10am

4 straight days of exams.
tough.
tedious.
stress.
study till i bleed.
especially for the last 3 papers, where much of memorising is to be done.
and when u are pressed for time, but nth seems to go into your mind....
so wad happened?

yes! i breakdown infront of the bloody computer while reading through the past years exam papers.
and whats more embarrassing is.....
crying out loud infront of my parents.
i think they freaked out and in their mind, they muz have thought " i didnt know my daughter actually look so ugly when she cry"
wahahaha.
but the first thing that my mummy asked me when i cried is: "ur boyfriend bully u ar?"
haha.

cute mummy.
poor boyfriend.
stupid me.

but managed to convinced her that i didnt manage to finish the paper i was having that day and couldnt really memorised the next exam module.


i felt rather comforted by what my mummy says to me when i break down.
she says " didnt do well den didnt do well lor....at most repeat the module again."
although this is the worst thing that i dun wish it to happen,
but i found myself feeling so blessed at that instant moment.
to have a mother who says its ok to repeat a module.
haha.

daddy was harsh....
he says i deserve it cos i last min den hug the buddha's leg.
=(
although its quite true,
but at the moment, i dun need him to remind me that.

and finally, it was monday which i've been lookin forward to.
but den...haiz.
when everybody happily leaves school to celebrate the end of exam,
the 6 of us (me, hx,hm,jy,tob,qj)
need to return to BizIT to complete our MPC report!
argh!
we stayed all the way till 6pm and have yet to finish.
so must bring home to complete it.

went tiong bahru to dine together at grillers.
full. *burp*
went home striaght as i was feeling tired and sis having exam. c if i can help out.

sobs. i still gotta complete my BD project.
i hate BD!
wad kind of life am i leading.
miserable :(

looking forward to hong kong trip.
6 more days.
yippee!

Happy Birthday to
NG CHUN HUI.
this is specially dedicated to you on this special day.
19 yrs of age. wow.
the 'oldest' among us, weekdays.

im so sorry that i cant join u guys for the celebration,
due to the stupid exam i have tml.
i'll make sure i score well to compensate for not celebrating it with u guys.
i seriously miss you so much! (and of cos the rest of the weekdays too, incase they get jealous when they see this)

anyway, hope the video below can at least make u smile.
=)
Happy Birthday!

(pls ignore the last part of the video. i dunno how to edit the name lar. haha. its the tot that counts rite? love ya!)

i would like to dedicate this song to everyone out there, who had fall down and learning how to walk again.
this song motivated me quite alot.
and maybe, it will motivate you too.

elva - 我要的世界



远方天空
云层遮盖前往方向
迷失在黑暗之中

天使问我
手中紧握不放的是什麽
我说 寻找梦想的灯火
有时我会失去力量
再艰难的旅途也要骄傲的走过

眼前的世界 音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过

我要的世界 梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

人生会有疲惫 想放弃的时候
看不清路的尽头

天使身后
太阳照醒希望的翅膀
那是未来伸出的双手

失去过 相信的力量
再艰难的旅途
也要骄傲的走过

眼前的世界
音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过

我要的世界 梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

眼前的世界 音乐演奏中
不停挑战我
就算曾悲伤过

我要的 世界梦想在怀中
未来呼唤我
相信我会坚强的走到最后

EXAMS
=(


but its gonna be over soon.
miss me till den.

i dunno if its a good thing to really give up thinking so much.
i feel that i've grown up,
im not so childish anymore.
i'll not be sad over trival matters such as straying away from friends.
i learnt how to look on the bright side.
but in other words...it seems like giving up.
yeah~ i dunno. depends on how you think.

i dunno why but my mind is blank now.
it seems that my heart causes my mind to turn blank.
so contradicting.
i juz mention that i've learnt not to think too much,
yet, im thinking abt something now.

if someone were to ask me wad is love.....
my answer will be....
love is ....the willingness to sacrifice.

finally, theres a bit of space for breathing,
after spending like 4 weeks to complete projects before deadlines.
supposed to take IAF CA2 on tuesday, but i didnt turn up for the test as i didnt really study.......
so decided to went for the restest instead.
and my friends says the test was like super easy....
well...i cannot say that i dun feel the sense of regrets...but....if i didnt study, wads the point going for an easy test?

i passed my final theory and i booked my practical test le...
it will be on 10 Nov....
juz a day before my dad's birthday.
i hope i can pass on that day...
but these few days de lesson had been demoralising.
my instructor keep reprimanding me,
i've been making the same mistakes over and over again.
i juz cant seem to focus while im driving.
so wads exactly wrong with me?

went coldplay concert on 10 july with huat :)
the whole concert was high with lots of angmoh!
the $120 ticket seats were quite infront
but the seats were hard and uncomfortable.
nevertheless, i not only enjoyed the concert, but also the company of my special one.

juz read thru mr naufal's blog.
i wonder how have he been.
hows his life at OPSS.
he is one of the teacher that had certainly add colours and creat some impact in my life.
i remembered the days when we stayed back to practice dikir barat,
how we managed to perform within short time frame...
i missed him, i miss the days when he will give us lots of advices.
wish him all the best :)

gtg.
till den.

i made potato chicken pie for huat ytd.
and im so glad that he likes it....
effort not wasted! yes!

eversince last yr's mothers' day,
i nv cooked except for maggie mee...
and yesterday, i picked up my courage to prepare smth again, with the help of my colleague, nora.
and i ended up late!
haha.

been really busy....
i think i've never been so busy in my life before.
there is juz so many things to be done.

pimples keep popping out now a days.
its so irritating! i feel so ugly with those unsightly pimples on my face.

sometimes... why do we even need to say sorry for the things that we dun even want to apologise, juz for the sake of solving conflicts and maintaining peace?
fake fake fake.

world cup finals!
Italy or France?
hmmm....
cant decide.

What happened and what have i done this week.

• school reopened.
• doesnt make much difference as i was equally busy during my 3 weeks term break.
• finally meet up with my dear xin hui to catch "she's the man". it was a funny show.
• ate subway.
• bought 2 new pair of earrings.
• ate half boiled egg.
• had fish and co and i saw DAVID TAN with his wife and son. (his son was wearing a superman outfit)
• key in survey results into SPSS until i siao
• BD research
• GBE research
• BD report.
• work on wed, fri and sun.
• attended driving lessons on thurs morning.
• saw chin leng at mrt station
• went play pool with huat
• ate blueberry muffin with a smiley face drawn on the plate :)
• watch England VS portugal and its damn boring.
• BRAZIL LOse and i lose $19 bucks. sheesh!

yawnz. i cant think anymore.
nitenite.

到底是人为了爱情而改变，还是爱情改变了一个人？

while i was bathing juz now, i kept thinking abt this sentence.
so which way is the one that pple practice?

wadever it is, it involoves love.
it doesnt matter who changed who cos its all out of love.
you changed because of love.
and love somehow changed you too.

but after the change...... are you still the person that you used to be?

i really wonder....

have you ever felt that the whole world is giving up on you, everyone turning away from you?

i felt so helpless at a certain point of time when i think so this.

its like, my driving instructor is giving up on me.
my parents giving up on me.
my frens giving up on me.
someone close giving up on me.

and sooner or later...
i think...im giving myself up too.

somtimes... its really amusing to find myself so stupid and blur.
i cant stand myself anymore.


its really difficult to please everyone isnt it?

everyone, next time u see me,
pls call me rain goddess.

let me tell you why.

been going for my driving pratical lessons recently.
and today is my 5th lesson.

and for the past 4 lessons,
i've been driving in the rain.
and the rain only starts pouring everytime when i reach bukit gombak!
so infuriating!
and since this always happen in the afternoon, i tot it wun happen today cos my lesson starts at 9.50 in the morning.
but hell, i was wrong!
it raining cats and dogs when i woke up at like 7.30am!
and when i reach the driving centre and my instructor ask me to drive, i really cant c wads infront of me!
so scary!
and so i complained to my instructor that it will rain everytime im having practical lesson.
and he name me " the rain goddess"
-_-"
well...if it rains the next lesson again....
i really think those countries facing drought will love me.
:)

changed my blogskin.
cos there's smth wrong with the previous 1.
pple have been complaining that i haven blogged for a long time.
and i shall make this entry the 1st post of JUNE.
:)

BLOGGED.

see pple, i've blogged. so stop complaining.

nth interesting happened.
my life is still revloving around with the same people, same things.
my grandma is getting better.
:)

been visiting the hospital very frequently,
and i love the nursery there.
it really makes me feel that life is wonderful.
and i can really wonder how much have u really grown from that tiny whiny ugly creature. [i always think that just born babies are ugly]

and my aunt also gave birth to a baby girl 2 weeks ago.
this is her 4th child.
her 1st 3 are all boys.
so can u feel her joy?
she called me with regards of the name she wanna name her baby.
helped her look through her dictionary and gave her my opinion.
:)

went kbox with hx and y this afternoon.
and cycling after that.
oOO. muscles aching cos really got quite alot of uphills.
and my butt nv fail to get hurt after every cycling lesson.

juz now after i changed blogskin,
i checked on my archives,
and realised my blog is almost 2 yrs old.
omg. but theres like less than 400 posts. curently this post is #390.
haha. (:

hmm...nth more interesting to update u guys le.
tata.
:)

*can c that im a happy girl cos there is alot of smiley faces in this entry.
toked to jia ytd and i learnt smth.
its not the matter of trying to be happy already.
its ur mindset.
u will be happy, if you want to be happy.
and so, im happy!
muacks.
:)

May is coming to an end,
then comes June....
den my 3 weeks term break starts!
i feel so seriously out of cash.
i wanna work, i want money.
if only i can strike lottery now.
i wanna take up more jobs,
but when i open up my organiser,
my schedule is like so packed with driving lessons and project meetings.
theres juz so many things to do, yet so little time.
wads worst is that its Singapore Sales NOW!
teach mi how not to spend.
i hate the feeling of so restricted by the lack of cash,
i hate the feeling of having to plan ahead and sacrifice some of the little things.
but but but....
for this coming hong kong trip, im juz gonna face this situation of mine willingly.
yes, im going hongkong this coming end of august with the school and my frens!
woohoo~
and heard from jiayi that the period is juz nice hongkong's summer sales!
gonna shop till i drop there!
so gotta save alot now.

people ask me why do i have to save so much and save so hard when my parents could help me a little with the expenses.
but...i dun feel like taxing on my parents anymore, yet, i feel so suffocated with the lack of money.
gosh.

my sis juz came back from Hong Kong last fri.....
its soon will be my turn...

the past weeks have been a busy one
tests, projects,work.
and i predict things will get worse when school reopens for term 2.

grandma was admitted into hosiptal last sat.
and she juz went through one operation juz now.
x-ray shows that theres smth that need to be remove.
but after the operation, the doc say they couldnt find the "thing" that needs to be remove as shown in the x-ray.
and they suspect........


im scared. seriously so scared.
im scared of the ordeal that i muz once face again juz like 1 year plus ago.
the pain that my grandma is facing now is juz too much for her to take.
im scared of my relationship.
i scared i have no time.
im scared of time. really.

am suppose to be napping now...
but somehow, i dunno y i ended up here.
haha.

went ah wei house for LAI LI LING de bday celebration on friday after work.
even though i was there for like less than a hour,
u know i still love u as much de right?
haha.
hope u will have a peaceful yet happening 19th year of ur life!
muacks!

read wenna's blog and she said that pple grow up and become self-centred and stuffs like that.
well...i agree with this.
as we grow up, we become more practical.
we (or maybe I) stop believing in things that will happen in fairytale.
we are no longer as innocent and naive as how we used to be.
things normally turn out in a different way of how we think it should be.

y is this like that.
its scary to grow up isnt it?

sometimes there are certain decisions that im so surprised that i actually made them.

i really dunno wad to blog abt.
i've been leading a busy life everyday.
sch started 4 weeks.
and projects will soon due and tests are all coming in.
the projects that im handling now are all quite "big case" and hence, its very stress.

tml will be mothers' day.
a very happy mothers' day to all mothers.
last yr, prepared western meal for mothers' day, but my mummy says its not nice.
hence, i shall not cook anymore. its demoralising.
i've lost all my courage in cooking.
haha. im exaggerating.
take it as an excuse of being lazy.

yesterday, weekdays celebrated teck chiat bday and had iccecream cake from the icecream gallery.
i was working and so they did they blowing of cake and stuffs while i was serving the customers.
but well....
hope he enjoyed yesterday.

sometimes.....i gain something and i lose something.
what i've lose....im juz gonna admit it and face it...
even if it means im gonna sacrifice my time and my frens....
cos what i'd gain....is also juz as important.

today is election day.
i asked my daddy which party he gonna vote for...
and thats wad he told me....

"投票是神圣的。 投票是秘密的。"

-_-"

had my 1st driving practical on wednesday...
was surprised as i got to drive the car around the sch's circuit on the very 1st lesson.
now the nearest slot i can sign up for the next lesson is june le...
chiong ar!!!

gotta rush off for work le! byebye.

today is election day.
i asked my daddy which party he gonna vote for...
and thats wad he told me....

"投票是神圣的。 投票是密密的。"

-_-"

had my 1st driving practical on wednesday...
was surprised as i got to drove the car around the sch's circuit on the very 1st lesson.
now the nearest slot i can sign up for the next lesson is june le...
chiong ar!!!

gotta rush off for work le! byebye.

[a story of he and she.]

she liked him first.
and alot of things happened.
in the end, he liked her too.

however, she didnt want to be in a relationship at that time,
and therefore rejected him over and over again.

He didnt give up on her.
and finally, he and she were together.

after spending 3 months together,
he asked her:
"now that we are together for almost 3 months, have you ever regretted your actions to reject mi in the past?"

well...so whats her answer?







her answer:
"eversince the first day that we are officially together, i put my past into a parcel and sent it away.
We may have hurt each other before, but that was the past. and the past is already now in the parcel that is sent out. it has nth to do with me now.
Now, what matters most is that we are together, cherishing each and every moment."




so......have you put ur past into a parcel and send it out?





i love you.

im so tired!
i have red cheeks and red nose!
cos im sunburnt!
ahh!!!

went escape theme park with huimei, jiayi, huat and qj.
thanks to hm, she got 6 free tickets!
the sun is damn scorching today and i perspire throughout!
the tickets consists for $3 food vouchers and drinks too.
escape is boring. there is only afew rides that are exciting.
and u wun want to try again and again if the queue is like so long.
so we left the theme park at ard 1pm.

after that went cycling with huat. the weather was better in the noon.
after cycling we slacked at white sands.


tml labour day.
i shall slack at home.
yawnz.

when everything you see starts to spin,
when every breathe u take juz didnt seems enough,
when every beat of your heart is thumping like drums,
when you are blinded by anger,
when you are too weak to continue thinking,
when the impact came crashing down on you.....

its when i break down.

the unbearable tears.
the uncontrollable emotions.
the unspeakable tantrums.
the unexplainable guilt.
the undesirable circumstances.

the stagnant moment,
the magnanimous forgiveness.

some says its just like roller coaster ride.
but i say,


its the power of love.
yes, LOVE.

As promised, a photo of phoon (my supervisor), mi, farhana, huiyun and lynette (farhana and huiyun's supervisor).
phoon is wearing my all time favourite colour!
and dun u think he looks like the taiwan comedian, dong zhi cheng?
haha.

crossroad.
dilema.
confused.

life is so unfair.
but thats wad everybody gonna accept it.
so am i.

i know its been 19 years since i took my very first breath,
but up till now, its really difficult not to compare.
yes, i know i should be contented with what i have...
but sometimes, i couldnt help but continue to envy others, or maybe sometimes to the extent of being jealous.
maybe thats human nature,
maybe thats the childish and insensible me.
for all i know, what i've lost or missed, could nv be returned.
therefore, its really difficult for me to stop envy-ing others, jealous over [you-know-who]
yes, i dun deny this fact that my living environment is really fortunate compared to alot of pple.
i do treasure and cherish everything in my life.
but the imbalance in me.... is smth that is always there eversince the start of my sec sch life and it still exists.

the truth hurts, and im learning how to deal with it.
everybody needs time to learn to let go,
and maybe i just need a little more time compared to others.

i guess, majority of us always make comparisons,
and thats y life has always been complicated.
its the enviroment that most of us have been brought up in.
when we were young, parents compare our results with others.
teachers compare our behaviour with others.
classmates compare their academic welfare with others.
friends compare about the environment they live in.
colleagues compare abt the ranks and salaries.
with all this comparisons, pple react differently.
some work harder to achieve their desired goals.
some use cunning tricks and methods.

but i choose to dwell on the past and complain abt my helplessness.
cos i guess...thats the only thing i can do to make myself better.
its a way for me to relieve the anger, the pain, the jealousy.

sorry if i've upset you with what i've said.
i may be spoilt in my own way.
yes. you are right, no use comparing when things are over.
i only make maybe more angry only.

im so glad that i have u with me now.
thanks for everything.
sometimes what i do may not be enough to show how feelings grow.
i am blessed.
i am happy.
cos i have you.
:)

Finally, after 6 weeks, its time for me to bid goodbye to Jardine OneSolution and continue with my last year of polytechnic education.

i had fun as well as difficulties but i conquer them all.

really wanna thanks my supervisor, lynette and charmaine for all their care and concern in this 6 weeks.

not forgetting my 2 best frens in this company, hui yun and farhana!

Everything was like in a rush on my very last day of work. i compiled everything that i'd done for the past 6 weeks into a file and showed my supervisor. den he ask mi do a report for VMware solutions day in RWPS format. den i start to panic cos i forget the format liao. lucky i still have RWPS report in my yahoo mail, and so i take the report as start off with executive summary, conclusion and recommendations. My supervisor, phoon, drove us to parkway for lunch at swensens! had crayfish pasta and was like so god damn full. haha. his treat again! yeah! we left at abt 2.15pm but phoon says he got a meeting with his boss at siglap at 2.30pm and so he drop us off halfway to take a bus back. so when we reached the office, its like 3pm le. incredible rite? we left the office at 12.30pm for lunch and came back at 3pm. wad will u think if u dunno wad happen to us?

after reaching the office, i work on my report and finish everything by 5.15pm. after that, start clearing my desk and got the HR to debrief us and i get to go home at abt 6.15! and guess wad, when i was in the bus to mrt, i remembered that i forget to return the key to my drawer. shit man! think gotta post it back to them lor. haha. wait till they call me den say lar.

since its my last day, i decided to take some fotos of my work desk for rememberance!

my work desk.....

 

heez. got my name on my work desk. and yes, everybody has their own dustbin! haha.

 

thats my chair and my dustbin. i dunno why but chia (the guy sitting next to me) likes to throw his rubbish into my dustbin and everytime the uncle clear my dustbin, he will give mi a weird look, probably thinking " why the hell this girl got so much rubbish everyday?" haha. The stuffs behind my chair are not mine, don't worry. If its mine, it wun be so untidy. i want to pack things up for them as the stuffs on the shelves are dirty!

 

thats my drawer where i keep important documents and tidbits! *shh~!!*

 

the company laptop which i have the ownership for just 6 weeks. well...although its damn slow, but well....it connects mi to my classmates who are also suffering at itp. and sometimes, when we are bored we will add each other into our chat room and start chatting nonsense!

 

this is my mug! cute? as for the paper below, u can imagine how bored am i with the scribblings and stuffs.

i still have a group foto of phoon, mi, lynette, hui yun and farhana, but its still with farhana. so i'll post them up when i get it from farhana. till den!


*tml is the start of year 3 sem 1! so fast!!! will be graduating soon!*

Today, on my way to work, I saw quite a few teenagers wearing black shirts with the word "president challenge" on it. Immediately what comes to my mind was….They must be from Singapore Poly oso!

One of them approached me and ask if I would like to donate. I took out my wallet and tried digging out the available coins in it….but I forgot I took out all my coins last night to feed my piggy bank. So I juz take out a $2 note and donate it. Haha.

I know I've been like saying this for the 34389691463th times in my blog. But I juz wanna say again. TIME FLIES.

I remembered I was juz like one of them, asking people for donations at NUS 2 years ago. And shoo~ now im blogging in the midst of my attachment which is like going to end in 2 days time. Then I will return back to school to complete the last year of my polytechnic life. Everything was just like yesterday. Like yesterday was the 1st day of freshman orientation where I meet my classmate for the very 1st time. Like yesterday was the 1st day when I was the class fac of the new batch of year one.
and now, in a blink of eye, I'm gonna graduate with a diploma, which will be like tomorrow since time passes like no one's business.

I can really feel myself aging. I used to be 13 years old. Everybody used to be 13.
But now, im 19 this year.
Y most of us only come to realize that time passes extremely fast when we start secondary education?

Back to the donation thingy.
While im waiting for the bus, I tok to one of them and they say they are oso from DBA. Same course as me. He ask mi where m I going at that point of time and I told him " im having my attachment now"

"huh…u year 3 liao ar?"
"no lar….this new acad year den I’ll be year 3."
"oh I c….u don’t have a year 3 face."
"-__- is this a compliment?"
“ haha. U can take it as a compliment”

Now, should I be happy or sad about this?

its april now.
3 weeks ago, i told myself to hang on for another 5 weeks.
now, its 2 weeks more before my attachment officially ends.

for this week, all i did was call, call and call customers.
im sick of repeating the same old things to every customers i speak to.
its really sad when you are only doing your job and yet the person you are talking to on the phone is the most ridiculous on earth.
i wish i could slam down the phone.
if only i can, i will shout and scream vulgarities into the phone lor.

den on thurs, sheryl and me was given a task that pple need to use 6 weeks to complete that.
however, we were only given 3 days.
and so, we are asked to work OT.
we stayed back till like 10pm on thurs,
9.15pm on fri.
and sat, 8pm.
yes. i hope it was april's fool too.
but yes, we stayed in the office till 8pm on a saturday.
we almost need to go back office today,
but my supervisor says no need.
lucky! phew.
but but but....the good news is,
from fri, we could claim cab fares and the cost of the good food we ate!
and and and and and.....my supervisor gave us a day off next fri!
thats mean i no need to go work on next fri!
whee~
thurs is gems appointment, and i only need to go back office after 1pm.
so i think its a super long weekend for next week.
im so happy.

i could feel myself expanding horizontally too!
these days with OT i ate so much!
ate fastfood for dinner the 3 consecutive days.
on fri, my supervisor treated us to the thai village restaurant at singapore post centre.
and he was like ordering the food like no one's business.
fri nite, he ordered dinner for us.
cos it was raining, the delivery line for kfc was engaged.
so he went out personally to get dinner for us.
guess wad he got for us?
KFC, MAC and LJS.
i think he treated us as pigs lor.
the 3 of us obviously cant finish the food!

through this OT,
i learnt and chatted quite alot from my supervisor.
hmm....its quite sad when u start to enjoy ur work when the attachment period is near to the end.
haha.

well, campus superstar juz ended.
and zhi yang won!
yeah!
actually, both teresa and zhi yanf sings really well.
so no matter who won,
it doesnt matter anymore,
cos they both can qualify as a superstar with their superb voice.

my motivation sentence for this week:
whatever i do now, im sowing seeds for the future.






take care of your throat my dear.
drink more water ok?
=)

im recovering.
im genki~~ (like real)

took 2 days MCs.
which means that i didnt go work for 2 days.
hope it wun affect my itp grades.


its good to fall sick.
cos u got to sleep day in and out.
live a life of a pig for the 2 days MCs.
eat sleep watch tv eat sleep watch tv bla bla bla


oOO....
another 3 more weeks to go.
ganbatte ne!

regarding results....
well....expected lar.
juz that my GPA drop le.
sob. i think cos because of my gems lar.
stupid real estate C+ only. dunno where gone wrong.
pple i dun recommend u to take real estate marketing.
its boring. even though its open bo0ok exam, still difficult to get A lar.

cb- b
pscm- b
ecm- b
fm- b+
uccd- B+
hrm- C+
real estate- C+

yadda yadda....

I'm sick =(

guys, got any things wanna contact mi,
pls DO NOT call me
cos im down with sore throat resulting in loss of voice to talk to you.
sms mi will do.
thanks!

The handwriting analysis is scary cos my results were like 90% true.
yes i know im working now....
but i got nth to do and tadah~
the handwriting analysis. go try go try!

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******

Samantha exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Samantha allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Samantha has a vivid imagination.


Samantha is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.


Something is incomplete in Samantha's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Samantha's sexual needs.


Samantha is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Samantha basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.


In reference to Samantha's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Samantha slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Samantha can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.


Samantha is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.
Samantha is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.


Samantha is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. She feels emotional situations very strongly. She'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before her. Then, for some reason unknown to herself, she will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to her. Sometimes, she feels that she can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge her emotional batteries", she will spring back into action. Because Samantha feels situations intensely, she relates easily to others' problems. If she is not careful, when she comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, she will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Samantha reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. She may plan everything in detail before she even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through. Samantha has a strong need for affection. She thrives on touching and being touched. Samantha desires being told that she is loved, every day. She enjoys being the center of attention. She loves attention, sometimes she even retells stories that got her attention earlier. Samantha has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because she relates so well to other people. She likes expressing how she feels, what she is doing, and what she plans to do. She is a people person. She will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive her insane.)


People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Samantha doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

its so boring at work today.
and because i promised myself not to sign in MSN during work,
i decided to send out emails instead.
haha.

red: me
blue: huixian


Hi, im bored.
If u c this email, reply smth now.

I muz ctrl myself not to sign in msn!



hahah..muz be cant survive w/o msn hor..wah..u got ur own email acc..i dun haf..still using my hotmail acc to send things to my supervisors...u so free?



Yes! Im so free now. Everybody is so not free for me lor. My supervisor ask mi test my script with several colleagues but they not free. I feel so unwanted. U leh? Wad u doing now? Busy ar?



hahaha...like role play sia..mi ah..slack also la..coz i do liao juz tat haven send my boss. Tml gotta bring wrapping papers, finalise e stuffs for thurs event lor..



Wrapping papers to wrap presents for the kids ar?



ya lor...got contest den got 3 winners. so i was told to buy wrapping papers n bring tml. oh ya..i let my supervisor sign liao. get a B. I wonder how he grade sia. actually he is overall in charge of ITP students but he wun be e one assigning work to us. But i anything can go find him.



Hahahah. Den y let his grade u? muz let the one who assign u the work to grade u ma…..u got A for conduct? Haha. Who is online on msn now?



he sae he sign leh..so let him sign lor. both B. He like happie happie , easily write B de. u? wenhao, qj, celine, yaohua, jasmine..sheh visited jasmine this morning but jasmins wasnt in at tat time..my supervisor kenna teased again for e proposal thingy. he getting married in sep..


I didn’t see my sup de expression when he graded mi cos he was in his room. Y I not online den so many pple online leh? Hmph! So when is sheh going to visit and have long lunch with you? Ur sup de gf agreed to married him? So sweet!



oh..i was beside him when he grade..he was talking to mi when he grading lor..hahaha..dun be jealous la..dunno leh..i asked my supervisor whether sheh got contact him, he sae no. sae not so fast. den ok lor..dun bother to call sheh also..hehe..since he got go visit jasmine he shld be got visit mi de la. shld be agree liao. coz juz now i overheard they sae sep get married leh..



Ur boss good lor. Haha. Too bad u leaving in 5 weeks time, cannot tag alone to their wedding.another 55 more min to knock off!

end of conversation.
and im still so bored.
50 more min to knock off.
argh!

in case if u are wondering how am i coping with my attachment,
dun worry, cos im still alive.
been living thru working hours of 9 to 6 in office wear and high heels for the past 1 week,
and theres still 5 more weeks to go, 5 more weeks to endure sitting for like 8 hours everyday.
i can feel my butt getting flatter and bigger, i can feel my tummy protruding out more.
omg. will i ever want an office job again when i graduate?

regarding my job, its a tough one.
but i keep constantly reminding myself, its juz 6 weeks and i can go.
1st day was so-so.
i was being introduced to my supervisor who looks so much like the taiwan comedian, dong zhi cheng.
i have my own desk with my name paste on it.
i have my own laptop with msn installed and i can do anything with it.
but all this will only last for 6 weeks. yes, 6 weeks only *psycho myself*
i can juz sms my boss in the morning telling him im not going to office, but go to other places such as school or library to do research. haha. thats wad i did on the 1st day. cos my laptop not ready, and i really got nth to do. therefore i msg my boss, tell him im going to marine parade library to do research and tada~ i left the office at 4 plus.
my task for week was to research on the available outbound activities to sell our product to corporate clients.
its so much like the module selling and sales management, but its so different as well, cos this time round, my target market is corporate clients.
i muz plan out the procedures of the outbound activities using microsoft visio flow chart, and hell, i nv used that b4, and so i had to explore it myself, of cos with some help of my supervisor.
i planed, i gave my supervisor check, i edited. and i've been working on it for like 3 days, and im seriously bored.
now i have to do research on how to cold call, prepare the script for the indoor sales people to say when call calling, how to prevent the pple to say no when we are talking to them.
omg.
and if everything was well plan,
the indoor sales pple will execute my plan.
so in other words, im the boss of this project.
wahha. sounds like im hao-lianing rite?
but who will actually understand my fear and stress within mi?
i know we are there to learn and stuffs,
but im juz a gong gong student frm SP going there for attachment,
and im gonna face and plan this project ALONE!
i dun really have somebody to consult except my supervisor.
but everytime got problem den go ask supervisor,
i scared he will think that "y is this girl so stupid?"
morever, the product im dealing with is IT related stuffs. might as well kill mi rite? i really dun like IT related stuffs and i muz plan how to sell them. this is such a torture!
i've beem facing and seeing the laptop for like 8 hours everyday, and i bet im going to be blind soon.
my eyes got so tired by 3 or 4 pm everyday.
its like, eventhough its juz sitting in the office doing research and planning,
but compared to normal school days, its even more tiring,
its even more mentally exhausting.
i dunno if im complaining or wad....but....thats the fact, thats how i feel every day. i have to drag myself to office everyday, and when i reach the office, i hope time will fly like how it normally does but dun seems slower all of the sudden.
i tried going to the toilet once every hour, and stay in the toilet for like 10 min.
i tried drinking more water so that i can go to the pantry to refill my water bottle.
i tried passing my time and decrease my boredom by signing in to MSN but so scared tat my supervisor will catch mi chatting instead of like doing proper work.
he likes to walk in and out of his room and sudden talks behing mi to freak mi out.
haha.

i gave my supervisor my log book for assessment and he graded mi a 'B' for performance and 'B+' for conduct.
performance a 'B' im ok with it.
but conduct a 'B+' only?!!!
wad the hell.
i start work on the dot,
go lunch on the dot
and knock off on the dot,
but y only B+?
muz be he caught mi using MSN ba.
haha.
haiz. so sad leh. B+ only!!!!

now my new task is to find out more on the legal policy of Microsoft product.
wads the benefits of using original microsoft software.
muz make use of these benefits to persuade company to buy original.
argh.....research again!

2nd week starts tml.
and i hope it will pass quickly too....
cos i only have to work frm mon to thurs! need to go back SP for a marketing competition on friday!
im so looking forward to it cos i miss some of my class mate so much.

god bless mi for the following 5 weeks!

AHH!!!!

9 HOURS B4 MY ITP OFFICIALLY START!!!

OMG!!!

IM SCARED YET EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME.

hope i'll meet good colleagues and nice supervisor!
i know i will,
cos my luck is good.
:)
*fingers crossed*

ITS FINALLY OVER~

AND YES, I MEAN EXAMS!

I KNOW ITS KINDA LATE COMPARED TO OTHERS,

BUT WHEN ITS OVER NOW,

LIKE WHO CARES RITE?

HAHA

stayed overnite at xin's hse
and im awake now!
heez. cant go back to slp when i woke up.

had sakae sushi at funan IT mall ytd after last paper with the usual gang,
including tobs and zL but excluding jy.
didnt eat as much as expected.

and i wanna complain abt smth!!
as we were too hungry, i decided to have andersen's ice cream.
and so, i went to the counter, look at all the flavours and i was like "wow"~ cos theres so many flavours that look so appealing to me.
and so i asked if i can try.
the salesgirl face immediately change. u can c the curve of her mouth straightening horizontally when i asked that qn.
i forgot wad i tried,
but i requested another flavour to sample.
after that huimei decided not to buy, but since i sampled 2, if i say i dun wan to buy, very pai seh rite?
so i quickly decide on a flavour and point to the salesgirl say " i want this"
and u know wad?
the idiot sales girl says with her slanting eyes: "sorry, 1 person is only allowed to try 2 flavours".
omg! like wad the hell?
its not the trying of 2 sample im angry with.
its the way she served and the stupid attitude.
Andersen's is one of the established leading brand of icecream and i really dun think i deserve that kind of attitude from them.
and wads wrong with Andersen's?
y only allow pple to sample 2 times.
if pple dun sample, how they know the flavours are nice?
its not that every flavour is suitable for everyone's taste bud. wad if the flavour i ordered taste like shit and i start to hate the ice cream? is this the way u market a product to ur customers?
maybe, i feel very agitated and furious cos i work in a ice cream shop myself.
and the policy of the shop i work in is to let customer sample as much flavours as possible b4 they make their purchase.
and u know wad, Andersen's ice cream isnt really that fantastic,
and after this incident happened, it affected my tastebud too.
so it really taste like shit.
after she scoop the icecream and i took out $3 to pay for the icecream after look at the menu board for the price.
and the sales girl says with her slanting eyes again (one of this day, i dig out her eyeballs. hahaha)
"sorry, this cost $3.90"
and i look at the menu board again.
$3.90 is the price of the regular scoop.
$3 is for junior scoop.
oh wad the hell again.
did she asked which size i want?
and she made the decision for their customer?
is not the $0.90 im concern with
but...but....u get wad i mean?
they made the decision and u pay for their decision including their sucky attitude.
FROM NOW ON, IM GOING TO DISCRIMINATE Andersen's icecream.

im not petty, its juz that the f salesgirl really got my nerves!
argh!

ITP starting on mon.
whee~ so excited yet scared at the same time.

xin is now still sleeping soundly, i wonder if the sound of typing the keyboard will wake her up.
i doubt it will, cos im ending this entry and she is still sleeping.

gonna get myself changed and go town in 1 hr time.
byebye

给你的第二封信

今天，我再回家的路上，收到了一则简讯。

不知道为什么，我仿佛了解自己多一些些。


我努力地去爱，

但一切仿佛还是停在原地。

到底是为什么呢？


总是为自己找借口，

很不负责任地把错推到时间的身上。

可是，想想看，

身旁有谁不是在和时间赛跑的呢？


我一直都是在那接受别人的爱，

也没有特别地去回报。

心里的惭愧, 也不知道如何去解释

只好用我的微笑来掩饰。


后来，我今天终于领悟到

原来，从以前到现在。。。

我根本不懂得怎么爱一个人。


刹那间，

我觉得，爱上一个不懂得去爱人的女生。。。

真的好辛苦哦。


这时候，我只想对你说。。。

“对不起”

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium.You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

i think my mind is bursting.

im having 4 more papers next week.

out of the 4, 3 of them are all theories.

muz memorise until siao.

omg.

kill me can?

guys, try this out for mi!

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=y2k_cinderalla

http://kevan.org/johari?name=y2k_cinderalla

thanks!

Above is my posting for my itp!!!
its at UBI ave 1
and xin's at UBI ave 3
we are like so near to each other.....!!!!
haha.
but allowance $450 nia
so pathetic!
pple if u free, come ubi find mi ok?
haha.

the company very ulu sia, i nv hear b4 de.....
got to check out their website and they are doing IT software product.
omg.....
i wonder wad am i gonna do there....
this is so exciting!

*think i shall buy bus concession for that period of time.

Happy Birthday to


Wenna Poon.


19 years old only,

stop behaving like a weird auntie.

haha.

anyway, i love u!!


so many kisses and hugs here and there today.
so loved,
so blissfully blissed.
=)

If love makes the world go round........


then February will be a time when people go dizzy.





Happy Valentine's Day.

this was wad made mi so touched and loved when im so stressed while rushing a dreadful report.

i love my frens so so so much!

argh.....my eye bags! i cant stand it! i need sleep!!!!

8 Feb 2006. marks a new chapter of my life.
a colourful life filled with love.
cheers!

click for larger view~

my 1st warning letter of yr 2 sem 2.

cool man~

lucky this is the last week of yr 2.

pls keep this secret from my mum.

if not, i will hold u responsible for the consequences.

thanks

:)

been very busy eversince i come back from shanghai.
haha.
juz finished our PSCM presentation and im really glad that everything turn out real fine.
had alot of new year gathering for this weekend.
and of cos, lots of angpaos!!!

went changi rise on fri nite after work to have reunion dinner with distant relatives.
but ard 11 plus, i went to my grandpa bedroom and i fell asleep leaving the guests outside gambling.

sat, i went TM to watch i not stupid too.
it was a nice show.
really.
i cried cos its very touching towards the end.
it juz feel so good to be able to cry isnt it?
go watch go watch!
highly recommended by mi!

after the movie, chiong down to amanda's house for steamboat and stayed overnight.
had our girly girly tok. *secret*
but wadever decisions my girls make, i'll always be behind them!
cheers!

den today, went str. to woodlands from admiralty.
met up with hx,hm,jy,jw.tobs.qj and pauline to bai nian.
1st station : hui mei house.
2nd station : mr seetoh's house.
3rd station: my house.
4th station : back to paya lebar to accompany jy to shop for some clothes.

mr seetoh house is very big! i like....*envy*

Picture taken @ mr seetoh's hse:




tml itp de placement result will be out!!!
*cross my fingers*
hope i will be posted to somewhere convenient!

10 feb is coming soon!
i miss my mLsaRs so much.
i cant wait for 10 feb!


if nth goes wrong.....
den i think.....things will turn out the positive way.

im back, safe and sound.
enjoyed myself.
did alot of things that i'd nv done b4.
tried doing business in a toilet without door and u can c the butt of everyone else.
tried lighting a fire cracker and ran for ur life after that?
haha. i'd tried those at shanghai, suzhou and hang zhou.
been so long eversince i last had regular meals.
and i think if i continue to have regular meals at china, i will grow fat without fail cos their food is damn so oily and salty.
the hotel sux.
the breakfast the hotel fast oso sux.
the motorists sux.
and people smoke almost anywhere and everywhere including air-con places such as hotels and airport.
try sleeping in a room which it stinks like hell, with the smell of tabacco.
omg. can die.
but im still alive.
the zebra crossings at china is for show only cos the motorist seems not to see the zebra crossing.
think i'll most prob die from car accident if i were to live in china.
people spit anywhere, so if u go china, u must watch ur steps.
tok so much on the bad points, but i still say i enjoyed myself. so contradicting.
i love to go to their historical places where the tour guide will start telling u stories which happen so long ago and the effects and aftermath of what had happened in the past affects their daily lifes now.
so interesting isnt it?





































.
my heart feels so pain now.
and when u cant cry,
sorrow builds up and pile on top of the pain.

someone, pls make mi cry.